A Brief History of Initiation and The End Result of It

No Matter How Ornate your Mask, your True Self is Much More Beautiful!

My quest to bring back initiation began formally twelve years ago when I wrote the first article on the gatewaytogold blog. At that time, my life changed from freedom for me to freedom for all. Since then, I’ve been on an adventure that no one else can even really imagine. The people in the Gold Circle and Golden Gateway have had front row seats, and they have come along with me. I often tell them that I’m opening the exit gateways that lead out of the illusion, and their job is to make those exits bigger and wider so that others can find them more easily. That is happening, but each exit is a huge challenge. The gateways have been rusted shut by beliefs that people have come to hold in mind as TRUE.

Everyone enters initiation thinking that they are a lot closer to the end of the tunnel than they really are. They get impatient; they want me to make it easier or faster for them. They want me to fix their problems NOW! I can only tell them how to let go; I can’t let go for them. In initiation, you work on a topic and you get that wonderful insight of freedom; you can’t imagine that you’ll ever lose that incredible feeling. Then you hit another topic, or a challenging relationship issue, and you feel like you are starting all over again. That’s normal. I have the same challenge. While the members of my programs work on personal issues, I work on collective issues. Often I’m exposing a collective issue that I’ve never experienced; that’s like decoding a document that’s written in a foreign language. But I work on it until I know it is false; and then I expose it. Knowing something is false is not the same as believing it is false; knowing takes a lot longer than believing. But once you know the difference between true and false on a topic, you never lose your footing again.

My research into the mind and the occult way of thinking started over thirty years ago, but it all really began when I was five years old. My mother was telling me about suffering, and I told her that I would end it with absolute confidence. Around the same time, I picked up a Bible that my mom had sitting on a coffee table; and I said, “I’m going to have to fix this damn thing.” Of course, at five-years old I couldn’t do anything about the Bible or suffering. But I remember speaking those words like it was yesterday. I knew what I came to earth to do. Today I am doing both; I now understand my five-year old self.

Initiation is the answer to understanding the Bible, which is our collective mental history. Religion has turned the Bible into our collective physical history; thus, the Bible itself fell into the illusion as did every other sacred text on the planet. Initiation is also the answer to the end of suffering of all kinds. No form of suffering is true. It is all a byproduct of the illusory point of view or man-made thinking.

When times are good, people don’t give a damn about initiation. But when we run into rough times, initiation is necessary. It is the only cure for the illusory curse. If you remove the “S” from the word “curse,” you get the word, “cure.” The occultists at the top of the pyramid of power know that the “S” stands for the deception of the Serpent, like the snake’s hissing sound of SSSSS, in the Garden of Eden; that’s how Adam and Eve got stuck in the occult illusion. But religion tells people that the fall was caused by their original sin. Do you see the correlation to what we are experiencing today? The globalists don’t think they are wrong for tricking us; they are the Serpents. They label us wrong for believing their tricks. That’s what they did to Adam and Eve. Nothing has changed.

So good, kind people believe that they are sinners when they are not. Religion got clever to soothe the wounded people, and said Jesus removed the sins. But what is sin anyway? Is it mental or is it physical acts? Sin has been translated in earlier times as simply “missing the mark.” It means that we went in the wrong direction. So what? Sin is really just second-cause thinking. It’s not a big deal if someone tells us that we can let that false thinking go. But when people like me say that, we are generally ignored. People feel naked without their belief system. In other words, most people think they need a mask.

The story of Jesus was an initiation story that has been pulled into the illusion. There are so many initiation stories that have been pulled into the illusion by the occultists. That’s why I decode those stories and free those characters in the Golden Gateway. But people can’t use my decodes effectively until they know how to let go and how to discriminate. That’s why I had to do the Gold Circle first. As a warning, don’t put this information into your mind. Let go of the beliefs that caused you to believe those Serpent occultists in your past. Every person reading this article has done an Adam and Eve stunt. Serpents are everywhere. We also call them “wolves in sheep’s clothing.” You aren’t free of them until you clearly see the wolf under that sheep’s mask.

When we are stuck in the illusion, we can’t see beyond the edges of it. So we keep believing lies and liars. We think that we are taking an exit, but we are actually diving deeper into the illusion because we believed some other charlatan who said they had the truth. As we let go, however, we see the true reality; and the illusion comes to look false. Our discrimination returns; and we no longer have to let go manually (like I share in the Gold Circle). We start letting go naturally like we did before the mental fall. That’s when our initiation is complete.

To understand why initiation is so difficult, you have to understand why it disappeared. At some point, the occult way of thinking became very popular. People followed false leaders because they declared themselves to be Gods. (Some think those false Lords were aliens, but they’re wasting their time researching that. It doesn’t matter if the Lords were nasty-ass humans or aliens. If aliens don’t have free minds and we do, the aliens will go away.) In the Bible, that time when we first started following other humans was called “the fall.” It’s when people stopped following inspiration and their True Self. They started following outer leaders who were not true leaders. It’s safe to follow a true leader. They will fully allow you to be yourself. They will only serve to keep the vision of Heaven on Earth alive. They will help anyone who falters. But false leaders were showing up everywhere around the world. This is why you see architecture like the Pyramids of Giza that we can’t build today. We did great things with ease when we were our True Selves.

At some point, we all stopped eating from the “Tree of Life,” and we started to eat from the “Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil.” That story wasn’t about our diet…sorry vegans. Eating referred to what we were putting into our minds. In the Gold Circle, I tear that story apart and fully decode it. The CliffsNotes version of the story is that we stopped thinking from our True Selves; and we started thinking from the false mind, or what I refer to as the triangle bottom. The false mind is meant to be our creative container; but we made it into a memory storage device. So we lost our ability to be perfect creators. Letting go cleans our mind of second-cause knowledge and beliefs; so it reverses the fall. It’s simple…common sense.

Today, occult thinking has infected every subject and every group. The occult indoctrination begins in the churches and schools; but it doesn’t end there. Everywhere you go for help is just another trap door. This is what I label Act II of our full-circle story. Stories are based on three acts; and our life is a story. Act III is when we stop listening to others outside of us, and we start exposing false. Act III of our story is initiation. Initiation means that we go back to what we were INITIALLY, but mentally (not physically). When we achieve our mental full-circle story, we also achieve our physical full-circle story. However, the leaders of the illusion focus on the physical. They cheat so that they can get the full-circle physical rewards without having earned them mentally.

In the illusion, it appears that we can’t get back to the Tree of Life, but we can. Eden was never a physical place; it was always a state of mind. But we must get that state of mind by letting go of what is false, not by adding more false beliefs to our mind. This is where everyone gets confused; and therefore, they stay stuck in Act II. Most people die in Act II of their story. They never get to Act III. They come back again and repeat that same error in lifetime after lifetime.

The entire illusion works on the power of numbers. It’s always been that way. People collectively move as a group with same or opposing beliefs. There are subgroups within the collective. One group is always fighting with another group, either mentally or physically. Then there are subgroups within the subgroups. The illusion is like a house of mirrors. It’s layers upon layers of beliefs. So when we remove a layer of beliefs, we find another layer underneath. For some people the initiation journey takes them back to earlier times in this life. For those who believe in past lives, it takes them back to beliefs they got in earlier lives. But like I said before, time is irrelevant with initiation. Time doesn’t disappear; it simply loses all meaning as you let go.

Today, you can see how the globalists use divide and conquer to keep the illusion alive. People fall right into the trap over and over again; we are programmed to do so from the time that we are born. The soul mind is a divided, fallen mind. It holds the first division of good and evil. Then it keeps collecting second-cause divisions. In Eden, there was only good with no opposite. But once our mind is divided, we hold both sides of the triangle bottom in mind. We can’t fake goodness without projecting evil out; that’s why there are so many wolves in sheep’s clothing. You can’t get back to your truly good nature unless you let go of the whole triangle bottom of good and evil…which means letting go of fake definitions of goodness.

In the illusion, physical cause produces physical effect. That false way of thinking has replaced true and false and mental cause produces physical effect. In true and false, true was all powerful; and false was the illusion…powerless. So discrimination was natural and easy. When we are stuck in good and evil, right and wrong, superior and inferior, positive and negative, spiritual or unspiritual, etc., we don’t have that natural discrimination anymore. We are psychologically reversed. So it feels like we are in quicksand.

Today, spiritual teachers and gurus claim to fix people’s minds. But they’re lying. Now we have the light workers versus the dark workers, the high vibrators versus the low vibrators (that sounds weird), those who are ascending to 5D versus those damn smelly 3D people, and we have the white hats against the black hats. Oh and don’t let me forget that we have the off-world aliens versus the humans. It’s all just more insanity that fuels the illusion bigly. It’s more second-cause thinking that’s being falsely labeled as true.

Everyone today is so outer directed. The experts blame this on technology. But technology isn’t the cause; our minds were outer-directed long before technology. The problem with technology is that we are making technology more powerful than we are instead of allowing technology to serve us. That’s because people have made knowledge too important. Remember, knowledge is what started the fall; the first knowledge was the knowledge of good and evil; and we just keep adding more and more second-cause knowledge to our minds. So how can we reverse the fall?

Currently my websites are having some serious problems. I don’t have the technical knowledge to fix this situation. So I have to depend on the fact that someone else has the knowledge. Knowledge has a limit. I’m sure that there will be a fix to my websites. It’s not that big of a deal. I have backups that I can recreate the sites if needed. But people die of diseases every day because knowledge has failed them. People lose their income and savings because knowledge has failed them. Knowledge is not the answer to the elimination of suffering; and sadly, people think that it is. Knowledge was the cause of suffering not the solution.

People will say that they don’t value knowledge; they use their intuition. They are the other side of the triangle bottom. Every intuitive is very good at scanning their knowledge, or the collective knowledge, to find an answer to problems that aren’t true. Intuition doesn’t take us outside of the illusion. To get outside of the illusion, we must let go of all second-cause thinking and the intuition that uses that knowledge. We move to inspiration, which is beyond words or uses the first-cause words in our minds sporadically. First-cause thinking is natural and will remain. First-cause thinking is always win win for all. Today there are so many people looking for the truth in others when they already have the truth within. We have reached the point of complete delusion as a collective; and the worst part is that people don’t realize that the illusion is false. Someone once commented that the trap of being an American is that you think you are free when you really aren’t. They nailed it. Now that American delusion has spread around the world. People are promising freedom who have not let go of one belief from their own minds. People have come to believe that being able to choose between black coffee and a latte is freedom. Or they think that choosing where they live or what they wear is freedom. We have to get clear about freedom. It starts in our own minds; and it’s NOT floating above our mind (eastern meditation), changing our minds to be positive (self-help), or ignoring our minds by denying what we believe (having our heads up our asses). Letting go is what permanently quiets our minds. But letting go is still just a cute catchphrase for most. They talk about it, but they don’t do it.

When we actually do let go, we enter the path of initiation, which I call Act III of our full-circle story; and there is no turning back. We start to see through the occultists’ illusion in every form; and we know that no one wins in the illusion except for the people who ultimately control the globe. Everyone else loses physically. But mentally, even the winners of the illusion lose; they don’t get back to their Eden-like minds. They get stuck in Act II of their story, so they never get free. They get recycled back into the pyramid of power at the bottom.

I used to do hypnosis and people always wanted to do regressions. I thought that regressions were kind of stupid; but it’s what they wanted, so I did it. Sometimes, they’d find out that they were a royal in another life, and they felt so important. They couldn’t see that the same beliefs that made them a royal in that life made them a complete failure in this life. People label that karma, but I don’t see it that way. People simply flip sides on the triangle bottom until they wise up and let the whole triangle bottom go. If they drop the desire to be a royal at the top of the pyramid of power, they will never have to be a pawn at the bottom of the pyramid of power. You cannot be something that you don’t hold in mind.

As you let go, you come to realize that the way of thinking that we’re all taught from childhood is backwards; it’s not natural. So everyone on earth lives in a normal state that’s not natural. When we live in that false state of mind, we don’t even find nature to be natural. We are even seeing a projected view of nature from our backwards minds. So people will think that nature is struggling when it is not. The globalists see climate change because they are obsessed with controlling the weather; they want to demonstrate that they are better than God. They are insane. Don’t believe them. Nature was meant to be our feedback. We weren’t supposed to be harming or fixing nature. It was supposed to help us see what to let go so that we could remain on our perfect life path.

Like I said above, people are naturally good; so people do their best to soothe their misery and the misery of others. That’s very sweet and endearing, but it doesn’t do anything to eliminate the illusion. That being said, never feel bad for getting duped by the illusion. It happened to everyone of us.

All of us are truly good inside, even those damn globalists. When people let go, they realize that they never did anything wrong. When they did something that they were ashamed of, or feel guilty about, they were believing someone with authority who was lying to them. They didn’t trust their own True Self because they were told not to. That doesn’t make them bad or a sinner; that makes them confused or lost. If you run into someone who is lost in a city, and they ask you for directions, you help them find their way. You don’t call them stupid and cleverly take advantage of them. That’s what the occultists who want to rule the world have done. They view themselves as clever tricksters. But the game has gone too far. So we have to call the game by exposing it as false. That’s the only way to end their false reign of power.

The occultists are all power hungry, and they come with many labels: Zionists, Jesuits, the high ranking of every religion, illuminati, royalty, secret societies of all types, and much more. Occult simply means hidden. So anything that falls under the umbrella of the divided mind is occult. When we have a divided mind, we can think, speak, and act from one side of the triangle bottom; we can appear to be good while hiding the bad. We can appear to be positive while hiding our negative. This results in projection, which is another very common occultist tool. In ancient times, the occultists were called the two-faced Gods. Those at the top of the pyramid of power all projected on those below them; the people with the most followers usually dominated the other occultists. It was all about the power of numbers. Now normal people do that to each other with their social media following. We become just like the people we follow.

The globalists in all of these various groups believe that once we normal people are defeated, they will fight among themselves to become “The One.” They think that there can be ONLY one ruler for the whole earth. But they have divided minds. So they will always meet opposition. They don’t know what they don’t know. They’ll find out the hard way.

By letting go, we can escape the illusion of opposition and pull others out too. We don’t have to wait for the slow hands of time until the collective returns to Heaven on Earth. That might never happen. When we let go, we regain our true power; and the occultists become our minions. The difference is that we will won’t harm a hair on their little heads. We just won’t allow them to have power over others anymore. They can destroy their own lives, but they can’t hurt others. Of course, occultists don’t want to lose their false power. So they have always seen the initiates as their biggest enemy. Said in the microcosmic way, the clones voices in our false mind see our True Self as their biggest enemy. The macrocosm and the microcosm are the same at the mental level of perception.

Occultists love their divide-and-conquer trick. They pit black people against white people and women against men. Now it’s even gay against straight. They pit Russia or China against America. It’s the globalists who got liberals to hate conservatives with such vengeance when Donald Trump was elected. The elite globalists in America don’t like Donald Trump because he knows what they are hiding. He exposes them to the public, and exposure is what destroys their false power. He often puts the globalist minions front and center, like he did with Fauci. He wants us to see these false leaders for what they are. He wants us to stop believing them.

People all over the world see this now, and that’s why people in Europe and Africa and even Asia call Donald Trump their President too. He says that he’s all about “America first;” but secretly, he wants to free the whole world from the globalist tyrants, and he isn’t working alone. But you’ve probably noticed that the globalists don’t go down without a serious fight. So he’s not going to fix this in a day. He needs us to do our part by exposing and letting go of our own false beliefs. The outer collective battle looks the same as our inner battle. So we all don’t see the same collective illusion. That’s what makes this very confusing when we are too outer directed. When we work on our inner battle, the outer collective battle starts to ease up. I call that validation that we’ve let go.

People have been trained by the occultists to believe that the exposer of beliefs is evil. Who does that benefit? So most people are afraid to expose beliefs as false. In truth, it is the people who impose or project beliefs on others that are evil in the illusion. Evil is just live spelled backwards. No one is actually evil. People can’t be evil when we are innately good. But as the reverse of “live or life,” it means headed to death or the grave. The grave is like gravity or seriousness, and we all become very grave when we are stuck in the illusion. So we want some lightness or levity, which we get by letting go.

The occultists even put things on the television like the Johnny Depp and Amber Heard court case to divide us. Or they manifest a fake shooting, riot, or terror event; they want to keep us fighting over guns or no guns, abortion or no abortion, borders or no borders, drag queen teachers or straight teachers, etc. If we keep our nose stuck in the details and believe what we see in their contrived reality, which often is nothing but a video produced to generate emotion, we stay stuck in their illusion. Then we are part of the problem. If we ignore reality, we are part of the problem too. If we face reality and expose the beliefs and lies that the occultists have used to fuel the illusion as false, we are part of the solution.

As you let go, you don’t want to do the illusion dance anymore. But you also don’t want to see people suffer. You are confused because those soothing jobs don’t make sense anymore when you don’t want to believe in disease, law, or expertise as knowledge. In my programs, I tell people to take jobs that don’t require a lot of thinking so they can let go all day long. I call them dumb jobs, but it’s actually smart people who take dumb jobs. So there is some irony in my label. The jobs pay their bills, and they get free at the same time. My job is that way in a sense. If I’m thinking or reasoning, I’m not exposing. I have to let go all day long as I write to expose. I manifested a job that forces me to stay on my game. But that doesn’t mean I’m perfect. So I teach everyone how to let go, and I tell them to never memorize what I say. Just use what I write as a catalyst for letting go.

Or if a person is in something like a healing profession, then they should let go of every disease they see in their patients. They will eventually get to Step Three with everyone who comes to them for help, which is where true healing lives (Step Three is unconditional love). Then one day, they will have no healing business because they will be free on the topic of disease. So they will help others to let go of their beliefs around disease. They will find something else that they want to do for a career. The healer door will close and another new and interesting door will open.

Here’s what I see that others don’t. When people let go of the beliefs that they were sold, they lose the division in their own minds; that division was programmed by society. This takes a while because its part of the fallen soul programming. You can’t fix a fallen soul by making it rise again with New Age beliefs. That’s why religion and spirituality have failed to change the world back to Eden. They are opposites on the triangle bottom. We are removing thousands of years of programming and beliefs from our minds in a much shorter span of time in initiation. Even in the ancient past it took ten plus years to get free. Some people spent their whole lives in initiation; they just wanted to avoid coming back to another fallen lifetime. So any progress is good progress. You will do initiation to the extent that you want to do it. Everyone has free will. I see my job as mainly letting people know what is possible.

What I share isn’t big in numbers. Initiation never has been, nor does it need to be. I’m not creating a group or a movement. I’m helping individuals unveil their True Self and finish their full-circle story in this lifetime if they want it. I’m unveiling creative leaders who aren’t wearing masks. If some of us can get back to the Tree of Life, then everything that is run by the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil (the occult) doesn’t exist anymore for us. But it still exists for others, and we love those others. So we will expose those false systems and eliminate them so that everyone can have freedom.

In an initiation story, the person often starts out as a healer or teacher (like the story of Jesus), but by the end of the story, they drop that false role. They realize that people don’t need to learn, nor do they need to be fixed. They just need to free their minds.

In initiation, we don’t need support from others to let go; but it sure is nice. Initiation can get lonely and boring if you don’t have a little company from time to time. But when you are someone who is helping people get free of the illusion, you become a threat to the people who want to keep it alive. That’s the crucifixion part of Jesus’s story. That’s where he lets go of the last clone character in his mind; and then he is a free man with the resurrection. It’s all clear when decoded.

Those who benefit by the typical backwards mindset are doing everything possible to keep this quiet. They have a lot to lose…or so they think. So they are confusing everyone today to keep their power. Discrimination is what allows us to see through their confusion tricks. In the illusion today, people don’t know who is good and who is trying to kill them. People don’t even know if they are men or women. There is a school in America that supposedly has a litter box in the bathroom because some kid in the school identifies as a furry…a cat. This is what happens when people only add to their minds and can’t let go.

The globalists have it far too easy. They are also good at lying, but only because they’ve come to believe their own lies. Then people believe them, and they get what they want. They only do their magick tricks because they work. They think that whatever is in their mind is true; they don’t discriminate. That’s why we must get rid of the globalist within our own mind. Our inner globalist is any part of our mind that believes something that is second cause. Jesus said it perfectly when he told us to take the mote out of our own eye first. Michael Jackson said it beautifully when he told us to work on the “Man in the Mirror.” Nearly everything that is in our minds is false. So when we persist, we eventually get to a quiet, peaceful mind. It’s not rocket science; it’s common sense.

So when I push people by exposing beliefs (or programming), there is always a push back at first from the people who held those beliefs in mind as true. Their clones want to keep their thrones. I feel it, and I have let go and stay in that infamous Step Three. That’s not easy. I have to stay in non-judgment and unconditional love even when they are doing their best to stop me. I’m not perfect with it. Try becoming feminine to someone powerful and letting go of everything they project. It’s like mentally climbing Mount Everest. If I lose that Step Three perception, I have to let go until I get it back. I don’t quit when I lose Step Three in initiation. I just go with whatever step I am on (generally Step One) and start moving back up the steps again. Fortunately, I don’t have a mind that does Step Two or 2.5, which is why I move back to the top of the triangle pretty quickly again.

When I’m back on Step Three, I always expose what I’ve let go to get there. That’s why whatever I write is original. Nothing I write is channeled. This article is an exposure of what I’m working on today. It’s what is being projected with regard to my websites.

