Initiation Isn’t Like Anything Else 

Occultists Hijacked the Language of the Initiates

I often say on my blog that the occultists in power hijacked the language of initiation. What do I mean by that? Initiates were calm, unconditionally loving, and caring people; they used their minds as they were designed…from the inside out. There was nothing fake about them. They were freedom lovers, and that freedom wasn’t just for themselves. Sometimes the initiates had positions of power; they were benevolent leaders who gave freedom to all. They brought out the best in people. They were also great exposers of false beliefs. 

The best example of an initiate leader, and the easiest story to obtain, can be found in the story of Jesus in the Bible. But that story was hijacked by the occultists, just like every other myth and story from the ancient world. The story was changed to suit the needs and false desires of the occultists in power. These occultists gained more and more false power over time by slowly infiltrating people’s minds. People ultimately came to view life from the same perspective as the occultists.

The occult point of view was and is dual. It was originally divided into the esoteric secrets, which were just for the inner-circle elite; the physical and undesirable opposite, i.e., exoteric, was projected on to everyone else. Both esoteric and exoteric were false back then, and they still are today. Esoteric thinking is more like New Age or eastern philosophy; it’s very mentally or spiritually focused. Exoteric thinking is more like religion; it’s very physically focused and faith based. They are two sides of the same triangle bottom. Neither are true.

Over time, everyone came to see the occult illusion as normal and even true; and the elite all looked like Gods. Of course, the elite pushed that narrative by saying that they had the right bloodline, they were chosen by God, or they had divine authority. They had the secrets to life. The people bought this lie hook, line, and sinker; and most people are still buying it today. Once we accept this big lie, we ignore our own True Selves. So it was as if the True Self individually and collectively was tossed into the proverbial closet.

The people didn’t protest against the horrors of the illusion because they thought that was how life was supposed to be. They accepted the notion that God was watching over them, judging them, and rewarding and punishing them. In truth, it was the human fake leaders, often referred to as Lords, who were doing that. People accepted the triangle bottoms of superior and inferior…powerful and powerless. The normal people put themselves off the shitty side of every triangle bottom. This is how the the elite were able to literally lord over everyone. It is very important to use the triangle process to let such second-cause pairs of opposites go. Every bit of the occult narrative was a bold-faced lie; today, nothing much has changed. The occultists are still fueling the same lies. Only the people and circumstances have changed.

This is good news and bad news. The good news is that when you let go of a belief individually, you are also escaping the collective mindset. When you let go in the present, you are letting go for all time. So if you believe in karma, you undo it by letting go. Then you realize that karma was also a big lie. The bad news is that these beliefs have a lot of believers and are very longstanding; so you must be persistent and willing to do whatever it takes to let them go. I provide as much support as I can; but I can’t let go for any other person. I can only expose what’s false, which makes it easier to see through the occult lies and let go. If I expose something as false, you know that I’ve let it go and lived to tell about it.

The occultists began their rise to power thousands of years ago. The Bible is not the word of God; it is meant to be a full-circle story. Most of the stories in the Bible were originally told by initiates; they’re exquisite metaphors for how the mind works. Sadly, the initiates’ stories were hijacked by the occultists; and that brought us to the religious views that exist today…both esoteric and exoteric. The occultists put their spin on the Bible stories, and the initiation component appeared to be lost. The Old Testament provides the mental history of the beginning of the illusion as manifested by the false God of Moses and his followers, the Jews; the New Testament was meant to be the way out of the illusion, or initiation. But the New Testament got hijacked by the occultists, who didn’t want to lose their fake power; so they changed Jesus’s story from a story of initiation to a story of martyrdom. That was a big setback for the people of earth.

The fall is a real thing, but it was mental…not physical. In the fall, people turned their focus outside of their mind, and away from their True Self; they started following false leaders who were Moses-like. Moses was a tyrant, just like the tyrants we see today. He used trickery and occult magick to fool his people just like the fake news does today. He demanded that the people serve him because he said that he was divinely appointed by God. He was basically a dick…a false leader of the worst kind. In street gang terms, we’d say that Moses punched down on the people in feminine roles…those who didn’t have power and authority. But if you know any deeply religious people; they hold Moses in mind as a role model. That’s why we still have the same types of leaders today. People become like the people they follow. If you follow dicks, guess what you become?

Jesus was different. Jesus said to never follow such leaders. He said that God was within. Jesus represented true initiation. In the Gold Circle and Golden Gateway (which used to be the Creative Leadership program), I take the Bible apart piece by piece, and I prove exactly what I’m saying. I expose Moses as false, and I decode what Jesus was actually saying to us so that we could experience initiation again. My decodes validate everything I’ve written. I’m never channeled a word of what I’ve written. It all came from research, letting go, direct experience, and ultimately the marriage of logic and emotion.

You have no idea how much I’d love to share those decodes with the world. My heart beats through every word of them. When we find our True Self’s point of view, we so want to express it. That’s what we were naturally designed to do. It took me decades to do those decodes; and I put myself in very uncomfortable places and circumstances in order to do them. I spent hundreds of thousands of dollars to excavate the occult lies. I share everything I’ve learned about letting go. I hold nothing back with anyone. But sharing the decodes at this time would not be good for others. Too many preachers, ministers, rabbis, gurus, and priests are still stuck in the illusion. They still think that you can learn the truth; and they view themselves as teachers of the truth. When people teach “the truth,” it becomes false. It’s like wine that has turned into vinegar. My decodes are written to take an initiate on a letting go journey; so they are useless, or even harmful, to someone who doesn’t know how to let go.

So I can’t do what I want to do at this time. But I do make those decodes available to people who have been letting go. That’s why the decodes are behind a paywall…the Golden Gateway. No one can join that program who has not done the Gold Circle. So I know that the people who join the Golden Gateway do want freedom, and they can let go. I also know that they have enough compassion that they will not do something that would harm another. I know that they are willing and able to expose false if they have to; I’m not saying that it would be easy for them. Exposure of the occult illusion is pretty damn scary for most people, even people in my programs. Too many people want to keep their religious point of view. Too many people still think that the Bible is the word of God, as if God spoke in words and wrote books. Such people have free will to hold those beliefs in their minds. I have no right to tell any other what to put in or take out of their mental container. But if I can help others to get free, I do want to do that. So I walk a very fine line; and I do ONLY what I’m inspired to do. At times, what I’m inspired to do doesn’t even make sense to me until I gain some hindsight.

This macrocosmic transition from leadership by initiates to leadership by the occultists was a metaphor for the microcosmic transition whereby our false mind slowly took the lead individually and collectively, which pushed our True Self/Mind into the background. People started thinking from the outside in, which is backwards…not from the inside out as our mind was designed. That hasn’t changed. Today many people are putting positive, spiritual, or politically-correct words into their minds; that is still outside-in thinking. Those words might accurately describe the True Self; but by putting such words into their minds, they are trying to make their false self into their True Self. That’s impossible. They’re still adding to their minds; they’re not letting go or subtracting from their minds.

In my programs, I watch people struggle to make the shift toward the inner-directed mindset; for nearly everyone, being outer directed is a hard habit to break. I wish I had a magic wand that I could wave and make it easy for them. I know how badly they want freedom. But the occult did a very good job of training us to use our minds backwards. Often by the time someone finds initiation, they’ve been holding on to beliefs as true and following others for decades, or even lifetimes.

So be easy on yourself with regard to letting go; initiation takes time and patience. If you become angry at the time it’s taking to free your mind, it will take even longer. The best way to alleviate that anger is to expose the people who programmed you as false…the politicians, doctors, healers, therapists, scientists, and gurus. They are the cause of all problems, suffering, and even disease; but most of them don’t realize that they are the cause. Their minds were programmed too.

This transformation, which caused us to view the occult illusion as true, has been like a slow boil; it has happened over a very long period of time. As knowledge replaced wisdom, faith replaced inner knowing, and education replaced common sense, the illusion became more solid and appeared to be more true. As time went on, fixing physical effects, instead of removing the mental causes pushed by the medical and psychiatry systems were like high-test fuel for the illusion. Even general science is now fueling the illusion and the globalists’ nefarious agenda. The occult way of viewing life has been like a giant pyramid of power that keeps getting bigger and bigger. Of course, this mental pyramid of power is not to be confused with the amazing physical pyramids. But that’s a story for another day.

We can see this mental pyramid structure clearly in organizations of all sorts from corporations, governments, religions, the military, and the justice system to condo associations and school boards; even some family units have pyramid structures. People rise to the top of a mental power pyramid over time based on their service to the organization’s leadership and the goals of the organization. When we are caught in any pyramid of power, we do not expose the leaders as false; we obey them and get rewarded, or we rebel against them and get punished or banished. There are no free people in any pyramid of power.  Obedience and rebellion is another triangle bottom to let go. These persistent and widely-believed triangle bottoms don’t disappear in a day. You have to chip away at them over time.

