Lately, I’ve felt the pull to do an article on courage. Then yesterday, our fearless take-down-the-globalists President Trump tweeted that we were going to learn about the word courage soon. I realized that my idea was an inspired thought, and I needed to get busy writing. I had some information that would be helpful to others. This article is specific. However, you can apply what I’m demonstrating to any situation.
Before we begin, let me give you a warning. Don’t read my writing like you are reading a novel. You have to read it slowly. When you feel emotions, let go of whatever you’re thinking. I write to give you power tools to let go, and to expose what’s false. When you feel emotions, you generally believe whatever I’m saying. Or you’re judging whatever I’m saying. So stop and notice what’s in your mind so that you can let go. You can’t let go of the truth. So never hesitate to let go. Also, you don’t need to memorize anything I write. You don’t need to learn a thing; in fact, I encourage you not to learn from me. I’m not a teacher or guru; I’m an advocate for freedom.
Pythagoras said that if you can find two sides of a triangle, you know the third side. So let’s do a triangle together for this topic. Fear is the unwanted side of the triangle bottom. Opposite to fear, we have bravery where we face our fear and do it anyway. Bravery is viewed as the desirable side of the triangle bottom. Bravery is what we generally expect from a soldier. They generally have to suppress their fear because they’re in a battle. That’s why they often have PTSD when the battle is over. Their body-mind is trying to let go after the threat is gone. But they’ve never learned how to let go. Sadly, they don’t teach that skill in the military.
Our conditioning, when we feel fear, is to either go into bravery or to wallow in the fear. Going into bravery is done by asserting, i.e., thinking or acting. If we don’t take some mental or physical action, we tend to feel depression or despair, which is wallowing in our emotions. The assertive side of the triangle bottom is the masculine role or mindset. The receptive side is feminine.
You handle each side of the triangle bottom by letting go like I have outlined in other articles on this site. There’s no significant power in either side of the triangle bottom. However, we tend to feel more powerful on the masculine, assertive side. That’s because we generally project our emotions on to the feminine. Only the masculine role can project. The feminine can only receive. But that assertive false power is nothing compared to the real power at the top of the triangle. Either role on the triangle bottom can get to the top of the triangle from my point of view. I teach people how to let go from the masculine and the feminine roles.
Courage is different than bravery. Courage is at the top of the triangle. Courage is a True Self quality, like freedom, peace, or unconditional love. We’re whole in courage, so we don’t see others as our opposition. Courage is the absence of fear.
In courage, we’re in win win for all. This can be confusing until you get used to the win-win point of view. Often the win-win outcome is simply the rejection of a projection. I’ll show you what I mean by that in a moment.
So how do we get from fear to courage? This is how we fix every problem on earth without fighting or war. Courage emanates from the inside out. Let’s say that we feel fear, dread, or worry. First, we have to catch any programmed tendency to go into bravery. We might feel the urge to do something physical, to take action; or we might try to soothe ourselves with some positive thinking or affirmations. That’s avoiding our emotions. Most people want to get out of their emotional state. But as you know, our emotions aren’t the enemy in initiation. Our emotions are ALWAYS telling us to turn inward…to let go.
So instead of going toward bravery, like we’re conditioned to do, we honor the fear (emotion). We notice that the fear is just an emotion…we strip it of its label. The emotion is saying that whatever we’re thinking right now is false. Now here’s where things can get tricky, and even advanced people in my programs get trapped by this one. Our reality isn’t true if it’s coming from beliefs. So we have to ignore reality, and that can be hard to do. You won’t get results if you try to let go as you stare at reality and proclaim it to be true. You’ve got one foot on the gas and one on the brake. You have to focus on your mind and ignore the physical reality. The physical is just the effect of the mental cause. We don’t ever need to pay attention to the physical when we let go and create from the inside out.
When we manifest from beliefs, we create an illusion 100 percent of the time. So most of what we have created in the past…whether wanted or not…has been an illusion. I know, it looks real and true. But it’s real and false. When I was training myself to make this shift, I’d remind myself: “What I’m experiencing right now is the effect of all of my beliefs up until this moment.” Then I’d turn inward and get to work letting go of whatever I was thinking. Then I’d take whatever I got physically.
Now this is where you need to observe closely. People often say to me in a whiny voice, “Cathy I get emotional if I just hear my mother’s name.” There’s a reason for that thought, and it isn’t their mother’s name or their mother. It’s a belief that they have about their mother. Maybe they think that mom is more powerful than they are. Or maybe they can’t imagine talking to mom without a battle. Those are just beliefs to let go. We have to take the focus away from others in initiation. We can’t see what’s in our mind if we are focusing on another person or an outer effect. We’re not looking in the right direction. This is just common sense. But people often lose their common sense when they’re emotional.
The collective illusion has become like a thick fog. People can’t see in it or beyond it. But if you have a bright light, you can see far enough through the fog so that you can move through it. That bright light is a metaphor for our OWN True Self.
If you get to the perspective of the True Self, there’s no fear…no emotion…no confusing fog. You’re totally calm, and you know everything will be just fine. That’s the place of courage. Any action you take will be minimal and easy. This takes some getting used to. People are used to reacting and taking excessive actions.
Let me give you a personal example of courage. My first year in college, I was in my dorm room studying on a Saturday night. I was alone. Everyone else was partying or at a football game. I had my windows and door open. Suddenly I heard my door shut. I looked up thinking that the wind blew it shut, and there was a gang of dudes (looked like about ten) standing there looking at me. I stood up, facing them; fortunately, I was totally in courage. I had no fear. I had no thought in my mind. I asked them what they wanted. They said they wanted sex. I told them that I wasn’t interested and they needed to leave. I spoke in a very calm voice. I said a few more sentences that were inspired. We don’t think when we talk from inspiration. Words just come out of our mouth. Every one of them turned and left.
For years, I wondered why women get raped when I got rid of ten huge guys with such ease. It bothered me. I felt like I needed to figure out what happened so that I could help others avoid such horrific events. But I also wanted to know what I did for my benefit. If I didn’t know how I did that, then how could I do it again? The key was in understanding courage versus bravery.
You can make yourself brave, but you can’t make yourself courageous. You can’t fake courage. You either have it or you don’t. You can let go, however, and then you remember your natural state of courage.
The True Self doesn’t create pain, suffering, crimes, problems, disease, etc. The reason people are so confused on this simple topic is that they have been following people who I call clones for most of their lives. Clones present their belief system as the truth. But no belief system is the truth. You can NOT get to the True Self on a ladder of beliefs. Every beliefs is divided. One side sounds great and is desirable, and the opposite is generally something that we don’t want in our lives. We have to get rid of both sides of a belief to eliminate problems from our lives. People get trapped because they hold on to the good side of the triangle bottom.
I was a 5’2”, 100-pound woman. Every one of those guys was huge compared to me. I later learned that they were a high school football team. They had an intention…gang rape. I didn’t accept what they projected. I talked to them like someone had offered me a slice of pizza, and I wasn’t hungry. “No. I don’t want to do that. So you can leave.” You don’t talk like that from bravery or fear. You will have emotions in your voice. The triangle bottom is never safe. But when we get to the top of the triangle, we can’t help but be safe.
It’s crazy. We all have so much more power, creativity, and control than we realize because people who wanted to control us, and make us into their slaves, hid the information that I’m giving to all of you. That’s why I was inspired to tell you this NOW. We’re in a time of opportunity when many longstanding, collective beliefs are on the surface. We can let go and make great progress toward freedom personally and collectively during this window.
All problems happen within the illusion. And the globalists who have been controlling our world from the shadows have created most of the problems that we see in the world. So letting go will ultimately fix this for all. But it takes time. And you can’t let go for another. We all have individual mental containers and free will. That being said, as we get free and expose the illusion as false, we make the illusion more transparent. So it becomes easier and quicker for others to escape.
The key to my safety in that college incident was the power of the True Self. That’s a knowing. If you look at the Steps, I was in Step Three. I wasn’t afraid (Step One). I had no judgment of those guys (Step Two). I wasn’t trying to be nice and manipulate them (Step 2.5). I was solid in Step Three.
You can’t fake courage until you make it. What if I was in that incident and I did feel fear. Let’s say that I was not in Step Three. That would mean that I believed what the dudes said to me. I was allowing them to create that illusory reality, and they cast me in the feminine role. But I rejected the feminine part in their little stage play. I had the true masculine role. So they were actually feminine to me. And I told them to leave, so they did. We always win in the true masculine role, but the outcome is actually win win for all. It was win win for them to not get what they wanted. It was a false desire, and it would have caused harm in their life in time. Bravery, on the other hand, does not result in win win; it results in win lose.
Now let’s be practical. To let go in the moment when we’re in a scary situation takes practice. We get practice by cleaning up old memories from the past. It’s never too late to clean up the past. Let’s say that I screwed up on that day in college, and I got raped. Now years later, I find my websites; and I learn to let go. I could let go of the false beliefs in my mind that allowed that incident to happen, and that memory would no longer bother me. Sadly, we don’t realize that we can let go of everything traumatic from our past and return to our True Self. So we don’t do it. People stay stuck in their misery.
This is where you find true equality. We all start out in different places with different beliefs, but we can all let go and get to our True Self in one lifetime. Forget that stupid reincarnation and karma bullshit. It’s a choice, and we all have free will; but it’s a choice to be stuck in an illusion for multiple lifetimes.
For most people, emotions build up over time because the person keeps replaying their traumatic memories in their mind. They label themselves victims. They might spice the memory with some right and wrong and good and evil. So they bind themselves on the triangle bottom with layers and layers of second-cause thinking. They also tend to tell their victim story over and over again. Often they want justice or revenge. All of that takes them away from freedom. And then, they end up with chronic problems in their body or a serious disease. That’s not their fault because occultists hid letting go from us a long, long time ago. We’re talking four-to-six thousand years ago. But that doesn’t matter. It’s never too late to start letting go.
In conclusion, let’s go back to President Trump’s message. I looked up the etymology of the word courage and noticed that throughout history, back to the year 1200, the word was related to matters of the heart or spirit. So it confirmed what I wrote above. Courage is meant to relate to a quality of the True Self. Also, the word heart is the same letters as the word earth. We all share the same earth, and our True Selves are connected permanently; our beliefs are what separate us. Having group beliefs is an illusion of unity; it’s not real unity.
So I saw the message as telling us to not believe the reality that we were about to see or were currently viewing; it’s an illusion. I’m telling you to do the same. If you feel emotion about some globalist scam, let go of whatever you think about that situation. The emotion means that it’s false. Use this time and these crazy events to get freedom, not to wallow in fear and worry.
Also, what’s happening in America is not just about America. We all share the same earth. If the globalists are completely removed from power in America, they’re also removed for every country. This is important to me; my North Star is freedom for all. You all are part of that vision if you are reading this. But that doesn’t mean that I can do it for you. I can only show you the way.
Nevertheless, you can bet your last dollar that I’m going to do what I can to make this globalist takedown happen. If America regains its political freedom, we all win. But if America drowns, which it won’t, the whole rest of the world would drown with us.
Of course, political success doesn’t mean that we gain freedom over other beliefs systems, and there are plenty of them. You’ll still have more to let go. But this will be a giant step in the right direction.
So Buckle up friends. We may be hitting some turbulence soon. But anything that causes fear is an illusion. Let go of whatever you fear even if it appears to be real and true. I’ve been watching this closely for five years, and known about this for over twenty years; we’ve got a trustworthy pilot now. So we’ll be landing safely. Enjoy the ride.
The movie “Luce” recently came out in theaters. I saw it months ago at a San Diego film festival event. I wrote this article right after I saw it, but never published it. I do have some spoilers throughout the article. If you want to be surprised, see the movie before you read it. On the other hand, my review will give you a different perspective regarding the characters’ minds; so if you read the article first, you’ll probably see things that you’d have otherwise overlooked.
As I edited this article, I realized that this movie was a great review of the illusion, letting go, clone characters, and initiation…all the things that I write about. The movie is based on the biggest roadblock that we have on the path to freedom. Who is telling the truth, and who is lying? The last line of the trailer sums up the whole movie. “We never really know what’s going on with people.” That’s how it is for most people. But I show you that you can know what’s going on for anyone once you understand the way the human mind was designed and the way it was reprogrammed. Then you’re able to have true compassion for anyone.