In order to have freedom for all, everything that is hidden by the occult must be revealed. As I say in the Three Steps, when we soothe our minds with what I call Step 2.5 (popular among New Agers and people into self-help), we are hiding judgment underneath that pretty mask. So our mask might look beautiful on the outside, but it is only there to hide the ugly underneath it. Another word for mask is persona or “managing appearances.” Of course, psychologists have dealt with that, or so they think; they say that we hide our ugly shadow in our unconscious. Initiation is the cure for the unconscious mind. We have nothing to hide when we let go. So we don’t need an unconscious.

Right now, we are facing something collectively that I’ve tried to shift many times. But the pushback is always huge. Usually when I get to Step Three on a topic, it changes in the blink of an eye. But this time it isn’t switching because I’m still getting the pushback on this issue. This issue is the very thing that we all want most…love. But there is conditional and unconditional love. Love includes things like romance, chemistry, and lust. Those things are conditional love among souls with opposing polarities. I have discussed this as it relates to the path of Venus and the apple. I suggest that you read that article again. It’s exposing the occultists as the two-points up view of the five-pointed star (or what is known as Satan by the religious). The one-point up perspective is like the top of the triangle; that’s where we become unconditional love. The journey from two-points up love to one-point up unconditional love is the path of initiation in a nutshell.

You see, true unconditional love is the greatest power in the universe. It is our creative power. It’s the essence of our True Self. But occult creating, which includes things like positive thinking, positive emotions, visualization, memorization, energy movement, all spiritual practices, witchcraft, beliefs, medicine and all healing techniques, psychics and channels, special diets, word spells, astrology, tarot, expert knowledge, techniques for winning arguments, domination techniques, war games, etc., wants to stay alive. That’s how people get their false desires within the illusion. They give up true love and their true desires for false desires; and then they become lustful and overly sexual, which is why there’s so much pedophilia, porn, and sex addiction today. Such things are the effect of the two-points up conditional love, which is love that comes from the second-cause mindset.

People talk about unconditional love. But most people don’t live it. They can’t get to the top of the triangle without letting go. If they did let go and got to the top of the triangle, their problems would go away. I prove that all the time. However, the occult have tried to convince people that conditional love is the most powerful love. They call judgment discrimination and vice versa; they call that tough love. There is no such thing. In the end, unconditional love will win over conditional love.

But in a world of unconditional love, everyone has to give everyone else freedom to live as they want. Are you okay with that? I always ask people what they aren’t willing to give up. Often the answer is a person, a job, a relationship, a belief system, a practice, a pet, a home, etc. They don’t trust their True Self because they can’t remember their true desires. They don’t trust unconditional love. Hanging on to and controlling others is never unconditional love. It’s manipulation; it’s like that Serpent in the Garden of Eden.

Unconditional love starts in our mind; it means that we drop all expectations and desires that another person think like us or act like us. We stop wanting to receive from others, and we start giving mentally by letting go of every judgment we have of everyone in our life and eventually the entire collective illusion. Unconditional love is what causes the illusion to disappear. That’s why a true full-circle story always ends with the person finding unconditional love.

If another person only wanted to be in our life so that they could project on us, and we get back to unconditional love with them, they will often disappear for a while. That’s okay. We welcome them back when they decide to stop projecting and want join us in unconditional love. We might close the door, but we don’t lock it. Everyone will join the initiation train in time, but most will wait until it gets a lot easier.

So people might hate the illusion when it doesn’t work for them. But they have habits of thinking and the desire for approval or control that keeps them stuck in it. They want love, but they don’t want to be the first person to give unconditional love. It’s a funny thing with unconditional love, when we get there, we see what is behind the masks that everyone is wearing. That’s why those with big clone masks run away from us. They are afraid that we will see the secrets and lies that they are hiding. They don’t realize that we don’t even care what they are hiding. We just want to stop playing games with them.

If we suddenly returned to the Eden-like point of view tomorrow, people that we trusted and loved would suddenly not look so good. Those movie stars that we thought had it all would look like programmed robots. Every secret and lie that has been hidden would be revealed in the twinkling of an eye. This the real meaning of the apocalypse. People think of the apocalypse in a physical way today (as physical destruction); but if you go back to the Greek and Latin, it means to uncover. It means to remove the masks and reveal all the lies. That is what is happening today.

The masks are coming off of the people in power. But we have to stop believing their occult ways and thoughts when we see what they were hiding. Too often, I’m noticing that people are taking what the occultists were hiding and making it into their new beliefs. They want the power of the occultists; and that is a trap. This is why the illusion has lasted so long and has become so powerful once again. People think that the fake powers of the occult are true powers. I call that level confusion.

When I work with people, I tell them that anything can be solved in a relationship if we just keep putting all of our cards on the table. I mean that. Lying and keeping secrets never solved any relationship issue. All suffering on this planet started with a simple lie; and that lie has snowballed into an avalanche of lies. We know when someone is lying; we are hard-wired to feel emotion when we hear or think lies. But then we even made it mean to expose a lie or a secret. If you really love someone, put your cards on the table and tell them everything that you are hiding. Show them unconditional love and trust. That frees the relationship. That’s how you get a new beginning. If they can’t go there with you, you were wasting your time on that relationship anyway. It was bondage, not freedom.

Years ago, I painted the mask at the top of this article; and I wrote: “No matter how ornate your mask, your True Self is much more beautiful.” That became my North Star for what I do, and now we are on the cusp of that revelation or uncovering…the apocalypse. Initiation is about taking off our mask on our own terms; because if we don’t remove it, someone will rip the fucking thing off of us in time. The True Self will win the illusion game in the end. I can assure you of that.

There have been times when great things happened on earth; we see proof of that in ancient architecture that’s still standing today. During those times, there was a true leader. People were letting go of beliefs and rules because that was natural under a true leader’s vision. We were born knowing how to let go. But those times didn’t last because the occultists started working on a new plan to defeat us using their same old tricks. They gave people beliefs and false desires again just like the Serpent from thousands of years ago; and people started to follow them again. They turned away from the true leader because the false leader offered them freebies and the appearance of security or leisure time. Does that sound familiar?

The occultists gain lots of power once numbers of believers follow them. They don’t care what side of the occult the people are on because they sit above them on the clone throne. They don’t fight in the wars, they cause them and make money off of them. Over time, the illusion becomes very strong, it often looks like the end is near. We think that this time the occult will win. But they never do. However, they do change history so that we don’t know that they lost in the last apocalypse. When decoded the stories all say that the True Self wins in the end.

I know that I will win this battle, and my websites will come back. Maybe they will be in a different form, who knows. Let me assure you that a lot of very good things have happened during these seeming days of darkness where my sites have been up and down. Someone once said, “It is always darkest just before dawn.” When you want to quit letting go, just let go of one more thought and one more thought. Bringing about the end of suffering and unconditional love isn’t easy for any of us. So those of us who can let go have to do the heavy lifting right now. Nothing else can bring Heaven back to EARTH (note that EARTH and HEART share the same letters). Earth was meant to be a planet of unconditional love. Unconditional love produces effects that are win win for all. Unconditional love is a power that includes freedom, joy, peace, and health for all. I don’t know how to do anything else, and I’m not going to disappoint my five-year old self. So we’ll ride this wave until the seas become calm again.

The waiting that has been happening in the illusion has been trying for nearly everyone. People feel confused; they feel more than ever that they have lost security and comfort. They fear that their money will run out. Their fear of disease is at an all time high. They don’t know if the things they have depended on and the people they love will be there tomorrow. It’s a crazy time. They ask for help, and no has the answer. They pray for help, and no one answers their prayer. That’s what initiation looks like. What worked for us in the past no longer works. So we have to let go of our old ways of thinking so that new ideas can arise.

I do think that enough people see through the globalists, and they will soon become a memory. But that doesn’t mean that the earth is free of their way of thinking forever. The occult way of thinking will still be there; the Serpent will still work overtime to pull us into the next illusion with false promises. We have to become immune to such trickery. The occult way of thinking will be there until we decide that we aren’t settling for anything less than pure unconditional love. In ancient Egypt, there was a drawing of something called the “weighing of the heart ceremony.” I have a reproduction of it in my home. I love it because it is the secret to life in one very simple drawing. But it has been very wrongly interpreted by most people. It meant that only an initiate with a heart as light as a feather, meaning no second-cause beliefs and no judgment, was destined to lead. When that leader was in power as the visionary, earth would be like the field of reeds, or Heaven on Earth. It would be a creative paradise.

Past, Present, and Future: Living Beyond Second-Cause Time

This article is a good example of the kind of topics that I expose in the Gold Circle. There is no topic under the sun that has not been level confused. So I expose every topic…nothing is off limits. Once you can see the collective level confusion for any subject, it is so much easier to let go of your personal beliefs.

When my websites started having problems recently, I started letting go. The problems always come from something that needs to be exposed for people to get free. There are no coincidences in my life or my work. Once I exposed the false beliefs or programming, the websites would come back up. Lately, I’ve had a lot of website issues; and this is just one of the things that I’ve exposed during that time. I never stop letting go; and if I see a false belief or program, I write about it. As I’m getting to the end of exposing all the tricks and traps in the revised Gold Circle and the Golden Gateway programs, the false voices in people’s minds are fighting for dear life. So they pull out their most precious tricks and use them on me. They never win; and they become the star of my next article.

In the original Gold Circle, I put myself in the feminine role to everyone.  I also did that when I felt that someone was really stuck.  They projected what was happening on to me.  Then I could reveal the causal beliefs that were keeping them stuck.  That wasn’t fun, but I honestly didn’t know why people were stuck.  I didn’t know why they couldn’t let go.  I reasoned that if I could let go, it seemed like they should be able to as well.  Projection is a hazard of this job, and sometimes I have temporary problems when I don’t catch the projections right away.

The answer to why the people in the original Gold Circle couldn’t let go was always a clone character in their minds.  They had a voice in their mind that they thought was telling the truth (or was their True Self); but it was actually speaking from beliefs that sounded true. When they read my “do-it-yourself” articles, they didn’t understand what I said because that clone character in their mind learned or memorized what I said.  Or it sometimes pretended to let go. Clones don’t want to let go. They aren’t real; they are nothing but a complex of beliefs.

To understand these clones, I also had to think about what advice the person would have gotten if they were with a New Age spiritual teacher, a therapist, or in a self-help workshop.  I did enough of all three of those in the past to understand what was going on in the person’s mind.  But I wasn’t ever seeking the truth; I was always looking for what was false. I’ve always known that humans were doing something false with their minds; otherwise, there would be no suffering, diseases, or problems on earth. I wasn’t impressed with these so-called spiritual leaders because I wanted to know how to let go of beliefs; and they were giving me more beliefs.  Since they didn’t give me what I wanted, I moved on. I didn’t believe a word they said; they didn’t have what I wanted. For me, it was like going to a store that didn’t have anything I wanted to buy. Nevertheless, I covered a lot of ground in a short period of time.

People got tricked because New Age teachers and eastern gurus relabeled their beliefsthe truth.”  Since they were looking for the truth, they believed these false leaders. That was a nasty trick.  Once they put the beliefs of that clone leader into their mind, the beliefs got stuck. Generally, those beliefs were laced with psychological reversal. I say this right on the banner of this website. But most people don’t understand that I’m really serious about that banner. You don’t need to learn the truth about anything from anyone. You came with it inside of you. You only need to let go of the labels and lies that are keeping you stuck in the illusion. Like Jesus said, “You can’t worship two masters.” You can’t believe false leaders and your True Self at the same time.

So the secret to initiation is simple, and it isn’t really a secret.  We are eliminating all second-cause thought from our minds.  Second-cause thought is thought that has an opposite as well as meaning or judgment.  A good example of a second-cause thought would be political liberals versus conservatives; each side thinks that they are right.  So they are fighting from right and wrong or good and evil.  That means that both sides are on the triangle bottom. This gets tricky because often one side sounds like they have the truth.  For example, conservatives are more openly committed to freedom than liberals.  But they also see an opposite to freedom, especially when they are religious and live firmly from good and evil.  Liberals will say that they are for peace, but they hold the opposite of war in their minds.  Or they say that they are spiritual, and they hold religious as an inferior opposite.  A light worker believes in a dark worker. Someone who is ascending sees others as descending. I could write thousands of examples; and I do in the Gold Circle.

I will expose both groups on any triangle bottom, but I’m only exposing the beliefs of those groups. Clones will get upset when exposed, however, because they identify with a label that they view as superior to the opposite. I’m only saying that particular belief is false and here is why. When I get to rock bottom on a topic, there will be a win-win point of view. But the people on the triangle bottom are so busy looking at the opposite point of view and fighting with it that they remain stuck in the illusion. I don’t love politics…never have. But there is no better testing ground to see if you can be pulled into the illusion at this time in history.

We eliminate all second-cause thinking in initiation.  It’s a lot of work to clean out all the second-cause thoughts from our minds.  But in the end, our mind has to return to first cause.  Then our True Self will be leading our mind. We will have no judgment of others, no mental competition with others, and we will not be comparing ourselves to others.  There is no inferior and superior with others when we get to Step Three, the top of the triangle.  That’s when we can have extraordinary relationships.  That’s when we can be calm and have a quiet mind all the time.

Most relationships are nothing but triangle-bottom power struggles today. Each person blames the other; and no one lets go. When you get to Step Three, you are the true leader in that relationship on that topic. A true leader is always coming from win win for all. If you keep letting go on topic after topic, you get so that you live as a true leader even if you don’t hold a position of authority. So you give others a ride on the freedom train when they hang out with you. That being said, here is how stupid clones are: They won’t board that train and enjoy the ride. They would rather be right, or have false power, than enjoy life and love others. What can I say?

So back to this trick that I discovered when my websites were going up and down.  I have written about this a little in the Gold Circle, but perhaps not enough for people to really get it. So the issue popped up again. People seem to think that they have to clean up their past.  It’s not a false statement, but you don’t have to do it like they do in psychology.  That’s tedious and expensive. It generally requires another person to help you. You can’t do psychological techniques while you’re living your life. On the other hand, you can let go all day every day. That’s why it is so effective.

People often tell me that they are cleaning up their past, and I think they are letting go.  But they have a self-help or psychology clone in their mind; and they are doing something other than letting go…something they learned from another. Then they tell me that letting go is hard work. I know that it’s not. But to tell them that doesn’t help them. I don’t want to put ice cream on their manure. That’s why I had to become feminine to people with all kinds of clones in their minds. I wanted to expose what was false and learn how to bring down these clone characters in a gentle and safe way. Now I know what they are doing without becoming feminine most of the time; I’ve simply gotten a whole lot of experience with all kinds of clones.

The first error they make is they look at their past as real and true.  But their past was actually real and false.  Their past was manifested from beliefs.  That is true for our collective history too. It was manifested from beliefs, so it is an illusion. Today we are seeing some pretty crazy-ass leaders like Joe Biden, Justin Trudeau (Canada), and good old crazy-hair Boris (UK). They are playing roles to help people see that everything that the globalists were pushing was an illusion. I think those are all actors; the real people have been carted away to GITMO. But for our purposes, we just need to see that their beliefs and ideas are second cause and false.

The illusion of the globalists goes all the way back to Adam and Eve. We trace that entire mental history up to the present in the Gold Circle. Once you see the history, you look at those clowns (clones) and you know that they say nothing that’s true. When people stop believing them, they lose power. It’s very simple in theory. It’s harder to do in practice because people believe that those with authority have power, and then they fear them. False leaders of any kind, including parents, have no power unless we give it to them. You see that clearly as you let go. Letting go is about seeing clearly within the illusion. It’s also about living a free life without waiting for everyone else to free their minds.

Another belief that came up during this downtime was the Bodhisattva Vow of the east. If you’ve taken that vow, you must let it go if you want freedom. Otherwise, you’ve got one foot on the gas and one on the brake. You’ll will go nowhere and letting go will not work. That vow is saying that you will wait for everyone to get free. So you will be stuck in the illusion for a very long time. Let me assure you that you can help more people in one hour of exposing false on social media than you can in a lifetime or more than one lifetime of being a Bodhisattva. That vow is a trick (all vows are tricks); but that one tends to dupe good-hearted people who have a lot of love to give.

If you let go of the causal beliefs that created your past, then your past becomes an illusion.  I know it sounds like magic, but that’s what happens. Your past becomes like a dream that never really happened. You remember it, but you don’t get emotional when you think about it. You don’t dream about your past or have panic attacks (PTSD) about it. Here’s the cool thing about what I share with all of you. You don’t have to remember the actual details of the incident from the past to let the whole thing go.  So you don’t need past-life regressions or rebirthing. If you do remember an inciting incident from your past, that’s fine. You can let go as you review the memory. But if you don’t remember the past, it doesn’t mean you won’t get free.

As you work in the present and you let go, you automatically clean up your past.  But you have to use the illusion around you as your feedback. When you find yourself judging another or blaming another, you have to stop and let go. When you are afraid of another, you stop and let go. When you are annoyed by another, you stop and let go. When you feel emotions, you are thinking false. Your emotions are not lie detectors. They are simply saying that you are dividing your mind with what you are thinking in that moment. You are becoming magnetic; and we are meant to be electrical beings. As a reminder, the occultists divide emotions into positive and negative. Today there are many who channel occult beings; they are not channeling the truth. There is no such thing as positive and negative emotions. Emotions means that you are thinking false.

There is no time in letting go.  However, beliefs that we hold in mind as true do put us in time.  A belief will often trigger a past memory; and that memory will look true because the beliefs that caused the memory still seem true. Floating above our beliefs (in eastern meditation or out-of-body traveling) or putting ice cream on our manure doesn’t take us outside of the illusion, i.e., outside of time.  When we get to Step Three and let go of a causal belief as false, we let it go for all time…even when we believe that it came from a past lifetime.  This is why letting go is not only helpful to us; it also helps others. In fact, we are freeing our ancestral lineage when we let go of beliefs that we share with our families. In addition, when less people believe the collective illusion, it loses power for everyone.

At a minimum, most people in the illusion view time as past, present, and future. They have beliefs about all three aspects of time.  Gurus will say to stay in the present moment. What a load of bullshit.  They give people techniques or practices to do that.  That’s fixing the effects; that’s not letting go. If you let go, you end up in the present.  You aren’t pulled to the past, and you aren’t concerned about the future. You don’t have to do something to get there or stay there.  Do you see the difference?

People will say, “You can’t change the past.”  That’s factual at the physical level, i.e., in the illusion; but every time you let go, you change the past at the mental level of perception.  You clean up the false mental level until you are living from the true mental level…the True Self. Your undesirable past goes from real and true to real and false in your individual mental container as you let go.  Think of it this way. If you have a drawer of socks, and you throw away one pair of socks, are those socks in your drawer? Can you wear those socks anymore? No…that’s a metaphor for letting go.  You can’t manifest a belief if you don’t have it in your mind anymore.

People complicate letting go if they have a belief that God is creating their life or authority figures are creating their life.  If they have a guru, he or she will be manifesting their life.  If someone is Catholic, the Pope is manifesting their life. Or New Agers will say that the Universe is manifesting their life.  WTF?  Who is the Universe? It’s another word for God…it’s relabeling, which makes it harder to let go.

For us to live from mental cause producing physical effect from our own mental container (as a creator), we have to know that others aren’t manifesting our lives.  We don’t want false connections with the collective or ANY others.  So we can’t be supporting group think.  There is no group think in initiation; people don’t come to think like me who do the Gold Circle. They come to think like themselves, which is so cool. I love watching people become more themselves. The transformation that I see over time with people is the reason I do this.

On the other side of this triangle bottom of having to fix our past, we have the eastern philosophies.  They speak of something that I call the red-line philosophy.  You draw a red-line in the sand regarding your past, and you start changing your diet, doing practices, meditating, and believing that you are ”raising your frequency.”  You load true-sounding thoughts into your mind.  None of that is true. When you identify with high frequency; you project out low frequency. You are still on the triangle bottom. You don’t want to have any energy beliefs in your mind; otherwise, you can’t have an individual mental container. You have no border to your mind; so you lose all TRUE creative power. These beliefs are being pushed right now by the occult globalists who want to be able to control people’s minds with ease. It’s a trap.

There is one aspect of letting go where I often will ask someone to think about their past, and that is with clone characters. Clones are those voices that pretend to be your True Self.  They are tricksters of the worst kind. I will say to the person, “Did someone say that to you in the past?”  “Where did you get that thought or belief?”  I am not trying to figure out their mind or come up with reasons for why they feel the way they do. I’m not taking them on a trip down memory lane.  I’m saying that they put a clone voice, which holds on to that belief, into their mind for a reason.  If they can remember the clone who gave them that belief, and they can remember why they put that clone character into their mind, they’ve found a shortcut to freedom.  If they let go of the desire to keep that clone voice in their mind, that clone will disappear.  But often, it isn’t quite that easy. Often those clone voices are pretty damn strong and seem pretty damn true. So you take out one belief at a time (the character game is good for this) until the clone weakens. Then you can let the rest of the clone go with relative ease.