Pyramids of power are all based on win-lose thinking, not win-win thinking. Today there are even financial pyramid schemes, which are based on the same occult pyramid structures. The people at the bottom of the pyramid scheme do all of the hard work selling overpriced products; those at the top reap all of the rewards based on their ability to recruit, i.e., manipulate and lie to others to get them to join the scheme. The downline that is created allows the top achievers to project on the bottom dwellers. The bottom hopes to one day rise to the top so they can also project on a downline. It’s a textbook occult scheme.

I’m not saying that any of these people are bad or evil; I don’t believe in good and evil. We all play in the illusion until we choose initiation. We all have a story to live and that story can take one life or hundreds of lives; it’s our choice. Normal people don’t realize that they’re fueling the occult by holding on to belief systems. But if you are here reading my blog, you probably do want freedom. So you need to know that these organization do not support freedom so you cannot trust them, you should not join them, nor should you believe anything they say or do. When people treat these organizations as false and worthless, which they are, they will disappear. I can assure you of that. They need us far more than we need them.

Words and Spelling

Words were the keystone for the occultists’ rise to power; it’s no accident that the word “spell” is connected to words. The occultists view words as spells. These false leaders choose their words carefully; and people go into a sort of hypnotic spell or trance with occult leaders when they speak. They take in the leader’s words without discriminating because they like what the leader says. The followers believe that they are hearing the truth expressed in words from the leader; but the occult leader knows that people will follow them if they say what people want to hear. They don’t mean what they say; they are just saying it to get power, money, and fame. They are offering things that you can only get permanently by freeing your mind; and they aren’t talking about letting go. So they are making a promise that they can’t and won’t keep. We don’t want to take their so-called truth into our minds; when we add to our minds, we add to our false self, which covers up our True Self. Our True Self is whole and complete. There is nothing that we need to add to it. This is all very simple and logical. It is not rocket science.

Occultists know how to manage appearances very well. They’re clever at getting people to blindly trust them; and using projection, they get people to overlook their nearly constant and blatant hypocrisy.  People often believe that gurus, spiritual teachers, motivational speakers, and progressive leaders are True Selves; but they’re not. I call them clones because they look and act like True Selves, but they aren’t True Selves. They wear very attractive social masks. Traits like truth, spirituality, equality, unity, and even optimism are qualities that we do find in every True Self. But a True Self would never tell you to learn or develop those qualities. They’d know that you were born with those qualities. That is how you expose these charlatans as false; they tell you things that you knew and were at birth.

Occultists always project; so we always get the bad end of the stick (or triangle bottom) when we believe them and trust them. If we don’t believe them, however, their projections boomerang right back at them. Thus exposure, and non-belief, is what ultimately brings down the illusion; and those who have stolen the clone thrones within the illusion will go down with the illusory ship. The occultists are nothing without followers holding them up. Here’s a physical metaphor for initiation: When we start taking stones out of the bottom of a pyramid, we eventually bring the whole thing down. The same thing happens in a pyramid of power except we’re removing beliefs, or lies, instead of stones.

It is noteworthy that the word occult contains the word “cult.” A cult leader is nothing without his or her followers. The followers of the cult leader give their power to the cult leader’s belief system at the expense of their own True Selves. In addition, the cult leader projects the undesirable side of his triangle bottom on to the followers. So the cult leader (and I include all gurus in the bucket labeled cult leaders) gets a double win; and the followers get a double lose. This is why they say that you must kill the Buddha to become like the Buddha. You have to stop believing the false leaders who teach beliefs; your belief in their belief system empowers them, not you.

In initiation, we don’t share beliefs; we expose them ALL as false and let them all go.  Then everyone lives from their True Self. I get no power from anyone; and I also don’t project on the people I support. I’m just a normal person who is also letting go; I share my successes and failures so that others can walk more quickly and easily down the initiation path. Personally, I let go using the Three Steps until I love everyone unconditionally; once I love someone unconditionally, it helps them to bring up their false beliefs so they can let them go. If they let go, and it is always their choice to do so or not, they eventually come to think like themselves again; they do not think like me unless they go against my very strong warning and copy what I say. I remind people all the time to use my words as a catalyst for letting go. Don’t learn what I say; don’t add any more knowledge to your mind.

Today we see plenty of examples where words are being used to trick people, such as the relabeling that took mentally-regressive political policies and labeled them “progressive.” Communism and socialism aren’t progressive; anyone who things that progressivism is a good thing is very deeply stuck in the illusion. The occultists took beliefs and false desires from a very old world order where the few rule over the many, and they relabeled their vision the “New World Order.” They want globalism because they are so selfish as to want to rule the whole world. Likewise, the New Age is not new, it’s the old age before organized religion came into being but after the initiates had the most power. Positive thinking and saying affirmations is not actually positive; it’s a way to project the unwanted side of the triangle bottom on to others. I could go on and on. The relabeling trap is used because it works.

Patriarchal and Matriarchal are Two Sides of the Collective Triangle Bottom

Prior to the patriarchal point of view, which many of the so-called woke (more relabeling since the woke are the most asleep) today refer to as toxic masculinity, there was the matriarchal point of view that was also very false. The New Age, self-help, progressivism, alternative healing, therapy, feminism, social justice, and more have risen out of the old matriarchal point of view. In the patriarchal point of view, we tend to lead with logic; in the matriarchal point of view, we tend lead with our emotions. In truth, logic and emotions were meant to work together as a team in our inner alchemical marriage. In fact, the current patriarchal point of view was a failed attempt to fix the very harmful matriarchal point of view. We are dodging this same bullet today.

An initiate leads with their masculine mind because the masculine mind is naturally assertive. The feminine mind is naturally receptive. If one person is throwing a ball (asserting) and the other is catching the ball (receiving), the person throwing is leading. The person catching the ball must adjust to the person throwing it. That just makes logical sense. In matriarchal thinking, however, it’s like the receiver is asking the thrower to adjust to wherever they want the ball to land. Thought is assertive; emotions are receptive, and they are meant to be used for discrimination. So in matriarchal thinking, you have people who claim that others are responsible for their emotions when they are the one who is asserting. When we are asserting, and we feel emotions, we are holding the mental cause of those emotions in OUR own mind every single time.

The feminine mind is where we NATURALLY discriminate. Our feminine was designed to keep our masculine mind in line. That has not happened in modern times. Feminists want to be men, and they fight for masculine roles; they have not done their job of exposing false. So in matriarchal-dominant times, the illusion typically grows. Then the pendulum swings, and the patriarchy bring the illusion back into line. But neither group ever destroy it. Note that this has absolutely nothing to do with physical gender or sex. But if people understood this, all of those weird and totally false gender issues would be gone. They all come from matriarchal thinking.

An initiated one would be a true patriarch, who would listen to the feminine and trust the feminine discrimination. The true patriarch would never dominate or control others; they would not have an aggressive or warring mind. They would assert their win-win-for-all vision into the world; and it would be a joy for others to help them create that vision. That’s how those beautiful pyramids and other ancient buildings that we can’t build today were erected. Being feminine to a true masculine leader is wonderful. Such a leader will bring out the very best in us. I’ve had that experience, and there is nothing like it.

The matriarchal time period of history is what came right after the MENTAL fall. That’s when the illusion was first manifested; and so the earth no longer appeared to be the Garden of Eden. It’s all in the Old Testament of the Bible. But like the True Self, the Garden of Eden didn’t go anywhere. You can’t destroy anything that’s true. Believing in the illusion is like wearing a blindfold. The world is still around you, but you can’t see it until you take the blindfold off. Once we believe in the illusion, we see it until we remove the blinders, i.e., beliefs, from our mind.

Here is what you need to know. Every belief system contributes to an aspect of the illusion. The True Self doesn’t have even one belief; but it does use first-cause (nonjudgmental, physical, and win win) knowledge in order to create. When we create in first cause, we’re outside of the illusion. So creation will be easy once we escape the illusion because the illusion was founded on the curse of hard work.

First-cause knowledge is useful for our survival…building, farming, sewing, cooking, etc. It’s physical knowledge. That being said, first-cause knowledge can be very sophisticated, like we see in beautiful fashion, furniture, cars, or architecture; we don’t have to live like cavemen in order to live from first cause. Throughout history, first-cause information was shared by mentoring and apprenticeships. In first cause, there’s no sharing of beliefs; the master of a task helps the apprentice to learn the task. Second-cause knowledge, on the other hand, has been taught primarily by religion, government rules and laws, and education. Of course, the internet has turned the sharing of second-cause knowledge into a virtual pandemic.