“Luce” was a film festival favorite at the Sundance and the Tribeca film festivals. The advertisement for the film festival event that I attended said that the film was about the stories that we tell ourselves and the beliefs that we need to let go. I thought, “Wow, this film has my name on it.”
In addition, the screenwriter, J.C. Lee, was holding a Q&A session after the film. I love getting the perspective of screenwriters. I love hearing about their writing process and learning where they got their ideas. Lee was introduced as the most innovative and up-and-coming screenwriter today. Clearly my expectations for this film event were very high.
Here’s the plot. A black child from Africa named Luce was trained to kill as a child terrorist. Luce was adopted by a wealthy, white American couple (the Edgars) when he was about seven or eight years old. He grew up in a home where he had everything he wanted and needed, and he became a very intelligent and successful teenager. The movie was only about Luce’s senior year in high school.
The film opened with Luce giving a well-crafted speech to his senior class. Luce was decent looking, a great athlete, popular, and an excellent speaker. He was also a star on the debate team, so he clearly knew how to win an argument. Lawyers, i.e., people who debate for a living, make really good liars. They can lie without showing any emotion. Debating is about winning an argument not getting to the win-win point of view or finding the truth. So I’m not fond of debating; it doesn’t take us toward freedom. But debating served Luce’s character in the film.
In his speech, Luce talked of loving the American Dream. He talked of freedom and especially of loving the American holiday, Independence Day. Luce was considered a school hero because of his amazing transformation from terrorist fighter in Africa to successful American teenager.
After the speech, Luce introduced his parents to his history teacher, Harriet Wilson, who was a black woman; her character was played by Octavia Spencer. Luce gushed over how much he loved this particular teacher. His comments were clearly over-the-top. It was all for show.
On the way home from the speech, Luce admitted to his parents that he actually hated Ms. Wilson; he referred to her as a bitch. So we learned that Luce had a nice, middle class public persona covering a private false self that was full of anger and rage. That isn’t uncommon. Most people hide what they’re really thinking in public, or so I’m told. As you can probably tell, I say what I’m thinking in public and in private. Luce was interesting mostly because he was so extreme.
The students in the “bitch” teacher’s class were given an assignment to write about an inspiring leader. Luce wrote about an African philosopher, Frantz Fanon, who believed in the necessity for revolutionary violence. Fanon was an anti-colonialist and a Marxist. Luce was a child soldier who lived by Fanon’s philosophy before he came to live with the Edgars. So he had a very rough start in life.
Luce was a walking contradiction. On the one hand, he loved Independence Day, the day when we celebrate freedom in America. He was clearly benefitting by American capitalism. He had a very nice life. On the other hand, Luce just wrote about a Marxist who would love to destroy American freedom and turn America into a communist country. So for Luce, physical freedom (constitutional republic) and lack of physical freedom (communism) would be a strong triangle bottom. Bear in mind, that Luce’s perspective of freedom is very different from the triangle top that I write about. In initiation, mental freedom is the top of the triangle.
Physical reality is always the effect of our mind. So initiates didn’t fix effects. They fixed their minds by letting go (not positive thinking or affirmations), and the effects changed. When people are wired backwards, and most people are, they think that their thoughts come from whatever happened. So they remain stuck in the illusion. They’ve blocked the exit ramp.
To make matters worse, Luce’s leader violated my precision of language rule. If you want freedom, you can’t relabel ugly things like terrorism with pretty words. You have to let the ugly things go. Fanon used the term revolutionary combined with the word violence. Of course, that sounds a lot better than terrorist. However, it’s deceptive; violence is never revolutionary; it’s always primitive because it’s always win-lose, not win-win.
Luce’s paper was rooted in his African past, so it was very convincing; he knew his subject matter well. It was grounded by his early years of life in a warzone. Ms. Wilson felt that Luce idolized Fanon, and Fanon wasn’t a good role model for him. That was on the surface. However under the surface, Ms. Wilson was picking up the incongruence in Luce.
Incongruence is what we feel around people who are living at the triangle bottom on any subject. They’re always in two minds. It doesn’t mean they’re bad or evil; it just means that they don’t actually believe what they’re saying. They believe something else that would NOT sound good, kind, or socially correct. How can Luce be for freedom and idolize this man at the same time? He has to be in two minds to do that.
We have to step into Ms. Wilson’s shoes to understand her predicament. On the one hand, she’s black. She clearly loves Luce’s rags-to-riches story and wants him to do well. She also doesn’t want to fall prey to any black stereotypes because she’s been down that road herself. On the other hand, she’s holding pretty convincing evidence that Luce could be dangerous to the other students. She has to be responsible as a teacher. It’s odd to be in such a quandary. You wonder if you’re reading too much into the situation; but at the same time, you realize that the old adage, “it’s better to be safe than sorry,” might be the right way to go.
Ms. Wilson felt that Luce could be a potential school bomber. So she searched his locker and found some illegal fireworks. For her, that sealed the deal. She met with Luce’s mother, who took the fireworks home and hid them. She didn’t deal with Luce. She was in a quandary too; without letting go, we tend to end up in these rock-and-a-hard-place predicaments.
Now we have another triangle bottom. Luce’s teacher, Ms. Wilson, was on the suspicious, responsible, overly-cautious side. Luce’s mother was making excuses for Luce, and she was in denial. As you know, the two sides of any triangle bottom will play tug of war; and this was clearly demonstrated in the film. We also have a fake top of the triangle with Luce; he was by no means a True Self. But when he turned on the charm, he was definitely pretending to be a True Self. People were easily conned by his act. People are a lot like diamonds. It’s very hard to tell the difference between a real one and a fake one.
Many people today have very well-developed personas like Luce. In fact, their personas are so well-crafted that people do think they’re coming from their True Self. I call such people clone characters. They like to steal the top of the triangle from the True Self. I joke that they like to sit on their clone throne. A persona can never be a True Self; it will always be fake. The True Self comes from deep within a person’s mind. A persona/clone rests on the surface of a person’s mind. Such people won’t ever let us into their world because they have a lot to hide.
We all have such clone characters in our mind, in our life, or both. These characters want us to think that their mind is unified and true, and they want to be seen as good, loving, and kind. But under that perfect persona, they’re no such thing; clones always have long shadows that are very well hidden.
Clones work harder than a True Self to look polished. The persona becomes automatic; and that’s why people think it’s natural. A True Self is not polished; in fact, the True Self often looks more like a rough-cut diamond simply because we compare such a person to the well-polished clone. It’s easy to be confused. We are like moths to the flame…we go for the bright light even if it burns us. So we vote for clones, we go to work for clones, we study with clones, and we even love and marry clones. Then we wonder why our life isn’t making sense anymore, and we can’t seem to remember who we are.
In the Gold Circle, we work on the topic of clones a whole lot. I can only give you a taste here. People in the program are shocked by the clones that they believed in the past; they were sure that they were True Selves. So they put their beliefs into their mind. I show them the cracks. Once you know how the mind works, clones are easier to detect. They often sound good or even true, but they have divided minds. They speak a nice sounding overt message along with a harmful or unwanted covert message. They appear to shine so brightly ONLY because we’re trained to never see their darkness. Sadly, if you believe that a clone character is a True Self, you’ll see any True Self as fake or imaginary (including your own True Self).
For Luce, Frantz Fanon was still stuck in his mind. Luce idolized this man as a child, and that’s largely why he held on to the voice. If people in the film had known how to let go, they would have viewed Luce’s homework paper as a cry for help. But without letting go, it became the awakening of the beast below the beauty.
Near the end of the trailer, Luce said that people either see him as a monster or a saint. He needs to let go of both of those labels; but if he’s like most people, he’s trying to hold on to saint.
We won’t let go of a clone’s beliefs if we think that they’re telling the truth. For example, Christians have a moral clone; and they think that their moral beliefs are the truth. But those morals are just beliefs. Progressives have a politically-correct clone, and they think that saying the politically correct (PC) thing is good and right. Right and wrong, or good and evil, keep us stuck in the illusion. We escape by using true and false.
Luce was a little boy when he was in Africa. Of course, he thought that his leaders were telling him the truth. We all fall into that trap as young children.
Clones hide their shadow because they don’t like it, and they don’t realize that they can let it go. No one tells us that letting go is possible in the illusion. In this way, we’re all victims of the illusion. You can see the confusion and suffering in this film. It’s actually not that uncommon of a situation.
When people, like Ms. Wilson, expose a clone’s beliefs as false, the clone typically becomes very defensive; they hurl insults or labels at the exposer, and they tell bigger and bigger lies to cover their previous lies. They work very hard to get everyone to believe them and to think that the truth teller is lying.
They think that they can keep their shadow under wraps by fueling their custom-made persona. So they become even more shiny. I call this, putting ice cream on manure. When the ice cream melts, the clone needs to cover the manure with more ice cream. It’s a full-time job that never ends. That’s my definition of hard work.
In psychological terms, experts would label Luce a sociopath; but that ties Luce down. It’s very hard to get free of such a label. That’s why I describe the shadow as the false self. That strips the person of a bad/evil label that could define them for life. Stripping off that label opens the possibility for Luce to exit the illusion. However, for Luce to get free, he would have to let go of his good labels and beliefs. He’d have to lose that shine, and that’s what keeps most people from letting go. The idea of losing their shine terrifies them. They fear judgment, humiliation, banishment, and loneliness. The clone’s goodness (saint) and the false self’s badness (monster) form an innertriangle bottom. We must take out both sides to get free and move to the top of the triangle.
Let’s face it, we all want Luce to become the great guy that he wants to be. But it isn’t win-win for all if he’s incongruent, manipulative, and lies to get what he wants. We all need to mentally earn what we get physically. The one constant law of the initiates was mental cause creates physical effect. That’s congruence, and it’s very rare these days.
After Ms. Wilson saw Luce’s shadow, the dynamic between her and Luce became weird. It makes sense. It’s like she saw him mentally naked. She can’t unsee what she has seen. Luce felt exposed, and clones hate exposure. They see exposure like a vampire views light.
So Luce turned up the volume on his saintly persona; now he looked uber good. He was helping others, buying flowers for Ms. Wilson, and apologizing for anything he’d ever done wrong without actually admitting that he did anything wrong. He was trying to demonstrate that Ms. Wilson was lying. But she was not lying. She was basing everything she said on FACTS.
I’m not going to go through the whole story, but Luce told lie after lie; and like most clones, he was a convincing liar. The filmmaker did a great job of allowing us to see what was going on in each character’s mind, while simultaneously hiding the obvious from the characters themselves so that they look surprised and bewildered.
Along the way, Luce raped a girl, he blew up Ms. Wilson’s desk with fireworks, and he painted hateful words on Ms. Wilson’s house. Of course, others got blamed for what he did.
On the surface, it looked like he was reflecting Ms. Wilson; after all he was her student in a physical feminine role. She was a teacher, which is a physical masculine role. But this is why clones are so tricky. Mentally, the roles are the opposite of the physical when strong clone characters are involved in any relationship. This throws us for a loop. Luce had the mental masculine role even though physically he was in a feminine role.
Later on, we will see that Ms. Wilson was actually feeling the projection of Luce’s shadow. That’s why she knew him so well. I understand Ms. Wilson. It’s how I expose clones. Clones always project long shadows. A True Self, or even someone with false beliefs but no fake persona/clone, doesn’t project. Like real life, most of the people in this story didn’t notice the projections because Luce had such a charming personality.
Luce’s parents kept avoiding the problem. They discussed Luce as they drank several bottles of wine each night. Eventually, the mother was faced with a difficult choice. She must admit that her child was lying, or she must start lying herself to protect him. She chose to lie to protect him. Of course she did that; the movie still had a long way to go. If she told the truth, the story would be over. That’s a good life lesson. When you want to end drama, tell the truth…the whole truth.