Your True Self is your truth, your healer, your freedom, your joy, your purpose, etc.  Everything you truly desire in life is in your True Self; it’s like a blueprint.  Clones only promise those things; they never truly deliver.  If you get something via a clone, you project the opposite on to another. That’s not spiritual or good; so you didn’t deserve what you got. That’s why people often lose what they acquired as clones; they didn’t mentally earn what they got. In initiation, if you get something, you’ve earned it. You will never lose it again. That’s the security that people in the illusion desire but never feel.

Someone who is in the Golden Gateway program just said to me that their clone voice was telling them that what I describe is hard work.  That was a clone who wanted to keep its throne.  They said I write too much…my articles are too long.  Oh that’s a fact; my articles are very long in the Golden Gateway. But that is a leadership program. I don’t want any stone left unturned. I said, “Do you know why I have to write so damn much?”  Your clones made everything complex so life would be hard work. I have to expose them from every angle until you see them as false and take them out of your mind.  So I don’t believe in hard work, your clone does. You need to expose and let go of that belief in the clone character that is holding on to it.

The clones in our mind are like the globalists. They do not go away just because you want them to. You have to expose them as false until they lose all of their power. You have to see that they are unnecessary or even harmful to yourself and others. Then you will kick them out of your mind without any reservations.

I don’t write for me. I write for you because I know that everyone deserves freedom.  If I’m not very precise in my words, clones take what I say into their illusion and make it their own. When you decide you want freedom (initiation), you enter the most difficult battle there is. You are fighting the clones in your mind so that your True Self gets to lead again. The clones don’t want you to be free and creative. I’m here to make sure you win that war.

Outside of the illusion, time exists as a convenience.  It doesn’t have meaning.  It’s first cause.  It’s handy for showing up for dinner or getting to the movies at the right time. Earlier in this article, I talked about the triangle bottom of fixing the past versus manifesting a better future with practices and words.  Here is what happens when you let go.  This is so good! 

You realize that the past was an illusion as you let go of belief after belief, so you don’t have to go back into your past and relive it or work on it.  You don’t have to fix what happened in the past because the beliefs that caused the effects that you didn’t like or wish you didn’t experience were false beliefs.  You are letting those beliefs go for all time in the present. You can’t manifest such an effect again when the mental cause is removed from your container.  Therefore, your future is obviously going to be much better or even perfect.  So you don’t need the red-line eastern point of view, eastern meditation, or eastern practices.  You don’t need special diets or exercise programs.  You don’t live in the illusion of suffering and hard work anymore.  You stay in the present moment without effort simply because you aren’t being pulled back into the past; and you aren’t afraid of your future.

I can only point you to freedom and remind you to let go so that you get to the desired destination. But I can’t let go for you. When you truly let go, you’ll see that I’ve never lied to you, and I never gave you any beliefs that were second cause. I never even falsely connected with you. I exposed a lot, and I gave you a few first-cause techniques and games that you won’t need after you get free; so you’ll drop them with ease.

Initiation Isn’t Like Anything Else 

Occultists Hijacked the Language of the Initiates

I often say on my blog that the occultists in power hijacked the language of initiation. What do I mean by that? Initiates were calm, unconditionally loving, and caring people; they used their minds as they were designed…from the inside out. There was nothing fake about them. They were freedom lovers, and that freedom wasn’t just for themselves. Sometimes the initiates had positions of power; they were benevolent leaders who gave freedom to all. They brought out the best in people. They were also great exposers of false beliefs. 

The best example of an initiate leader, and the easiest story to obtain, can be found in the story of Jesus in the Bible. But that story was hijacked by the occultists, just like every other myth and story from the ancient world. The story was changed to suit the needs and false desires of the occultists in power. These occultists gained more and more false power over time by slowly infiltrating people’s minds. People ultimately came to view life from the same perspective as the occultists.

The occult point of view was and is dual. It was originally divided into the esoteric secrets, which were just for the inner-circle elite; the physical and undesirable opposite, i.e., exoteric, was projected on to everyone else. Both esoteric and exoteric were false back then, and they still are today. Esoteric thinking is more like New Age or eastern philosophy; it’s very mentally or spiritually focused. Exoteric thinking is more like religion; it’s very physically focused and faith based. They are two sides of the same triangle bottom. Neither are true.

Over time, everyone came to see the occult illusion as normal and even true; and the elite all looked like Gods. Of course, the elite pushed that narrative by saying that they had the right bloodline, they were chosen by God, or they had divine authority. They had the secrets to life. The people bought this lie hook, line, and sinker; and most people are still buying it today. Once we accept this big lie, we ignore our own True Selves. So it was as if the True Self individually and collectively was tossed into the proverbial closet.

The people didn’t protest against the horrors of the illusion because they thought that was how life was supposed to be. They accepted the notion that God was watching over them, judging them, and rewarding and punishing them. In truth, it was the human fake leaders, often referred to as Lords, who were doing that. People accepted the triangle bottoms of superior and inferior…powerful and powerless. The normal people put themselves off the shitty side of every triangle bottom. This is how the the elite were able to literally lord over everyone. It is very important to use the triangle process to let such second-cause pairs of opposites go. Every bit of the occult narrative was a bold-faced lie; today, nothing much has changed. The occultists are still fueling the same lies. Only the people and circumstances have changed.

This is good news and bad news. The good news is that when you let go of a belief individually, you are also escaping the collective mindset. When you let go in the present, you are letting go for all time. So if you believe in karma, you undo it by letting go. Then you realize that karma was also a big lie. The bad news is that these beliefs have a lot of believers and are very longstanding; so you must be persistent and willing to do whatever it takes to let them go. I provide as much support as I can; but I can’t let go for any other person. I can only expose what’s false, which makes it easier to see through the occult lies and let go. If I expose something as false, you know that I’ve let it go and lived to tell about it.

The occultists began their rise to power thousands of years ago. The Bible is not the word of God; it is meant to be a full-circle story. Most of the stories in the Bible were originally told by initiates; they’re exquisite metaphors for how the mind works. Sadly, the initiates’ stories were hijacked by the occultists; and that brought us to the religious views that exist today…both esoteric and exoteric. The occultists put their spin on the Bible stories, and the initiation component appeared to be lost. The Old Testament provides the mental history of the beginning of the illusion as manifested by the false God of Moses and his followers, the Jews; the New Testament was meant to be the way out of the illusion, or initiation. But the New Testament got hijacked by the occultists, who didn’t want to lose their fake power; so they changed Jesus’s story from a story of initiation to a story of martyrdom. That was a big setback for the people of earth.

The fall is a real thing, but it was mental…not physical. In the fall, people turned their focus outside of their mind, and away from their True Self; they started following false leaders who were Moses-like. Moses was a tyrant, just like the tyrants we see today. He used trickery and occult magick to fool his people just like the fake news does today. He demanded that the people serve him because he said that he was divinely appointed by God. He was basically a dick…a false leader of the worst kind. In street gang terms, we’d say that Moses punched down on the people in feminine roles…those who didn’t have power and authority. But if you know any deeply religious people; they hold Moses in mind as a role model. That’s why we still have the same types of leaders today. People become like the people they follow. If you follow dicks, guess what you become?

Jesus was different. Jesus said to never follow such leaders. He said that God was within. Jesus represented true initiation. In the Gold Circle and Golden Gateway (which used to be the Creative Leadership program), I take the Bible apart piece by piece, and I prove exactly what I’m saying. I expose Moses as false, and I decode what Jesus was actually saying to us so that we could experience initiation again. My decodes validate everything I’ve written. I’m never channeled a word of what I’ve written. It all came from research, letting go, direct experience, and ultimately the marriage of logic and emotion.

You have no idea how much I’d love to share those decodes with the world. My heart beats through every word of them. When we find our True Self’s point of view, we so want to express it. That’s what we were naturally designed to do. It took me decades to do those decodes; and I put myself in very uncomfortable places and circumstances in order to do them. I spent hundreds of thousands of dollars to excavate the occult lies. I share everything I’ve learned about letting go. I hold nothing back with anyone. But sharing the decodes at this time would not be good for others. Too many preachers, ministers, rabbis, gurus, and priests are still stuck in the illusion. They still think that you can learn the truth; and they view themselves as teachers of the truth. When people teach “the truth,” it becomes false. It’s like wine that has turned into vinegar. My decodes are written to take an initiate on a letting go journey; so they are useless, or even harmful, to someone who doesn’t know how to let go.

So I can’t do what I want to do at this time. But I do make those decodes available to people who have been letting go. That’s why the decodes are behind a paywall…the Golden Gateway. No one can join that program who has not done the Gold Circle. So I know that the people who join the Golden Gateway do want freedom, and they can let go. I also know that they have enough compassion that they will not do something that would harm another. I know that they are willing and able to expose false if they have to; I’m not saying that it would be easy for them. Exposure of the occult illusion is pretty damn scary for most people, even people in my programs. Too many people want to keep their religious point of view. Too many people still think that the Bible is the word of God, as if God spoke in words and wrote books. Such people have free will to hold those beliefs in their minds. I have no right to tell any other what to put in or take out of their mental container. But if I can help others to get free, I do want to do that. So I walk a very fine line; and I do ONLY what I’m inspired to do. At times, what I’m inspired to do doesn’t even make sense to me until I gain some hindsight.

This macrocosmic transition from leadership by initiates to leadership by the occultists was a metaphor for the microcosmic transition whereby our false mind slowly took the lead individually and collectively, which pushed our True Self/Mind into the background. People started thinking from the outside in, which is backwards…not from the inside out as our mind was designed. That hasn’t changed. Today many people are putting positive, spiritual, or politically-correct words into their minds; that is still outside-in thinking. Those words might accurately describe the True Self; but by putting such words into their minds, they are trying to make their false self into their True Self. That’s impossible. They’re still adding to their minds; they’re not letting go or subtracting from their minds.

In my programs, I watch people struggle to make the shift toward the inner-directed mindset; for nearly everyone, being outer directed is a hard habit to break. I wish I had a magic wand that I could wave and make it easy for them. I know how badly they want freedom. But the occult did a very good job of training us to use our minds backwards. Often by the time someone finds initiation, they’ve been holding on to beliefs as true and following others for decades, or even lifetimes.

So be easy on yourself with regard to letting go; initiation takes time and patience. If you become angry at the time it’s taking to free your mind, it will take even longer. The best way to alleviate that anger is to expose the people who programmed you as false…the politicians, doctors, healers, therapists, scientists, and gurus. They are the cause of all problems, suffering, and even disease; but most of them don’t realize that they are the cause. Their minds were programmed too.

This transformation, which caused us to view the occult illusion as true, has been like a slow boil; it has happened over a very long period of time. As knowledge replaced wisdom, faith replaced inner knowing, and education replaced common sense, the illusion became more solid and appeared to be more true. As time went on, fixing physical effects, instead of removing the mental causes pushed by the medical and psychiatry systems were like high-test fuel for the illusion. Even general science is now fueling the illusion and the globalists’ nefarious agenda. The occult way of viewing life has been like a giant pyramid of power that keeps getting bigger and bigger. Of course, this mental pyramid of power is not to be confused with the amazing physical pyramids. But that’s a story for another day.

We can see this mental pyramid structure clearly in organizations of all sorts from corporations, governments, religions, the military, and the justice system to condo associations and school boards; even some family units have pyramid structures. People rise to the top of a mental power pyramid over time based on their service to the organization’s leadership and the goals of the organization. When we are caught in any pyramid of power, we do not expose the leaders as false; we obey them and get rewarded, or we rebel against them and get punished or banished. There are no free people in any pyramid of power.  Obedience and rebellion is another triangle bottom to let go. These persistent and widely-believed triangle bottoms don’t disappear in a day. You have to chip away at them over time.

Pyramids of power are all based on win-lose thinking, not win-win thinking. Today there are even financial pyramid schemes, which are based on the same occult pyramid structures. The people at the bottom of the pyramid scheme do all of the hard work selling overpriced products; those at the top reap all of the rewards based on their ability to recruit, i.e., manipulate and lie to others to get them to join the scheme. The downline that is created allows the top achievers to project on the bottom dwellers. The bottom hopes to one day rise to the top so they can also project on a downline. It’s a textbook occult scheme.

I’m not saying that any of these people are bad or evil; I don’t believe in good and evil. We all play in the illusion until we choose initiation. We all have a story to live and that story can take one life or hundreds of lives; it’s our choice. Normal people don’t realize that they’re fueling the occult by holding on to belief systems. But if you are here reading my blog, you probably do want freedom. So you need to know that these organization do not support freedom so you cannot trust them, you should not join them, nor should you believe anything they say or do. When people treat these organizations as false and worthless, which they are, they will disappear. I can assure you of that. They need us far more than we need them.

Words and Spelling

Words were the keystone for the occultists’ rise to power; it’s no accident that the word “spell” is connected to words. The occultists view words as spells. These false leaders choose their words carefully; and people go into a sort of hypnotic spell or trance with occult leaders when they speak. They take in the leader’s words without discriminating because they like what the leader says. The followers believe that they are hearing the truth expressed in words from the leader; but the occult leader knows that people will follow them if they say what people want to hear. They don’t mean what they say; they are just saying it to get power, money, and fame. They are offering things that you can only get permanently by freeing your mind; and they aren’t talking about letting go. So they are making a promise that they can’t and won’t keep. We don’t want to take their so-called truth into our minds; when we add to our minds, we add to our false self, which covers up our True Self. Our True Self is whole and complete. There is nothing that we need to add to it. This is all very simple and logical. It is not rocket science.

Occultists know how to manage appearances very well. They’re clever at getting people to blindly trust them; and using projection, they get people to overlook their nearly constant and blatant hypocrisy.  People often believe that gurus, spiritual teachers, motivational speakers, and progressive leaders are True Selves; but they’re not. I call them clones because they look and act like True Selves, but they aren’t True Selves. They wear very attractive social masks. Traits like truth, spirituality, equality, unity, and even optimism are qualities that we do find in every True Self. But a True Self would never tell you to learn or develop those qualities. They’d know that you were born with those qualities. That is how you expose these charlatans as false; they tell you things that you knew and were at birth.

Occultists always project; so we always get the bad end of the stick (or triangle bottom) when we believe them and trust them. If we don’t believe them, however, their projections boomerang right back at them. Thus exposure, and non-belief, is what ultimately brings down the illusion; and those who have stolen the clone thrones within the illusion will go down with the illusory ship. The occultists are nothing without followers holding them up. Here’s a physical metaphor for initiation: When we start taking stones out of the bottom of a pyramid, we eventually bring the whole thing down. The same thing happens in a pyramid of power except we’re removing beliefs, or lies, instead of stones.

It is noteworthy that the word occult contains the word “cult.” A cult leader is nothing without his or her followers. The followers of the cult leader give their power to the cult leader’s belief system at the expense of their own True Selves. In addition, the cult leader projects the undesirable side of his triangle bottom on to the followers. So the cult leader (and I include all gurus in the bucket labeled cult leaders) gets a double win; and the followers get a double lose. This is why they say that you must kill the Buddha to become like the Buddha. You have to stop believing the false leaders who teach beliefs; your belief in their belief system empowers them, not you.

In initiation, we don’t share beliefs; we expose them ALL as false and let them all go.  Then everyone lives from their True Self. I get no power from anyone; and I also don’t project on the people I support. I’m just a normal person who is also letting go; I share my successes and failures so that others can walk more quickly and easily down the initiation path. Personally, I let go using the Three Steps until I love everyone unconditionally; once I love someone unconditionally, it helps them to bring up their false beliefs so they can let them go. If they let go, and it is always their choice to do so or not, they eventually come to think like themselves again; they do not think like me unless they go against my very strong warning and copy what I say. I remind people all the time to use my words as a catalyst for letting go. Don’t learn what I say; don’t add any more knowledge to your mind.

Today we see plenty of examples where words are being used to trick people, such as the relabeling that took mentally-regressive political policies and labeled them “progressive.” Communism and socialism aren’t progressive; anyone who things that progressivism is a good thing is very deeply stuck in the illusion. The occultists took beliefs and false desires from a very old world order where the few rule over the many, and they relabeled their vision the “New World Order.” They want globalism because they are so selfish as to want to rule the whole world. Likewise, the New Age is not new, it’s the old age before organized religion came into being but after the initiates had the most power. Positive thinking and saying affirmations is not actually positive; it’s a way to project the unwanted side of the triangle bottom on to others. I could go on and on. The relabeling trap is used because it works.

Patriarchal and Matriarchal are Two Sides of the Collective Triangle Bottom

Prior to the patriarchal point of view, which many of the so-called woke (more relabeling since the woke are the most asleep) today refer to as toxic masculinity, there was the matriarchal point of view that was also very false. The New Age, self-help, progressivism, alternative healing, therapy, feminism, social justice, and more have risen out of the old matriarchal point of view. In the patriarchal point of view, we tend to lead with logic; in the matriarchal point of view, we tend lead with our emotions. In truth, logic and emotions were meant to work together as a team in our inner alchemical marriage. In fact, the current patriarchal point of view was a failed attempt to fix the very harmful matriarchal point of view. We are dodging this same bullet today.

An initiate leads with their masculine mind because the masculine mind is naturally assertive. The feminine mind is naturally receptive. If one person is throwing a ball (asserting) and the other is catching the ball (receiving), the person throwing is leading. The person catching the ball must adjust to the person throwing it. That just makes logical sense. In matriarchal thinking, however, it’s like the receiver is asking the thrower to adjust to wherever they want the ball to land. Thought is assertive; emotions are receptive, and they are meant to be used for discrimination. So in matriarchal thinking, you have people who claim that others are responsible for their emotions when they are the one who is asserting. When we are asserting, and we feel emotions, we are holding the mental cause of those emotions in OUR own mind every single time.

The feminine mind is where we NATURALLY discriminate. Our feminine was designed to keep our masculine mind in line. That has not happened in modern times. Feminists want to be men, and they fight for masculine roles; they have not done their job of exposing false. So in matriarchal-dominant times, the illusion typically grows. Then the pendulum swings, and the patriarchy bring the illusion back into line. But neither group ever destroy it. Note that this has absolutely nothing to do with physical gender or sex. But if people understood this, all of those weird and totally false gender issues would be gone. They all come from matriarchal thinking.

An initiated one would be a true patriarch, who would listen to the feminine and trust the feminine discrimination. The true patriarch would never dominate or control others; they would not have an aggressive or warring mind. They would assert their win-win-for-all vision into the world; and it would be a joy for others to help them create that vision. That’s how those beautiful pyramids and other ancient buildings that we can’t build today were erected. Being feminine to a true masculine leader is wonderful. Such a leader will bring out the very best in us. I’ve had that experience, and there is nothing like it.

The matriarchal time period of history is what came right after the MENTAL fall. That’s when the illusion was first manifested; and so the earth no longer appeared to be the Garden of Eden. It’s all in the Old Testament of the Bible. But like the True Self, the Garden of Eden didn’t go anywhere. You can’t destroy anything that’s true. Believing in the illusion is like wearing a blindfold. The world is still around you, but you can’t see it until you take the blindfold off. Once we believe in the illusion, we see it until we remove the blinders, i.e., beliefs, from our mind.

Here is what you need to know. Every belief system contributes to an aspect of the illusion. The True Self doesn’t have even one belief; but it does use first-cause (nonjudgmental, physical, and win win) knowledge in order to create. When we create in first cause, we’re outside of the illusion. So creation will be easy once we escape the illusion because the illusion was founded on the curse of hard work.

First-cause knowledge is useful for our survival…building, farming, sewing, cooking, etc. It’s physical knowledge. That being said, first-cause knowledge can be very sophisticated, like we see in beautiful fashion, furniture, cars, or architecture; we don’t have to live like cavemen in order to live from first cause. Throughout history, first-cause information was shared by mentoring and apprenticeships. In first cause, there’s no sharing of beliefs; the master of a task helps the apprentice to learn the task. Second-cause knowledge, on the other hand, has been taught primarily by religion, government rules and laws, and education. Of course, the internet has turned the sharing of second-cause knowledge into a virtual pandemic.

From the standpoint of initiation, it’s a good thing that the New Age, the New World Order, and other old belief systems have come up to the surface for our review; but people are once again accepting these beliefs as new and true. They aren’t discriminating and rejecting what is false. Many people reason that old beliefs were better than new beliefs. That’s not true. No beliefs, our mindset prior to the fall, is much better than even one belief or even the sweetest of beliefs. Beliefs put us on the triangle bottom. All beliefs are dual. There is no exit from the triangle bottom without letting go of both sides of any belief from our OWN mental container. In initiation, we let go when old beliefs arise from the shadows, both individually and collectively.  In that way, we use the world around us to support our quest for freedom.

Here’s another modern trap. Today people are doing some of the same research that I did over thirty years ago. It’s easier now because we have the internet. But most of these researchers (and the same goes for seekers, channels, psychics, or prophets) are making a huge mistake. When we research, we should ONLY look for what’s false…never ever research to find the truth because the truth when expressed in words becomes false. Books that tell us the truth of life are all false.

I have a huge library in my condo that I accumulated during the days of my research. Many of those books contain old myths and stories. I have many Bible translations. I have books that explain different belief systems from around the world. I have occult texts that allowed me to see how the occultists used their minds. I love books. I love understanding others, even the people who are deeply stuck in the illusion and don’t want out. I want to unconditionally love everyone; understanding others gives me the compassion to achieve that desire. But the books that I will NOT keep on my shelves are books that explain the truth in words; they are worthless. They sound like a first-grade reader when you know your own True Self. I won’t even donate that crap; I just dispose of them. They’re trash. I expose a lot of the popular “truth” books in the Gold Circle. Most of those books are found in the genre of New Age or were written by current eastern gurus. People often tell me that their guru is saying the same things that I say; they are brainwashed to think that. I would bet my last dollar that their guru has not taught them how to let go or how to discriminate; if that guru taught them how to discriminate, they would discriminate with the guru and run away as fast as they could.