From the standpoint of initiation, it’s a good thing that the New Age, the New World Order, and other old belief systems have come up to the surface for our review; but people are once again accepting these beliefs as new and true. They aren’t discriminating and rejecting what is false. Many people reason that old beliefs were better than new beliefs. That’s not true. No beliefs, our mindset prior to the fall, is much better than even one belief or even the sweetest of beliefs. Beliefs put us on the triangle bottom. All beliefs are dual. There is no exit from the triangle bottom without letting go of both sides of any belief from our OWN mental container. In initiation, we let go when old beliefs arise from the shadows, both individually and collectively.  In that way, we use the world around us to support our quest for freedom.

Here’s another modern trap. Today people are doing some of the same research that I did over thirty years ago. It’s easier now because we have the internet. But most of these researchers (and the same goes for seekers, channels, psychics, or prophets) are making a huge mistake. When we research, we should ONLY look for what’s false…never ever research to find the truth because the truth when expressed in words becomes false. Books that tell us the truth of life are all false.

I have a huge library in my condo that I accumulated during the days of my research. Many of those books contain old myths and stories. I have many Bible translations. I have books that explain different belief systems from around the world. I have occult texts that allowed me to see how the occultists used their minds. I love books. I love understanding others, even the people who are deeply stuck in the illusion and don’t want out. I want to unconditionally love everyone; understanding others gives me the compassion to achieve that desire. But the books that I will NOT keep on my shelves are books that explain the truth in words; they are worthless. They sound like a first-grade reader when you know your own True Self. I won’t even donate that crap; I just dispose of them. They’re trash. I expose a lot of the popular “truth” books in the Gold Circle. Most of those books are found in the genre of New Age or were written by current eastern gurus. People often tell me that their guru is saying the same things that I say; they are brainwashed to think that. I would bet my last dollar that their guru has not taught them how to let go or how to discriminate; if that guru taught them how to discriminate, they would discriminate with the guru and run away as fast as they could.

We were all born with the truth (True Self) inside of our minds. So we don’t need to learn the truth; we need to unveil it. We need to take off our masks and express our beautiful True Selves to the world. Always remember the banner of this site (shown below). It’s the key to initiation. It’s the key to discriminating between the con artist clones and the people who truly have your back.

If we need to get the truth from another, then we aren’t listening to our own True Self. So we need to let go until we feel inspired from within again. If we put “the truth” into our false mind in the past, we need to let that truth go. You can’t let go of your True Self, and if you let go of the truth from your false mind, your True Self will come back out of the closet. It’s that simple; people make it hard because they fear letting go of their memorized truth. After you clean the words of truth out of your mind, you will be in the illusion but not of it; you will find yourself exposing false just by living your life, and you won’t be able to help it. You will prove beliefs and belief systems wrong by your very existence.

This is an awkward time in initiation. I used to expose beliefs as I lived my life, and I didn’t understand what I was doing. People said that I made them emotional or envious. I didn’t know how to stop that from happening. I thought there was something wrong with me. But their emotions and envy were caused by their thinking of me, not my thinking of them. I was exposing the false beliefs in their mind without realizing what I was doing. If they had known how to let go, I would have been a pure godsend as I pushed their false beliefs up to the surface where they could let them go. But they didn’t know how to let go; they didn’t have a clue.

I couldn’t get upset with people for thinking that I caused their emotions. They were outer directed; they had been trained to use their minds backwards. They didn’t even know the causal belief was in their own mind. I was able to let go, but I didn’t know how I did it. It was natural for me. So I went into their illusion, took on their beliefs as true, and I figured out how to escape their illusion. I did this many, many times with a large variety of people with different belief systems. Then I wrote whatever I discovered. Now I don’t feel bad when I cause people’s beliefs and the related emotions to arise. If they want freedom, I’m doing them a huge favor. If they don’t want freedom, then we won’t enjoy being around each other anyway. They’ll just want me to believe their beliefs; and I’m never going to do that.

While marinating in the illusion, I came to understand that people had been trained by occultists to hate their own True Selves; and so when I followed my inspiration, I brought this painful psychological reversal to the surface for others. While creating the Gold Circle, I often saw someone’s inciting incident…their own personal fall moment in their story. I could reveal exactly what they needed to let go; it was obvious to me. I don’t do that anymore. I did it enough to reveal all the different ways that people fell into the illusion; then I was inspired to stop. I wrote about all of that in the Gold Circle. Now I realize that I stopped for a very important reason. When you get free, you want to be able to say, “I did this myself. I know how I got stuck in the illusion, and I know what I let go to get out.”

The Occult Origin

Let me explain the origin of the occultists. It will help you to make sense of all of this. The occultists have always been frauds. The occultists were failed initiates who desperately wanted the true power of the initiates, but they couldn’t get it. Their minds were too polluted; for some reason, they couldn’t or wouldn’t let go of their beliefs. So these frauds copied the initiates both physically and verbally. They hijacked the initiates’ words and stories. They copied the things the initiates did naturally and turned them into practices, rituals, and ceremonies.

Initiates wrote stories using the True Self’s language…the language of metaphor. They mentored others through stories; they didn’t impose beliefs on the candidates for initiation. The occultists turned the initiates’ metaphors into symbolism; they made the initiates’ stories physical and literal. That’s what they still do today. Metaphor is temporary; symbolism is permanent. Metaphor is life giving; symbolism is grave and death giving. Honoring any symbol is like tying yourself to the illusion for life until you die. 

To get free, we have to let go of all beliefs in symbolism. A logo, icon, or symbol should look like nothing but a shorthand way of communicating. It should have no beliefs attached to it. As I let go while decoding ancient stories, all of the symbols in the stories lost their false power; they transformed into meaningful metaphors. The metaphors were validation that I had let go. This wasn’t something I planned would happen; it’s just what happened.

I came to realize that there was a time when the initiates led the people; and life on earth was like the Garden of Eden. People didn’t communicate or act in second cause like they do today. The occultists invented second-cause beliefs, which was the beginning of the fallen mindset. Initiates built beautiful things; over time, however, occultists made those things their own. Occultists took everything associated with initiation and turned it into their power tools. They put their meaning and beliefs on to the places and possessions of the initiates.

Over time, the occultists convinced the people that they wanted to follow them, and even be like them, not the initiates. Occultists are like Hollywood stars; they shine very brightly. But that shine is fake. The shine comes only when they can projected out their shadow on to others. The occultists accomplished their goal of gaining power over everyone in two ways that are still used today in all forms of marketing. They offered to relieve people’s emotions or to fix their problems, or they promised the people a false desire. People started to want the fruits of the illusion, not the fruits of their True Selves. They were now eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, i.e., second-cause thinking; they were ignoring the Tree of Life, i.e., first-cause thinking.

The people started to ignore the initiates as they came to ignore their own True Selves. The macrocosm and the microcosm are always a match. So the initiates backed away. They felt that it was important to let people see what they were manifesting with their occult beliefs. People did see what they were manifesting, and it was horrible. They were living in an illusion of suffering that looked real and true. But they had lost all memory of the True Self and Eden. They believed the occultists who said that we fell permanently, and there was no way back to Eden. They believed the religious liars who told them that they would see heaven after death, or they’d get a better life next time if they were obedient and good. It’s was a giant, worldwide scam. The people had no choice but to accept the illusion as real and therefore true. They made the best of a bad situation. This giant error is what we reverse in initiation.

We still have books like the Bible, other spiritual texts, and so-called myths that were written from the True Self point of view using metaphor. These books are available to anyone, but we see what we believe with such “living writing.” Living writing is writing that changes along with the change in the reader’s point of view. The beauty is in the eye of the beholder; but the ugliness is also in the eye of the beholder. When the reader has an illusory point of view, they see proof that their illusion is true when they read such living texts. However, when they let go, they see validation that what they thought was true was actually false.

Sadly, occultists have trained children for thousands of years to think like they do…literally and physically. Religion and school are all about indoctrination into the occult mindset. Today many people think that other Bible books will be revealed, and those books will contain the truth. But if the readers view those new books with the same literal/physical mindset, those books won’t do them any good. In fact, those books will fuel the illusion even more. The occultists set up their scheme to win; and they blocked all the exits.

When our mind is free, we won’t depend on a special book or a special guru. If we like books, we will use them to discriminate. Words and writing are not inherently bad; if we use anyone’s writing as a catalyst for freedom, i.e., for exposing the false beliefs in our own mind, then that writing won’t contain any word spells for us. So you see, we have the power to free ourselves; and we always did. No one has to be a victim of mind control anymore. But people often need someone to remind them of that because other people who want to control them remind them that their beliefs are true every minute of every day.