Now let’s dive into the psychology of Luce. The screenwriter was basing Luce’s character on a very popular, but false, Jesuit belief that we’re all mentally imprinted from birth to about age seven. The reason they choose the age of seven was partly practical. Most of us are in school by age seven; so we start to use our mind to learn at that age. We start to develop an intellect. That means that we can actually think for ourselves, but we don’t because we’re placed in schools were we learn what others want us to learn.
The other reason for the age of seven is based on occult teachings. The occultists believe that our life is lived in seven-year cycles. Occultists tend to be lunar focused and matriarchal minded; so a seven-day cycle fits almost perfectly into a lunar month. Thus age seven is the end of our first seven-year cycle in the occult way of thinking. It’s all bullshit. Don’t believe it.
What they call the seven-year imprint would be part of our false self in my terminology. The Jesuits believe that you can tone down that seven-year imprint with calming things like meditation, medication, or practices like martial arts or Tai Chi; or you can cover that false self with a nice persona/clone. The Jesuits also believe that this early programming will never go away. In other words, they want us to BELIEVE that we can’t let the imprinting go. This is the reason why religion is introduced at a young age. They want us to hold on to religion for life so that we’ll remain stuck in their illusion. The Jesuits believed that if they can get into our mind before age seven, then they will have us for life.
Of course, I prove them wrong every day. Speaking of clones, Jesuit Pope Francis, i.e., Pope Frankenstein, is the perfect example of a clone with a long shadow. He’s been completely exposed in recent times; and probably won’t be Poping for much longer. But when he first took his clone throne, people adored him. He was so charming, just like Luce. He said and did all the right things. That’s always the signature of a clone. I took a lot of heat for saying that Pope Frank was an actor and wasn’t a good man; I’ve since been redeemed.
Readers of my blogs/programs know that any supposed imprinting is just a bunch of false beliefs that we learned to hold in our minds. We can let go of beliefs by seeing them as false from any age or time period. We can even let go of ancestral beliefs. Early beliefs tend to be harder to let go because we’ve often manifested evidence of those beliefs. Early beliefs are often steeped with psychological reversal. We’ve made the beliefs real, so they look true; but that just proves that we’re good at manifesting shit we don’t actually want. If you let such beliefs go, then you stop creating that unwanted reality.
In my experience, there are no beliefs that we can’t let go. But some beliefs require more persistence and determination to let go especially if those beliefs are collectively accepted as true. Labeling a belief, “the truth,” keeps us from being able to let it go. So the Jesuits are wrong. Their belief serves them and their desire to control our minds and lives. Nevertheless, this movie presumes that this Jesuit belief is true.
The event advertisement for the movie said that the film was about letting go. But that was a statement made with level confusion. I’ve learned that most people think of letting go as physical, not mental. Initiation is, and was, only about mental letting go. The physical becomes the effect of our mind as we let go. Most people think of letting go as divorcing your spouse, running away from home, or quitting your job. Or they think that letting go is picking a nice thought over a crappy one or avoiding a touchy subject all together. None of those things are real letting go. I didn’t see any letting go in this movie. The lack of letting go is what turned the story into a heavy drama or a psychological thriller.
Luce was killing people with African terrorists from his toddler years to age seven. It was presumed that this propensity to kill was still there, and he could not let it go. Psychologists would say that this killer tendency was stuck in Luce’s subconscious. Religious people might say that it was part of his soul. Eastern-minded people would say it was part of his karma. Everybody has a reason for why Luce can’t let go. Their reasons are all false beliefs. They make my job tedious.
Luce could have let go of his killer thinking; it was simply a bunch of beliefs that were not true. He would have had to let go of everything that he learned from Fanon. Luce’s mind would have psychologically reversed to hold on to Fanon’s beliefs and to make them true for him. So he’d have to realize that Fanon’s belief came with emotion, and that emotion meant the beliefs were false. Once he could see his error, then he could slowly take back control of his mental container. Everyone can get free, but they have to want it more than air. They have to be willing to let go of everything that is false, even if they think that it has served them.
The film portrayed this terrorist aspect of Luce’s mind as who Luce really was; that’s why Ms. Wilson and others believed that he was inherently dangerous. That’s reality in the illusion. In initiation, we’re pushed to ask a bigger question. Is that true for Luce? Of course not. We have to be very careful when people say that some personality trait, or mental thought pattern (like transgenderism), is who a person really is. We’re not our beliefs or our thoughts. If such people let go of everything in their mind, they would see that they’re not those qualities; they were holding on to a persistent false belief.
Because of this belief, Luce looked progressively more dangerous as the movie rolled on. This is how people mentally devolve over time. Their friends and family don’t help them escape this fake, mentally-created illusion because they start to expect the worst from the person.
Letting go reverses this even when we have no support from others. I’ve done it. But it requires letting go from the feminine. We have to trust our emotions to get free of such a predicament. However, most people hate their emotions; they want to get rid of them. So they stay stuck.
Ms. Wilson was telling the truth. But people thought that Ms. Wilson was lying because Luce looked so damn good. Ms. Wilson cared for a sister who was insane, and she contributed to making Ms. Wilson look bad. Ms. Wilson also displayed appropriate emotions. By that, I mean that when she was lied to, she let the person know that they were lying; and she was noticeably uncomfortable doing that. Exposing lies isn’t in our nature; it’s hard to do it in a calm matter. In such situations, we often trust the liar because they’re the calm one. But they are calm because they think their lies are the truth…not because they’re not lying.
Ms. Wilson was reading Luce’s shadow. She was spot on. If others could do what Ms. Wilson was doing, they would have all supported her. She was the hero of this story, not Luce and certainly not Luce’s parents.
The story seemed to be loosely based on Barack Obama’s persona. At one point, Luce likened himself to Barack Obama; he took the words right out of my mind. Like Obama, Luce was a good looking, popular, lawyer-like athlete who came from a rough start. Both were anti-colonialists and Marxists at the core. Obama had a mentor as a young child, Frank Marshall Davis, who was similar to Fanon in some ways.
Obama had a great clone, and he was very convincing. He still acts like he never had any scandals in his White House. That just isn’t true. But his scandals were hidden by the fake news media. Clones help other clones; and you end up with webs of clones in governments and other large organizations. Such lies don’t stay hidden forever. What’s hidden will become known because more and more people are whistleblowing and exposing just like Ms. Wilson. In Obama’s story, Ms. Wilson was played by Loretta Fuddy, who knew the truth about Obama’s fake birth certificate. She died in a strange plane accident. At times, I did fear that Ms. Wilson would not make it out of this movie alive. But she did.
In the Q&A, I realized that the screenwriter, J.C. Lee, didn’t see, or he didn’t admit, that the movie was a little too familiar. I wondered if he was like Ms. Wilson, and he had picked up Obama’s shadow without realizing it. It’s easy to do. I used to do that all the time before I came to understand clones and projection. I’d hear the projected covert part of the clone’s message in my mind. I’d think that their thoughts were my thoughts. After I learned to discriminate, I realized that the beliefs/thoughts that I was hearing weren’t true. I was hearing the opposite of what the person said; so it was their shadow. It wasn’t my thought so it was easy to let go as false. I experienced this every time President Obama spoke. He always had an overt and a covert message.
I suspect that’s what the screenwriter experienced. But he thought the projected thinking was his own thinking; he was not alone. Most people don’t watch their mind all the time like I do. So J.C. thought he had a great movie idea. He said that he invented the character of Luce about five years ago…uh that was when Barack Obama was president. Coincidence? It’s just another interesting aspect to this film. It makes it even more fascinating to me.
The screenwriter said that he believed that someone telling the truth would be a heroic act, but no one does that. That was probably why there wasn’t much truth telling in this movie. Wow! That’s quite an admission.
The truth is what sets us free in initiation. The clone-free person is relieved to know the truth. Fear of clones is why people accept things like political correctness or social justice warriorism. Fear of clones is why people try to fit in and refuse to think independently. It’s why they ignore their emotions around others. They’re afraid of rocking the boat. In earlier times, if you exposed the clones in power, you were burned at the stake, tortured, banished from society, or beheaded. Today, we just get our accounts removed on social media.
J.C. said that humans are liars at the core. So Luce was normal in his mindset. That’s just NOT true. It’s not normal to lie; it’s learned behavior. No one is a liar at the core. The further we get from our True Self, however, the more we lie.
J.C. said that he personally faces the type of choices that Luce, Ms. Wilson, and Luce’s parents were making all the time. J.C. was speaking truthfully about the illusion, but that would be false for someone who can let go.
J.C. said that he’s often in a situation where he either has to tell the truth and have a hard conversation, or he must lie and have a smooth conversation. He did admit that this was a short-sighted point of view. I’d agree with him on that. It’s also a false point of view. He said that he picks the smooth conversation 99% of the time. So he has a strong fear of clones…most people do.
Many would call such a lie a white lie. I despise that term. If you want freedom, you must stop lying…ditch all that political and social correctness too. It’s never win-win…never. When you hide what you think from others, you start hiding it from yourself too. Then you just make a mess of your mind. If you let go of your judgments and beliefs, you eventually get to the place where what you think is not offensive or judgmental. It’s helpful and constructive. It’s win-win. At that point, you always say what you think.
J.C. did admit that this personal issue destroyed his relationships. Well dah! But he said that he could not change. That’s sad, but I understand why he felt that way. His teenage years were during the Obama era. He thought Obama was telling the truth, so he became like him. J.C. is Luce in many ways. He admitted that. It’s a common pattern. Someone has a trusted teacher, philosopher, leader, idol, or guru; and they don’t realize that the person they idolized was giving them more beliefs. Then they get really stuck in that person’s shadow; and they can’t see any exit from their illusion. J.C. is not alone; but he’s living in an illusory bubble. That bubble will pop one day; and he’ll have one hell of a wake-up call. It happens to everyone; and it’s a hard moment, but it is the day that the potential for freedom returns.
Telling the truth, going for win-win, even when it’s hard is what sets us free. No one in this film got free. There was no full-circle ending. That’s how you know the movie was based on beliefs. We can’t get to a happily-ever-after ending with beliefs and lies. That’s impossible.
This film was nothing like it was presented to be, at least from my point of view. They said that the film was about the stories that we tell about ourselves. It was actually about the stories, secrets, and lies we make up to cover our asses or to get attention or sympathy.
Then they said the film was about beliefs we need to let go. But no one let go of any beliefs in the film. They just lied to cover up the effects of their beliefs. Or they ignored their beliefs. Saying we need to let a belief go isn’t letting go. Luce’s world was exhausting. He had to manage appearances all the time.
Here’s the weird thing about this film. I really liked it. Everyone did. It was a good film. I was letting go a lot, so I left without any baggage. It looked like cool fiction to me. But others were noticeably triggered. I never saw so many people get up and walk around during a movie. They were flooded with emotions, so they were walking them off. Clearly they had believed clones like Luce; and that was what they were feeling. So I like that J.C. was a bit of an exposer without even knowing it.
Here’s the potential for the happy, full-circle ending. It’s in Luce’s true desire, which we hear in his speech at the beginning of the movie. Luce said that he loved Independence Day. He said the freedom of America meant everything to him. There was his pull to initiation. I call that our North Star. It’s what takes us outside of the illusion.
Luce wanted freedom, but he had this horrible false self. That’s very normal. That’s where we all are when we begin initiation. None of that was Luce’s fault; but it was his responsibility. Luce could heal his mind. I know that. J.C. could too. Barack Obama could too. We all start out wanting freedom but not having it. At some point, if we don’t turn toward freedom, we develop apathy; then we just exist until we die.
Luce thought he could get freedom by creating a pleasing clone. That’s pretty normal too. Luce certainly wasn’t the first to think that. Sadly, most experts believe that lie. Too often people think that they can’t be themselves. They believe that they can’t have their true desires. They can, but they have to let go to get them.
As initiation takes us closer and closer to the core of our mind, we actually stop creating false desires (good and bad ones); it’s then that we start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. We start remembering who we are and what we’ve always wanted from life; our life starts to make sense again. The world around us also starts to make sense. Clones look like clones, and the illusion looks like an illusion. Beliefs sound like beliefs. That’s mental freedom.