We were all born with the truth (True Self) inside of our minds. So we don’t need to learn the truth; we need to unveil it. We need to take off our masks and express our beautiful True Selves to the world. Always remember the banner of this site (shown below). It’s the key to initiation. It’s the key to discriminating between the con artist clones and the people who truly have your back.

If we need to get the truth from another, then we aren’t listening to our own True Self. So we need to let go until we feel inspired from within again. If we put “the truth” into our false mind in the past, we need to let that truth go. You can’t let go of your True Self, and if you let go of the truth from your false mind, your True Self will come back out of the closet. It’s that simple; people make it hard because they fear letting go of their memorized truth. After you clean the words of truth out of your mind, you will be in the illusion but not of it; you will find yourself exposing false just by living your life, and you won’t be able to help it. You will prove beliefs and belief systems wrong by your very existence.

This is an awkward time in initiation. I used to expose beliefs as I lived my life, and I didn’t understand what I was doing. People said that I made them emotional or envious. I didn’t know how to stop that from happening. I thought there was something wrong with me. But their emotions and envy were caused by their thinking of me, not my thinking of them. I was exposing the false beliefs in their mind without realizing what I was doing. If they had known how to let go, I would have been a pure godsend as I pushed their false beliefs up to the surface where they could let them go. But they didn’t know how to let go; they didn’t have a clue.

I couldn’t get upset with people for thinking that I caused their emotions. They were outer directed; they had been trained to use their minds backwards. They didn’t even know the causal belief was in their own mind. I was able to let go, but I didn’t know how I did it. It was natural for me. So I went into their illusion, took on their beliefs as true, and I figured out how to escape their illusion. I did this many, many times with a large variety of people with different belief systems. Then I wrote whatever I discovered. Now I don’t feel bad when I cause people’s beliefs and the related emotions to arise. If they want freedom, I’m doing them a huge favor. If they don’t want freedom, then we won’t enjoy being around each other anyway. They’ll just want me to believe their beliefs; and I’m never going to do that.

While marinating in the illusion, I came to understand that people had been trained by occultists to hate their own True Selves; and so when I followed my inspiration, I brought this painful psychological reversal to the surface for others. While creating the Gold Circle, I often saw someone’s inciting incident…their own personal fall moment in their story. I could reveal exactly what they needed to let go; it was obvious to me. I don’t do that anymore. I did it enough to reveal all the different ways that people fell into the illusion; then I was inspired to stop. I wrote about all of that in the Gold Circle. Now I realize that I stopped for a very important reason. When you get free, you want to be able to say, “I did this myself. I know how I got stuck in the illusion, and I know what I let go to get out.”

The Occult Origin

Let me explain the origin of the occultists. It will help you to make sense of all of this. The occultists have always been frauds. The occultists were failed initiates who desperately wanted the true power of the initiates, but they couldn’t get it. Their minds were too polluted; for some reason, they couldn’t or wouldn’t let go of their beliefs. So these frauds copied the initiates both physically and verbally. They hijacked the initiates’ words and stories. They copied the things the initiates did naturally and turned them into practices, rituals, and ceremonies.

Initiates wrote stories using the True Self’s language…the language of metaphor. They mentored others through stories; they didn’t impose beliefs on the candidates for initiation. The occultists turned the initiates’ metaphors into symbolism; they made the initiates’ stories physical and literal. That’s what they still do today. Metaphor is temporary; symbolism is permanent. Metaphor is life giving; symbolism is grave and death giving. Honoring any symbol is like tying yourself to the illusion for life until you die. 

To get free, we have to let go of all beliefs in symbolism. A logo, icon, or symbol should look like nothing but a shorthand way of communicating. It should have no beliefs attached to it. As I let go while decoding ancient stories, all of the symbols in the stories lost their false power; they transformed into meaningful metaphors. The metaphors were validation that I had let go. This wasn’t something I planned would happen; it’s just what happened.

I came to realize that there was a time when the initiates led the people; and life on earth was like the Garden of Eden. People didn’t communicate or act in second cause like they do today. The occultists invented second-cause beliefs, which was the beginning of the fallen mindset. Initiates built beautiful things; over time, however, occultists made those things their own. Occultists took everything associated with initiation and turned it into their power tools. They put their meaning and beliefs on to the places and possessions of the initiates.

Over time, the occultists convinced the people that they wanted to follow them, and even be like them, not the initiates. Occultists are like Hollywood stars; they shine very brightly. But that shine is fake. The shine comes only when they can projected out their shadow on to others. The occultists accomplished their goal of gaining power over everyone in two ways that are still used today in all forms of marketing. They offered to relieve people’s emotions or to fix their problems, or they promised the people a false desire. People started to want the fruits of the illusion, not the fruits of their True Selves. They were now eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, i.e., second-cause thinking; they were ignoring the Tree of Life, i.e., first-cause thinking.

The people started to ignore the initiates as they came to ignore their own True Selves. The macrocosm and the microcosm are always a match. So the initiates backed away. They felt that it was important to let people see what they were manifesting with their occult beliefs. People did see what they were manifesting, and it was horrible. They were living in an illusion of suffering that looked real and true. But they had lost all memory of the True Self and Eden. They believed the occultists who said that we fell permanently, and there was no way back to Eden. They believed the religious liars who told them that they would see heaven after death, or they’d get a better life next time if they were obedient and good. It’s was a giant, worldwide scam. The people had no choice but to accept the illusion as real and therefore true. They made the best of a bad situation. This giant error is what we reverse in initiation.

We still have books like the Bible, other spiritual texts, and so-called myths that were written from the True Self point of view using metaphor. These books are available to anyone, but we see what we believe with such “living writing.” Living writing is writing that changes along with the change in the reader’s point of view. The beauty is in the eye of the beholder; but the ugliness is also in the eye of the beholder. When the reader has an illusory point of view, they see proof that their illusion is true when they read such living texts. However, when they let go, they see validation that what they thought was true was actually false.

Sadly, occultists have trained children for thousands of years to think like they do…literally and physically. Religion and school are all about indoctrination into the occult mindset. Today many people think that other Bible books will be revealed, and those books will contain the truth. But if the readers view those new books with the same literal/physical mindset, those books won’t do them any good. In fact, those books will fuel the illusion even more. The occultists set up their scheme to win; and they blocked all the exits.

When our mind is free, we won’t depend on a special book or a special guru. If we like books, we will use them to discriminate. Words and writing are not inherently bad; if we use anyone’s writing as a catalyst for freedom, i.e., for exposing the false beliefs in our own mind, then that writing won’t contain any word spells for us. So you see, we have the power to free ourselves; and we always did. No one has to be a victim of mind control anymore. But people often need someone to remind them of that because other people who want to control them remind them that their beliefs are true every minute of every day.

Let’s get honest about the occultists. Let me state a couple of unknown facts about them. First of all, every belief system is a product of the occult. The occult started in the east and spread west over time. So you don’t avoid the occult point of view by moving to eastern religions or practices. The occult is everywhere; it’s global. It has many forms. If something has beliefs or practices involved in it, it’s occult. The globalist elite are the leaders of the occult point of view today. They are everywhere…in every country, race, and religion. They want to control every aspect of our lives from what we think, where we live, what we eat, and who we love. Often, these false leaders live in the shadows while their minions unknowingly program our minds on their behalf.

If you’ve believed any belief system in the past, or do now, the occult has gotten into your mind. You aren’t alone. We all fell prey to their trickery. Don’t ever feel bad about being duped by these con artists. They view themselves as clever and us as stupid; they project stupid on to us. It’s all part of their fake magick, which is all mental…in fact, it’s false mental. After letting go, you will see that the occultists are the false ones. If anyone is stupid, it would be them. They are nothing but failed initiates. If you stick with letting go, you will surpass them; and they will never affect you again.

The occultists were envious people who tried to say and do what the initiates were inspired to say and do; the occultists believed that you could fake it until you made it. They thought the power of the initiates was in what they said or did. But that wasn’t true; the initiates’ power came from the purity of their minds.

The metaphors used by the initiates were just useful communication tools, which had no power in and of themselves. But the occultists didn’t realize that fact, so they tried to give power to the initiates’ metaphors by turning them into long-lasting symbols. Being primarily matriarchal minded, the occultists added meaning and emotions to those symbols thinking that would give them power. But this had consequences. This caused people’s minds to psychologically reverse. Now emotions no longer meant that beliefs were false; emotions now meant that beliefs had power or beliefs were true. The occultists imposed their symbols and beliefs on to others in order to gain the power of numbers. They had to do all of this because they had no real power. A True Self would never do any of this to a fellow human being.

Today the occult programming is viewed as too hard to reverse by most people; but what other choice do we have? Do we keep fueling the occult beliefs and allow earth to continue to be a hell of suffering? Or do we do our part and let go as much as we can.

Symbols are said to have power by the occultists; but it’s really the power of numbers of believers that give a symbol its false power. Symbols are just another form of spell or curse. That’s why the occultists plaster their fake symbols all over the place. They don’t care if we love or hate their symbols; they just want us to believe that the symbols have power. They want us to project our real power on to them as they project their unwanted side of the triangle bottom on to us.

When we come to see their symbols as false, we strip them of a lot of power. Again, this can be seen in the words that we use. If you remove the “S” from the word “curse,” you get the word “cure.” That’s not a medical cure, which is nothing but fixing the effects of beliefs; it’s a real cure…the removal of the illusion from our minds. It’s a cure that eliminates all diseases and suffering. The letter “S” stands for sin or the deception of the Serpent in the Garden of Eden. Sin was originally a term for second-cause or living from beliefs, not the True Self. If you take the beliefs out of a symbol or a story, you get back to the metaphors.  You regain the initiates’ mindset.

For eons, the esoteric occult ideas have come to the surface from time to time, much like what is happening today; but people treat these beliefs as true, not false. Today, people are noticing the occult symbols; but instead of declaring them false, they’re giving them even more power by teaching people about them. They are confused because they don’t know that emotions mean false. When they discover the symbolic meaning, they feel emotion; and they think that means the symbol is true and even powerful. Now they want those symbols for themselves. So they are becoming the deceivers…the Serpents of the future. In essence, an endless battle has been raging over whose beliefs are true. Who gets to control the symbols and who gets to own the cherished landmarks and buildings. This battle doesn’t end until we leave the illusion.

Once someone is indoctrinated into the illusory mindset, they get stuck. It’s isn’t their fault, and none of us have room to judge the people who are still most stuck today, including the globalists themselves. No one alive today invented the fallen way of using our minds. We all learned it from our ancestors. The people who invented this way of thinking go back thousands of years. People estimate that the Old Testament of the Bible goes back 6000 years; so that’s a good estimate of what we’re talking about for the age of the current illusion. We’ve all fallen prey to some aspect of the illusion. But that’s now in the past. In initiation, we correct the past so that we can create a beautiful future.

We stop the indoctrination process in its tracks. That’s why I took my children out of religion and school; and I kept them away from medicine as much as possible. But at that time, I had not fully decoded the New Age and alternative healing. Now I have; so I warn others to stay away from such things.

We see a perfect example of this very strong indoctrination at work today with the Corona virus hoax; people have been trained to trust their doctors blindly. The doctors lied to them, and even harmed them; but the people still trusted them. The people didn’t know how to discriminate between true and false on the topic of medicine. They don’t realize that we wouldn’t need medicine of any sort if we didn’t have second-cause beliefs in our minds. It’s sad; it’s hard to watch people suffer. That’s why I do what I do. We eliminate the illusion by letting go ourselves, exposing false, and become true role models for others to follow. That’s not an easy task; but it’s a worthwhile task.

The Great Awakening and the idea of ascension is another version of the same old ruse. It’s like the Renaissance period in European history; it did come to an end. Unless people let go of their beliefs, the pendulum will continue to swing back and forth between patriarchal and matriarchal points of view. Belief systems will continue to rise and fall like empires. But the good news is that the rising and falling is quickening. The pendulum is no longer swinging slowly over centuries; it’s swinging back and forth over decades. In fact, it’s moving closer to swinging back and forth over years. When the pendulum quickens and the back and forth becomes months, days, or hours, even the most rigid illusion dwellers will come to see the triangle bottom with ease. Then letting go and my decodes will make sense to everyone. That’s when I’ll release my decodes freely because no one will use them to deceive others. I don’t know when that will be. It might be a few years, or it might be a few decades. I’m not psychic, nor do I want to be.

The way to end all suffering, and I do mean all suffering, is to strip the power out of the occult illusion by not believing a damn word they say. We do that every single time we let go. We do that every single time we expose any second-cause belief as false. The occult in power are all like the Wizard of Oz. Once we reveal that their power is false, they will be forced to admit that it was all a big con game. They will be the losers, which is actually the win win for all, even them.

When the occultists restricted our freedom, they also restricted their own freedom. In the end, they will have no power at all. They will be normal, and those of us who have been traveling the path of initiation will be natural again. Natural trumps normal. Becoming natural isn’t about eating organic food or doing internal cleanses; those are ways of fixing the effects. Becoming natural is ONLY about our state of mind. Once we are free minded, our True Selves will reign again. No false leader will tell us what to do; they will be powerless. Our individual stories and our collective story will have to come full circle. But like I said, this might take a while; fortunately, we don’t have to wait for others. Many people have joined me in letting go, and they will be the way showers and the support for those who will come on board the freedom train in the future. Each time one of us lets go, or exposes false, it gets a little easier for others. Our future gets a little brighter.

The basis of the occult point of view, which is still normal today, is that knowledge is the same as knowing. The occultists treat second-cause thought, which has judgement in it like it’s the same as first-cause, nonjudgmental thinking. Today people commonly say that they are discriminating as they’re obviously judging. Imposing beliefs, rules, or demands on another is judging them. Imposing our beliefs on others means that we don’t trust that person to be naturally good. We should be letting go, not giving them more beliefs. Bad and evil were imposed on us by the occultists who wanted power. Discriminating is being able to say “NO” to people who impose rules, mandates, beliefs, or second-cause knowledge on us. Our natural knowing is beyond words…beyond spells…beyond curses.  Our natural knowing is the cure for everything.

The Occult Hijacked the Word Initiation

Now let’s go back to where we started this article. Let me give you an example of level confusion that’s intimately tied to what I do. Level confusion occurs when a word that points to the True Self becomes knowledge that people memorize and store in their false mental container. The word initiation was originally about freeing one’s mind. It was simple in theory; but even thousands of years ago, it took time to do…generally about a decade or more. Initiation was based on the notion that life is a story that’s meant to come full circle. We start out as a True Self, then we muck around in the illusion and get all mentally twisted around. We believe false and ignore our True Selves. At some point, we’ve had enough of the illusion, so we enter initiation and come out with the same pure mind that we had “initially.” “Initially” is the pivotal word in understanding initiation; the initiates wanted to return to the mind that they were born with. Initiation was not the same as seeking. There was no teaching or learning in halls of initiation. Jesus said that we want our mind to be like a child’s mind; he didn’t mean that we need a childish mind. He meant that we want to lead our life from our True Self…that’s a child’s mind…it’s pure and has no beliefs or second-cause knowledge in it yet.

Like so many other words, the occultists stole the word “initiation” from the initiates. But occult initiations are very different from true initiation. Occult initiations don’t involve letting go; they involve willpower, second-cause beliefs and knowledge, symbolism, rituals, and holding on for life. The occult initiation programs involved learning and memorization. They used rules, oaths, rituals, and ceremonies to keep their illusion fueled and intact. 

There was no formal testing in pure initiation; there was only validation. Life provided the validation that the initiate’s mind had changed. That’s the same today. That’s why we can do initiation without leaving our normal life. Our outer world changes as our inner world changes. We can let go as we work, play, or cook our dinner.

There were, however, insane occult initiation tests that are still performed today by the elite of the world; those often involve sex, children, and many other horrible activities (like they exposed in the movie “Eyes Wide Shut“). We can’t do much about the elite as normal people with no authority. However, there are traces of occult initiation in other more normal aspects of life that we can expose and eliminate. The occult way of thinking often starts with cliques in school, whereby kids have to give up their other friendships in order to join the clique. We see occult initiation in street gangs and secret societies. We also see occult initiation, often complete with tests, in college sororities and fraternities. People identify with these strange groups as if their membership in the group is an improvement of who they are.  That’s never true.

I was never one for cliques in school. I was friends with anyone who wanted to be my friend. I never liked clubs. I did join the Girl Scouts for a while because I liked learning how to do physical things. But that wasn’t a clique. During my first year in college, I lived on campus. I didn’t like college life; so after that year, I got a job and went to night school. Night school was wonderful; the teachers usually have real jobs in the day. So they had real-life stories and experiences to share.

But while I was living at a college, I thought that fraternities and sororities were the silliest thing that I’d ever seen. So I started my own sorority in order to mock them; my sorority wasn’t popular. You’ve probably haven’t heard of it. It was called “IMA PROTO ZOA.” The name was meaningful. Oddly, protozoa can be free or parasitic, just like people. The occult way of life is based on the host-parasite relationship or what therapists call codependence. Initiation was and is all about freedom. You can’t be a free and a codependent person at the same time just like you can’t be a free protozoa and a parasitic protozoa at the same time. Of course, no one got my metaphor; they rarely do.

The experience taught me that college life was not for me. I learned a great trade in college, accounting; and that led me to computers and systems design. My professions didn’t have any beliefs attached to them. They were just a physical and first-cause mental skill that taught me a lot about life. Later on, my advanced degrees in psychology and esoteric studies (the occult) were done with the intent to expose those ways of thinking as false. Many times, I’ve had to go into the belly of the beast to know why certain teachings were FALSE. Now I share my experiences, just like my night-school teachers.

The occultists want us to associate the word “initiation” with saying or doing something as a demonstration of our will and power. They do not want us to discover our True Self, lest we will have all the power; and they will have none. The original idea of initiation was about mental purification; it had no verbal or physical component. There were no rules, beliefs, or practices in initiation because the initiates eliminated mental causes; they didn’t fix physical effects. In the illusion, we fix physical effects, which is another trick that keeps us stuck. But if we don’t know how to let go, we have no choice but to fix effects. That’s why people who fix effects make a whole lot of money. Exposing is not very lucrative yet; but one day it will be. The world is moving in that direction.

If people let go and start seeing the occult beliefs and programming as false, the pyramid of power will come tumbling down. The occultists like to call us useless idiots or useless eaters. That’s projection; that’s exactly what they are being by saying and doing what they say and do. However, we must remember that they have a True Self too; sadly, it’s highly unlikely that they will find their True Self until they’re forced to lose and lose bigly. By exposing them, however, they will ultimately lose. By rejecting their projections, they will ultimately lose. By ignoring their symbols and rituals, they will definitely lose. By living our true and perfect life, they will lose bigly. When they realize that they have lost, and will never win again, then they will all be banging at the door of Gateway To Gold to learn to let go. They will want freedom too…everyone does.

Moving from Bravery to Courage

Lately, I’ve felt the pull to do an article on courage.  Then yesterday, our fearless take-down-the-globalists President Trump tweeted that we were going to learn about the word courage soon.  I realized that my idea was an inspired thought, and I needed to get busy writing. I had some information that would be helpful to others. This article is specific. However, you can apply what I’m demonstrating to any situation.

Before we begin, let me give you a warning. Don’t read my writing like you are reading a novel. You have to read it slowly. When you feel emotions, let go of whatever you’re thinking. I write to give you power tools to let go, and to expose what’s false. When you feel emotions, you generally believe whatever I’m saying. Or you’re judging whatever I’m saying. So stop and notice what’s in your mind so that you can let go. You can’t let go of the truth. So never hesitate to let go. Also, you don’t need to memorize anything I write. You don’t need to learn a thing; in fact, I encourage you not to learn from me. I’m not a teacher or guru; I’m an advocate for freedom.

Pythagoras said that if you can find two sides of a triangle, you know the third side.  So let’s do a triangle together for this topic.  Fear is the unwanted side of the triangle bottom.  Opposite to fear, we have bravery where we face our fear and do it anyway.  Bravery is viewed as the desirable side of the triangle bottom.  Bravery is what we generally expect from a soldier.  They generally have to suppress their fear because they’re in a battle.  That’s why they often have PTSD when the battle is over. Their body-mind is trying to let go after the threat is gone.  But they’ve never learned how to let go. Sadly, they don’t teach that skill in the military.

Our conditioning, when we feel fear, is to either go into bravery or to wallow in the fear.  Going into bravery is done by asserting, i.e., thinking or acting. If we don’t take some mental or physical action, we tend to feel depression or despair, which is wallowing in our emotions. The assertive side of the triangle bottom is the masculine role or mindset. The receptive side is feminine.

You handle each side of the triangle bottom by letting go like I have outlined in other articles on this site. There’s no significant power in either side of the triangle bottom.  However, we tend to feel more powerful on the masculine, assertive side. That’s because we generally project our emotions on to the feminine. Only the masculine role can project. The feminine can only receive. But that assertive false power is nothing compared to the real power at the top of the triangle. Either role on the triangle bottom can get to the top of the triangle from my point of view. I teach people how to let go from the masculine and the feminine roles.