Let’s get honest about the occultists. Let me state a couple of unknown facts about them. First of all, every belief system is a product of the occult. The occult started in the east and spread west over time. So you don’t avoid the occult point of view by moving to eastern religions or practices. The occult is everywhere; it’s global. It has many forms. If something has beliefs or practices involved in it, it’s occult. The globalist elite are the leaders of the occult point of view today. They are everywhere…in every country, race, and religion. They want to control every aspect of our lives from what we think, where we live, what we eat, and who we love. Often, these false leaders live in the shadows while their minions unknowingly program our minds on their behalf.

If you’ve believed any belief system in the past, or do now, the occult has gotten into your mind. You aren’t alone. We all fell prey to their trickery. Don’t ever feel bad about being duped by these con artists. They view themselves as clever and us as stupid; they project stupid on to us. It’s all part of their fake magick, which is all mental…in fact, it’s false mental. After letting go, you will see that the occultists are the false ones. If anyone is stupid, it would be them. They are nothing but failed initiates. If you stick with letting go, you will surpass them; and they will never affect you again.

The occultists were envious people who tried to say and do what the initiates were inspired to say and do; the occultists believed that you could fake it until you made it. They thought the power of the initiates was in what they said or did. But that wasn’t true; the initiates’ power came from the purity of their minds.

The metaphors used by the initiates were just useful communication tools, which had no power in and of themselves. But the occultists didn’t realize that fact, so they tried to give power to the initiates’ metaphors by turning them into long-lasting symbols. Being primarily matriarchal minded, the occultists added meaning and emotions to those symbols thinking that would give them power. But this had consequences. This caused people’s minds to psychologically reverse. Now emotions no longer meant that beliefs were false; emotions now meant that beliefs had power or beliefs were true. The occultists imposed their symbols and beliefs on to others in order to gain the power of numbers. They had to do all of this because they had no real power. A True Self would never do any of this to a fellow human being.

Today the occult programming is viewed as too hard to reverse by most people; but what other choice do we have? Do we keep fueling the occult beliefs and allow earth to continue to be a hell of suffering? Or do we do our part and let go as much as we can.

Symbols are said to have power by the occultists; but it’s really the power of numbers of believers that give a symbol its false power. Symbols are just another form of spell or curse. That’s why the occultists plaster their fake symbols all over the place. They don’t care if we love or hate their symbols; they just want us to believe that the symbols have power. They want us to project our real power on to them as they project their unwanted side of the triangle bottom on to us.

When we come to see their symbols as false, we strip them of a lot of power. Again, this can be seen in the words that we use. If you remove the “S” from the word “curse,” you get the word “cure.” That’s not a medical cure, which is nothing but fixing the effects of beliefs; it’s a real cure…the removal of the illusion from our minds. It’s a cure that eliminates all diseases and suffering. The letter “S” stands for sin or the deception of the Serpent in the Garden of Eden. Sin was originally a term for second-cause or living from beliefs, not the True Self. If you take the beliefs out of a symbol or a story, you get back to the metaphors.  You regain the initiates’ mindset.

For eons, the esoteric occult ideas have come to the surface from time to time, much like what is happening today; but people treat these beliefs as true, not false. Today, people are noticing the occult symbols; but instead of declaring them false, they’re giving them even more power by teaching people about them. They are confused because they don’t know that emotions mean false. When they discover the symbolic meaning, they feel emotion; and they think that means the symbol is true and even powerful. Now they want those symbols for themselves. So they are becoming the deceivers…the Serpents of the future. In essence, an endless battle has been raging over whose beliefs are true. Who gets to control the symbols and who gets to own the cherished landmarks and buildings. This battle doesn’t end until we leave the illusion.

Once someone is indoctrinated into the illusory mindset, they get stuck. It’s isn’t their fault, and none of us have room to judge the people who are still most stuck today, including the globalists themselves. No one alive today invented the fallen way of using our minds. We all learned it from our ancestors. The people who invented this way of thinking go back thousands of years. People estimate that the Old Testament of the Bible goes back 6000 years; so that’s a good estimate of what we’re talking about for the age of the current illusion. We’ve all fallen prey to some aspect of the illusion. But that’s now in the past. In initiation, we correct the past so that we can create a beautiful future.

We stop the indoctrination process in its tracks. That’s why I took my children out of religion and school; and I kept them away from medicine as much as possible. But at that time, I had not fully decoded the New Age and alternative healing. Now I have; so I warn others to stay away from such things.

We see a perfect example of this very strong indoctrination at work today with the Corona virus hoax; people have been trained to trust their doctors blindly. The doctors lied to them, and even harmed them; but the people still trusted them. The people didn’t know how to discriminate between true and false on the topic of medicine. They don’t realize that we wouldn’t need medicine of any sort if we didn’t have second-cause beliefs in our minds. It’s sad; it’s hard to watch people suffer. That’s why I do what I do. We eliminate the illusion by letting go ourselves, exposing false, and become true role models for others to follow. That’s not an easy task; but it’s a worthwhile task.

The Great Awakening and the idea of ascension is another version of the same old ruse. It’s like the Renaissance period in European history; it did come to an end. Unless people let go of their beliefs, the pendulum will continue to swing back and forth between patriarchal and matriarchal points of view. Belief systems will continue to rise and fall like empires. But the good news is that the rising and falling is quickening. The pendulum is no longer swinging slowly over centuries; it’s swinging back and forth over decades. In fact, it’s moving closer to swinging back and forth over years. When the pendulum quickens and the back and forth becomes months, days, or hours, even the most rigid illusion dwellers will come to see the triangle bottom with ease. Then letting go and my decodes will make sense to everyone. That’s when I’ll release my decodes freely because no one will use them to deceive others. I don’t know when that will be. It might be a few years, or it might be a few decades. I’m not psychic, nor do I want to be.

The way to end all suffering, and I do mean all suffering, is to strip the power out of the occult illusion by not believing a damn word they say. We do that every single time we let go. We do that every single time we expose any second-cause belief as false. The occult in power are all like the Wizard of Oz. Once we reveal that their power is false, they will be forced to admit that it was all a big con game. They will be the losers, which is actually the win win for all, even them.

When the occultists restricted our freedom, they also restricted their own freedom. In the end, they will have no power at all. They will be normal, and those of us who have been traveling the path of initiation will be natural again. Natural trumps normal. Becoming natural isn’t about eating organic food or doing internal cleanses; those are ways of fixing the effects. Becoming natural is ONLY about our state of mind. Once we are free minded, our True Selves will reign again. No false leader will tell us what to do; they will be powerless. Our individual stories and our collective story will have to come full circle. But like I said, this might take a while; fortunately, we don’t have to wait for others. Many people have joined me in letting go, and they will be the way showers and the support for those who will come on board the freedom train in the future. Each time one of us lets go, or exposes false, it gets a little easier for others. Our future gets a little brighter.

The basis of the occult point of view, which is still normal today, is that knowledge is the same as knowing. The occultists treat second-cause thought, which has judgement in it like it’s the same as first-cause, nonjudgmental thinking. Today people commonly say that they are discriminating as they’re obviously judging. Imposing beliefs, rules, or demands on another is judging them. Imposing our beliefs on others means that we don’t trust that person to be naturally good. We should be letting go, not giving them more beliefs. Bad and evil were imposed on us by the occultists who wanted power. Discriminating is being able to say “NO” to people who impose rules, mandates, beliefs, or second-cause knowledge on us. Our natural knowing is beyond words…beyond spells…beyond curses.  Our natural knowing is the cure for everything.

The Occult Hijacked the Word Initiation

Now let’s go back to where we started this article. Let me give you an example of level confusion that’s intimately tied to what I do. Level confusion occurs when a word that points to the True Self becomes knowledge that people memorize and store in their false mental container. The word initiation was originally about freeing one’s mind. It was simple in theory; but even thousands of years ago, it took time to do…generally about a decade or more. Initiation was based on the notion that life is a story that’s meant to come full circle. We start out as a True Self, then we muck around in the illusion and get all mentally twisted around. We believe false and ignore our True Selves. At some point, we’ve had enough of the illusion, so we enter initiation and come out with the same pure mind that we had “initially.” “Initially” is the pivotal word in understanding initiation; the initiates wanted to return to the mind that they were born with. Initiation was not the same as seeking. There was no teaching or learning in halls of initiation. Jesus said that we want our mind to be like a child’s mind; he didn’t mean that we need a childish mind. He meant that we want to lead our life from our True Self…that’s a child’s mind…it’s pure and has no beliefs or second-cause knowledge in it yet.

Like so many other words, the occultists stole the word “initiation” from the initiates. But occult initiations are very different from true initiation. Occult initiations don’t involve letting go; they involve willpower, second-cause beliefs and knowledge, symbolism, rituals, and holding on for life. The occult initiation programs involved learning and memorization. They used rules, oaths, rituals, and ceremonies to keep their illusion fueled and intact. 