This is my last post for a while. I assure you that everything you need to get mentally and emotionally free is on this site and Gateway to Gold. But you have to work at it. You have to want freedom more than you want air to get it. Reread old posts; what you understand will change as you let go. You’ll often think that I changed the material, but I probably didn’t. You changed. Letting go happens in layers.
Challenge your thoughts/beliefs, even if your mind is telling you with absolute certainty that what you’re experiencing or thinking is true. Let go of positive beliefs, not just negative ones. I talk about this in my article on the Triangle Process. As you let go, you’ll answer life’s biggest question, “Who Am I?” But don’t confuse what I’m saying with the eastern practice of asking that question over and over again. My work has nothing to do with eastern teachings and practices. People often get confused by that. I didn’t understand this eastern confusion for a long time. I had to mentor people who had it. Then I put what I learned from working with them into the Gold Circle material. They had what I call a True Self clone, and this was keeping them from letting go. They learned the truth from some teacher or guru, or even studying someone’s writing intensely; and they put the learned truth into their false mind. That blocked them from connecting with their real True Self. Then they read and learned what I was saying like that would get them free. They weren’t actually letting go. They told themselves that learning was letting go. It isn’t. You can’t learn your way to your True Self.
I didn’t have that issue; I had never been a follower. I didn’t even have much of a persona. I could never lie very well. So I didn’t understand what was going on with these people. But I did want to help them get free; I felt that their desire for freedom was sincere. I had to go into their illusion to understand why they were so stuck. That period of research and mentoring others became the Gold Circle. The clone is the masculine part of our false mind that can pretend to be our True Self. It learns how to sound like a True Self, but it isn’t the True Self. Clones confuse a lot of people these days. Most of those popular spiritual teachers and gurus are very strong clones and that means that they project a lot. Religious leaders are also clones who project sin on their followers. Also progressive politicians are very strong clones that project a whole lot on their followers. Their followers don’t realize what is happening. It’s cruelty masked as caring.
Thus people who follow them come to believe that they don’t know who they are when they actually do completely know who they are. They simply took a projection from a so-called spiritual teacher or charismatic leader. In the Gold Circle, I help people let go of the clone voices that they put in their minds, and they start to realize that they do know who they are. I can’t stop these clones from doing what they do. They have the right to do what they want. But I can tell you how to get free of them; then you return to your True Self. You don’t need their truth; you had it within you all along.
You didn’t arrive on earth wondering who you were. You were curious and alive…a True Self. You saw someone walking, you watched them, you took the risk, and you walked. You heard people talk, and you learned to speak and matched words to objects, people, and experiences. Learning and life were fun. But you were never supposed to learn beliefs or get a belief system of any kind.
Recently, I heard on television that children’s brains are completely fired up until they start answering the question “I am…?” They start creating a false identity, labeling themselves; and their brain appears to shut down. As people get older they identify with their beliefs and their belief systems; they really start to shut down. That is the start of what I refer to as the clone mind. But I don’t talk about it much in the free material because it is very confusing. Explaining the clone, and exposing popular clones, required that I put together a systematic way of approaching the subject. It requires people to really want to do get free and not just be casual about letting go. So the Gold Circle was born.
If you don’t have much of a clone, the free work will probably be all you need. Either way, I require that people do my free work first, so do that and see if you are still stuck when you are done. You need to already be letting go when you enter the Gold Circle. I don’t teach the basics of letting go in that program.
That being said, I want to give you one big caution as you read my free work. You were trained to learn and memorize what you read. Stop IT! Don’t learn what I’m saying. I write to expose what is false. I teach you how to let go by using your emotions and win-win logic. Practice what I’m saying, and do it as you read. Read slowly, and stop when you feel emotions; take the time to let go. The more you practice, the easier it gets. It’s a new way of using your mind and emotions. It goes against what you have been trained to do. Witness the emotions until you are free of that belief. If you don’t know what I mean by witnessing, check out https://gatewaytogold.com/meditation-for-the-western-mind/. Letting go can take minutes or days. It depends on how much you’ve believed your beliefs in the past. It depends how feminine you are to others. It depends on how much you believe the clone voices in your mind.
Letting go is easy; the illusion is very complex. Those who are winning in the illusion don’t want us to escape. This project for me has taken a lot longer than I thought it would. I had no idea that I would run into so many tricks and traps, but I did. So I had to deal with what came up; and that is why Gateway to Gold has developed into my main site with different paid programs. However, don’t disregard what I’ve published here. No Labels No Lies is the meat and potatoes of letting go. Keep working at it until you completely understand what I’m saying.
People taught you to see what they saw. You learned there was danger, suffering, problems, and disease. You came to believe that you could get hurt, or you could hurt someone. You learned to judge and compare. This didn’t make sense, but you figured that those who came before you must know the truth. They didn’t know the truth, they knew their beliefs; and they believed that their beliefs were the truth.
You were given the knowledge of good and evil (the shit that caused us to fall). Good now had an opposite…EVIL. You learned to hate and fear other humans.
We see what we hold in mind…what we believe. How do we get back to who we once were? It seems impossible. Their beliefs appeared to get stuck in our minds. How did that happen? We asked, and they answered. They gave us reasons for why we were stuck; and those reasons were all lies.
“You were born sinful.Your memories of perfection are imaginary…visions of heaven. Go to church to make sure you get to heaven when you die.” What a crock of shit! The east wasn’t any better…they gave you karma and a caste system.
Your character was slowly constructed. You learned to be good and worthy so you could get a good-paying role in society and work hard. “Life isn’t meant to be easy,” they say.
Knowledge consumed your mind. Those who memorized the most knowledge got the best roles. They’re called experts. I call them clones. Clones are great in the illusion; they are worthless once we want freedom. Creative thinkers sound strange in the illusion. Philosophers look lazy. Artists starve. Inventors can’t afford to create their inventions unless the inventions please “The Man.”
Your pure thinking and true goodness was replaced by an illusion built of beliefs in which you were judged on your ability to blindly follow. When you got to the point where you feared judgment enough, you turned away from your True Self.
A True Self is labeledevil by false selves. The false self believes that creativity is for people with nothing else to do. No one can see your thoughts anyway; it’s what you do that counts. You conformed, but then you wondered, “Who Am I?”
Maybe you attended workshops, saw therapists, and did processes and practices; yet you didn’t find the answer. One day, you learned how to let go. You let go of your beliefs regarding social protocol, religion, disease, problems, culture, and sin. You released society’s rules from your mind. You realized that others, even experts, had nothing to offer you anymore. Slowly…you started to remember, “I’m a creator. What I think is what I become.”
Your problems came from accepting beliefs and then fixing the effects of those beliefs. You finally knew which way to go. You just had to keep letting go more and more until your mind was free. But it is hard to trust such an insight. No one is letting go. Nearly everyone is learning…putting more crap in their mind.
TRUE and FALSE
The illusion runs on good/evil, right/wrong, or win/lose. The illusion is false…powerless. It’s believed by nearly everyone…but it isn’t real. It’s projected from our collective beliefs. You arrived with the truth, and you didn’t lose it. You can’t screw up letting go. You can’t let go of truth. So you have nothing to lose by letting go, ever.
Holy Shit! You aren’t a fucking sinner. The more you let go, the more you despise competition, oppression, and domination. You’d never harm another. You won’t even judge another anymore. You realize that a true thought is win-win for everyone. No belief system can be true. Belief systems separate us.
MASCULINE AND FEMININE ROLES
You realize that those who have masculine (authority) roles make the rules. The judging God was actually a human being…a false, power-tripping leader who imposed his illusion, where he wins and we lose, on everyone else in the name of God. You don’t want to even play good roles in the illusion — they always harm someone.
Leaders in false masculine roles often look like True Selves because they project their judgments and the unwanted half of their beliefs on to people in feminine roles. You now see and hear the false masculine’s incongruence. The leaders see enemies, evil, suffering, poverty, and disease because it’s inside of them. It’s not true; it’s their illusion…their reality. Underneath their mask is a powerless human who’s lost. They’re pawns of the illusion fixing their own projections. We should ignore them, not follow them.
PHYSICAL VS. MENTAL PERSPECTIVE
We were programmed to see a physically-focused perspective of reality which blinds and confuses us. We look at the quality of people’s doing and ignore their thinking. Sadly, false thinking looks normal. True good comes from a pure mind. When our mind is impure, we can look good by doing the right things; but we aren’t truly good.
LET IT GO
The illusion told us that it could give us what we already were. The illusion only lies.
When we can no longer stand the illusion, we let it go. As we let go of the judgments, labels, beliefs, and knowledge/expertise, we’re left with the truth. We remember who we are. We’re creators who bring our ideas to life for the benefit of everyone. Keep letting go; don’t stop until you get to freedom. It’s your birthright.
When someone holds their beliefs as absolutely true, they become a “fragile ego.” Fragile egos exist at all levels of society. We have to let them break to get free.
Fragile egos send a clear message: “If you obey me, I’ll reward you. If you disobey, I’ll punish.” They’re clones of the Old Testament false God (imaginary leader of the illusion) who believe they’re good people with the right to judge and punish.
Whoever disagrees with them is evil or bad. Their biggest fear is exposure. They lie and impose their beliefs on others in order to look powerful while hiding their belief that they’re weak.
The most dangerous fragile egos wear a nice mask causing them to look like a True Self. They say and do what the illusion considers good; they generally look happy and calm. They believe that what you do, not how you think, makes you good. Good, by their definition gets rewarded. That’s how the illusion works.
But the true world doesn’t work that way. Rules and projection don’t exist outside the illusion, we manifest what we believe.
Underneath the fragile ego’s mask is an emotional storm; their actions aren’t congruent with their thinking. They’re filled with rules and beliefs. When we disobey or say, “No,” to their demands, their emotions roar. They don’t see their OWN thinking as the cause of their emotions. They blame the feminine role because their Adam-and-Eve based mythology gave them the right to.
The fragile ego projects their responsibility and emotions outward. In fact, when we’re conditioned by fragile egos, we often become overly responsible. We take responsibility for their emotions because they claim we’re the cause. We aren’t.
In mentoring, I call the eruption of the fragile ego, “hitting the wall.” Letting go looks impossible. Strong religious, scientific, or political views look absolutely true. Arguing with the fragile ego does no good. The fragile ego repeats its knowledge, rules, and beliefs like a robot. It sees evidence that supports its thinking; it’s sure it’s right.
We only see evidence because we believe the cause. We hold a really strong belief, but it’s still false. If we let go of the causal belief, we’ll see different evidence. When we try to challenge fragile ego beliefs in ourselves or others, psychological reversals kick in. The thoughts clearly generate emotion, they’re not win-win, and they’re taking us away from freedom; but we can’t remember that the emotion means false. Until we routinely catch this in ourselves, we won’t catch it in others.
Our OWN fragile ego consists of voice recordings acquired from others who forced their beliefs into our mind. We did feel emotions when we first heard their words; but we were afraid to challenge them. Their words are NOW constantly squatting in our mind.
After letting go for awhile, we do come to know that the recordings are false. And yet, people tell me that the fragile ego is still running their life. They still behave as the fragile ego would want them to behave or say what the fragile ego would consider socially or politically correct. They still can’t be themselves.
Imagine yourself in the center of your mind; see the fragile egos who have limited your life with beliefs, rules, and knowledge in the periphery of a giant circle looking at you. They’re keeping you from leaving the circle.
Review old memories in your mind. Bring up fragile ego encounters from the past. Let the fragile ego characters slowly replay the scene. Discriminate and let go as they talk. Also let go of any judgments or reasoning that arises in your mind about these characters. Judgment on your part keeps you stuck to them. You might never see them again; but when you clean up their character in your own mind, you won’t meet that same sort of person again. Of if you do, you’ll stay powerful.
You can take this even further. We tend to think that we must change the real life fragile ego characters or get them to stop judging us. But many of them will never change or stop judging. Are you going to wait until they change to live your life? I hope not.
Step into their character within your own mind. Speak their beliefs, and feel their emotions arise when they speak something false or judgmental. Assume they can discriminate and let go, and do so. It’s your mind! These are your characters! You have the power to clean up their words in your mind. In this way, we change the past.