Courage is different than bravery.  Courage is at the top of the triangle.  Courage is a True Self quality, like freedom, peace, or unconditional love.  We’re whole in courage, so we don’t see others as our opposition. Courage is the absence of fear.  

In courage, we’re in win win for all. This can be confusing until you get used to the win-win point of view. Often the win-win outcome is simply the rejection of a projection. I’ll show you what I mean by that in a moment.

So how do we get from fear to courage? This is how we fix every problem on earth without fighting or war. Courage emanates from the inside out. Let’s say that we feel fear, dread, or worry. First, we have to catch any programmed tendency to go into bravery. We might feel the urge to do something physical, to take action; or we might try to soothe ourselves with some positive thinking or affirmations. That’s avoiding our emotions. Most people want to get out of their emotional state. But as you know, our emotions aren’t the enemy in initiation. Our emotions are ALWAYS telling us to turn inward…to let go.

So instead of going toward bravery, like we’re conditioned to do, we honor the fear (emotion).  We notice that the fear is just an emotion…we strip it of its label.  The emotion is saying that whatever we’re thinking right now is false.  Now here’s where things can get tricky, and even advanced people in my programs get trapped by this one.  Our reality isn’t true if it’s coming from beliefs.  So we have to ignore reality, and that can be hard to do. You won’t get results if you try to let go as you stare at reality and proclaim it to be true. You’ve got one foot on the gas and one on the brake. You have to focus on your mind and ignore the physical reality. The physical is just the effect of the mental cause. We don’t ever need to pay attention to the physical when we let go and create from the inside out.

When we manifest from beliefs, we create an illusion 100 percent of the time.  So most of what we have created in the past…whether wanted or not…has been an illusion. I know, it looks real and true.  But it’s real and false. When I was training myself to make this shift, I’d remind myself: “What I’m experiencing right now is the effect of all of my beliefs up until this moment.” Then I’d turn inward and get to work letting go of whatever I was thinking. Then I’d take whatever I got physically.

Now this is where you need to observe closely. People often say to me in a whiny voice, “Cathy I get emotional if I just hear my mother’s name.” There’s a reason for that thought, and it isn’t their mother’s name or their mother. It’s a belief that they have about their mother. Maybe they think that mom is more powerful than they are. Or maybe they can’t imagine talking to mom without a battle. Those are just beliefs to let go. We have to take the focus away from others in initiation. We can’t see what’s in our mind if we are focusing on another person or an outer effect. We’re not looking in the right direction. This is just common sense. But people often lose their common sense when they’re emotional.

The collective illusion has become like a thick fog. People can’t see in it or beyond it. But if you have a bright light, you can see far enough through the fog so that you can move through it. That bright light is a metaphor for our OWN True Self.

If you get to the perspective of the True Self, there’s no fear…no emotion…no confusing fog. You’re totally calm, and you know everything will be just fine. That’s the place of courage. Any action you take will be minimal and easy. This takes some getting used to. People are used to reacting and taking excessive actions.

Let me give you a personal example of courage.  My first year in college, I was in my dorm room studying on a Saturday night.  I was alone.  Everyone else was partying or at a football game.  I had my windows and door open.  Suddenly I heard my door shut.  I looked up thinking that the wind blew it shut, and there was a gang of dudes (looked like about ten) standing there looking at me.  I stood up, facing them; fortunately, I was totally in courage. I had no fear.  I had no thought in my mind.  I asked them what they wanted. They said they wanted sex.  I told them that I wasn’t interested and they needed to leave. I spoke in a very calm voice.  I said a few more sentences that were inspired.  We don’t think when we talk from inspiration.  Words just come out of our mouth.  Every one of them turned and left.  

For years, I wondered why women get raped when I got rid of ten huge guys with such ease.  It bothered me. I felt like I needed to figure out what happened so that I could help others avoid such horrific events. But I also wanted to know what I did for my benefit. If I didn’t know how I did that, then how could I do it again? The key was in understanding courage versus bravery. 

You can make yourself brave, but you can’t make yourself courageous.  You can’t fake courage. You either have it or you don’t. You can let go, however, and then you remember your natural state of courage.  

The True Self doesn’t create pain, suffering, crimes, problems, disease, etc. The reason people are so confused on this simple topic is that they have been following people who I call clones for most of their lives. Clones present their belief system as the truth. But no belief system is the truth. You can NOT get to the True Self on a ladder of beliefs. Every beliefs is divided. One side sounds great and is desirable, and the opposite is generally something that we don’t want in our lives. We have to get rid of both sides of a belief to eliminate problems from our lives. People get trapped because they hold on to the good side of the triangle bottom.

I was a 5’2”, 100-pound woman.  Every one of those guys was huge compared to me.  I later learned that they were a high school football team. They had an intention…gang rape.  I didn’t accept what they projected.  I talked to them like someone had offered me a slice of pizza, and I wasn’t hungry.  “No. I don’t want to do that. So you can leave.”  You don’t talk like that from bravery or fear. You will have emotions in your voice. The triangle bottom is never safe. But when we get to the top of the triangle, we can’t help but be safe.

It’s crazy. We all have so much more power, creativity, and control than we realize because people who wanted to control us, and make us into their slaves, hid the information that I’m giving to all of you. That’s why I was inspired to tell you this NOW. We’re in a time of opportunity when many longstanding, collective beliefs are on the surface. We can let go and make great progress toward freedom personally and collectively during this window.

All problems happen within the illusion.  And the globalists who have been controlling our world from the shadows have created most of the problems that we see in the world. So letting go will ultimately fix this for all. But it takes time. And you can’t let go for another. We all have individual mental containers and free will. That being said, as we get free and expose the illusion as false, we make the illusion more transparent. So it becomes easier and quicker for others to escape.

The key to my safety in that college incident was the power of the True Self.  That’s a knowing.  If you look at the Steps, I was in Step Three.  I wasn’t afraid (Step One).  I had no judgment of those guys (Step Two).  I wasn’t trying to be nice and manipulate them (Step 2.5).  I was solid in Step Three.

You can’t fake courage until you make it.  What if I was in that incident and I did feel fear. Let’s say that I was not in Step Three. That would mean that I believed what the dudes said to me.  I was allowing them to create that illusory reality, and they cast me in the feminine role. But I rejected the feminine part in their little stage play. I had the true masculine role. So they were actually feminine to me. And I told them to leave, so they did. We always win in the true masculine role, but the outcome is actually win win for all. It was win win for them to not get what they wanted. It was a false desire, and it would have caused harm in their life in time. Bravery, on the other hand, does not result in win win; it results in win lose.

Now let’s be practical. To let go in the moment when we’re in a scary situation takes practice.  We get practice by cleaning up old memories from the past. It’s never too late to clean up the past.  Let’s say that I screwed up on that day in college, and I got raped.  Now years later, I find my websites; and I learn to let go. I could let go of the false beliefs in my mind that allowed that incident to happen, and that memory would no longer bother me.  Sadly, we don’t realize that we can let go of everything traumatic from our past and return to our True Self.  So we don’t do it. People stay stuck in their misery.

This is where you find true equality. We all start out in different places with different beliefs, but we can all let go and get to our True Self in one lifetime. Forget that stupid reincarnation and karma bullshit. It’s a choice, and we all have free will; but it’s a choice to be stuck in an illusion for multiple lifetimes.

For most people, emotions build up over time because the person keeps replaying their traumatic memories in their mind.  They label themselves victims.  They might spice the memory with some right and wrong and good and evil.  So they bind themselves on the triangle bottom with layers and layers of second-cause thinking.  They also tend to tell their victim story over and over again.  Often they want justice or revenge.  All of that takes them away from freedom.  And then, they end up with chronic problems in their body or a serious disease. That’s not their fault because occultists hid letting go from us a long, long time ago. We’re talking four-to-six thousand years ago. But that doesn’t matter. It’s never too late to start letting go. 

In conclusion, let’s go back to President Trump’s message.  I looked up the etymology of the word courage and noticed that throughout history, back to the year 1200, the word was related to matters of the heart or spirit.  So it confirmed what I wrote above.  Courage is meant to relate to a quality of the True Self.  Also, the word heart is the same letters as the word earth. We all share the same earth, and our True Selves are connected permanently; our beliefs are what separate us. Having group beliefs is an illusion of unity; it’s not real unity.

So I saw the message as telling us to not believe the reality that we were about to see or were currently viewing; it’s an illusion. I’m telling you to do the same. If you feel emotion about some globalist scam, let go of whatever you think about that situation. The emotion means that it’s false. Use this time and these crazy events to get freedom, not to wallow in fear and worry.

Also, what’s happening in America is not just about America.  We all share the same earth.  If the globalists are completely removed from power in America, they’re also removed for every country. This is important to me; my North Star is freedom for all. You all are part of that vision if you are reading this. But that doesn’t mean that I can do it for you. I can only show you the way.

Nevertheless, you can bet your last dollar that I’m going to do what I can to make this globalist takedown happen. If America regains its political freedom, we all win. But if America drowns, which it won’t, the whole rest of the world would drown with us.

Of course, political success doesn’t mean that we gain freedom over other beliefs systems, and there are plenty of them. You’ll still have more to let go. But this will be a giant step in the right direction.

So Buckle up friends.  We may be hitting some turbulence soon.  But anything that causes fear is an illusion.  Let go of whatever you fear even if it appears to be real and true.  I’ve been watching this closely for five years, and known about this for over twenty years; we’ve got a trustworthy pilot now.  So we’ll be landing safely.  Enjoy the ride.  

Luce: The Movie (and Clones)

The Luce Official Trailer

The movie “Luce” recently came out in theaters.  I saw it months ago at a San Diego film festival event.  I wrote this article right after I saw it, but never published it.  I do have some spoilers throughout the article.  If you want to be surprised, see the movie before you read it. On the other hand, my review will give you a different perspective regarding the characters’ minds; so if you read the article first, you’ll probably see things that you’d have otherwise overlooked.

As I edited this article, I realized that this movie was a great review of the illusion, letting go, clone characters, and initiation…all the things that I write about. The movie is based on the biggest roadblock that we have on the path to freedom. Who is telling the truth, and who is lying? The last line of the trailer sums up the whole movie. “We never really know what’s going on with people.” That’s how it is for most people. But I show you that you can know what’s going on for anyone once you understand the way the human mind was designed and the way it was reprogrammed. Then you’re able to have true compassion for anyone.

Luce” was a film festival favorite at the Sundance and the Tribeca film festivals.  The advertisement for the film festival event that I attended said that the film was about the stories that we tell ourselves and the beliefs that we need to let go.  I thought, “Wow, this film has my name on it.

In addition, the screenwriter, J.C. Lee, was holding a Q&A session after the film.  I love getting the perspective of screenwriters. I love hearing about their writing process and learning where they got their ideas. Lee was introduced as the most innovative and up-and-coming screenwriter today. Clearly my expectations for this film event were very high.

Here’s the plot.  A black child from Africa named Luce was trained to kill as a child terrorist. Luce was adopted by a wealthy, white American couple (the Edgars) when he was about seven or eight years old.  He grew up in a home where he had everything he wanted and needed, and he became a very intelligent and successful teenager. The movie was only about Luce’s senior year in high school. 

The film opened with Luce giving a well-crafted speech to his senior class.  Luce was decent looking, a great athlete, popular, and an excellent speaker.  He was also a star on the debate team, so he clearly knew how to win an argument. Lawyers, i.e., people who debate for a living, make really good liars. They can lie without showing any emotion. Debating is about winning an argument not getting to the win-win point of view or finding the truth. So I’m not fond of debating; it doesn’t take us toward freedom. But debating served Luce’s character in the film.

In his speech, Luce talked of loving the American Dream.  He talked of freedom and especially of loving the American holiday, Independence Day.  Luce was considered a school hero because of his amazing transformation from terrorist fighter in Africa to successful American teenager. 

After the speech, Luce introduced his parents to his history teacher, Harriet Wilson, who was a black woman; her character was played by Octavia Spencer. Luce gushed over how much he loved this particular teacher.  His comments were clearly over-the-top.  It was all for show.

On the way home from the speech, Luce admitted to his parents that he actually hated Ms. Wilson; he referred to her as a bitch.  So we learned that Luce had a nice, middle class public persona covering a private false self that was full of anger and rage. That isn’t uncommon. Most people hide what they’re really thinking in public, or so I’m told. As you can probably tell, I say what I’m thinking in public and in private. Luce was interesting mostly because he was so extreme.

The students in the “bitch” teacher’s class were given an assignment to write about an inspiring leader.  Luce wrote about an African philosopher, Frantz Fanon, who believed in the necessity for revolutionary violence.  Fanon was an anti-colonialist and a Marxist. Luce was a child soldier who lived by Fanon’s philosophy before he came to live with the Edgars. So he had a very rough start in life.

Luce was a walking contradiction. On the one hand, he loved Independence Day, the day when we celebrate freedom in America. He was clearly benefitting by American capitalism. He had a very nice life. On the other hand, Luce just wrote about a Marxist who would love to destroy American freedom and turn America into a communist country. So for Luce, physical freedom (constitutional republic) and lack of physical freedom (communism) would be a strong triangle bottom. Bear in mind, that Luce’s perspective of freedom is very different from the triangle top that I write about. In initiation, mental freedom is the top of the triangle.

Physical reality is always the effect of our mind. So initiates didn’t fix effects. They fixed their minds by letting go (not positive thinking or affirmations), and the effects changed. When people are wired backwards, and most people are, they think that their thoughts come from whatever happened. So they remain stuck in the illusion. They’ve blocked the exit ramp.

To make matters worse, Luce’s leader violated my precision of language rule. If you want freedom, you can’t relabel ugly things like terrorism with pretty words. You have to let the ugly things go. Fanon used the term revolutionary combined with the word violence. Of course, that sounds a lot better than terrorist. However, it’s deceptive; violence is never revolutionary; it’s always primitive because it’s always win-lose, not win-win.

Luce’s paper was rooted in his African past, so it was very convincing; he knew his subject matter well.  It was grounded by his early years of life in a warzone. Ms. Wilson felt that Luce idolized Fanon, and Fanon wasn’t a good role model for him.  That was on the surface. However under the surface, Ms. Wilson was picking up the incongruence in Luce.

Incongruence is what we feel around people who are living at the triangle bottom on any subject. They’re always in two minds. It doesn’t mean they’re bad or evil; it just means that they don’t actually believe what they’re saying. They believe something else that would NOT sound good, kind, or socially correct. How can Luce be for freedom and idolize this man at the same time? He has to be in two minds to do that.

We have to step into Ms. Wilson’s shoes to understand her predicament. On the one hand, she’s black. She clearly loves Luce’s rags-to-riches story and wants him to do well. She also doesn’t want to fall prey to any black stereotypes because she’s been down that road herself. On the other hand, she’s holding pretty convincing evidence that Luce could be dangerous to the other students. She has to be responsible as a teacher. It’s odd to be in such a quandary. You wonder if you’re reading too much into the situation; but at the same time, you realize that the old adage, “it’s better to be safe than sorry,” might be the right way to go.

Ms. Wilson felt that Luce could be a potential school bomber.  So she searched his locker and found some illegal fireworks.  For her, that sealed the deal. She met with Luce’s mother, who took the fireworks home and hid them. She didn’t deal with Luce. She was in a quandary too; without letting go, we tend to end up in these rock-and-a-hard-place predicaments.

Now we have another triangle bottom. Luce’s teacher, Ms. Wilson, was on the suspicious, responsible, overly-cautious side. Luce’s mother was making excuses for Luce, and she was in denial. As you know, the two sides of any triangle bottom will play tug of war; and this was clearly demonstrated in the film. We also have a fake top of the triangle with Luce; he was by no means a True Self. But when he turned on the charm, he was definitely pretending to be a True Self. People were easily conned by his act. People are a lot like diamonds. It’s very hard to tell the difference between a real one and a fake one.

Many people today have very well-developed personas like Luce. In fact, their personas are so well-crafted that people do think they’re coming from their True Self. I call such people clone characters. They like to steal the top of the triangle from the True Self. I joke that they like to sit on their clone throne. A persona can never be a True Self; it will always be fake. The True Self comes from deep within a person’s mind. A persona/clone rests on the surface of a person’s mind. Such people won’t ever let us into their world because they have a lot to hide.

We all have such clone characters in our mind, in our life, or both. These characters want us to think that their mind is unified and true, and they want to be seen as good, loving, and kind. But under that perfect persona, they’re no such thing; clones always have long shadows that are very well hidden.

Clones work harder than a True Self to look polished. The persona becomes automatic; and that’s why people think it’s natural. A True Self is not polished; in fact, the True Self often looks more like a rough-cut diamond simply because we compare such a person to the well-polished clone. It’s easy to be confused. We are like moths to the flame…we go for the bright light even if it burns us. So we vote for clones, we go to work for clones, we study with clones, and we even love and marry clones. Then we wonder why our life isn’t making sense anymore, and we can’t seem to remember who we are.

In the Gold Circle, we work on the topic of clones a whole lot. I can only give you a taste here. People in the program are shocked by the clones that they believed in the past; they were sure that they were True Selves. So they put their beliefs into their mind. I show them the cracks. Once you know how the mind works, clones are easier to detect. They often sound good or even true, but they have divided minds. They speak a nice sounding overt message along with a harmful or unwanted covert message. They appear to shine so brightly ONLY because we’re trained to never see their darkness. Sadly, if you believe that a clone character is a True Self, you’ll see any True Self as fake or imaginary (including your own True Self).

For Luce, Frantz Fanon was still stuck in his mind. Luce idolized this man as a child, and that’s largely why he held on to the voice. If people in the film had known how to let go, they would have viewed Luce’s homework paper as a cry for help. But without letting go, it became the awakening of the beast below the beauty.

Near the end of the trailer, Luce said that people either see him as a monster or a saint. He needs to let go of both of those labels; but if he’s like most people, he’s trying to hold on to saint.

We won’t let go of a clone’s beliefs if we think that they’re telling the truth. For example, Christians have a moral clone; and they think that their moral beliefs are the truth. But those morals are just beliefs. Progressives have a politically-correct clone, and they think that saying the politically correct (PC) thing is good and right. Right and wrong, or good and evil, keep us stuck in the illusion. We escape by using true and false.

Luce was a little boy when he was in Africa. Of course, he thought that his leaders were telling him the truth. We all fall into that trap as young children.

Clones hide their shadow because they don’t like it, and they don’t realize that they can let it go. No one tells us that letting go is possible in the illusion. In this way, we’re all victims of the illusion. You can see the confusion and suffering in this film. It’s actually not that uncommon of a situation.

When people, like Ms. Wilson, expose a clone’s beliefs as false, the clone typically becomes very defensive; they hurl insults or labels at the exposer, and they tell bigger and bigger lies to cover their previous lies.  They work very hard to get everyone to believe them and to think that the truth teller is lying.

They think that they can keep their shadow under wraps by fueling their custom-made persona. So they become even more shiny. I call this, putting ice cream on manure. When the ice cream melts, the clone needs to cover the manure with more ice cream. It’s a full-time job that never ends. That’s my definition of hard work.

In psychological terms, experts would label Luce a sociopath; but that ties Luce down. It’s very hard to get free of such a label. That’s why I describe the shadow as the false self. That strips the person of a bad/evil label that could define them for life. Stripping off that label opens the possibility for Luce to exit the illusion. However, for Luce to get free, he would have to let go of his good labels and beliefs. He’d have to lose that shine, and that’s what keeps most people from letting go. The idea of losing their shine terrifies them. They fear judgment, humiliation, banishment, and loneliness. The clone’s goodness (saint) and the false self’s badness (monster) form an inner triangle bottom. We must take out both sides to get free and move to the top of the triangle.

Let’s face it, we all want Luce to become the great guy that he wants to be. But it isn’t win-win for all if he’s incongruent, manipulative, and lies to get what he wants. We all need to mentally earn what we get physically. The one constant law of the initiates was mental cause creates physical effect. That’s congruence, and it’s very rare these days.

After Ms. Wilson saw Luce’s shadow, the dynamic between her and Luce became weird.  It makes sense. It’s like she saw him mentally naked. She can’t unsee what she has seen. Luce felt exposed, and clones hate exposure. They see exposure like a vampire views light.

So Luce turned up the volume on his saintly persona; now he looked uber good.  He was helping others, buying flowers for Ms. Wilson, and apologizing for anything he’d ever done wrong without actually admitting that he did anything wrong.  He was trying to demonstrate that Ms. Wilson was lying. But she was not lying. She was basing everything she said on FACTS.

I’m not going to go through the whole story, but Luce told lie after lie; and like most clones, he was a convincing liar.  The filmmaker did a great job of allowing us to see what was going on in each character’s mind, while simultaneously hiding the obvious from the characters themselves so that they look surprised and bewildered.

Along the way, Luce raped a girl, he blew up Ms. Wilson’s desk with fireworks, and he painted hateful words on Ms. Wilson’s house.  Of course, others got blamed for what he did.

On the surface, it looked like he was reflecting Ms. Wilson; after all he was her student in a physical feminine role. She was a teacher, which is a physical masculine role. But this is why clones are so tricky. Mentally, the roles are the opposite of the physical when strong clone characters are involved in any relationship. This throws us for a loop. Luce had the mental masculine role even though physically he was in a feminine role.