There was no formal testing in pure initiation; there was only validation. Life provided the validation that the initiate’s mind had changed. That’s the same today. That’s why we can do initiation without leaving our normal life. Our outer world changes as our inner world changes. We can let go as we work, play, or cook our dinner.

There were, however, insane occult initiation tests that are still performed today by the elite of the world; those often involve sex, children, and many other horrible activities (like they exposed in the movie “Eyes Wide Shut“). We can’t do much about the elite as normal people with no authority. However, there are traces of occult initiation in other more normal aspects of life that we can expose and eliminate. The occult way of thinking often starts with cliques in school, whereby kids have to give up their other friendships in order to join the clique. We see occult initiation in street gangs and secret societies. We also see occult initiation, often complete with tests, in college sororities and fraternities. People identify with these strange groups as if their membership in the group is an improvement of who they are.  That’s never true.

I was never one for cliques in school. I was friends with anyone who wanted to be my friend. I never liked clubs. I did join the Girl Scouts for a while because I liked learning how to do physical things. But that wasn’t a clique. During my first year in college, I lived on campus. I didn’t like college life; so after that year, I got a job and went to night school. Night school was wonderful; the teachers usually have real jobs in the day. So they had real-life stories and experiences to share.

But while I was living at a college, I thought that fraternities and sororities were the silliest thing that I’d ever seen. So I started my own sorority in order to mock them; my sorority wasn’t popular. You’ve probably haven’t heard of it. It was called “IMA PROTO ZOA.” The name was meaningful. Oddly, protozoa can be free or parasitic, just like people. The occult way of life is based on the host-parasite relationship or what therapists call codependence. Initiation was and is all about freedom. You can’t be a free and a codependent person at the same time just like you can’t be a free protozoa and a parasitic protozoa at the same time. Of course, no one got my metaphor; they rarely do.

The experience taught me that college life was not for me. I learned a great trade in college, accounting; and that led me to computers and systems design. My professions didn’t have any beliefs attached to them. They were just a physical and first-cause mental skill that taught me a lot about life. Later on, my advanced degrees in psychology and esoteric studies (the occult) were done with the intent to expose those ways of thinking as false. Many times, I’ve had to go into the belly of the beast to know why certain teachings were FALSE. Now I share my experiences, just like my night-school teachers.

The occultists want us to associate the word “initiation” with saying or doing something as a demonstration of our will and power. They do not want us to discover our True Self, lest we will have all the power; and they will have none. The original idea of initiation was about mental purification; it had no verbal or physical component. There were no rules, beliefs, or practices in initiation because the initiates eliminated mental causes; they didn’t fix physical effects. In the illusion, we fix physical effects, which is another trick that keeps us stuck. But if we don’t know how to let go, we have no choice but to fix effects. That’s why people who fix effects make a whole lot of money. Exposing is not very lucrative yet; but one day it will be. The world is moving in that direction.

If people let go and start seeing the occult beliefs and programming as false, the pyramid of power will come tumbling down. The occultists like to call us useless idiots or useless eaters. That’s projection; that’s exactly what they are being by saying and doing what they say and do. However, we must remember that they have a True Self too; sadly, it’s highly unlikely that they will find their True Self until they’re forced to lose and lose bigly. By exposing them, however, they will ultimately lose. By rejecting their projections, they will ultimately lose. By ignoring their symbols and rituals, they will definitely lose. By living our true and perfect life, they will lose bigly. When they realize that they have lost, and will never win again, then they will all be banging at the door of Gateway To Gold to learn to let go. They will want freedom too…everyone does.

The Three Steps

There are the three Steps to mental and emotional freedom

A few months ago, I brought up the Three-Steps for letting go on Facebook, and several people asked if I’d explain the Steps in a free article. The Three Steps are what we do naturally to keep our mind free and clear. But most of us didn’t remain free. What was natural has been lost. We don’t use our minds as they were originally designed. We have to let go to remember our natural abilities. In initiation, we use techniques that are a lot like priming a pump. Once the pump is primed, the water just flows.

While priming this mental pump, we’re looking for the reason that the pump needs priming at all. We want to look for the causal beliefs that stopped us from doing these Steps naturally. Then, we let those beliefs go.

The Objective

Most everyone gets stuck in Step One. Some people get stuck in Step Two because their mind tends to judge and compare. People pleasers of all varieties tend to get stuck in Step 2.5; they soothe their minds and everyone else’s mind too. The objective is to get to Step Three (unconditional love) on any, and every, topic. That’s our natural state. That’s the place where our True Self leads the way.

Our mind is really quite simple. Our True Self is pure and perfect. We’re all connected at the True Self level. When we lead from our True Self, we think, say, and do things which are win-win for all without having to think about it. We call that first-cause creation.

Our false mind is actually an individual mental container that is meant to serve the True Self. When we fall into second-cause thinking, our false mind holds our beliefs, unnecessary knowledge, and memories. That clogs up our container; it gets in the way of our natural creativity.

Our mental container should not be connected to any other person’s container. We don’t want a false-self connection with any other. Most people have false-self connections with individuals, family, groups, and even the collective mind. That’s why they feel so out-of-control (stuck in Step One). Such people gain false control by deciding that their beliefs are true. That causes them to be stuck in Step Two.

Letting go is meant to be easy; the voices in our mind want to make it hard. That’s because those voices want to remain in power. I call those domineering voices “clones.” Clone voices in our mind pretend to be God or our own True Self. As we let go, we realize that these voices are just recordings.

Physical to Mental

The Three Steps are designed to get you from the physical level of perception, through the false mental level, and all the way to the True Self, or Step Three.  Step Three is where letting go becomes easy. Tackle your most difficult memories, and your most rigid clone voices, when you get that sweet, True Self clarity.  Dive right into another subject when you get to Step Three.  Too often people take a break when they’re in that golden zone.

When you aren’t in that golden zone, letting go seems hard. You’re most likely trying to let go from a clone character in your mind, and that character doesn’t want to let go. It wants to rule over you. Such voices will often go through the motions of letting go. They’ll talk about it; they’ll become experts in it. But they won’t actually let go. Reading about letting go isn’t letting go. It doesn’t even get you a hair closer to freedom.

Here’s a trick that I used when I would get stuck. I’d let go on some topic that didn’t matter much to me. I would turn on the news and find someone in trouble. Or I’d think about a friend that was having a problem, and I’d let go for them. That would get me to Step Three; then I’d go to work on the issue that seemed impossible to let go while I was in that golden zone.

When you get to Step Three, you have the big picture. You can discriminate easily. You see the causal beliefs that are keeping you stuck, and you know they are false.

The Three Steps contain no useless steps, unlike the Twelve Steps.  You must at least pass through each step on the way to the next step.  In order to help you see this, I’ve created a clone diagram (shown below).  This diagram is not our natural state. It’s what the typical mind looks like within the illusion. In the end, the clone’s voice disappears. The True Self takes the lead and becomes the main circle, and the false self works for the True Self in first-cause creation.

Let’s Begin

You might want to choose an easy topic and work on that topic while you read these Steps. I always recommend that people let go while reading my articles. I expose beliefs and make it easier to let them go. You want let go in your pajamas with a hot chocolate instead of needing to let go on the freeway in rush-hour traffic.

Step One

In Step One, you’re completely in the feminine mentally, and you probably have a feminine physical role. You feel a lot of emotion, and you probably feel quite powerless; the cause appears to be coming from someone else…the person who’s playing the physical masculine role in reality.  

We’re all thrown into Step One as children, and we feel helpless to do anything about that.  We can’t usually defend ourselves as children. So we just accept what the person in authority says in order to avoid punishment or get rewards. During childhood, we populated our false self with beliefs, rules, and memories.  We all got stuck in the muddy waters of Step One. Our parents’ voices became recordings in our mind during childhood. We forget to let those voices go when we become independent adults. So we have big bodies but child-like minds. We don’t mature mentally.

Every second-cause belief that we accepted in Step One has an associated emotion. If a belief comes into our mind and we feel emotion, that belief is false. But in Step One, we feel the strong emotion, but we can’t find the causal belief. It feels like the effect is in our body and mind, and the belief is in the authority’s mind. We don’t believe that we can change the authority’s mind. Therefore, we fix effects, wallow in our emotions, soothe ourselves, or think endlessly about our problem. None of those common activities are letting go. None of them improve the quality of our mental container.

When we’re in Step One, we must let go from the feminine. So we lightly put our attention on pain, emotions, or symptoms in our body. We use OUR body to help us find the beliefs to let go in Step One. Then we listen for beliefs to arise. We let go of every belief that arises.

Our job is to notice that every belief we hear while focusing on the discomfort in our body is false and let it go. Now if you were in Step Three, that would be easy and automatic. But you aren’t in Step Three, so you have to drive your mental vehicle manually. The beliefs look true, but you have to recognize that the discomfort in your body is telling you that the beliefs are false.