See if this fragile ego still has power over you. If so, ask yourself, “Why?” Let go of the reasons that your mind gives you. Clean up more memories.
You aren’t affecting the real life person in any way — good or bad. When your mind is clear, they won’t bother you. Their beliefs will only affect them.
Our false minds were meant to be creative containers, separate and distinct from others people’s minds, so we could all create independently. We’ve never had the right to impose our beliefs on others. We only do it because others did it to us.
When you realize that you don’t deserve their judgment, they don’t have power over you anymore. When you understand that their rules are false, they don’t apply to you. If they say that you’re hurting them, you don’t take it in. In fact, I’ll often say to fragile egos, “You’re telling me what I should believe; how can I be hurting you?”
Fragile egos can be difficult. But we can get through that wall if we take our rock hammer and chip away one belief or memory at a time. Eventually, we’ll break through their highly tinted glass. We’ll escape their influence without fighting them. When we clean our OWN mind, they lose their false power. They can’t harm us anymore.
FYI: This is an advanced post that might not make sense if you’re new to letting go.
Stuck in Someone’s Beliefs
My blog readers aren’t heads of government, religions, or corporations. They’re creative people who feel stuck in belief systems that were imposed upon them by others. They often feel locked in a feminine role.
The majority of leaders and authority figures (even family leaders) see enemies and problems to be fixed in the people who play feminine roles beneath them. They don’t realize that the problems and enemies they see actually exist ONLY in their own mind. They speak as if the illusion that their mind created is real and true; it is for them. We all see what we believe. The false masculine thinks that its beliefs are God’s laws. It rewards and punishes accordingly.
Our problems began when we believed our first false masculine leader or parent. We began to see what they said we should see. Life on earth has been this way for thousands of years. It will change when we stop believing what others claim to see or know — when everyone admits that the Emperor is buck naked.
Here’s a game to help you escape the feminine role. It’s challenging, and it’s designed to show you what to let go, to improve your discrimination, and to flip your mind back into the mental, True Self perspective. Ultimately, we want letting go to become like driving — it’s mostly automatic.
See yourself in front of an audience consisting of difficult people from your life — people who judge you or want to control or fix you. They can be people you know, authority figures, or imaginary people. You can even invite God. Let them speak one at a time. Allow them to say what’s wrong with you or what you need to believe or be to please them.
I want you to see that what they say is their projection and their own level confusion. Often they are looking only at what you are doing and judging their own beliefs about it. Sometimes they don’t even see you. Here’s an example: One audience member looks at you and says, “You’re lazy.You haven’t done anything lately.” From the physical perspective, they’re right. You’ve been doing lots of inner work. But you aren’t allowed to tell them off, defend yourself, or react in this game.
First, you must recognize that they’re speaking from their physical perspective — the beliefs that form their illusion. Notice how their comment feels to you. You probably feel emotion; remember, the emotion means that what they said was FALSE. If you take that emotion in and defend it, you enter their illusion. You’re powerless because their illusion is a foreign land for you. If you simply let go of their comment because it’s FALSE, your mind stays clear and free.
Take it slow. You might feel lots of emotion regarding their comment. You want to drain it all by witnessing it and remembering why you felt the emotion. Don’t label the emotion anger, fear, or rage. That just makes it real. The emotion is simply saying that what they said was false. That’s all!
You’ve been letting go a lot lately; and it’s true that you’re not doing much physical work. But are you lazy? Mentally, no. In fact, mentally speaking, they’re lazy. They haven’t let go of anything. This is what frees you. You see that they’re judging you from their physically oriented illusion. They’re projecting their unwanted defect of mental laziness on you by confusing levels. A person living from the mental perspective looks like an enemy to someone in the physically oriented illusion. In the illusion, it’s all about what they see!
We all start life at the mental perspective; and as we accept physical perspective projections from others, we fall into their illusion. By recognizing the error of the people who cast their stones upon us, we reverse our OWN fall. Their fall is their problem. Once you’re clear, you’ll have the words to explain yourself to them. Or you’ll feel comfortable not responding at all.
When we’re living from the mental point of view, we’re often asked by people in the illusion to explain ourselves. People in the physical perspective don’t understand the mental perspective. Often the only answer we have is that we did what felt right. By untangling these two perspectives in your mind, you move out of right-wrong. You no longer accept their projected judgment. Their more limited physical perspective will only affect them if you let their beliefs go from your mind.
The trick to winning this game is to remember that what they say is what’s on their mind. You must realize that neither their conviction, emotional projection, nor authority make their words true in the mental perspective.
Don’t go into their mind. Keep watching your mind. See what arises next. In some instances, you’ll notice judgments toward them in your mind; and ideally, you’ll let them go even if they deserve the judgment. If you let your judgments toward them go, you might just get to the True Self perspective and feel unconditional love for them. You just see life from different perspective than they do. Understanding cleans up that gap. You’ll see them as powerless and lost — they’re in the fallen world. You might want to help them, but you won’t want to fix them. People fix others because they are afraid of them. We help others because we care.
Your audience members can leave for two reasons: 1) They admit that they don’t want to let go; that’s fine but they must leave your mind (not necessarily your life). 2) They get it, and they let go. They no longer belong in your audience of difficult people. Your job is to clean out the entire audience. That’s how you win the game.
I tell people to let go and follow their inspiration. However, there’s often confusion around my words because most people think that inspiration and intuition are the same.
I never heard the word intuition growing up. I did hear another word a lot — imagination. “Cathy, get out of your imagination.” No one understood imagination either. We all have imaginary capacity. But most people use it the wrong way. They use it to fuel their fear by imagining problems, pain, and suffering.
I can’t say enough that we’re born to be creators. But I’m using the word creator in the truest sense, where we would only create things that were win-win for everyone. All creating starts in our imagination. We can use our imagination to create our unique heaven on earth, or we can use it to create hell.
I remember the first time I realized that. My husband and I were visiting his parents, who took pride in their ability to worry about everything. Often the very thing they worried about would end up happening to someone. One day, I couldn’t take it anymore; I told them to stop it. You see, when I or someone else reflected their worry, they didn’t take responsibility. They’d say, “Oh, I just knew it.” They acted like they were prophets; and that wasn’t the case. Their worry was misused creative power, and they were projecting it out with a very strong force.
My in-law’s worry confused me because it was wrapped in nice intention. It kind of looked like love or even compassion; my husband was sure it was love. I could see that they thought my inability to worry was a major character defect. My telling them to stop was rude.
When lost in the illusion, we forget that we have an imagination that creates our life. We should all be quick to tell people to let go of their beliefs that cause fear and worry; but often, we feel that we must accept their beliefs.
This problem is caused by level confusion. At their physical level of reality, my in-laws were caring. But at the mental level of reality, they were creating shit in other people’s lives. I was attempting to free their victims although it would be years before I’d understand how to explain letting go. Letting go of our fearful thoughts is truly compassionate; when we see this, we’re on the fast track to freedom.
Intuition Versus Inspiration
So many people think that their fearful thoughts and dreams are premonitions. They don’t let them go; they spread them like viruses. All fearful thoughts are false!
But let’s say a thought pops into your mind, and it feels calm and good. Is it inspiration or intuition? Inspiration happens when you’re exiting the illusion. Inspiration moves you toward your spirit or True Self. To get inspired thoughts, you need to have your navigational destination set on freedom. You want your mind to be looking for exits.
Most people have set the direction of their mind on getting rich, getting approval, or winning; they want to do well inside the illusion. They use intuition. Tuition, you might notice, is a word associated with money and knowledge; in-tuition would be within knowledge or beliefs.
I once took a class on intuition, “Intuition for Business People.” They told us to ask questions and then take what we got as the answer.
What they didn’t teach was discrimination because they didn’t have any. They just assumed that if our mind said it, it was right. Psychics say they do readings this way. They trust what their mind gives them. Kanye West said this is why he runs on stage at the Grammies; his mind tells him too. People do dumb fucking things when they trust their mind blindly. Many even think that God is guiding them — that’s how religions were invented.
I do tell people to do exactly what the psychics and intuitives do. “Ask a question. Don’t put answers in your mind, and just see what arises.” The difference is that I tell them to let go of what arises. Intuitives believe everything they get. My “intuitive” friends never give good advice. Their answers are only useful for those in the illusion. This confused me. I often felt bad for constantly rejecting their advice.
Intuition is the ability to maneuver among your beliefs and knowledge. Intuitives have a good mental database manager that can find the best solution within their limited world view. They do not get original information; nor do they get information that’s going to free anyone — that’s what inspiration does.
If you want to live from beliefs, follow your mind completely; and life kind of works. You keep putting more knowledge into your mind so you appear to have more options for the intuition to pick from. That’s why people become addicted to learning.
All knowledge was once someone else’s inspiration. But knowledge is memorized. When our mind is trained to look to memory for answers, it ignores inspiration completely. We can’t find our creativity.
If you want to find your True Self, you allow your mind to speak; then you let go of whatever it says as untrue. You reduce the beliefs and knowledge in your mind until you’re completely clear. Once you let go of all that false data, you discover concepts and ideas that are original, unique, and powerful. You stop fearing and worrying.
Intuition is like a car with a decent, not great, navigator. Inspiration, however, is like having the bird’s eye view of the entire world. You can see everything; so you make choices from the knowing that you’re creating the perfect route and the perfect destination. It’s only inspiration that will show you the exits to the illusion. Intuition will just keep circling you round and round the desert in a nice, comfortable car. And that car will run out of gas one day.
I never thought much about the notion of hosting until visiting Ecuador for a few months. I considered the woman who owned the home I stayed in to be my host. Ironically, I started having problems with my internet provider during that time; of course, they were my “hosting” company. The odd thing was that my hosting company was perfect until I went to Ecuador. Clearly an old belief was coming up for releasing.
I decided to review my memories around hosting in general. Many memories surfaced, and all were the same situation with different people. I’d meet someone in my home or a neutral place, and we’d get along great. Then they’d invite me to their home where they were the host. Now I couldn’t stand them. I felt as if they gave me food and wine in exchange for the whining that I would endure until I could politely escape their house of horrors. One of these people even said to me, “Now you’re on my turf.”
The host role is a masculine role. The true masculine host gives unconditionally. The false masculine host looks like it gives when it actually takes like a parasite; it gives conditionally.
Host and Parasite
The word host has an opposite or a complement, depending on how you look at it — parasite. Wikipedia says, “The host and parasite exert reciprocal selective pressures on each other, which may lead to rapid reciprocal adaptation.”
Humans shouldn’t be adapting to each other’s false selves. Sadly, most relationships have a fragile quality to them. Everyone behaves like tightrope walkers focused on holding the delicate balance. People adapt to the most fragile ones; and everyone is secretly miserable.
A whining host behaves like a parasite, sucking the life out of its guests. As a false masculine, they establishes the tone of the experience for everyone. The false masculine commands the power and control of the masculine role while also receiving the benefits that belong to the feminine role. Consequently, people seek the spotlight in the home or the stage. They get the power, and they get the attention and/or money too. They often label that win-win. Those of us in the feminine role label it lose-lose. We have no power; and we receive things we don’t want.
My internet hosting company pretended to serve me. But they sent me crap that shut down my computer and websites. I felt that I had to protect myself from my own host. Ah, I was now seeing the pattern. I felt the same way when visiting these hosts — like I needed to protect myself. Since I’m not a fan of wrapping myself in white light, I wanted to find out how I ended up in this situation over and over.
Power in the illusion requires getting others to submit to or follow the leader’s beliefs so they can get what they want. If you look at royalty, they give nothing; they have all the power, and boy do they receive.
Both of my hosts wanted me to listen to their self-inflicted problems and feel sorry for them. I was supposed to marinate in their crap and not hold them responsible. I had to pretend the cause of their problem was a mystery. I had to pretend that they were a victim. As a good guest, I was supposed to follow this social norm. It was time to let that go. I’d had enough.