Later on, we will see that Ms. Wilson was actually feeling the projection of Luce’s shadow. That’s why she knew him so well. I understand Ms. Wilson. It’s how I expose clones. Clones always project long shadows. A True Self, or even someone with false beliefs but no fake persona/clone, doesn’t project. Like real life, most of the people in this story didn’t notice the projections because Luce had such a charming personality.  

Luce’s parents kept avoiding the problem. They discussed Luce as they drank several bottles of wine each night.  Eventually, the mother was faced with a difficult choice. She must admit that her child was lying, or she must start lying herself to protect him.  She chose to lie to protect him. Of course she did that; the movie still had a long way to go. If she told the truth, the story would be over. That’s a good life lesson. When you want to end drama, tell the truth…the whole truth.

Now let’s dive into the psychology of Luce. The screenwriter was basing Luce’s character on a very popular, but false, Jesuit belief that we’re all mentally imprinted from birth to about age seven.  The reason they choose the age of seven was partly practical. Most of us are in school by age seven; so we start to use our mind to learn at that age. We start to develop an intellect. That means that we can actually think for ourselves, but we don’t because we’re placed in schools were we learn what others want us to learn.

The other reason for the age of seven is based on occult teachings. The occultists believe that our life is lived in seven-year cycles. Occultists tend to be lunar focused and matriarchal minded; so a seven-day cycle fits almost perfectly into a lunar month. Thus age seven is the end of our first seven-year cycle in the occult way of thinking. It’s all bullshit. Don’t believe it.

What they call the seven-year imprint would be part of our false self in my terminology. The Jesuits believe that you can tone down that seven-year imprint with calming things like meditation, medication, or practices like martial arts or Tai Chi; or you can cover that false self with a nice persona/clone. The Jesuits also believe that this early programming will never go away.  In other words, they want us to BELIEVE that we can’t let the imprinting go. This is the reason why religion is introduced at a young age.  They want us to hold on to religion for life so that we’ll remain stuck in their illusion. The Jesuits believed that if they can get into our mind before age seven, then they will have us for life.

Of course, I prove them wrong every day. Speaking of clones, Jesuit Pope Francis, i.e., Pope Frankenstein, is the perfect example of a clone with a long shadow. He’s been completely exposed in recent times; and probably won’t be Poping for much longer. But when he first took his clone throne, people adored him. He was so charming, just like Luce. He said and did all the right things. That’s always the signature of a clone. I took a lot of heat for saying that Pope Frank was an actor and wasn’t a good man; I’ve since been redeemed.

Readers of my blogs/programs know that any supposed imprinting is just a bunch of false beliefs that we learned to hold in our minds.  We can let go of beliefs by seeing them as false from any age or time period.  We can even let go of ancestral beliefs. Early beliefs tend to be harder to let go because we’ve often manifested evidence of those beliefs. Early beliefs are often steeped with psychological reversal. We’ve made the beliefs real, so they look true; but that just proves that we’re good at manifesting shit we don’t actually want. If you let such beliefs go, then you stop creating that unwanted reality.

In my experience, there are no beliefs that we can’t let go.  But some beliefs require more persistence and determination to let go especially if those beliefs are collectively accepted as true. Labeling a belief, “the truth,” keeps us from being able to let it go. So the Jesuits are wrong.  Their belief serves them and their desire to control our minds and lives.  Nevertheless, this movie presumes that this Jesuit belief is true.

The event advertisement for the movie said that the film was about letting go.  But that was a statement made with level confusion. I’ve learned that most people think of letting go as physical, not mental.  Initiation is, and was, only about mental letting go. The physical becomes the effect of our mind as we let go. Most people think of letting go as divorcing your spouse, running away from home, or quitting your job.  Or they think that letting go is picking a nice thought over a crappy one or avoiding a touchy subject all together. None of those things are real letting go. I didn’t see any letting go in this movie. The lack of letting go is what turned the story into a heavy drama or a psychological thriller.

Luce was killing people with African terrorists from his toddler years to age seven.  It was presumed that this propensity to kill was still there, and he could not let it go.  Psychologists would say that this killer tendency was stuck in Luce’s subconscious.  Religious people might say that it was part of his soul. Eastern-minded people would say it was part of his karma. Everybody has a reason for why Luce can’t let go. Their reasons are all false beliefs. They make my job tedious.

Luce could have let go of his killer thinking; it was simply a bunch of beliefs that were not true. He would have had to let go of everything that he learned from Fanon. Luce’s mind would have psychologically reversed to hold on to Fanon’s beliefs and to make them true for him. So he’d have to realize that Fanon’s belief came with emotion, and that emotion meant the beliefs were false. Once he could see his error, then he could slowly take back control of his mental container. Everyone can get free, but they have to want it more than air. They have to be willing to let go of everything that is false, even if they think that it has served them.

The film portrayed this terrorist aspect of Luce’s mind as who Luce really was; that’s why Ms. Wilson and others believed that he was inherently dangerous.  That’s reality in the illusion. In initiation, we’re pushed to ask a bigger question. Is that true for Luce?  Of course not.  We have to be very careful when people say that some personality trait, or mental thought pattern (like transgenderism), is who a person really is.  We’re not our beliefs or our thoughts. If such people let go of everything in their mind, they would see that they’re not those qualities; they were holding on to a persistent false belief.

Because of this belief, Luce looked progressively more dangerous as the movie rolled on.  This is how people mentally devolve over time. Their friends and family don’t help them escape this fake, mentally-created illusion because they start to expect the worst from the person.

Letting go reverses this even when we have no support from others. I’ve done it. But it requires letting go from the feminine. We have to trust our emotions to get free of such a predicament. However, most people hate their emotions; they want to get rid of them. So they stay stuck.

Ms. Wilson was telling the truth.  But people thought that Ms. Wilson was lying because Luce looked so damn good. Ms. Wilson cared for a sister who was insane, and she contributed to making Ms. Wilson look bad.  Ms. Wilson also displayed appropriate emotions. By that, I mean that when she was lied to, she let the person know that they were lying; and she was noticeably uncomfortable doing that. Exposing lies isn’t in our nature; it’s hard to do it in a calm matter. In such situations, we often trust the liar because they’re the calm one. But they are calm because they think their lies are the truth…not because they’re not lying.

Ms. Wilson was reading Luce’s shadow. She was spot on. If others could do what Ms. Wilson was doing, they would have all supported her. She was the hero of this story, not Luce and certainly not Luce’s parents.

The story seemed to be loosely based on Barack Obama’s persona.  At one point, Luce likened himself to Barack Obama; he took the words right out of my mind. Like Obama, Luce was a good looking, popular, lawyer-like athlete who came from a rough start. Both were anti-colonialists and Marxists at the core. Obama had a mentor as a young child, Frank Marshall Davis, who was similar to Fanon in some ways.

Obama had a great clone, and he was very convincing. He still acts like he never had any scandals in his White House. That just isn’t true. But his scandals were hidden by the fake news media. Clones help other clones; and you end up with webs of clones in governments and other large organizations. Such lies don’t stay hidden forever. What’s hidden will become known because more and more people are whistleblowing and exposing just like Ms. Wilson. In Obama’s story, Ms. Wilson was played by Loretta Fuddy, who knew the truth about Obama’s fake birth certificate. She died in a strange plane accident. At times, I did fear that Ms. Wilson would not make it out of this movie alive. But she did.

In the Q&A, I realized that the screenwriter, J.C. Lee, didn’t see, or he didn’t admit, that the movie was a little too familiar. I wondered if he was like Ms. Wilson, and he had picked up Obama’s shadow without realizing it. It’s easy to do. I used to do that all the time before I came to understand clones and projection. I’d hear the projected covert part of the clone’s message in my mind. I’d think that their thoughts were my thoughts. After I learned to discriminate, I realized that the beliefs/thoughts that I was hearing weren’t true. I was hearing the opposite of what the person said; so it was their shadow. It wasn’t my thought so it was easy to let go as false. I experienced this every time President Obama spoke. He always had an overt and a covert message.

I suspect that’s what the screenwriter experienced. But he thought the projected thinking was his own thinking; he was not alone. Most people don’t watch their mind all the time like I do. So J.C. thought he had a great movie idea. He said that he invented the character of Luce about five years ago…uh that was when Barack Obama was president.  Coincidence? It’s just another interesting aspect to this film. It makes it even more fascinating to me.

The screenwriter said that he believed that someone telling the truth would be a heroic act, but no one does that.  That was probably why there wasn’t much truth telling in this movie. Wow!  That’s quite an admission.

The truth is what sets us free in initiation. The clone-free person is relieved to know the truth. Fear of clones is why people accept things like political correctness or social justice warriorism. Fear of clones is why people try to fit in and refuse to think independently. It’s why they ignore their emotions around others. They’re afraid of rocking the boat. In earlier times, if you exposed the clones in power, you were burned at the stake, tortured, banished from society, or beheaded. Today, we just get our accounts removed on social media.

J.C. said that humans are liars at the core.  So Luce was normal in his mindset.  That’s just NOT true. It’s not normal to lie; it’s learned behavior. No one is a liar at the core.  The further we get from our True Self, however, the more we lie. 

J.C. said that he personally faces the type of choices that Luce, Ms. Wilson, and Luce’s parents were making all the time.  J.C. was speaking truthfully about the illusion, but that would be false for someone who can let go.

J.C. said that he’s often in a situation where he either has to tell the truth and have a hard conversation, or he must lie and have a smooth conversation.  He did admit that this was a short-sighted point of view.  I’d agree with him on that. It’s also a false point of view. He said that he picks the smooth conversation 99% of the time. So he has a strong fear of clones…most people do.

Many would call such a lie a white lie.  I despise that term.  If you want freedom, you must stop lying…ditch all that political and social correctness too.  It’s never win-win…never. When you hide what you think from others, you start hiding it from yourself too. Then you just make a mess of your mind. If you let go of your judgments and beliefs, you eventually get to the place where what you think is not offensive or judgmental.  It’s helpful and constructive. It’s win-win. At that point, you always say what you think. 

J.C. did admit that this personal issue destroyed his relationships.  Well dah!  But he said that he could not change.  That’s sad, but I understand why he felt that way. His teenage years were during the Obama era.  He thought Obama was telling the truth, so he became like him.  J.C. is Luce in many ways. He admitted that. It’s a common pattern. Someone has a trusted teacher, philosopher, leader, idol, or guru; and they don’t realize that the person they idolized was giving them more beliefs. Then they get really stuck in that person’s shadow; and they can’t see any exit from their illusion. J.C. is not alone; but he’s living in an illusory bubble. That bubble will pop one day; and he’ll have one hell of a wake-up call. It happens to everyone; and it’s a hard moment, but it is the day that the potential for freedom returns.

Telling the truth, going for win-win, even when it’s hard is what sets us free.  No one in this film got free.  There was no full-circle ending.  That’s how you know the movie was based on beliefs.  We can’t get to a happily-ever-after ending with beliefs and lies.  That’s impossible.

This film was nothing like it was presented to be, at least from my point of view.  They said that the film was about the stories that we tell about ourselves.  It was actually about the stories, secrets, and lies we make up to cover our asses or to get attention or sympathy.

Then they said the film was about beliefs we need to let go.  But no one let go of any beliefs in the film.  They just lied to cover up the effects of their beliefs.  Or they ignored their beliefs.  Saying we need to let a belief go isn’t letting go.  Luce’s world was exhausting.  He had to manage appearances all the time.  

Here’s the weird thing about this film.  I really liked it.  Everyone did.  It was a good film.  I was letting go a lot, so I left without any baggage. It looked like cool fiction to me.  But others were noticeably triggered. I never saw so many people get up and walk around during a movie.  They were flooded with emotions, so they were walking them off. Clearly they had believed clones like Luce; and that was what they were feeling. So I like that J.C. was a bit of an exposer without even knowing it.

Here’s the potential for the happy, full-circle ending. It’s in Luce’s true desire, which we hear in his speech at the beginning of the movie. Luce said that he loved Independence Day.  He said the freedom of America meant everything to him.  There was his pull to initiation.  I call that our North Star. It’s what takes us outside of the illusion.

Luce wanted freedom, but he had this horrible false self.  That’s very normal. That’s where we all are when we begin initiation. None of that was Luce’s fault; but it was his responsibility. Luce could heal his mind. I know that. J.C. could too. Barack Obama could too. We all start out wanting freedom but not having it. At some point, if we don’t turn toward freedom, we develop apathy; then we just exist until we die.

Luce thought he could get freedom by creating a pleasing clone. That’s pretty normal too. Luce certainly wasn’t the first to think that.  Sadly, most experts believe that lie.  Too often people think that they can’t be themselves. They believe that they can’t have their true desires. They can, but they have to let go to get them.

As initiation takes us closer and closer to the core of our mind, we actually stop creating false desires (good and bad ones); it’s then that we start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. We start remembering who we are and what we’ve always wanted from life; our life starts to make sense again. The world around us also starts to make sense. Clones look like clones, and the illusion looks like an illusion. Beliefs sound like beliefs. That’s mental freedom.

Who Am I? I’m A Creator, A Free Thinker…

 Who am I?

By Cathy Eck

 

Who Am I?

This is my last post for a while.  I assure you that everything you need to get mentally and emotionally free is on this site and Gateway to Gold.  But you have to work at it.  You have to want freedom more than you want air to get it.  Reread old posts; what you understand will change as you let go.  You’ll often think that I changed the material, but I probably didn’t.  You changed.  Letting go happens in layers.

Challenge your thoughts/beliefs, even if your mind is telling you with absolute certainty that what you’re experiencing or thinking is true.  Let go of positive beliefs, not just negative ones.  I talk about this in my article on the Triangle Process.  As you let go, you’ll answer life’s biggest question, “Who Am I?”   But don’t confuse what I’m saying with the eastern practice of asking that question over and over again.  My work has nothing to do with eastern teachings and practices.  People often get confused by that.  I didn’t understand this eastern confusion for a long time.  I had to mentor people who had it.  Then I put what I learned from working with them into the Gold Circle material.  They had what I call a True Self clone, and this was keeping them from letting go.  They learned the truth from some teacher or guru, or even studying someone’s writing intensely; and they put the learned truth into their false mind.  That blocked them from connecting with their real True Self.  Then they read and learned what I was saying like that would get them free.  They weren’t actually letting go.  They told themselves that learning was letting go.  It isn’t. You can’t learn your way to your True Self. 

I didn’t have that issue; I had never been a follower.  I didn’t even have much of a persona.  I could never lie very well.  So I didn’t understand what was going on with these people.  But I did want to help them get free; I felt that their desire for freedom was sincere.  I had to go into their illusion to understand why they were so stuck.  That period of research and mentoring others became the Gold Circle.  The clone is the masculine part of our false mind that can pretend to be our True Self.  It learns how to sound like a True Self, but it isn’t the True Self.  Clones confuse a lot of people these days.  Most of those popular spiritual teachers and gurus are very strong clones and that means that they project a lot.  Religious leaders are also clones who project sin on their followers.  Also progressive politicians are very strong clones that project a whole lot on their followers.  Their followers don’t realize what is happening.  It’s cruelty masked as caring.

Thus people who follow them come to believe that they don’t know who they are when they actually do completely know who they are.  They simply took a projection from a so-called spiritual teacher or charismatic leader.  In the Gold Circle, I help people let go of the clone voices that they put in their minds, and they start to realize that they do know who they are.  I can’t stop these clones from doing what they do.  They have the right to do what they want.  But I can tell you how to get free of them; then you return to your True Self.  You don’t need their truth; you had it within you all along.

You didn’t arrive on earth wondering who you were.  You were curious and alive…a True Self.  You saw someone walking, you watched them, you took the risk, and you walked.  You heard people talk, and you learned to speak and matched words to objects, people, and experiences.  Learning and life were fun.  But you were never supposed to learn beliefs or get a belief system of any kind.

Recently, I heard on television that children’s brains are completely fired up until they start answering the question “I am…?”  They start creating a false identity, labeling themselves; and their brain appears to shut down.  As people get older they identify with their beliefs and their belief systems; they really start to shut down.  That is the start of what I refer to as the clone mind.  But I don’t talk about it much in the free material because it is very confusing.  Explaining the clone, and exposing popular clones, required that I put together a systematic way of approaching the subject.  It requires people to really want to do get free and not just be casual about letting go.  So the Gold Circle was born.

If you don’t have much of a clone, the free work will probably be all you need.  Either way, I require that people do my free work first, so do that and see if you are still stuck when you are done.  You need to already be letting go when you enter the Gold Circle.  I don’t teach the basics of letting go in that program.

That being said, I want to give you one big caution as you read my free work.  You were trained to learn and memorize what you read.  Stop IT!  Don’t learn what I’m saying.  I write to expose what is false.  I teach you how to let go by using your emotions and win-win logic.  Practice what I’m saying, and do it as you read.  Read slowly, and stop when you feel emotions; take the time to let go.  The more you practice, the easier it gets.  It’s a new way of using your mind and emotions.  It goes against what you have been trained to do.  Witness the emotions until you are free of that belief.  If you don’t know what I mean by witnessing, check out https://gatewaytogold.com/meditation-for-the-western-mind/.  Letting go can take minutes or days.  It depends on how much you’ve believed your beliefs in the past.  It depends how feminine you are to others.  It depends on how much you believe the clone voices in your mind.

Letting go is easy; the illusion is very complex.  Those who are winning in the illusion don’t want us to escape.  This project for me has taken a lot longer than I thought it would.  I had no idea that I would run into so many tricks and traps, but I did.  So I had to deal with what came up; and that is why Gateway to Gold has developed into my main site with different paid programs.  However, don’t disregard what I’ve published here.  No Labels No Lies is the meat and potatoes of letting go.  Keep working at it until you completely understand what I’m saying.

 

WTF?

People taught you to see what they saw.  You learned there was danger, suffering, problems, and disease.  You came to believe that you could get hurt, or you could hurt someone.  You learned to judge and compare.  This didn’t make sense, but you figured that those who came before you must know the truth.  They didn’t know the truth, they knew their beliefs; and they believed that their beliefs were the truth.

You were given the knowledge of good and evil (the shit that caused us to fall).  Good now had an opposite…EVIL.  You learned to hate and fear other humans.

We see what we hold in mind…what we believe.  How do we get back to who we once were?   It seems impossible.  Their beliefs appeared to get stuck in our minds.  How did that happen?  We asked, and they answered.  They gave us reasons for why we were stuck; and those reasons were all lies.

“You were born sinful.  Your memories of perfection are imaginary…visions of heaven.  Go to church to make sure you get to heaven when you die.”  What a crock of shit!  The east wasn’t any better…they gave you karma and a caste system.

Your character was slowly constructed.  You learned to be good and worthy so you could get a good-paying role in society and work hard.  “Life isn’t meant to be easy,” they say.

Knowledge consumed your mind.  Those who memorized the most knowledge got the best roles.  They’re called experts.  I call them clones.  Clones are great in the illusion; they are worthless once we want freedom.  Creative thinkers sound strange in the illusion.  Philosophers look lazy.  Artists starve.  Inventors can’t afford to create their inventions unless the inventions please “The Man.

Your pure thinking and true goodness was replaced by an illusion built of beliefs in which you were judged on your ability to blindly follow.  When you got to the point where you feared judgment enough, you turned away from your True Self.

A True Self is labeled evil by false selves.  The false self believes that creativity is for people with nothing else to do.  No one can see your thoughts anyway; it’s what you do that counts.  You conformed, but then you wondered, “Who Am I?”

 

Had Enough?

Maybe you attended workshops, saw therapists, and did processes and practices; yet you didn’t find the answer.  One day, you learned how to let go.  You let go of your beliefs regarding social protocol, religion, disease, problems, culture, and sin.  You released society’s rules from your mind.  You realized that others, even experts, had nothing to offer you anymore.  Slowly…you started to remember,  “I’m a creator.  What I think is what I become.”  

Your problems came from accepting beliefs and then fixing the effects of those beliefs.  You finally knew which way to go.  You just had to keep letting go more and more until your mind was free.  But it is hard to trust such an insight.  No one is letting go.  Nearly everyone is learning…putting more crap in their mind.

 

TRUE and FALSE

The illusion runs on good/evil, right/wrong, or win/lose.  The illusion is false…powerless.  It’s believed by nearly everyone…but it isn’t real.  It’s projected from our collective beliefs.  You arrived with the truth, and you didn’t lose it.  You can’t screw up letting go.  You can’t let go of truth.  So you have nothing to lose by letting go, ever.

 

EMOTIONS MEAN FALSE

Any thought/belief that has an emotional component is false, even if the whole world believes it’s true.  Your mind desperately wants you to believe that thoughts that feel bad are true, but you fight that temptation.  You let those thoughts go.

 

WIN-WIN

Holy Shit!  You aren’t a fucking sinner.  The more you let go, the more you despise competition, oppression, and domination.  You’d never harm another.  You won’t even judge another anymore.  You realize that a true thought is win-win for everyone.  No belief system can be true.  Belief systems separate us.

 

MASCULINE AND FEMININE ROLES

You realize that those who have masculine (authority) roles make the rules.  The judging God was actually a human being…a false, power-tripping leader who imposed his illusion, where he wins and we lose, on everyone else in the name of God.  You don’t want to even play good roles in the illusion — they always harm someone.