You might also be in Step One when talking to another. Suddenly, you feel a lot of emotion when they say something. You’re feminine to them, either because they have authority or because you’re listening (listening is receptive or feminine even for a man). The emotion means that you’re accepting whatever they’re saying as true. Today, this is particularly common because people hold beliefs in telepathy, intuition, empathy, sympathy, etc. Those beliefs (or reasons) are all designed to keep us stuck in the illusion. They’re not win-win, which brings us to Step Two.

Step Two

In this step, you might have the masculine role in the physical illusion or not. Either way, you’re thinking from the masculine aspect of your mind, where beliefs and knowledge are stored. We might say that you are in your intellect, or some might say ego. I don’t use that term much.  You might feel like you’re creating your life, but you’re doing it from the false-mental level, not the True Self. In Step Two, your OWN thoughts are creating your emotions. These thoughts are not original; they’re learned from others who declared them to be true. They’re not win-win for all.

As children, we felt emotion when authority figures dominated us. If the emotion got to be too strong, we psychologically reversed our mind to accept the beliefs of that authority as true. We put that person’s voice in our mind as a clone character. Then we started to honor that clone’s voice as our voice, or our false God.

We’re now stuck in that person’s illusion. We no longer feel emotional when that voice speaks. To escape, we need to eliminate that false authority from our mind by letting go of false beliefs. Since we don’t feel emotions, like we do in Step One, we use the win-win test.

When we are stuck in Step Two, we project the opposite belief on to others.  Our thoughts in Step Two might be quite positive or good, but we see an opposite projected on others that’s negative or bad. This destroys our relationships. We’re judging another who we view as somehow inferior to us. We think that they should think or be like us. But they can’t be like us; we’re projecting the opposite on them.

In Step Two, we want others to change. Experts like lawyers, social activists, doctors, healers, teachers, preachers, psychologists, etc., live in Step Two; their careers are about fixing others. If experts used their career to let go of their beliefs from Step Two, they would one day move out of that career into something inspired from their True Self.

In Step Two, we use the win-win test. We can also use the triangle process. Any thought that isn’t win-win is declared false, even if the whole world thinks it’s true. This is hard to do if you have strong false-self connections with others. It’s also hard to do if you think that others are what you project on them. So Step Two can take some practice. It begs us to have some compassion for ourselves and others.

Step Two can feel like a waste of time at first. If you feel that way, then your North Star (where you want to go) isn’t set on freedom. You’re wanting to win and the other lose, wanting to be right, or wanting to dominate or control the other person.  People say, “Why should I let go for them?  They were mean to me.”  We’re letting go of what’s in our mind about them; we’re relieving them of our projection.  But we’re also cleaning out our individual mental container.

Jesus said, “Judge not.” People thought that was because he was spiritual. Nope! Jesus was a very practical man; he understood Step Two. If you’re stuck in judgment, even if it was justified, you can’t get to Step Three.

Often we confuse judgment with discrimination. Discrimination is based on true and false. Let’s say that someone says, “Your ugly.” You feel emotion because that’s false. You let their comment go in Step One. Then you let go of any tendency to judge them back in Step Two.

Many people have gotten a whole lot of freedom just by doing Step Two. I did it with win-win. Lester Levinson and Vernon Howard used only Step Two to gain their freedom. Neither of them had any clue how to let go from the feminine. So don’t ignore Step Two. It’s powerful.

Step Two is about sharpening our discrimination.  Imposing our beliefs on another is a form of judging. Judging blows our chance at freedom.  If we have no clone voices in our mind, we’ll pass through Step Two very quickly.  If we have a big-ass clone, or lots of clone voices in our mind, we’ll be in Step Two for awhile.  We might even get stuck in Step 2.5.

Step 2.5 

This step is a very ineffective way of fixing the effects. In Step 2.5, we’re hearing thoughts, which are soothing; or we hear thoughts that are true for the True Self but not for the false self. Examples are “Everything happens for a reason.” “It will all be okay.” “Time heals.”We are all one.” “Love is all.” “Love is the most powerful force in the universe.” These are basically true statements at the true-mental level.  They feel good when you hear them. But in Step 2.5, we’re saying them because we’re trying to avoid or ignore our emotions.

The New Age, self-help, and progressive movements caused me to add this step.  It became real popular in those groups. I’d often hear the opposite projected at me when people said something that sounded true or was over-the-top caring.  They wanted me to think that they were in their True Self; or they wanted me to think that they had let go, but they hadn’t.  Step 2.5 is actually used by con artists. We trust what we hear and ignore what we feel with such people; then we get blindsided by them.

People pleasers in the illusion think that speaking about the truth is inspiration.  But the word inspiration starts with “IN.”  Real inspiration comes when we expose what’s false in our fellow human beings; exposure pushes the other person inward where they can find their own inspiration. Inspiration is what we find when we get to Step Three.

Step Three 

This Step is a calm, soft feeling. I rarely hear any words at this level. If there are words, it’s more like a thought of how nice it feels. I might get a creative vision or some real inspiration that I want to follow. This is where our problems disappear, and everything seems right again. I might feel the recognition of how much I love another. We feel compassion for others in Step Three, even people who have hurt us.

Unconditional love lives in Step Three. Now we can see that everyone in Step One, Two, and 2.5 have less power than we do.  We have the clear view…the big picture. We aren’t thinking or contemplating. We have a knowing on the topic, not a belief.  We see that the so-called experts on that topic are coming from beliefs, knowledge, or memories. So we just ignore what others think. We’re living fully from our own individual mental container, and we’re now clear on that topic.

Summary

So that’s the Three Steps. Like anything else I offer, it takes practice to get all the way to Step Three. So you do what you can each time you let go. In time, you’ll get there. Like I said above, you want to discover why your mind doesn’t do this naturally. Then let those blocking beliefs go. Such beliefs took you away from your True Self. They pointed you toward the illusion instead of away from it.

Using the Three Steps ultimately eliminates the need for the Three Steps. That’s the nature of any effective technique. It eliminates itself in time. It creates true healing, transformation, and freedom.

Our Life As A Story

I spent this weekend at the Santa Barbara Film Festival.  I saw films I liked, one or two that were lousy, but one film was incredible.  It was called “Working Man.”  We’ll be looking at this film in detail in the Gold Circle program.  It just kept giving and giving.  But I wanted to say something about it that applies to anyone who is reading my blogs and learning how to let go.

Our lives are like stories.  The goal of initiation since inception was to bring our story full circle…no incompletions.  When we learn to do that, everything in our life eventually makes sense.  Sadly, most people compare their life to a Hollywood production.  Hollywood, like most things today, is ruled by people with clone minds.  I invented the term clone mind to describe the condition whereby the false self tries to look like the True Self.  The Hollywood star is always acting. But they do it so well that we don’t know it’s an act. There was actually a film about this at the festival. It portrayed the difficulty of relating to someone who isn’t being themselves. You don’t know when you are talking to a character versus the real person. Sadly, this problem isn’t just confined to professional actors. Lots of people are acting in our world today. They might get what they want from others, but they won’t get free. Now don’t get me wrong. I love actors and Hollywood. A free person can act as a profession, but they won’t forget that they’re acting. They won’t use acting to manipulate others.

In fact, being a clone is the furthest you can be from your True Self.  We’re taught to idolize clones, then we view our life as unimportant and certainly not a good story.  I constantly prove that wrong.  The examples that I use from my own life are simple events that happen to everyone…nothing spectacular.  What turns these mundane experiences into perfect initiation stories is letting go.  Letting go moves us out of the physical perspective (which includes clone attributes like positive thinking or managing our thoughts and most knowledge/expertise) into the True mental perspective.  We go from the false self to the True Self.  That’s the journey that we all intended to take in life according to initiation teachings.

We all start out our life, as well as every chapter of our story, with an event, which in story writing is called an inciting incident.  We associate beliefs with that memory…beliefs that caused the event and conclusions we drew from the event.  We generally hold those beliefs as true simply because we attach them to our past, real-life experience.  We keep illusions alive when we relabel beliefs as true.  Those beliefs keep creating our experience all through life unless we let them go.  The longer we are alive, the more such events we accumulate.  In the illusion, we equate real with true.  That keeps us stuck.

Initiation, i.e., letting go, brings such memories full circle as we let go of the causal beliefs, as well as the false conclusions surrounding the memory.  The past memory loses its emotional charge and our future life changes.  We’re released from the trappings of the past so that we can create freely. We’re no longer stuck on repeat.  So in the end, we see how the inciting incident happened, what it cost us by holding on to the associated false beliefs, and how we got back to where we started as we let go.  No therapeutic techniques can provide this kind of insight into our mind and our life.  Nothing is more satisfying than letting go and seeing memories come full circle.