We generally feel powerless in the feminine role. We’ve been trained that we can’t or shouldn’t get the masculine host to change. But I’ve discovered that when I completely let go of my feminine role in any drama (including my emotions), the scene does change. When I let go of my feminine role in my relationship with the host, I moved beyond roles (or into a True Masculine place from their point of view). Now I only had to make sure that I didn’t judge or label them. I had to make sure that I was speaking truthfully, not grabbing the stage. Frequently, the host would relax; and our conversation became light, creative, and fun. They became a proper host.
If they just wanted power and control over me (or still thought they did), they’d try to see me as the problem — a parasite. They wanted their beliefs or drama validated. They were now feeling the emotions that they were previously projecting out by whining. The angst was where it belonged, with the whiner (parasite pretending to be a gracious host).
I’d often get trapped at this point because they thought that I was causing their emotions. If I didn’t say anything, they’d often say, “Are you doing something to me?” Often I’d doubt myself. Was I the cause? We live in a strange world where we believe we can say horrible things without paying a price. And when held accountable, people blame the listener or questioner for the emotion they feel.
When I encounter new belief patterns, I go back into my memory and replay old situations with my new understanding. I see the memory as it was; but this time, I also let go. I don’t take in what the other people said; I see their beliefs as just beliefs — powerless, untrue, and certainly not who they are. I watch as the situation changes in my mind. It has to. Of course, it’s perfect in my mental workshop; but my repaired memories become my new history. This sets the tone for my future real life exchanges. Yes, we can change the past.
Eventually, in my mental workshop, I saw that the human opposite of host wasn’t parasite; it was guest. The host now unconditionally gave; and I, the guest, joyously received. Ironically, once I did this inner work, my Ecuadorian host fixed up my room. She started to give to me in many ways. And my internet hosting company took responsibility and fixed their problem.
Getting freedom is about living life outside the box that others call truth or reality. Some people just accept the box, and they never give it another thought. They even seem to enjoy life in the box. But some of us don’t enjoy the box at all. We want out. So we try to physically remove ourselves from the box. That doesn’t get us to freedom.
Some move to the country and buy lots of land. They get off the grid, dump their phones and computers, and live with nature.
Others make lots of money. They believe, “Money buys freedom.” Their bank balance causes them to feel worthy. They can go anywhere anytime by boat, plane, or driver. They can buy drugs and plastic surgery to keep their mind calm and their body looking young. They can eat expensive foods prepared by world-class chefs and work out with the best trainers and equipment so they can restrict their body from revealing their beliefs without feeling the lack that us normal folks feel.
Then there are the ones that falsely set themselves aside religiously. They’re part of a group of chosen people. They’re going to heaven; we won’t be with them.
Others separate themselves from the status quo with education or knowledge. They become an expert.
We all want freedom from problems and people who want to control us. We hide from those that drive us crazy.
We try to get free by changing or upgrading things in our physical world or setting boundaries. But we aren’t really getting freedom that way; we’re only getting a little relief from the effects of our beliefs. Running away to an island doesn’t free us. Fixing effects will never get us freedom. But don’t get me wrong. Freedom isn’t about smiling from your prison cell either.
Most people want freedom, but they have a physical perspective so they try to get freedom by fixing their physical reality. Their physical reality is simply the effects of their beliefs. Until they eliminate their beliefs, freedom is impossible; life will prove that to them. The reclusive will be annoyed by a bear who becomes a constant nuisance. The rich person will find his money can’t buy him happiness. The religious will wait their whole life for their chosen moment, and it will never happen. The special diet and exercise will stop working one day. The educated will find that their knowledge is false. The crazy friends will come back in different bodies.
The Mental Perspective
True freedom is a perspective. Freedom comes from within. If our mind is free, our body and life will reflect that freedom. The outer world becomes the effect of our free inner world. When our mind becomes pure, we have no effects that need fixing anymore.
When we let go of our beliefs (our false self), we naturally move into the mental perspective. We can see both sides of duality from this perspective. So we want to have win-win interactions with others. We become truly enlightened and free as our True Self. Our false desires fade away. We become like we were initially, at birth.
What we try to fix in the physical perspective is probably our biggest trap. The one who runs away and hides in nature has a fear of people. Relationship beliefs will keep them stuck even if their only relationship is that bear.
The billionaire’s trap is money. For him or her to get free, they might have to lose it all. It’s too easy for them to fix effects with money. That’s why Jesus said that it was pretty damn hard for the rich person to get to heaven.
If we want to fix our body, then that’s our trap. We have to stop the madness and start letting go.
If knowledge is our trap, we’ll keep seeking more and more knowledge only to find it’s all worthless currency.
The religious and spiritual get impatient waiting for their savior to come or the comet to destroy the earth. They keep looking outside so they never discover their real savior inside. They believe prophets when they have the best prophet inside — their True Self. Shit, they’re the ones they are waiting for.
We can push away the entire world of people, but the crazies will still find us. We all want to hide from those we perceive as powerful. Let them come, but let go while you’re with them; you’ll diffuse their power. They’ll probably leave you alone after that. We ultimately have to recognize that the people with the most beliefs and emotions are actually powerless. When we get that, they can’t hurt us anymore. The one with the least beliefs has the most natural power; that’s why we were forced to submit as small children. Our parents felt powerless around us when we reflected their beliefs.
Freedom is a perspective change that happens from within once we discriminate using our emotions, let go of beliefs because they have an emotional warning that says they aren’t true, let go of listening to other’s knowledge, and let go of obeying or fearing false authority. Slowly, we find that our perspective shifts from the physical view of the world to the mental view of the world. We have the big picture. We see clearly, and we know what path or direction to go in any moment. We aren’t avoiding life; we’re really living life. We’re creative. We know everything we need to know. We live where we want to live, and other false selves don’t bother us. They’re probably afraid of us. We do what we want to do with whomever we want to do it with. The world even seems to support us in being who we are.
Oddly, we don’t feel special; we actually feel normal. We have power, but not power over others. We simply feel like our Self. We feel free.
You just dug yourself out of a big false self trap after feeling emotions and listening to your false repeat crappy beliefs and criticism for days. Now you’re sailing again. You feel like your True SELF.
Then suddenly, you feel that all too familiar confusion. You feel emotion in your body again, maybe even panic or pain. Your mind is looking for reasons. Ah shit! You thought you’d finally made it out, and now you’re right back in the poop soup again.
I know it sucks. But in this moment, it won’t do any good to get frustrated, impatient, or angry. You just fell in to the illusion again, and you have to dig yourself out. There are seemingly endless tricks and traps on the way out of the illusion. You will meet and defeat them all. That’s initiation!
The True Self is patient. It’s immortal. Today, tomorrow, next year, next life…it’s all the same.
But try as I do to get people to just let go and get back to their True Self, they always want reasons for the big question: “Why did this happened to me?” Reasons take us outward; freedom requires going inward. However, giving our mind a logical reason can sometimes help forward movement. Letting go of the reasons you hear in your mind (like God is punishing you) always helps. Here are a few useful reasons that will keep you in the game.
2) You heard someone say something that sounded good, true, or positive (like a teacher, guru, preacher), and you accepted their positive statement without noticing the emotion that came with it. We’re trained to be in our mind, to be good students that take in what the teacher says without discriminating, and so we miss the invaluable signals our body senses give us. Besides, when we get truth from another, it’s no longer truth; it’s knowledge. Let other people’s truth go and find your own truth.
4) You just got competitive and choose sides or needed to win. Freedom is an individual game.
5) You presumed another couldn’t meet you at the True Self level, and so you became something acceptable to them. You united with the lowest common denominator — the one with the most rigid beliefs.
6) You feared the judgment or punishment of another. So you did what they told you to do.
7) You looked for a reward or looked to see if a problem went away yet. If you have to look for results or rewards, you aren’t trusting your True Self yet. Keep letting go.
8) You didn’t trust your quiet inspiration. Instead you followed expertise, social norms, or knowledge.
9) Your mind is saying, “Who are you to do this?” “This is too hard.” “Cathy is a dumb fuck with a big imagination.” “Cathy wants you to accept her belief system.” or “Emotions are bad; I don’t want to feel them.” I offer you one belief that you need to get free: “You can let all beliefs go. You don’t need them.” Everything I write supports that one belief because you need it to get free. When you’re free, you’ll drop that ONE belief because you won’t need it, and I won’t look like a dumb fuck with a big imagination anymore.
10) You saw someone else’s reality and thought, “This could happen to me.” You must remain an impartial voyeur of other people’s lives. If what they’re living brings up emotion, let go of your belief in that potential. Their beliefs are creating their reality. This is easier after you take responsibility for your own mind; you see that everything has a mental cause.
11) Someone said you hurt them or didn’t support them; and you believed them. Only the false self can be hurt; and only the false self needs support. If you need others to support you, you’re listening to your false self. Enjoy supporters if they come, but don’t need them. Let them go.
12) You have direction confusion. You read this blog because you want freedom — you want to be your True Self and live from win-win. It feels good when you think toward freedom and bad when you imprison yourself with beliefs. But a religious person wants to be good according to dogma. They feel good when obedient and bad when they disobey. Someone who wants to win will feel great when they win and like shit when they lose. We set the direction for our mind. We don’t have the right to set the direction for other’s minds. And they don’t have the right to set the direction for our mind.
14) You’re trying to figure out someone else’s mind instead of discriminating in your own. Their mind is their problem. Your mind is your problem.
It’s a Game
The collective illusion has gotten very tricky, especially since the addition of self-help and the New Age. Knowing the tricks makes it easier to win the game.
See your quest for freedom as a giant video game. You beat one level, and then you have to confront a more difficult level. At some point, you win the game; or you die. So what, you just start a new game. If you watch people play video games, this is their attitude. They feel good playing because that’s the attitude of our True Self. Life is a game — an individual sport. We enter into this big dangerous arena filled with beliefs (lies), and some of us figure out how to discriminate and beat the game. The prize is freedom, living as our True Self, and fulfillment of our desires (without anyone else having to lose). It’s a great game — worth playing.
One of the best ways to learn about life is to study stories. Reading fiction, devouring biographies, and immersing myself in movies has taught me so much. But to mine wisdom from stories, we must discriminate between true and false, feel our emotions, and understand roles.
Story writing mirrors what goes on within our minds during the creative process. The True Self is the father and the physical world is the mother; the child is our story (the effect). In order to have interesting stories, it’s necessary to go beyond the purely win-win nature of the True Self. The mother does this by dividing thought without judgment (called first-cause creation or wisdom). Second-cause creation happens when a false masculine role divides thoughts in a judgmental way — win/lose, good/evil, etc. This is referred to as knowledge. A perfectly crafted story starts in the True Self, filters through the knowledgeable false self, and emerges into the physical world.
A story falls flat if the protagonist doesn’t want anything. Some protagonists have a True Self desire like finding unconditional love, peace of mind, or freedom. But other protagonists have desires such as serving their country, revenge, or getting rich. These are stories without an exit from the illusion. However, occasionally what looks like a false outer desire is actually a metaphor for the part of the person’s True Self (inner desire) that they think they’ve lost. Ancient stories are nearly always this way, and companies like Disney are masters of this formula.
If we have a strong desire, we contain the necessary femininewisdom within to fulfill that desire (alchemical marriage). But often, we look to masculine knowledge/beliefs for the answer (labeled as two men sleeping together in the ancient world). Desire and fulfillment are side-by-side until we introduce beliefs/knowledge.
A great story is a dance between unrelenting desire and the obstacles that keep it from being fulfilled. Beliefs give birth to obstacles. The more beliefs we have, the more obstacles between us and our desire. It’s a simple formula. But if the obstacles are too complex, we’ll give up. The ultimate giving up is dying.
One could make a strong case that the purpose of life is to be dropped into a physically oriented world where everyone wants us to play a part in an unsatisfying collective production instead of playing the lead role in our own production. Following authority figures and accepting their beliefs casts us into a role in the collective story; it keeps us from living our story. Until we wake up…
Our unrelenting desire is formed early in our story. Something in life goes off track, or we accept a big belief system; now we have a desire to get back to our True Self. This is called the inciting incident. We might have a huge life-changing loss, or we might have a slow deterioration of our desire until it appears unattainable. When the desire has lost it’s spark, we’ve abandoned our personal story. We’re lost in the illusory maze.