 

PROJECTION

Leaders in false masculine roles often look like True Selves because they project their judgments and the unwanted half of their beliefs on to people in feminine roles.  You now see and hear the false masculine’s incongruence.  The leaders see enemies, evil, suffering, poverty, and disease because it’s inside of them.  It’s not true; it’s their illusion…their reality.  Underneath their mask is a powerless human who’s lost.  They’re pawns of the illusion fixing their own projections.  We should ignore them, not follow them.

 

PHYSICAL VS. MENTAL PERSPECTIVE

We were programmed to see a physically-focused perspective of reality which blinds and confuses us. We look at the quality of people’s doing and ignore their thinking.  Sadly, false thinking looks normal.  True good comes from a pure mind.  When our mind is impure, we can look good by doing the right things; but we aren’t truly good.

 

LET IT GO

The illusion told us that it could give us what we already were.  The illusion only lies.

When we can no longer stand the illusion, we let it go.  As we let go of the judgments, labels, beliefs, and knowledge/expertise, we’re left with the truth.  We remember who we are.  We’re creators who bring our ideas to life for the benefit of everyone.  Keep letting go; don’t stop until you get to freedom.  It’s your birthright.

Dealing with Fragile Egos as Characters

fragile ego

By Cathy Eck

 

Fragile Egos

When someone holds their beliefs as absolutely true, they become a “fragile ego.” Fragile egos exist at all levels of society.  We have to let them break to get free.

Fragile egos send a clear message:  “If you obey me, I’ll reward you.  If you disobey, I’ll punish.”  They’re clones of the Old Testament false God (imaginary leader of the illusion) who believe they’re good people with the right to judge and punish.

Whoever disagrees with them is evil or bad.  Their biggest fear is exposure.  They lie and impose their beliefs on others in order to look powerful while hiding their belief that they’re weak.

The most dangerous fragile egos wear a nice mask causing them to look like a True Self.  They say and do what the illusion considers good; they generally look happy and calm.  They believe that what you do, not how you think, makes you good.  Good, by their definition gets rewarded.  That’s how the illusion works.

But the true world doesn’t work that way.  Rules and projection don’t exist outside the illusion, we manifest what we believe.

Underneath the fragile ego’s mask is an emotional storm; their actions aren’t congruent with their thinking.  They’re filled with rules and beliefs.  When we disobey or say, “No,” to their demands, their emotions roar.  They don’t see their OWN thinking as the cause of their emotions.  They blame the feminine role because their Adam-and-Eve based mythology gave them the right to.

The fragile ego projects their responsibility and emotions outward.  In fact, when we’re conditioned by fragile egos, we often become overly responsible.  We take responsibility for their emotions because they claim we’re the cause.  We aren’t.

 

The Wall

In mentoring, I call the eruption of the fragile ego, “hitting the wall.”  Letting go looks impossible.  Strong religious, scientific, or political views look absolutely true.  Arguing with the fragile ego does no good.  The fragile ego repeats its knowledge, rules, and beliefs like a robot.  It sees evidence that supports its thinking; it’s sure it’s right.

We only see evidence because we believe the cause.  We hold a really strong belief, but it’s still false.  If we let go of the causal belief, we’ll see different evidence.  When we try to challenge fragile ego beliefs in ourselves or others, psychological reversals kick in.  The thoughts clearly generate emotion, they’re not win-win, and they’re taking us away from freedom; but we can’t remember that the emotion means false.  Until we routinely catch this in ourselves, we won’t catch it in others.

 

They’re Characters

Our OWN fragile ego consists of voice recordings acquired from others who forced their beliefs into our mind.  We did feel emotions when we first heard their words; but we were afraid to challenge them.  Their words are NOW constantly squatting in our mind.

After letting go for awhile, we do come to know that the recordings are false.  And yet, people tell me that the fragile ego is still running their life.   They still behave as the fragile ego would want them to behave or say what the fragile ego would consider socially or politically correct.  They still can’t be themselves.

 

An Exercise

Imagine yourself in the center of your mind; see the fragile egos who have limited your life with beliefs, rules, and knowledge in the periphery of a giant circle looking at you.  They’re keeping you from leaving the circle.

Review old memories in your mind. Bring up fragile ego encounters from the past. Let the fragile ego characters slowly replay the scene.  Discriminate and let go as they talk.  Also let go of any judgments or reasoning that arises in your mind about these characters. Judgment on your part keeps you stuck to them.  You might never see them again; but when you clean up their character in your own mind, you won’t meet that same sort of person again.  Of if you do, you’ll stay powerful.

You can take this even further.  We tend to think that we must change the real life fragile ego characters or get them to stop judging us.  But many of them will never change or stop judging.  Are you going to wait until they change to live your life?  I hope not.

Step into their character within your own mind.  Speak their beliefs, and feel their emotions arise when they speak something false or judgmental.  Assume they can discriminate and let go, and do so.  It’s your mind!  These are your characters! You have the power to clean up their words in your mind.  In this way, we change the past.

See if this fragile ego still has power over you.  If so, ask yourself, “Why?”  Let go of the reasons that your mind gives you.  Clean up more memories.

You aren’t affecting the real life person in any way — good or bad.  When your mind is clear, they won’t bother you.  Their beliefs will only affect them.

Our false minds were meant to be creative containers, separate and distinct from others people’s minds, so we could all create independently.  We’ve never had the right to impose our beliefs on others.  We only do it because others did it to us.

When you realize that you don’t deserve their judgment, they don’t have power over you anymore.  When you understand that their rules are false, they don’t apply to you.  If they say that you’re hurting them, you don’t take it in.  In fact, I’ll often say to fragile egos, “You’re telling me what I should believe; how can I be hurting you?”

Fragile egos can be difficult.  But we can get through that wall if we take our rock hammer and chip away one belief or memory at a time.  Eventually, we’ll break through their highly tinted glass.  We’ll escape their influence without fighting them.  When we clean our OWN mind, they lose their false power.  They can’t harm us anymore.

 

Taking Your Power Back By Playing a Game

Breaking through the wall

By Cathy Eck

 

FYI:  This is an advanced post that might not make sense if you’re new to letting go.

Stuck in Someone’s Beliefs

My blog readers aren’t heads of government, religions, or corporations.  They’re creative people who feel stuck in belief systems that were imposed upon them by others.  They often feel locked in a feminine role.

The majority of leaders and authority figures (even family leaders) see enemies and problems to be fixed in the people who play feminine roles beneath them.  They don’t realize that the problems and enemies they see actually exist ONLY in their own mind.  They speak as if the illusion that their mind created is real and true; it is for them.  We all see what we believe.  The false masculine thinks that its beliefs are God’s laws.  It rewards and punishes accordingly.

Our problems began when we believed our first false masculine leader or parent.  We began to see what they said we should see.  Life on earth has been this way for thousands of years.  It will change when we stop believing what others claim to see or know — when everyone admits that the Emperor is buck naked.

Here’s a game to help you escape the feminine role.  It’s challenging, and it’s designed to show you what to let go, to improve your discrimination, and to flip your mind back into the mental, True Self perspective.  Ultimately, we want letting go to become like driving — it’s mostly automatic.

 

The Game

See yourself in front of an audience consisting of difficult people from your life — people who judge you or want to control or fix you.  They can be people you know, authority figures, or imaginary people.  You can even invite God.  Let them speak one at a time.  Allow them to say what’s wrong with you or what you need to believe or be to please them.

I want you to see that what they say is their projection and their own level confusion.  Often they are looking only at what you are doing and judging their own beliefs about it.  Sometimes they don’t even see you.  Here’s an example:  One audience member looks at you and says, “You’re lazy.  You haven’t done anything lately.”  From the physical perspective, they’re right.  You’ve been doing lots of inner work.  But you aren’t allowed to tell them off, defend yourself, or react in this game.

First, you must recognize that they’re speaking from their physical perspective — the beliefs that form their illusion.   Notice how their comment feels to you.  You probably feel emotion; remember, the emotion means that what they said was FALSE.  If you take that emotion in and defend it, you enter their illusion.  You’re powerless because their illusion is a foreign land for you.  If you simply let go of their comment because it’s FALSE, your mind stays clear and free.

Take it slow.  You might feel lots of emotion regarding their comment.  You want to drain it all by witnessing it and remembering why you felt the emotion.  Don’t label the emotion anger, fear, or rage.  That just makes it real.  The emotion is simply saying that what they said was false.  That’s all!

You’ve been letting go a lot lately; and it’s true that you’re not doing much physical work.  But are you lazy?  Mentally, no.  In fact, mentally speaking, they’re lazy.  They haven’t let go of anything.  This is what frees you.  You see that they’re judging you from their physically oriented illusion.  They’re projecting their unwanted defect of mental laziness on you by confusing levels.  A person living from the mental perspective looks like an enemy to someone in the physically oriented illusion.  In the illusion, it’s all about what they see!

We all start life at the mental perspective; and as we accept physical perspective projections from others, we fall into their illusion.  By recognizing the error of the people who cast their stones upon us, we reverse our OWN fall.  Their fall is their problem.  Once you’re clear, you’ll have the words to explain yourself to them.  Or you’ll feel comfortable not responding at all.

 

Explain Yourself!

When we’re living from the mental point of view, we’re often asked by people in the illusion to explain ourselves.  People in the physical perspective don’t understand the mental perspective.  Often the only answer we have is that we did what felt right.  By untangling these two perspectives in your mind, you move out of right-wrong.  You no longer accept their projected judgment.  Their more limited physical perspective will only affect them if you let their beliefs go from your mind.

The trick to winning this game is to remember that what they say is what’s on their mind.  You must realize that neither their conviction, emotional projection, nor authority make their words true in the mental perspective.

Don’t go into their mind.   Keep watching your mind.  See what arises next.  In some instances, you’ll notice judgments toward them in your mind; and ideally, you’ll let them go even if they deserve the judgment.  If you let your judgments toward them go, you might just get to the True Self perspective and feel unconditional love for them.  You just see life from different perspective than they do.  Understanding cleans up that gap.  You’ll see them as powerless and lost — they’re in the fallen world.  You might want to help them, but you won’t want to fix them.  People fix others because they are afraid of them.  We help others because we care.

Your audience members can leave for two reasons:  1) They admit that they don’t want to let go; that’s fine but they must leave your mind (not necessarily your life).   2) They get it, and they let go.  They no longer belong in your audience of difficult people.  Your job is to clean out the entire audience.  That’s how you win the game.

Intuition or Inspiration: What’s the Difference?

Imagination vs. intuition

By Cathy Eck

 

Inspiration

I tell people to let go and follow their inspiration.  However, there’s often confusion around my words because most people think that inspiration and intuition are the same.

I never heard the word intuition growing up.  I did hear another word a lot — imagination.  “Cathy, get out of your imagination.”  No one understood imagination either.  We all have imaginary capacity.  But most people use it the wrong way.  They use it to fuel their fear by imagining problems, pain, and suffering.

 

We’re Creators

I can’t say enough that we’re born to be creators.  But I’m using the word creator in the truest sense, where we would only create things that were win-win for everyone.  All creating starts in our imagination.  We can use our imagination to create our unique heaven on earth, or we can use it to create hell.

I remember the first time I realized that.  My husband and I were visiting his parents, who took pride in their ability to worry about everything.  Often the very thing they worried about would end up happening to someone.  One day, I couldn’t take it anymore; I told them to stop it.  You see, when I or someone else reflected their worry, they didn’t take responsibility.  They’d say, “Oh, I just knew it.”   They acted like they were prophets; and that wasn’t the case.  Their worry was misused creative power, and they were projecting it out with a very strong force.

My in-law’s worry confused me because it was wrapped in nice intention.  It kind of looked like love or even compassion; my husband was sure it was love.  I could see that they thought my inability to worry was a major character defect.  My telling them to stop was rude.

When lost in the illusion, we forget that we have an imagination that creates our life.  We should all be quick to tell people to let go of their beliefs that cause fear and worry; but often, we feel that we must accept their beliefs.

This problem is caused by level confusion.  At their physical level of reality, my in-laws were caring.  But at the mental level of reality, they were creating shit in other people’s lives.  I was attempting to free their victims although it would be years before I’d understand how to explain letting go.  Letting go of our fearful thoughts is truly compassionate; when we see this, we’re on the fast track to freedom.

 

Intuition Versus Inspiration

So many people think that their fearful thoughts and dreams are premonitions.  They don’t let them go; they spread them like viruses.  All fearful thoughts are false!

But let’s say a thought pops into your mind, and it feels calm and good.  Is it inspiration or intuition?  Inspiration happens when you’re exiting the illusion.  Inspiration moves you toward your spirit or True Self.  To get inspired thoughts, you need to have your navigational destination set on freedom.  You want your mind to be looking for exits.

Most people have set the direction of their mind on getting rich, getting approval, or winning; they want to do well inside the illusion.  They use intuition.  Tuition, you might notice, is a word associated with money and knowledge; in-tuition would be within knowledge or beliefs.

I once took a class on intuition, “Intuition for Business People.”  They told us to ask questions and then take what we got as the answer.

What they didn’t teach was discrimination because they didn’t have any.  They just assumed that if our mind said it, it was right.  Psychics say they do readings this way.  They trust what their mind gives them.  Kanye West said this is why he runs on stage at the Grammies; his mind tells him too.  People do dumb fucking things when they trust their mind blindly.  Many even think that God is guiding them — that’s how religions were invented.

 

Letting Go

I do tell people to do exactly what the psychics and intuitives do.  “Ask a question.  Don’t put answers in your mind, and just see what arises.”  The difference is that I tell them to let go of what arises.  Intuitives believe everything they get.  My “intuitive” friends never give good advice.  Their answers are only useful for those in the illusion.  This confused me.  I often felt bad for constantly rejecting their advice.

Intuition is the ability to maneuver among your beliefs and knowledge.  Intuitives have a good mental database manager that can find the best solution within their limited world view.  They do not get original information; nor do they get information that’s going to free anyone — that’s what inspiration does.

If you want to live from beliefs, follow your mind completely; and life kind of works. You keep putting more knowledge into your mind so you appear to have more options for the intuition to pick from. That’s why people become addicted to learning.

All knowledge was once someone else’s inspiration.  But knowledge is memorized.  When our mind is trained to look to memory for answers, it ignores inspiration completely.  We can’t find our creativity.

If you want to find your True Self, you allow your mind to speak; then you let go of whatever it says as untrue. You reduce the beliefs and knowledge in your mind until you’re completely clear.  Once you let go of all that false data, you discover concepts and ideas that are original, unique, and powerful.  You stop fearing and worrying.

Intuition is like a car with a decent, not great, navigator.  Inspiration, however, is like having the bird’s eye view of the entire world.  You can see everything; so you make choices from the knowing that you’re creating the perfect route and the perfect destination.  It’s only inspiration that will show you the exits to the illusion.  Intuition will just keep circling you round and round the desert in a nice, comfortable car.  And that car will run out of gas one day.

The Host Parasite Relationship

Host Parasite relationship

By Cathy Eck

 

The Host

I never thought much about the notion of hosting until visiting Ecuador for a few months. I considered the woman who owned the home I stayed in to be my host.  Ironically, I started having problems with my internet provider during that time; of course, they were my “hosting” company.  The odd thing was that my hosting company was perfect until I went to Ecuador.  Clearly an old belief was coming up for releasing.

I decided to review my memories around hosting in general.  Many memories surfaced, and all were the same situation with different people.   I’d meet someone in my home or a neutral place, and we’d get along great.  Then they’d invite me to their home where they were the host.  Now I couldn’t stand them.  I felt as if they gave me food and wine in exchange for the whining that I would endure until I could politely escape their house of horrors.  One of these people even said to me, “Now you’re on my turf.”

The host role is a masculine role.  The true masculine host gives unconditionally.  The false masculine host looks like it gives when it actually takes like a parasite; it gives conditionally.

 

Host and Parasite

The word host has an opposite or a complement, depending on how you look at it — parasite.  Wikipedia says, “The host and parasite exert reciprocal selective pressures on each other, which may lead to rapid reciprocal adaptation.”

Humans shouldn’t be adapting to each other’s false selves.  Sadly, most relationships have a fragile quality to them.  Everyone behaves like tightrope walkers focused on holding the delicate balance.  People adapt to the most fragile ones; and everyone is secretly miserable.

A whining host behaves like a parasite, sucking the life out of its guests.  As a false masculine, they establishes the tone of the experience for everyone.  The false masculine commands the power and control of the masculine role while also receiving the benefits that belong to the feminine role.  Consequently, people seek the spotlight in the home or the stage.  They get the power, and they get the attention and/or money too.  They often label that win-win.  Those of us in the feminine role label it lose-lose.  We have no power; and we receive things we don’t want.

My internet hosting company pretended to serve me.  But they sent me crap that shut down my computer and websites.  I felt that I had to protect myself from my own host.  Ah, I was now seeing the pattern.  I felt the same way when visiting these hosts — like I needed to protect myself.  Since I’m not a fan of wrapping myself in white light, I wanted to find out how I ended up in this situation over and over.

Power in the illusion requires getting others to submit to or follow the leader’s beliefs so they can get what they want.  If you look at royalty, they give nothing; they have all the power, and boy do they receive.

Both of my hosts wanted me to listen to their self-inflicted problems and feel sorry for them.  I was supposed to marinate in their crap and not hold them responsible.  I had to pretend the cause of their problem was a mystery.  I had to pretend that they were a victim.  As a good guest, I was supposed to follow this social norm.  It was time to let that go.  I’d had enough.

 

The Escape

We generally feel powerless in the feminine role.  We’ve been trained that we can’t or shouldn’t get the masculine host to change.  But I’ve discovered that when I completely let go of my feminine role in any drama (including my emotions), the scene does change.  When I let go of my feminine role in my relationship with the host, I moved beyond roles (or into a True Masculine place from their point of view).  Now I only had to make sure that I didn’t judge or label them.  I had to make sure that I was speaking truthfully, not grabbing the stage.  Frequently, the host would relax; and our conversation became light, creative, and fun.  They became a proper host.

If they just wanted power and control over me (or still thought they did), they’d try to see me as the problem — a parasite.  They wanted their beliefs or drama validated.  They were now feeling the emotions that they were previously projecting out by whining.  The angst was where it belonged, with the whiner (parasite pretending to be a gracious host).

I’d often get trapped at this point because they thought that I was causing their emotions.  If I didn’t say anything, they’d often say, “Are you doing something to me?”  Often I’d doubt myself.  Was I the cause?  We live in a strange world where we believe we can say horrible things without paying a price.  And when held accountable, people blame the listener or questioner for the emotion they feel.

When I encounter new belief patterns, I go back into my memory and replay old situations with my new understanding.  I see the memory as it was; but this time, I also let go.  I don’t take in what the other people said; I see their beliefs as just beliefs — powerless, untrue, and certainly not who they are.  I watch as the situation changes in my mind.  It has to.  Of  course, it’s perfect in my mental workshop; but my repaired memories become my new history.  This sets the tone for my future real life exchanges.  Yes, we can change the past.

Eventually, in my mental workshop, I saw that the human opposite of host wasn’t parasite; it was guest.  The host now unconditionally gave; and I, the guest, joyously received.  Ironically, once I did this inner work, my Ecuadorian host fixed up my room.  She started to give to me in many ways.  And my internet hosting company took responsibility and fixed their problem.

Living Outside the Box: Freedom

Getting outside the box

By Cathy Eck

 

Freedom

Getting freedom is about living life outside the box that others call truth or reality.  Some people just accept the box, and they never give it another thought.  They even seem to enjoy life in the box.  But some of us don’t enjoy the box at all.  We want out.  So we try to physically remove ourselves from the box.  That doesn’t get us to freedom.

Some move to the country and buy lots of land.  They get off the grid, dump their phones and computers, and live with nature.

Others make lots of money.  They believe, “Money buys freedom.”  Their bank balance causes them to feel worthy.  They can go anywhere anytime by boat, plane, or driver.  They can buy drugs and plastic surgery to keep their mind calm and their body looking young.  They can eat expensive foods prepared by world-class chefs and work out with the best trainers and equipment so they can restrict their body from revealing their beliefs without feeling the lack that us normal folks feel.

Then there are the ones that falsely set themselves aside religiously.  They’re part of a group of chosen people.  They’re going to heaven; we won’t be with them.

Others separate themselves from the status quo with education or knowledge.  They become an expert.

We all want freedom from problems and people who want to control us.  We hide from those that drive us crazy.

We try to get free by changing or upgrading things in our physical world or setting boundaries.  But we aren’t really getting freedom that way; we’re only getting a little relief from the effects of our beliefs.  Running away to an island doesn’t free us.  Fixing effects will never get us freedom.  But don’t get me wrong.  Freedom isn’t about smiling from your prison cell either.

Most people want freedom, but they have a physical perspective so they try to get freedom by fixing their physical reality.  Their physical reality is simply the effects of their beliefs.  Until they eliminate their beliefs, freedom is impossible; life will prove that to them.   The reclusive will be annoyed by a bear who becomes a constant nuisance.  The rich person will find his money can’t buy him happiness.  The religious will wait their whole life for their chosen moment, and it will never happen.  The special diet and exercise will stop working one day.  The educated will find that their knowledge is false.  The crazy friends will come back in different bodies.

