The Watcher (Watching Our Mind) and the Body

Initiation as blend of east and west

By Cathy Eck


The Watcher

We let go by first accessing our watcher or observer within — the place where our True Self is watching our thoughts.  Our True Self knows true from false because it listens to our emotions for guidance.  It grants us free will to accept false thoughts, and it releases the false thoughts when we decide they aren’t true.

In the east, seekers of enlightenment watch their minds until they can remain above them.  But often they talk harshly about the body because the false thoughts they rise above remain suppressed in their bodies.  The false self lives like a parasite in our body generating unwanted thoughts and conditions.  If we rise above those thoughts, they continue to grow in power; the parasite eventually destroys the host.

In the west, we adore the body to the extreme and ignore our false minds.  Westerners are experts at projecting unwanted thoughts on to others.  Modern technology calms our minds by fixing our bodies and life experiences (effects) until the effects become too great to fix.

Initiation blended these two perspectives together into one perfect whole.  Initiates watched their mind constantly.  Their body was the effect of their thoughts.  They found their false causal thoughts by following their emotions and letting go.  If they achieved freedom, they were said to have transcended death with resurrected bodies — Temples of the Living God.

They now lived largely outside the illusion (outside beliefs) creating whatever they wanted.  They’d dip into the illusion to assist people who wanted out.  They were in the business of saving people, but not in the way that religion saves people.  They saved people from religion.


Losing the Watcher

When I was young, I watched my mind full time.   That changed as I started to accept the ideas of authority figures.  I knew they were wrong because I felt it, but I wanted to avoid punishment.  By the time I was twenty, I rarely watched my mind; the skill had no benefit.  I started to believe that I must manage my way within the illusion; escape seemed impossible.

Later on, I discovered meditation.  It was very easy for me, but it wasn’t enough.  I didn’t want bliss twice a day for short periods of time.  I wanted it all the time.  I wanted to be in the world without it affecting me adversely.  I had no desire to live in an ashram, and I looked hideous in orange.  So I went back to what I loved to do as a child.  I watched my mind.  I was rusty and had to work my way back to my earlier level of skill.  I had to remember how to discriminate and let go.



Living in Ecuador, for the last two months, took me back to my early twenties when I abandoned the art of watching.  I remember feeling very lonely after I married.  This was strange since I never felt lonely as a child even though I lived in the country with no children around.  The culture and religion in Ecuador matched my husband’s family culture and religion.   Loneliness isn’t about missing others; it’s about missing our True Self.

I watched my mind deliver the same thoughts I heard and believed earlier in life.  My mind said no one cared about me, and I was out of place.  They felt bad then; and they really felt bad now.  But now I understood the role of emotions in discrimination, and I knew how to let go.  The emotions I felt in my body were saying those thoughts were false.  If I had been floating above my body in meditation, I wouldn’t have felt those emotions.  I wouldn’t have been able to discriminate.  Being connected to my body was painful since the emotions were very powerful.  But it allowed me to discriminate and let go.

Once I let go, I could see the cause of the thoughts.  Everyone here shares the same false self; they belong superficially — identical to my husband’s family.  But their True Self feels left out — out-of-place.  They fix their undercurrent of loneliness with festivals, dancing, sex, family, and traditions.  They fix the effect, not the cause.  I faced a trap that I’d fallen into earlier in life as my True Self also had no place in my marriage.  I sacrificed it to fit in to my new family.

Loneliness is like a giant fog here in Ecuador since nearly everyone has abandoned their True Self to fit in.  It wasn’t going to go away.  Eventually, I let go of all the false thoughts as untrue, and loneliness became impossible because my True Self was unveiled; the emotions stopped.

Part of me wanted to fix my friends’ loneliness; I’ve come to care about them very much.  This also matched my mind earlier in life because I wanted to relieve my husband’s loneliness.  That caring made letting go hard; but it wasn’t true caring.  The True Self doesn’t fix other people’s emotions.  The suffering is meant to force us to let go.  Sadly, most people don’t know they can let go.

Throughout history, initiation was an elite privilege.  Lower classes were slaves — too busy wiping the asses of the elite to escape.  Royalty, like most gurus of the east, learned to rise above their unwanted false thoughts by projecting them out on to inferior others.  This became The Big Secret.  But it’s a false-self technique.  Identifying with the spiritual, positive, superior, winning, and good thoughts can trick others into playing the role they don’t want to play for awhile.  But eventually, they won’t be able to hide their negative aspects under a nice-looking mask if we stop believing them and taking on their projection.