Once we write off our desire, our story changes from an interesting screenplay with a strong theme to a long, dull ridiculously dramatic soap opera. That’s the illusion. We go from drama to drama without any real conclusion. Drama can even become addictive since it relieves boredom; and the illusion is very slow and boring.
In the second act, we meet obstacles created by the beliefs we accepted from authority. We thought the illusion was going to be fun; it’s actually filled with problems and suffering. Our false self was meant to be a creative container, but now it’s filled with knowledge and beliefs. We fit it and even accept what is… UNTIL… we come to a cliff, and our enemy is right behind us — we must j-u-m-p. We must let go in order to live; part of our false self must die in order for our body to continue to live. This is often the theme of a great exit story. Death or facing death forces us to let go.
If we won’t drop our beliefs, we’ve got a serious story problem. We’re stuck in the second act. We’re seeking, which is trying to find something within the illusion that only exists outside of the illusion. Sound familiar? We’ll try to change the illusion’s story to something nicer or create false exit doors. But, only the author of the story can change it; they have the masculine role. We might even pretend to be satisfied, but we aren’t; acceptance is often apathy in disguise.
Take the Jesus story. Christians massacred the real ending, which was that we all find the Christ (True Self) within; and they changed it to Jesus returning. But he never does. Even if he did, they’d kill him because they hate the True Self. Jesus, to a Christian would look like the part of themselves that they view as evil — the part that won’t obey their rules. The people who read my blog have often played the role of Jesus to a believer; and the believer crucified them.
As we move toward our True Self by letting go, we gain the masculine role in our lives. We realize that all the characters in our life are actually in our OWN mind. We must ask: Which characters advance our story? Which ones are nothing but an obstacle? The obstacles have to lose their false power (become supporting cast) or leave the story.
Imagine that you’re a really lost character. You might invent a wise helper character to play with, like Merlin to Arthur. Or you could create a transformative experience, like Buddha. Or you could find the mysterious blog that shows you how to let go of your beliefs and unlock your desires. You see if you’re here, you’re working on that third act; and now you have the tools to create a great ending — a real, eternal happily ever after.
When I was in graduate school, I took a class in psychic studies. I’d just read the book, “Psychic Discoveries Behind the Iron Curtain,” and I fantasized about being able to make better business decisions or being able to detect people’s hidden motivations. In class, we did these creepy exercises where you extended your energy into the other person’s energy field. Then you said whatever you heard in your mind. I felt like I was sticking my hands in raw sewage. When they connected with me, I was even more creeped out. Fortunately, my grade was dependent on how well I wrote about my experiences and not my success rate.
Although, one day we had to guess where our teacher was. He was hiding somewhere in the city. Someone came into class and said to draw whatever we thought. I thought of a giant dick so I drew that. Turns out he was standing by the water tower above. So everyone thought I got it right.
Another time, we had to do a reading about someone based on name only. I decided to go ice skating and write whatever I thought about while skating. I wrote about rats. Turned out my person was kind of a rat, a shrewd business wheeler-dealer. He also had rats in his NYC apartment. But quite honestly, his last name sounded like a mafia name. It was a great metaphor.
Was I psychic, or was I just fucking around and happened to get some things sort of right? I vote for fucking around.
As part of the class, we had to attend a “Battered Minds” group meeting — professional psychics who were stuck in victimhood because they saw a vision of something bad, like 9/11. I got up and walked out after a few minutes. They were all compulsive whiners. They believed every emotionally wrapped thought that entered their minds; they had absolutely NO discrimination. They thought everything was about them.
Clearly they tapped into the collective illusion and saw 9/11 or some other tragic event. But was that helpful? To me, it only proved that they believed the illusion to be true and unchangeable. I didn’t want to marinate in their world view. The illusion won’t disappear until we stop believing it.
The purpose of a prophet is not to tell us the future so we can sit in fear and wait until the dreaded prophecy passes, declaring said prophet right or wrong. It’s to recognize where we’re headed and to drop the thoughts that are causing that unwanted future from the collective conversation.
Psychic Studies 101 was many years ago, and I’ve done a lot of discriminating and letting go since. The ancient ones were right. Everything is mind. The best place for our mind to be focused is on itself. If everyone let go of their own unwanted thoughts, the world would be amazing in no time at all.
Most people are highly focused on other people’s minds. In fact, I’ve mentored people pleasers who admitted that they often get in other people’s minds so they know what to say to please them. False minds analyze and hold onto other people’s thoughts in order to look good, stay safe, keep them in their life, or say the right thing. Our false minds have gotten erroneously connected and intertwined; and that’s why we’re all so damn confused.
Our job is our OWN mind. If someone else’s experience generates emotion when we hear them talk, then it isn’t true for us. If they want to make it true for them, that’s their prerogative. But freedom is about being a master of our own mind; and that requires minding our own damn business.
We were required to experience a bunch of personal readings during that class. I taped them all. A few years ago, I listened to the tapes one last time before I trashed my tape recorder and tapes. More than a decade had passed, nothing in them came true. Nothing! These were professional psychics, not students.
The future that they saw had been wiped off my mental hard drive. They were reading my false mind, and I’d let much of that go. Most of them tapped into my false desires and told me what I wanted to hear. They picked up on my false fears and told me that they wouldn’t happen. They said what I longed to hear to sooth my crappy beliefs. They also gave me reasons for things that were happening in my life — spirit attachments, angels, karma, or past lives. That was all bullshit too. False minds love reasons. But reasons are worthless. The false mind has got 99 problems, and it’s causing all of them.
Intuition is also a false self skill that allows us to work around our beliefs. It’s very helpful in the illusion, but it’s worthless if our goal is freedom. Inspiration is what we want. Inspiration comes from our True Self. It’s usually silent. We just find ourself doing something without much thinking at all.
Quite frankly, I wanted psychic or intuitive power because I was afraid of my future. I’d become accustomed to being blindsided. I wanted advance warning to avert problems. I no longer trusted my True Self to keep me safe. I’d become afraid of surprises because they were usually bad.
What I really wanted was to purify my false mind and take what I got, knowing that it would be what I wanted, needed, and earned. I didn’t want to have a concrete and perfect plan; I wanted to be constantly pleasantly surprised. I didn’t want to see the crappy illusion and grab only the good stuff. I didn’t want to will the world into submission. I didn’t want to know people’s beliefs and say the right thing to please them. Psychic Studies 101 was very interesting but truly worthless. So I closed that door and got back on the path to freedom.
Recently, I had the OWN (Oprah) channel on while doing some housework. The producers set up a help desk where people could ask questions of “spiritual” advisors. Three times, the experts recommended “discipline.” They said it was necessary for success. The first two times, I simply noticed that their comment felt bad and immediately let it go. But the third time, expert Carolyn Myss put me over the edge. I realized that I was looking in the face of a huge collective psychological reversal.
An overweight woman (by expert standards) asked Carolyn for help. Carolyn said, “Do you tend to gravitate toward pleasure?” The woman said, “Yes,” as she smiled. Carolyn responded critically, “That’s your problem. You have no discipline.” The woman looked like she wanted to slit her wrists or shit her pants. “Okay, now you pissed me off, Carolyn Myss,” I thought. I decided to really look at this word, discipline. My emotions were screaming, “False.”
The “New Oxford American Dictionary” put things in perspective for me very quickly. Here’s what it said:
1) the practice of training people to obey rules or a code of behavior, using punishment to correct disobedience.
2) the controlled behavior resulting from discipline.
3) activity or experience that provides mental or physical training.
4) a system of rules of conduct.
Discipline is clearly unnatural; it involves training humans, like animals, to do what an authority or expert wants them to do. It’s key to a society based on good and evil, right and wrong, or win and lose.
Since the disciplinarians are already in the illusion, or they wouldn’t be using discipline, discipline is inflicted on those in powerless feminine roles, like children. Our minds record the voices of those who provide discipline until we acquire self-discipline, meaning we inflict reward and punishment on ourselves.
Oddly, the word discipline is very similar to disciple, another highly feminine role. Well, that made sense. Carolyn Myss is a recovering Catholic; her Catholicism often bleeds through in her books and teachings. The other two men who suggested discipline were M. Scott Peck, spiritual psychologist/author, and DeVon Franklin, Hollywood wanna-be preacher. Discipline and religion are clearly interconnected; both take us toward hell while claiming to take us to heaven.
The truth is that if we’re disciplining ourselves or others, we’re not good, we’re false. Discipline is following someone else’s rules that don’t feel good and don’t make sense to us. We should never have to do that in a sane world. If we’re obeying rules that don’t feel good and telling others to do the same, we’re clearly playing a false masculine role. We shouldn’t be leading anyone, not even ourselves.
In the TRUE masculine role, we do what we’re inspired to do. We provide a vision — not rules. The True Masculine has no desire to discipline others; there’s no need for it. You trust the people that you create with. Discipline isn’t even a word I’ve ever needed to have in my vocabulary.
When led by false masculine authorities, we have to muster up unnatural energy to do what they want us to do in the way they want it done. We become exhausted and depressed. We hate life. Then we discipline those below us (like our kids) because we’re starving for energy and life force.
Discipline or Abuse?
Just last week, someone posted on Facebook a comment about the lack of discipline in kids and how it’s because parents no longer spank. Of course, I couldn’t shut up because children were involved. So I wrote, “People will stop disciplining their children with physical punishment when they call it what it really is, child abuse.” You see, calling authoritarian bullying, unnecessary rules, enslavement, and physical punishment “discipline” makes the unacceptable acceptable.
Discipline produces slaves and obedient citizens, not successful or creative people. It’s a winning formula in the illusion. It has worked for thousands of years because we don’t stop and examine the reality or the real effects of discipline.
Carolyn Myss exposed the whole illusion around discipline when she said, “Do you tend to gravitate toward pleasure?” That’s when my emotions screamed, “Stop the madness. Your are Myss-taken.” She was saying, “If it’s pleasurable, it’s bad for you.” The idea that we’re supposed to be happy while we suffer is the Catholic mantra; it’s not true. We all naturally gravitate toward pleasure until we’re brainwashed to gravitate toward pain by following beliefs that generate emotions.
We’re all born to people who were already cooked to well done in the illusory oven before we arrived. If we could talk, we would have screamed, “Stop! That doesn’t feel right. I didn’t come to earth to see how well I could suffer.” Instead we got disciplined to become like our caretakers and authorities until eventually we couldn’t see the error in the illusion — it looked normal.
It’s not too late. We can let go of needing discipline right now. We can start to follow our inspiration at any time.
Carolyn Myss answered the woman’s question, but it’s doubtful that it helped. She gave her the cause of her weight problem. This woman thought she didn’t have enough discipline when she actually had too much. Her inner food police disciplines her constantly, piling guilt and shame on her food and reminding her that she’s not following the diet and exercise rules for a thin body. She believes the rich and successful (and disciplined) experts even though what they say feels horrible; her True Self knows the advice is false — it’s fixing the effect.
To get free, this woman needs to let go of trusting experts who keep telling her to be more disciplined so she can look the way they say she should look. She needs to stop dieting (which has the word die in it for a reason) and start living from her own True Self.
“True freedom is doing what you want, when you want and with whom you want to do it with.”
I didn’t write the above quote. Tony Robbins wrote it, who is all about money and following excitement. He isn’t living or offering true freedom. But he uses that quote as if he is.
This is level confusion at it’s best. Level confusion happens when people make statements from within the illusion that are true only at the True Self level (outside the illusion). If people did whatever they wanted within the illusion, things could get really bad. Beliefs dramatically distort what we want. That’s why the illusion has rules. Only beliefs can create a rapist, serial killer, or thief. They would all agree that’s a damn good quote.
If our minds are pure, we’ll live as he described. Our doing flows naturally from our pure mind, not beliefs. We won’t do anything that isn’t win-win. Abundance is a bi-product of such thinking. We get what truly belongs to us. We charge what feels right, not what the market will bear.
I watched Tony Robbins on the Oprah channel about a year ago. He was a ball of over-the-top excitement. Following excitement is always bad news. Even Oprah was jumping up and down screaming his affirmations, and she’s a fucking billionaire.