 

The Mental Perspective

True freedom is a perspective.  Freedom comes from within.  If our mind is free, our body and life will reflect that freedom.  The outer world becomes the effect of our free inner world.  When our mind becomes pure, we have no effects that need fixing anymore.

When we let go of our beliefs (our false self), we naturally move into the mental perspective.  We can see both sides of duality from this perspective.  So we want to have win-win interactions with others.  We become truly enlightened and free as our True Self.  Our false desires fade away.  We become like we were initially, at birth.

What we try to fix in the physical perspective is probably our biggest trap.  The one who runs away and hides in nature has a fear of people.  Relationship beliefs will keep them stuck even if their only relationship is that bear.

The billionaire’s trap is money.  For him or her to get free, they might have to lose it all.  It’s too easy for them to fix effects with money.  That’s why Jesus said that it was pretty damn hard for the rich person to get to heaven.

If we want to fix our body, then that’s our trap.  We have to stop the madness and start letting go.

If knowledge is our trap, we’ll keep seeking more and more knowledge only to find it’s all worthless currency.

The religious and spiritual get impatient waiting for their savior to come or the comet to destroy the earth.  They keep looking outside so they never discover their real savior inside.  They believe prophets when they have the best prophet inside — their True Self.  Shit, they’re the ones they are waiting for.

We can push away the entire world of people, but the crazies will still find us.  We all want to hide from those we perceive as powerful.  Let them come, but let go while you’re with them; you’ll diffuse their power.  They’ll probably leave you alone after that.  We ultimately have to recognize that the people with the most beliefs and emotions are actually powerless.  When we get that, they can’t hurt us anymore.  The one with the least beliefs has the most natural power; that’s why we were forced to submit as small children.  Our parents felt powerless around us when we reflected their beliefs.

 

Perspective Change

Freedom is a perspective change that happens from within once we discriminate using our emotions, let go of beliefs because they have an emotional warning that says they aren’t true, let go of listening to other’s knowledge, and let go of obeying or fearing false authority.  Slowly, we find that our perspective shifts from the physical view of the world to the mental view of the world.  We have the big picture.  We see clearly, and we know what path or direction to go in any moment.  We aren’t avoiding life; we’re really living life.  We’re creative.  We know everything we need to know.  We live where we want to live, and other false selves don’t bother us.  They’re probably afraid of us.  We do what we want to do with whomever we want to do it with.  The world even seems to support us in being who we are.

Oddly, we don’t feel special; we actually feel normal.  We have power, but not power over others.  We simply feel like our Self.  We feel free.

The Game: Falling In and Digging Ourselves Back Out

Game

By Cathy Eck

 

Tricks and Traps in The Game

You just dug yourself out of a big false self trap after feeling emotions and listening to your false repeat crappy beliefs and criticism for days.  Now you’re sailing again.  You feel like your True SELF.

Then suddenly, you feel that all too familiar confusion.  You feel emotion in your body again, maybe even panic or pain.  Your mind is looking for reasons.  Ah shit!  You thought you’d finally made it out, and now you’re right back in the poop soup again.

I know it sucks.  But in this moment, it won’t do any good to get frustrated, impatient, or angry.  You just fell in to the illusion again, and you have to dig yourself out.  There are seemingly endless tricks and traps on the way out of the illusion.  You will meet and defeat them all.  That’s initiation!

The True Self is patient.  It’s immortal.  Today, tomorrow, next year, next life…it’s all the same.

But try as I do to get people to just let go and get back to their True Self, they always want reasons for the big question: “Why did this happened to me?”  Reasons take us outward; freedom requires going inward.  However, giving our mind a logical reason can sometimes help forward movement.  Letting go of the reasons you hear in your mind (like God is punishing you) always helps.  Here are a few useful reasons that will keep you in the game.

 

Reasons The False Trapped Your Ass Again

1) You just accepted a feminine role to a false masculine, and that person caused you to accept their beliefs.

2) You heard someone say something that sounded good, true, or positive (like a teacher, guru, preacher), and you accepted their positive statement without noticing the emotion that came with it.  We’re trained to be in our mind, to be good students that take in what the teacher says without discriminating, and so we miss the invaluable signals our body senses give us.  Besides, when we get truth from another, it’s no longer truth; it’s knowledge.  Let other people’s truth go and find your own truth.

3) Your false self felt sympathy for another instead of compassion.

4) You just got competitive and choose sides or needed to win.  Freedom is an individual game.

5)  You presumed another couldn’t meet you at the True Self level, and so you became something acceptable to them.  You united with the lowest common denominator — the one with the most rigid beliefs.

6)  You feared the judgment or punishment of another.  So you did what they told you to do.

7)  You looked for a reward or looked to see if a problem went away yet.  If you have to look for results or rewards, you aren’t trusting your True Self yet.  Keep letting go.

8)  You didn’t trust your quiet inspiration.  Instead you followed expertise, social norms, or knowledge.

9)  Your mind is saying, “Who are you to do this?”  “This is too hard.”  “Cathy is a dumb fuck with a big imagination.” “Cathy wants you to accept her belief system.”  or “Emotions are bad; I don’t want to feel them.”  I offer you one belief that you need to get free:  “You can let all beliefs go.  You don’t need them.”  Everything I write supports that one belief because you need it to get free.  When you’re free, you’ll drop that ONE belief because you won’t need it, and I won’t look like a dumb fuck with a big imagination anymore.

10)  You saw someone else’s reality and thought, “This could happen to me.”  You must remain an impartial voyeur of other people’s lives.  If what they’re living brings up emotion, let go of your belief in that potential.  Their beliefs are creating their reality.  This is easier after you take responsibility for your own mind; you see that everything has a mental cause.

11)  Someone said you hurt them or didn’t support them; and you believed them.  Only the false self can be hurt; and only the false self needs support.  If you need others to support you, you’re listening to your false self.  Enjoy supporters if they come, but don’t need them.  Let them go.

12)  You have direction confusion.  You read this blog because you want freedom — you want to be your True Self and live from win-win.  It feels good when you think toward freedom and bad when you imprison yourself with beliefs.  But a religious person wants to be good according to dogma.  They feel good when obedient and bad when they disobey.  Someone who wants to win will feel great when they win and like shit when they lose.  We set the direction for our mind.  We don’t have the right to set the direction for other’s minds.  And they don’t have the right to set the direction for our mind.

13)  You followed excitement or emotions outward instead of inward — such as following romance, hope, or lust!

14)  You’re trying to figure out someone else’s mind instead of discriminating in your own.  Their mind is their problem.  Your mind is your problem.

 

It’s a Game

The collective illusion has gotten very tricky, especially since the addition of self-help and the New Age.  Knowing the tricks makes it easier to win the game.

See your quest for freedom as a giant video game.  You beat one level, and then you have to confront a more difficult level.  At some point, you win the game; or you die.  So what, you just start a new game.  If you watch people play video games, this is their attitude.  They feel good playing because that’s the attitude of our True Self.  Life is a game — an individual sport.  We enter into this big dangerous arena filled with beliefs (lies), and some of us figure out how to discriminate and beat the game. The prize is freedom, living as our True Self, and fulfillment of our desires (without anyone else having to lose).  It’s a great game — worth playing.

Who’s Writing Our Story?

Happily Ever After

By Cathy Eck

 

One of the best ways to learn about life is to study stories.  Reading fiction, devouring biographies, and immersing myself in movies has taught me so much.  But to mine wisdom from stories, we must discriminate between true and false, feel our emotions, and understand roles.

Story writing mirrors what goes on within our minds during the creative process.  The True Self is the father and the physical world is the mother; the child is our story (the effect).  In order to have interesting stories, it’s necessary to go beyond the purely win-win nature of the True Self.  The mother does this by dividing thought without judgment (called first-cause creation or wisdom).  Second-cause creation happens when a false masculine role divides thoughts in a judgmental way — win/lose, good/evil, etc.  This is referred to as knowledge.  A perfectly crafted story starts in the True Self, filters through the knowledgeable false self, and emerges into the physical world.

 

Desire

A story falls flat if the protagonist doesn’t want anything.  Some protagonists have a True Self desire like finding unconditional love, peace of mind, or freedom.  But other protagonists have desires such as serving their country, revenge, or getting rich.  These are stories without an exit from the illusion.  However, occasionally what looks like a false outer desire is actually a metaphor for the part of the person’s True Self (inner desire) that they think they’ve lost.  Ancient stories are nearly always this way, and companies like Disney are masters of this formula.

If we have a strong desire, we contain the necessary feminine wisdom within to fulfill that desire (alchemical marriage).  But often, we look to masculine knowledge/beliefs for the answer (labeled as two men sleeping together in the ancient world).  Desire and fulfillment are side-by-side until we introduce beliefs/knowledge.

 

Beliefs

A great story is a dance between unrelenting desire and the obstacles that keep it from being fulfilled.  Beliefs give birth to obstacles.  The more beliefs we have, the more obstacles between us and our desire.  It’s a simple formula.  But if the obstacles are too complex, we’ll give up.  The ultimate giving up is dying.

One could make a strong case that the purpose of life is to be dropped into a physically oriented world where everyone wants us to play a part in an unsatisfying collective production instead of playing the lead role in our own production.  Following authority figures and accepting their beliefs casts us into a role in the collective story; it keeps us from living our story.  Until we wake up…

 

First Act

Our unrelenting desire is formed early in our story.  Something in life goes off track, or we accept a big belief system; now we have a desire to get back to our True Self.  This is called the inciting incident.  We might have a huge life-changing loss, or we might have a slow deterioration of our desire until it appears unattainable.  When the desire has lost it’s spark, we’ve abandoned our personal story.   We’re lost in the illusory maze.

Once we write off our desire, our story changes from an interesting screenplay with a strong theme to a long, dull ridiculously dramatic soap opera.  That’s the illusion.  We go from drama to drama without any real conclusion.  Drama can even become addictive since it relieves boredom; and the illusion is very slow and boring.

 

Second Act

In the second act, we meet obstacles created by the beliefs we accepted from authority.  We thought the illusion was going to be fun; it’s actually filled with problems and suffering.  Our false self was meant to be a creative container, but now it’s filled with knowledge and beliefs.   We fit it and even accept what is… UNTIL… we come to a cliff, and our enemy is right behind us — we must j-u-m-p.  We must let go in order to live; part of our false self must die in order for our body to continue to live.  This is often the theme of a great exit story.  Death or facing death forces us to let go.

If we won’t drop our beliefs, we’ve got a serious story problem.  We’re stuck in the second act.  We’re seeking, which is trying to find something within the illusion that only exists outside of the illusion.  Sound familiar?   We’ll try to change the illusion’s story to something nicer or create false exit doors.   But, only the author of the story can change it; they have the masculine role.  We might even pretend to be satisfied, but we aren’t; acceptance is often apathy in disguise.

Take the Jesus story.  Christians massacred the real ending, which was that we all find the Christ (True Self) within; and they changed it to Jesus returning.  But he never does.  Even if he did, they’d kill him because they hate the True Self.  Jesus, to a Christian would look like the part of themselves that they view as evil — the part that won’t obey their rules.  The people who read my blog have often played the role of Jesus to a believer; and the believer crucified them.

 

Third Act

As we move toward our True Self by letting go, we gain the masculine role in our lives.  We realize that all the characters in our life are actually in our OWN mind.  We must ask:  Which characters advance our story?  Which ones are nothing but an obstacle?  The obstacles have to lose their false power (become supporting cast) or leave the story.

Imagine that you’re a really lost character.  You might invent a wise helper character to play with, like Merlin to Arthur.  Or you could create a transformative experience, like Buddha.  Or you could find the mysterious blog that shows you how to let go of your beliefs and unlock your desires.  You see if you’re here, you’re working on that third act; and now you have the tools to create a great ending — a real, eternal happily ever after.

Stay Out of Other’s Minds (We Aren’t Meant to be Psychic)

Psychic

By Cathy Eck

 

Psychic Studies 101

When I was in graduate school, I took a class in psychic studies.  I’d just read the book, “Psychic Discoveries Behind the Iron Curtain,” and I fantasized about being able to make better business decisions or being able to detect people’s hidden motivations.  In class, we did these creepy exercises where you extended your energy into the other person’s energy field.  Then you said whatever you heard in your mind.  I felt like I was sticking my hands in raw sewage.  When they connected with me, I was even more creeped out.   Fortunately, my grade was dependent on how well I wrote about my experiences and not my success rate.

Although, one day we had to guess where our teacher was.  He was hiding somewhere in the city.  Someone came into class and said to draw whatever we thought.  I thought of a giant dick so I drew that.   Turns out he was standing by the water tower above.  So everyone thought I got it right.

Another time, we had to do a reading about someone based on name only.  I decided to go ice skating and write whatever I thought about while skating.  I wrote about rats.  Turned out my person was kind of a rat, a shrewd business wheeler-dealer.  He also had rats in his NYC apartment.  But quite honestly, his last name sounded like a mafia name.  It was a great metaphor.

Was I psychic, or was I just fucking around and happened to get some things sort of right?  I vote for fucking around.

 

Battered Minds

As part of the class, we had to attend a “Battered Minds” group meeting — professional psychics who were stuck in victimhood because they saw a vision of something bad, like 9/11.  I got up and walked out after a few minutes.  They were all compulsive whiners.  They believed every emotionally wrapped thought that entered their minds; they had absolutely NO discrimination.  They thought everything was about them.

Clearly they tapped into the collective illusion and saw 9/11 or some other tragic event.  But was that helpful?  To me, it only proved that they believed the illusion to be true and unchangeable.  I didn’t want to marinate in their world view.  The illusion won’t disappear until we stop believing it.

The purpose of a prophet is not to tell us the future so we can sit in fear and wait until the dreaded prophecy passes, declaring said prophet right or wrong.  It’s to recognize where we’re headed and to drop the thoughts that are causing that unwanted future from the collective conversation.

Psychic Studies 101 was many years ago, and I’ve done a lot of discriminating and letting go since.  The ancient ones were right.  Everything is mind.  The best place for our mind to be focused is on itself.  If everyone let go of their own unwanted thoughts, the world would be amazing in no time at all.

Most people are highly focused on other people’s minds.  In fact, I’ve mentored people pleasers who admitted that they often get in other people’s minds so they know what to say to please them.  False minds analyze and hold onto other people’s thoughts in order to look good, stay safe, keep them in their life, or say the right thing.  Our false minds have gotten erroneously connected and intertwined; and that’s why we’re all so damn confused.

Our job is our OWN mind.  If someone else’s experience generates emotion when we hear them talk, then it isn’t true for us.  If they want to make it true for them, that’s their prerogative.  But freedom is about being a master of our own mind; and that requires minding our own damn business.

 

The Lesson

We were required to experience a bunch of personal readings during that class.  I taped them all.  A few years ago, I listened to the tapes one last time before I trashed my tape recorder and tapes.  More than a decade had passed, nothing in them came true.  Nothing!  These were professional psychics, not students.

The future that they saw had been wiped off my mental hard drive.  They were reading my false mind, and I’d let much of that go.  Most of them tapped into my false desires and told me what I wanted to hear.  They picked up on my false fears and told me that they wouldn’t happen.  They said what I longed to hear to sooth my crappy beliefs.  They also gave me reasons for things that were happening in my life — spirit attachments, angels, karma, or past lives.  That was all bullshit too.  False minds love reasons.  But reasons are worthless.  The false mind has got 99 problems, and it’s causing all of them.

Intuition is also a false self skill that allows us to work around our beliefs.  It’s very helpful in the illusion, but it’s worthless if our goal is freedom.  Inspiration is what we want.  Inspiration comes from our True Self.  It’s usually silent.  We just find ourself doing something without much thinking at all.

Quite frankly, I wanted psychic or intuitive power because I was afraid of my future.  I’d become accustomed to being blindsided.  I wanted advance warning to avert problems.  I no longer trusted my True Self to keep me safe.  I’d become afraid of surprises because they were usually bad.

What I really wanted was to purify my false mind and take what I got, knowing that it would be what I wanted, needed, and earned.   I didn’t want to have a concrete and perfect plan; I wanted to be constantly pleasantly surprised.  I didn’t want to see the crappy illusion and grab only the good stuff.  I didn’t want to will the world into submission.  I didn’t want to know people’s beliefs and say the right thing to please them.  Psychic Studies 101 was very interesting but truly worthless.  So I closed that door and got back on the path to freedom.

 

Discipline — Time To Say Goodbye!

DisciplineBy Cathy Eck

 

I Got OWNED

Recently, I had the OWN (Oprah) channel on while doing some housework.  The producers set up a help desk where people could ask questions of “spiritual” advisors.  Three times, the experts recommended “discipline.”  They said it was necessary for success.  The first two times, I simply noticed that their comment felt bad and immediately let it go.  But the third time, expert Carolyn Myss put me over the edge.  I realized that I was looking in the face of a huge collective psychological reversal.

An overweight woman (by expert standards) asked Carolyn for help.  Carolyn said, “Do you tend to gravitate toward pleasure?”  The woman said, “Yes,” as she smiled.  Carolyn responded critically, “That’s your problem.  You have no discipline.”  The woman looked like she wanted to slit her wrists or shit her pants.  “Okay, now you pissed me off, Carolyn Myss,”  I thought.   I decided to really look at this word, discipline.  My emotions were screaming, “False.”

 

Discipline

The “New Oxford American Dictionary” put things in perspective for me very quickly.  Here’s what it said:

1) the practice of training people to obey rules or a code of behavior, using punishment to correct disobedience.
2) the controlled behavior resulting from discipline.
3) activity or experience that provides mental or physical training.
4) a system of rules of conduct.

Discipline is clearly unnatural; it involves training humans, like animals, to do what an authority or expert wants them to do.  It’s key to a society based on good and evil, right and wrong, or win and lose.

Since the disciplinarians are already in the illusion, or they wouldn’t be using discipline, discipline is inflicted on those in powerless feminine roles, like children.  Our minds record the voices of those who provide discipline until we acquire self-discipline, meaning we inflict reward and punishment on ourselves.

Oddly, the word discipline is very similar to disciple, another highly feminine role.  Well, that made sense.  Carolyn Myss is a recovering Catholic; her Catholicism often bleeds through in her books and teachings.  The other two men who suggested discipline were M. Scott Peck, spiritual psychologist/author, and DeVon Franklin, Hollywood wanna-be preacher.  Discipline and religion are clearly interconnected; both take us toward hell while claiming to take us to heaven.

The truth is that if we’re disciplining ourselves or others, we’re not good, we’re false.  Discipline is following someone else’s rules that don’t feel good and don’t make sense to us.  We should never have to do that in a sane world.  If we’re obeying rules that don’t feel good and telling others to do the same, we’re clearly playing a false masculine role.  We shouldn’t be leading anyone, not even ourselves.

In the TRUE masculine role, we do what we’re inspired to do.  We provide a vision — not rules.  The True Masculine has no desire to discipline others; there’s no need for it.  You trust the people that you create with.  Discipline isn’t even a word I’ve ever needed to have in my vocabulary.

When led by false masculine authorities, we have to muster up unnatural energy to do what they want us to do in the way they want it done.  We become exhausted and depressed.  We hate life.  Then we discipline those below us (like our kids) because we’re starving for energy and life force.

 

Discipline or Abuse?

Just last week, someone posted on Facebook a comment about the lack of discipline in kids and how it’s because parents no longer spank.  Of course, I couldn’t shut up because children were involved.  So I wrote, “People will stop disciplining their children with physical punishment when they call it what it really is, child abuse.”  You see, calling authoritarian bullying, unnecessary rules, enslavement, and physical punishment “discipline” makes the unacceptable acceptable.

Discipline produces slaves and obedient citizens, not successful or creative people.  It’s a winning formula in the illusion.  It has worked for thousands of years because we don’t stop and examine the reality or the real effects of discipline.

 

Pleasure

Carolyn Myss exposed the whole illusion around discipline when she said, “Do you tend to gravitate toward pleasure?”  That’s when my emotions screamed, “Stop the madness. Your are Myss-taken.”  She was saying, “If it’s pleasurable, it’s bad for you.”  The idea that we’re supposed to be happy while we suffer is the Catholic mantra; it’s not true.  We all naturally gravitate toward pleasure until we’re brainwashed to gravitate toward pain by following beliefs that generate emotions.

We’re all born to people who were already cooked to well done in the illusory oven before we arrived.  If we could talk, we would have screamed, “Stop!  That doesn’t feel right.  I didn’t come to earth to see how well I could suffer.”  Instead we got disciplined to become like our caretakers and authorities until eventually we couldn’t see the error in the illusion — it looked normal.

It’s not too late.  We can let go of needing discipline right now.  We can start to follow our inspiration at any time.

Carolyn Myss answered the woman’s question, but it’s doubtful that it helped.  She gave her the cause of her weight problem.  This woman thought she didn’t have enough discipline when she actually had too much.  Her inner food police disciplines her constantly, piling guilt and shame on her food and reminding her that she’s not following the diet and exercise rules for a thin body.  She believes the rich and successful (and disciplined) experts even though what they say feels horrible; her True Self knows the advice is false — it’s fixing the effect.

To get free, this woman needs to let go of trusting experts who keep telling her to be more disciplined so she can look the way they say she should look.  She needs to stop dieting (which has the word die in it for a reason) and start living from her own True Self.