Letting go is what creates an amazing story because it ties up every lose end. But the art of letting go was lost. No one does it anymore. Stories don’t have real endings anymore. So people die without feeling complete. They often feel major regret at the end of their life. That isn’t natural. Everything in the initiate’s life eventually makes sense.  And, most important, it doesn’t take an incredible plot to gain a standing ovation from the audience.

The original idea of story was that we are born free, unconditionally loving, and true; we fall into the illusion where we are lost and confused, and we escape and get back to freedom, unconditional love, and the truth with initiation.  Initiation was NOT a special club.  It was our birthright.  We returned to what we were initially.  It was an individual game.  People could help you, like I do, but they couldn’t do it for you.  The notion of initiation was basically destroyed by religion and the fall story. That created a collective permanent fall…a curse. We must let that curse go to get free. (We discuss this in depth in the Gold Circle. It’s beyond the scope of this particular article.) In initiation, we must let go of personal and collective beliefs.

The occultists (which includes all religion, New Age, psychology and self-help, progressive politics, and pseudo science) kept initiation away from us normal folks by creating special clubs and elite groups.  At first, they did know the truth, that the fall story was a myth that was about gaining power over others. But over time, they got lost in the illusion too. If you lie to others, you eventually believe your own lies. The occult leaders divided us into classes and castes.  They also made knowledge greater than our natural wisdom.  This wasn’t natural; and so we became emotional.  We got sick and hurt ourselves in accidents; we suffered. Our True Selves are all connected; and we don’t need to learn the truth (we are born knowing it). But in the illusion, our truth is rarely valued. People learned how to fix the effects of this fall problem. But they never removed the cause. So we could never get back to what we were INITIALLY.

We all got lost in the collective illusion; and we’re driven at the core to find our way back to that perfect mental state without leaving our bodies.  We all want Heaven on Earth, but we don’t know how to get it. But notice, I didn’t say that we’re drawn to a heavenly afterlife or a better life next time.  I didn’t say that we’re drawn to greatness, heroism, or the expression of a particular talent.  I didn’t say that we are drawn to God or nirvana.  We aren’t even drawn to world peace.  We want the feeling you get when you unconditionally love others.  We want that with everyone.  And in initiation, you don’t get to change the other people’s minds in order to achieve that end goal.  You only get to change your own mind.  It sounds impossible…I realize that. What I’m suggesting is so far outside normal thinking, even New Age concepts, that people think I must be insane.  I assure you that I’m not.  Letting go is powerful…more powerful than you could ever know. It’s hard to understand that until you do it for awhile.  And you do have to do it for quite awhile to get free. When you start letting go, you realize just how many beliefs you held in mind. You realize how programmed you really were.

Initiation, and the full-circle story, wasn’t designed to be a quick fix or a weekend workshop. It was designed to be the story of your life. If you get done early, then you can just enjoy being a creator.

The film, “Working Man” was about Allery, a small-town guy who worked in the same factory all of his working life.  The details in the film were phenomenal if you’ve ever known any real-live factory guys.  Growing up in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, I knew a lot of them.  The factory gave meaning to their life.  It provided for their family, which they saw as their role in the family.  Allery had a daily routine.  He carried the stereotypical silver metal lunch pail with a bologna and cheese with mayo sandwich on Wonder Bread.  For dessert, he had one of those powdered-sugar Hostess donuts.  He also had the metal thermos filled with hot coffee.  He walked the same way to work in his freshly pressed uniform.  When he got home, the wife had dinner on the table…usually meat, potatoes, and a canned vegetable.  He went for the same walk every night.  It seems like a boring, meaningless life until you bring it full circle.

Where Allery was in life is completely irrelevant for initiation.  That’s true for all of us. It’s what he does with his mind within that life that counts.  Does he let go at all? In addition, he can let go whenever he wants to let go. You don’t have a time limit on initiation; you just have to be alive and breathing.

Allery, however, is hard wired to hold on to his beliefs like most people are.  His routine and his beliefs are all he knows, and everyone around him shares the same beliefs.  His beliefs are never challenged by other people.  But life challenges Allery’s beliefs; it always does. Initiation is a drive within us. We will push ourselves to let go. Sadly, we often misinterpret difficult experiences as punishment, random events, or bad breaks. But they’re actually a push from our True Self to let go; and if we know how to let go, and we’re willing to let go, we step on the path of initiation for awhile. Allery, and most other people are programmed for learning, not unlearning. Most believe that the only way to change our mind is education.  But that’s not true.  That’s the beauty of initiation; it’s truly equal for all. In fact, the less educated have a bit of an advantage.

The writer, director, and actors of this film did their craft perfectly.  They let the film show us the daily life of Allery, but without too many words; more important, they let us into Allery’s mindset.  Then they created events which pushed Allery to see that his beliefs were false.  He didn’t want to let go…not at all. He fought hard to keep things the same. These events looked horrible to Allery, like punishment; but they caused him to face his biggest inciting incident, and to step out of his normal routine.  Allery had to stand up for himself and others.  He had to expose lies.  Suddenly, Allery started to feel like a man. That’s exactly what happens when we let go. The writer got it right.

It wasn’t actually the factory job that made Allery a man.  That belief was false. It was standing up for the truth, and exposing lies, that made Allery a man.  It wasn’t holding on that fulfilled him, it was letting go.  Allery became a happy man after shedding those false beliefs…not perfect, not walking on water yet, but happier and more content.  He was alive again.  He had the energy to play the earth game for awhile longer. A part of his life came full circle; and it was so endearing to watch. The final scene was him dancing with his wife like they did when they were young.

The movie had minimal drama, no sex, no violence, no superpowers, and no therapists.  There was one ineffective visit from a pastor.  Allery was as common as dirt. But you loved him, and you wanted him to get free of his past. The film had real normal thoughts, no political correctness or superficial conversations.  If was all about the fact that our jobs tend to define us.  But we need to let that go to get free.

For these men, losing their job meant losing their manhood.  But that was their belief, and their belief was false.  It truly was one of the most true-to-life movies I’ve ever seen.  I’ve posted the trailer below.  At this point, it’s just in film festivals.  But I hope it gets distribution.  Many of my friends growing up had Allery for dads, he was also my father-in-law who I liked very much; and I think this movie would be very special for those people.

I have to admit that I was concerned that this film would take some heat in the very liberal-minded group of highly-educated people who attend film festivals.  They tend to judge people like Allery as worthless.  They don’t understand the working man.  But the film seemed to open their hearts.  They gave the director and the lead actor a standing ovation. It proves another point that’s key to initiation.  We stop judging people when we take the opportunity to understand them.  Film can help us do that.  Film can get people to let go.

Technology and too many awards, glamour, and politics have ruined Hollywood.  But hopefully, people will speak up and support films like “Working Man.”  Then Hollywood will come back around full circle too; one day, they will again be about great stories well told…maybe even an initiation story.


Who Am I? I’m A Creator, A Free Thinker…

 Who am I?

By Cathy Eck

 

Who Am I?

This is my last post for a while.  I assure you that everything you need to get mentally and emotionally free is on this site and Gateway to Gold.  But you have to work at it.  You have to want freedom more than you want air to get it.  Reread old posts; what you understand will change as you let go.  You’ll often think that I changed the material, but I probably didn’t.  You changed.  Letting go happens in layers.

Challenge your thoughts/beliefs, even if your mind is telling you with absolute certainty that what you’re experiencing or thinking is true.  Let go of positive beliefs, not just negative ones.  I talk about this in my article on the Triangle Process.  As you let go, you’ll answer life’s biggest question, “Who Am I?”   But don’t confuse what I’m saying with the eastern practice of asking that question over and over again.  My work has nothing to do with eastern teachings and practices.  People often get confused by that.  I didn’t understand this eastern confusion for a long time.  I had to mentor people who had it.  Then I put what I learned from working with them into the Gold Circle material.  They had what I call a True Self clone, and this was keeping them from letting go.  They learned the truth from some teacher or guru, or even studying someone’s writing intensely; and they put the learned truth into their false mind.  That blocked them from connecting with their real True Self.  Then they read and learned what I was saying like that would get them free.  They weren’t actually letting go.  They told themselves that learning was letting go.  It isn’t. You can’t learn your way to your True Self. 

I didn’t have that issue; I had never been a follower.  I didn’t even have much of a persona.  I could never lie very well.  So I didn’t understand what was going on with these people.  But I did want to help them get free; I felt that their desire for freedom was sincere.  I had to go into their illusion to understand why they were so stuck.  That period of research and mentoring others became the Gold Circle.  The clone is the masculine part of our false mind that can pretend to be our True Self.  It learns how to sound like a True Self, but it isn’t the True Self.  Clones confuse a lot of people these days.  Most of those popular spiritual teachers and gurus are very strong clones and that means that they project a lot.  Religious leaders are also clones who project sin on their followers.  Also progressive politicians are very strong clones that project a whole lot on their followers.  Their followers don’t realize what is happening.  It’s cruelty masked as caring.