Level Confusion and God
Oprah, award show winners, and mega-preachers all say , “I’ve gotten all of this from God.” More level confusion. Oprah, for example, is gifted in her ability to interview people. But her billions came from advertisers, marketing, and the “O” brand. Viewers paid her with their time watching tons of ads instead of programming. Her billions came from keeping more for herself than those who worked for her. It came from taking risks and winning. She plays the illusory game very well. And I have no problem with the illusion as a game. But don’t call winning the illusory game God’s plan or God’s will. That’s lying.
The same thing happens when people say “God told me this or I channeled this from spirit.” We fall for the trap thinking that their words are better than the words that we think. I know that when people listen to their OWN True Self all the time, every problem on this planet will disappear. I can’t wait.
The reality is that we get money (even donations) from other people, not God. So we have to really look for the highest level of equality and fairness. We all want to get paid for offering our True Self expressed in products and services. We don’t want a handout. It looks like the illusion’s winners are doing this until you put freedom as the goal. Then you see that most products and services hold people hostage or offer comfort for the zoo animals so they won’t try to escape.
An economy is part of an illusion that has a certain amount of money within it. It’s not unlimited. Abundance is thrown around by leveled-confused teachers, but it doesn’t exist within the illusion. The illusion is all about limitation; those who get more than their share of that limitation win at the expense of others who lose.
Like the koala above, we lose our abundance when we get caged in the illusory zoo. When others seem to take care of our needs, we give up abundance, freedom, and life itself. The best example is the monastery. We think monks are holy people, but they’re just cared for people. They give up freedom of thought for a room and a couple of meals a day. Most of the world takes jobs they don’t love; the zoo looks attractive because they fear they won’t find any eucalyptus leaves on their own. That’s just not true; but if we believe it, it becomes our reality.
Speaking the truth at the false self level of reality is false. It has no power at the wrong level of reality. That’s why I expose the false and let you figure out your truth.
Let’s get real! If you need to keep your gratitude journal, what are you? Ungrateful. If you need to focus on the positive, what are you? Negative. If you need to preach about abundance, you’re poverty in a great wrapper (or rapper if you are Yeezus!) The True Self is already positive, grateful, and abundantly wired. False masculine leaders teach us how to fix our false self to make it a True Self clone like them. A True Self clone has a God complex and is admired in the illusion; but it’s unlikely to ever get free. They’re trapped too; they just live in a nicer habitat.
These super false selves are so psychologically reversed that we can’t see their error. We believe they’re True Selves. That’s the problem.
They should feel emotion when speaking beliefs, but they don’t. They think their beliefs are golden truth. When we receive their projected words, we feel emotion like that excited Tony Robbins audience; but we don’t let go or walk away because we also get their psychological reversal. We come to believe that they spoke the truth; after all, they’re successful. We accept their projection and send them a check.
When we encounter beliefs that have been given to us by someone we once labeled good, nice, or enlightened, we generally feel emotions that we might label guilt, shame, or rebelliousness for letting go. Our mind can think that we’re letting go of the truth. That keeps us stuck. We feel like we must hold on to the beliefs in case we need them later on. And this brings us back to one of the biggest tricks of the illusion. It tells us that it will give us what we can only get by letting go. So just let go of these teachers, preachers, and leaders and their inspiring quotes; and you’ll find your own natural inspiration much more quickly.
You left home years ago. You felt that you were now the creator of your own life. And yet, mom and dad keep showing up. You’ve married or dated them. You’ve seen your older kids acting like them with your younger kids, and you’ve even worked for them. You know their beliefs are false; so why are they still in your life?
We have to approach this problem the same way that we would view someone in a masculine role who keeps hiring irresponsible employees, has a wife that shops till she drops, and has kids who are addicts. We have to find out the beliefs that got them in this unwanted situation.
We don’t realize that within our minds both the masculine and feminine roles exist. In the physical world, however, we only play one role. We can’t play two roles at one time. So the masculine role in any situation projects the role that they don’t identify with. This is why everyone wants those powerful masculine roles.
You see, there’s no unconscious mind. We see the contents of our mind every time we look at the world through the eyes of the masculine role. We view others as separate only because they’re physically separate. False masculine projection in the illusion creates false-self connections. Ultimately, the false masculine wants possessions — obedient slaves and fans.
If we’re in the false masculine role, we project the feminine roles necessary to fulfill our needs — patients, customers, clients, servants. We’ll tell ourselves we’re helping them. But we’re projecting crap roles on those who are feminine to us. We can clean up the mess quickly and easily. If the person in the feminine role shops too much, we must realize that we want to buy more, but we hold back. We judge waste, or we think sacrifice is virtuous. If we think our feminine is lazy, we probably fight laziness with our will. We have pride in our overactivity. We see the person in the feminine role as bad or wrong. We would never be like them. The payoff is we get to be good or right if we keep them on the hook.
If we’re in the feminine role, the masculine roles project on us. It feels like we have to wake his or her ass up to get free. And yet, we can’t see how that’s possible. Their judgment feels so damn strong. In truth, we do have beliefs that got us into the feminine role as their reflection. We aren’t victims. But we have to understand how our mind holds the false relationship to get free.
To solve this dilemma, I had to go back to my computer programming days. There are lots of files on your computer’s hard drive. To find a file, you must know its name. Search for the wrong name, and you won’t find that file. Let’s say that you find the file, and now you want to delete it. You hit delete, and the program confirms: “Are you sure you want to delete ‘name of file.'” You respond “yes.” You were able to delete that file because you knew you no longer needed it. The same is true with our minds; we can delete a file when we’re clear it’s useless.
Let’s say your dad (masculine role) was a bigot. You observed his judgment from the feminine role and stored his bigotry under a file named something like, “Dad is a bigot.” Or, “Southern men are bigots” if you lived in the south and all his friends were bigots. Now you think, “I can’t delete that, it’s true. He is a bigot.” No, it’s not true. It’s real. Your dad has a True Self that’s not a bigot. For you to get free, you have to free him within your mind. If you let go of your observation of him, you won’t notice his bigotry any more. It will have the same feeling as talking about banana soufflé. We feel emotions when others speak falsely only if we believe them.
Let’s say dad had a belief that you’re lazy. Determine how you stored the file. I discovered that my mind stored such information something like: “My dad believes I’m lazy.” When you find the right words, you’ll generally feel emotion arise. The wrong words won’t bring up the emotion.
What people fail to realize about letting go is that to get free, we have to free every person on this planet that can generate an emotion in us. It’s daunting, I know. We’re turning everyone back into their True Self within our mind. You’ll realize this when you completely adopt the mental perspective of life. If you see something, and are bothered by it, you’re still contributing to it with a belief.
People in false masculine roles often feel no emotion when projecting. They believe they’re really seeing the other person’s flaw because they see the other as physical only and separate; in truth, they’re seeing their own reflection. If you’re in the masculine role, like parent to kids, teacher to students, preacher to congregation, you’re always contributing to any false situation or problem, I.e., win-lose, good-evil, right-wrong, dominance-submission, etc. The masculine role is always responsible. Just let go of what you see in the other. Don’t take the credit for the shift. You didn’t heal the person or situation; you simply stopped torturing them.
Projection makes letting go difficult, but not impossible. We have to decipher our role to find the causal beliefs — the file name. If you feel stuck, just vent to the wall or complain to your diary. You’ll say the belief. Then don’t fall into the trap of justifying your position; just let go. Freedom requires letting go of our false notion of justice, victim and perpetrator, and wanting punishment or retribution. We all deserve freedom. We’re all victims of the illusion.
Letting go is natural. But we’ve been trained to use our minds in a very unnatural way to keep the illusion alive. It all began with the all-pervasive psychological reversal, the belief that a thought is true if it generates emotions. It caused us to believe in emotionally heavy problems, injustice, war, suffering, and disease. Once we believe these things exist, we see them. Without that psychological reversal, all unwanted things would disappear. Instead of healing the psychological reversal, we try to prevent our fears from manifesting, try to make peace with what we’ve already manifested, and try to release all the emotions we’ve generated.
Therapy and Self-Help
In therapy, people talk about their problems. They go back to their past to understand what happened or to discover why they feel like they do. They justify their emotions or train themselves to no longer feel them. Therapy rarely invokes letting go.
During my early research days, I often turned on the Dr. Phil show in the afternoons for a break. I thought it would support my efforts. It didn’t. It created unrelenting emotions within me. Dr. Phil projects his moral, religious viewpoint into the world — right and wrong, good and evil. He fixes his massive projections on the show. He sees a reward-and-punishment world. He believes the past creates the future. As I moved toward my True Self, my body signaled the error in his divided point of view. I came to realize that Dr. Phil only felt emotion when he was bad according to the Christian definition of good and bad; I felt emotion around both sides of the bottom of the triangle.
In self-help, people put ice-cream on their manure. They get their anger out, or they make peace with their shadow. If you let go, you no longer have anger or a shadow. You don’t need the ice cream. In self-help, people try to drop their ego, but they don’t even know what their ego is. Most are trying to drop their True Self. Trying to fix ourselves hasn’t worked because we aren’t broken.
I can explain anything that happened to anyone in five words: “THEY FELL INTO THE ILLUSION.” Nothing can happen to any of us without first accepting an illusory belief or putting a false self above us as our authority.
Therapy and self-help rarely find the causal belief because they’re focused on causal incidents. They falsely assume that our emotions come from actions, events, and trauma. They don’t realize that our emotions come from our own beliefs or believing another’s thoughts; we start accepting beliefs in our mother’s womb. It looks like we’re born with original sin. We might get the fallen illusory viewpoint early in life, but it isn’t who we truly are. I suspect that’s why babies come out screaming.
When we’re truly free of a past belief, we recognize how we perpetuated it. Every time the belief entered our conscious mind, we felt emotion. We believed that the nervous agitation meant the thought/belief was true. So we ran from it. We didn’t turn and face it and say, “You are not true.” Humans might face fears on the outside by doing dangerous activities or telling their wife they had an affair; but they rarely face their fears on the inside where it truly matters.
Therapy creates comfort in the illusion. When the illusion’s drama gets too hot, therapy cools things down. Self-help helps us win. When we feel defeated, self-help beefs up our will. Occasionally, therapy or self-help cause someone to let go; but it’s usually an accident.
To create drama, we think false thoughts. When those thoughts manifest, we blame others. We avoid responsibility for our minds and creations. We keep our focus outward. We even expect others to fix our emotions.
Mom feels lonely; she wants us to visit. She thinks she has no purpose; she’s not loved. She’s memorializing the past. She’s repeatedly thinking false thoughts that generate emotion. If she let them go, she wouldn’t need us to fix them. The people in our life don’t realize that their emotions are caused by their own thinking. When we let go, we find out how codependent we really were. We find out why we weren’t living our life.
The Dreaded Plateau
Therapy and self-help are attractive because they don’t discriminate between true and false. People often plateau in initiation because they want to keep someone else on the hook, they don’t want to let go of their projections, or there’s a part of the illusion they like. They want the criminal punished. They’re sure their child is lazy. They don’t want to let go of competition because they think it makes sports fun. They love Christmas and look forward to the excitement of the holidays. They want the money their traditional medicine career provides. They love going to self-help workshops. They fear losing their hot boyfriend. All of their friends are Christian. Therapy and self-help don’t put such things at risk, but letting go does. Or so we think…
We don’t have to give up anything outer by letting go. We’re just letting go of false perspectives. We stop wanting justice for illusory errors. We drop competing, not sports. We buy gifts and decorate our house with lights anytime. We become a healer who drops labels instead of creating them. We go to creative workshops instead of self-help. We realize that if hot boyfriend doesn’t like our True Self, he’s wrong for us. We see goodness in all people, not just our fellow church members.
Our false mind says that we’ll lose something we think we need or love by letting go, but it’s lying. We can’t screw up by letting go. We can’t lose. Losing things that weren’t right for us is winning. If something is truly ours, we can’t lose it. And in my experience, if it wasn’t really mine, I didn’t miss it — not even a little. Freedom was infinitely better.