In initiation, anyone can watch their mind, anyone can feel emotions and discriminate, and anyone can let go.  Initiation is true divine justice because anyone can gain eternal FREEDOM.  And when we let it all go, we simply are the watcher.

6 thoughts on “The Watcher (Watching Our Mind) and the Body

  1. Ken Anderson says:

    This was an awesome article Cathy. I felt liberation on every paragraph especially about loneliness isn’t about missing others, but about missing your true self. another awakening moment. Thanks for sharing your truth!

  2. Julie Trump says:

    Hey Cathy, You have semi-answered something I have been grappling with, I think. So to clarify: Are you saying even enlightened or successful initiates continue to have false thoughts that could be deemed mean-spirited, unkind, vile or even evil? Yet the difference is that as the Watcher, they, the initiated, don’t believe the thoughts or otherwise get pulled in by them? But the thoughts do continue nevertheless? I am getting skilled at watching, but am horrified by some of my own thoughts. Are you saying these will never go away? I can jsut rise above them? Thank you!

    • Cathy says:

      Hi Julie,
      That is a good question. The eastern traditions were mostly about rising above the thoughts. One sometimes let’s go in meditation, but it isn’t the focus. The focus is silencing the mind. Eventually, if you rise above your thoughts enough, you create a habit. But the thoughts are still there. Even scientists have now proven that our subconscious mind is stored in our body (Candace Pert).

      Initiation was about noticing the vile, unwanted thoughts and recognizing they are false. Initiation was about letting go of those thoughts. The True Self (or what religion calls God) allows us to hold on to any thoughts we want — free will. But if we totally realize that the thought is false, we will let it go. If we are unsure, we tend to hold on — like we might need that belief some day. Thus discrimination is absolutely key. If we truly let go, those thoughts won’t come back. The initiate ceased to have them and lived in peace that could not be disturbed.

      The big difference was in the direction. Enlightenment was an upward thing, floating above the body. The initiate went down into the body and let go of all the thoughts that had emotions with them as false. There is an end to initiation. That was the meaning of Jesus’ life. The crucifixion was the final release of the false self. Then one’s body was a temple of a the living God (meaning of Solomon’s Temple). Hope that makes sense. Cathy

      • danny says:

        Hi Cathy,
        When you mentioned to recognize the thoughts as false, how do you actually do that? Do you kind of saying to yourself “ooh that thought is false, and I don’t want to believe it anymore” or do you imagined vividly in your mind that the thoughts is sort of flying way or going way from part of your body and you say by-by to those thoughts in a loving way?

        • Cathy says:

          That is a good question, and a hard one to answer. The art of letting go is much like riding a bicycle. You have to feel your way to it.
          You don’t want to turn it into a technique or a mantra — that causes the mind to suppress the thought rather than let it go.
          We know we’ve suppressed, not let go, because we see the problem or belief in others rather than in ourselves. That is a bigger problem
          making letting go harder.

          First you have to wrap your arms around the truth. We were designed to be able to know the difference between true
          and false. Our emotions were given to us for that purpose. When we think something that is false, it feels bad. There
          is emotions wrapped around the thought. As I mentioned before, you don’t need to label the emotion because the emotion
          has provided the message. What you are thinking right now is false. I will remind myself of that, and expect my mind to
          hear me. If your mind won’t listen to you, it is because it is listening to others — teachers, gurus, clergy, etc. You have to
          let go of them as your authority over your mind. It is sad, but most people are not the authority of their own mind.

          This info was lost. People were taught that things that feel bad are true. Thus we hear about diseases or poverty or suffering.
          We feel the bad feeling, and then we think that what we’ve heard is true. And that is why this is hard. We’ve practiced ignoring our emotional
          signals. We’ve practiced and mastered using our minds in the opposite way they were designed.

          So with that knowing, you witness the emotion and when a thought arises, you remind yourself of the truth. Your own
          body, your own emotions, are saying that your thought isn’t true. And it is that knowing when we reach it that takes the thought
          right out of our mind. If we reach that point, which can take minutes, or hours, the thought won’t show up in our mind again.
          If someone else brings it up, we won’t feel bothered. We’ll just know it’s false and harmless.

          This is a link to a post that I’ve written about this:
          Hope that helps. Cathy

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