Thus people who follow them come to believe that they don’t know who they are when they actually do completely know who they are.  They simply took a projection from a so-called spiritual teacher or charismatic leader.  In the Gold Circle, I help people let go of the clone voices that they put in their minds, and they start to realize that they do know who they are.  I can’t stop these clones from doing what they do.  They have the right to do what they want.  But I can tell you how to get free of them; then you return to your True Self.  You don’t need their truth; you had it within you all along.

You didn’t arrive on earth wondering who you were.  You were curious and alive…a True Self.  You saw someone walking, you watched them, you took the risk, and you walked.  You heard people talk, and you learned to speak and matched words to objects, people, and experiences.  Learning and life were fun.  But you were never supposed to learn beliefs or get a belief system of any kind.

Recently, I heard on television that children’s brains are completely fired up until they start answering the question “I am…?”  They start creating a false identity, labeling themselves; and their brain appears to shut down.  As people get older they identify with their beliefs and their belief systems; they really start to shut down.  That is the start of what I refer to as the clone mind.  But I don’t talk about it much in the free material because it is very confusing.  Explaining the clone, and exposing popular clones, required that I put together a systematic way of approaching the subject.  It requires people to really want to do get free and not just be casual about letting go.  So the Gold Circle was born.

If you don’t have much of a clone, the free work will probably be all you need.  Either way, I require that people do my free work first, so do that and see if you are still stuck when you are done.  You need to already be letting go when you enter the Gold Circle.  I don’t teach the basics of letting go in that program.

That being said, I want to give you one big caution as you read my free work.  You were trained to learn and memorize what you read.  Stop IT!  Don’t learn what I’m saying.  I write to expose what is false.  I teach you how to let go by using your emotions and win-win logic.  Practice what I’m saying, and do it as you read.  Read slowly, and stop when you feel emotions; take the time to let go.  The more you practice, the easier it gets.  It’s a new way of using your mind and emotions.  It goes against what you have been trained to do.  Witness the emotions until you are free of that belief.  If you don’t know what I mean by witnessing, check out https://gatewaytogold.com/meditation-for-the-western-mind/.  Letting go can take minutes or days.  It depends on how much you’ve believed your beliefs in the past.  It depends how feminine you are to others.  It depends on how much you believe the clone voices in your mind.

Letting go is easy; the illusion is very complex.  Those who are winning in the illusion don’t want us to escape.  This project for me has taken a lot longer than I thought it would.  I had no idea that I would run into so many tricks and traps, but I did.  So I had to deal with what came up; and that is why Gateway to Gold has developed into my main site with different paid programs.  However, don’t disregard what I’ve published here.  No Labels No Lies is the meat and potatoes of letting go.  Keep working at it until you completely understand what I’m saying.

 

WTF?

People taught you to see what they saw.  You learned there was danger, suffering, problems, and disease.  You came to believe that you could get hurt, or you could hurt someone.  You learned to judge and compare.  This didn’t make sense, but you figured that those who came before you must know the truth.  They didn’t know the truth, they knew their beliefs; and they believed that their beliefs were the truth.

You were given the knowledge of good and evil (the shit that caused us to fall).  Good now had an opposite…EVIL.  You learned to hate and fear other humans.

We see what we hold in mind…what we believe.  How do we get back to who we once were?   It seems impossible.  Their beliefs appeared to get stuck in our minds.  How did that happen?  We asked, and they answered.  They gave us reasons for why we were stuck; and those reasons were all lies.

“You were born sinful.  Your memories of perfection are imaginary…visions of heaven.  Go to church to make sure you get to heaven when you die.”  What a crock of shit!  The east wasn’t any better…they gave you karma and a caste system.

Your character was slowly constructed.  You learned to be good and worthy so you could get a good-paying role in society and work hard.  “Life isn’t meant to be easy,” they say.

Knowledge consumed your mind.  Those who memorized the most knowledge got the best roles.  They’re called experts.  I call them clones.  Clones are great in the illusion; they are worthless once we want freedom.  Creative thinkers sound strange in the illusion.  Philosophers look lazy.  Artists starve.  Inventors can’t afford to create their inventions unless the inventions please “The Man.

Your pure thinking and true goodness was replaced by an illusion built of beliefs in which you were judged on your ability to blindly follow.  When you got to the point where you feared judgment enough, you turned away from your True Self.

A True Self is labeled evil by false selves.  The false self believes that creativity is for people with nothing else to do.  No one can see your thoughts anyway; it’s what you do that counts.  You conformed, but then you wondered, “Who Am I?”

 

Had Enough?

Maybe you attended workshops, saw therapists, and did processes and practices; yet you didn’t find the answer.  One day, you learned how to let go.  You let go of your beliefs regarding social protocol, religion, disease, problems, culture, and sin.  You released society’s rules from your mind.  You realized that others, even experts, had nothing to offer you anymore.  Slowly…you started to remember,  “I’m a creator.  What I think is what I become.”  

Your problems came from accepting beliefs and then fixing the effects of those beliefs.  You finally knew which way to go.  You just had to keep letting go more and more until your mind was free.  But it is hard to trust such an insight.  No one is letting go.  Nearly everyone is learning…putting more crap in their mind.

 

TRUE and FALSE

The illusion runs on good/evil, right/wrong, or win/lose.  The illusion is false…powerless.  It’s believed by nearly everyone…but it isn’t real.  It’s projected from our collective beliefs.  You arrived with the truth, and you didn’t lose it.  You can’t screw up letting go.  You can’t let go of truth.  So you have nothing to lose by letting go, ever.

 

EMOTIONS MEAN FALSE

Any thought/belief that has an emotional component is false, even if the whole world believes it’s true.  Your mind desperately wants you to believe that thoughts that feel bad are true, but you fight that temptation.  You let those thoughts go.

 

WIN-WIN

Holy Shit!  You aren’t a fucking sinner.  The more you let go, the more you despise competition, oppression, and domination.  You’d never harm another.  You won’t even judge another anymore.  You realize that a true thought is win-win for everyone.  No belief system can be true.  Belief systems separate us.

 

MASCULINE AND FEMININE ROLES

You realize that those who have masculine (authority) roles make the rules.  The judging God was actually a human being…a false, power-tripping leader who imposed his illusion, where he wins and we lose, on everyone else in the name of God.  You don’t want to even play good roles in the illusion — they always harm someone.

 

PROJECTION

Leaders in false masculine roles often look like True Selves because they project their judgments and the unwanted half of their beliefs on to people in feminine roles.  You now see and hear the false masculine’s incongruence.  The leaders see enemies, evil, suffering, poverty, and disease because it’s inside of them.  It’s not true; it’s their illusion…their reality.  Underneath their mask is a powerless human who’s lost.  They’re pawns of the illusion fixing their own projections.  We should ignore them, not follow them.

 

PHYSICAL VS. MENTAL PERSPECTIVE

We were programmed to see a physically-focused perspective of reality which blinds and confuses us. We look at the quality of people’s doing and ignore their thinking.  Sadly, false thinking looks normal.  True good comes from a pure mind.  When our mind is impure, we can look good by doing the right things; but we aren’t truly good.

 

LET IT GO

The illusion told us that it could give us what we already were.  The illusion only lies.

When we can no longer stand the illusion, we let it go.  As we let go of the judgments, labels, beliefs, and knowledge/expertise, we’re left with the truth.  We remember who we are.  We’re creators who bring our ideas to life for the benefit of everyone.  Keep letting go; don’t stop until you get to freedom.  It’s your birthright.

Being Truly Good by Eliminating Good and Evil

Good vs. Good and Evil

By Cathy Eck

 

Illusion Confusion

Good and evil rests at the core of the illusion.  Often it takes on a different form, like positive and negative; but ultimately, judging another as negative means that we’re seeing negativity as evil.  Good and evil was the way humans gave God an opponent to battle.  God originally represented our perfect True Self; therefore, the opponent of God is our OWN false self projected out into the world.  The final battle isn’t in the outer world.  It’s in our mind.  It’s initiation.

The confusion around good and evil causes so many problems.  People genuinely want to be good.  They really do.  There’s a reason for that; they were born good, and some part of their mind remembers their True Self.  We arrive with no opponent.  Good’s opposite arises when we accept another person’s notion of good — their rules or morals.  Rules tell us how to be good according to an outer system.  Rules deny the innate goodness of people.  That’s why most of my readers hate them.  Once we accept that being good is following outer rules even if they sound like the truth, we also now hold within the possibility of evil or badness if we disobey those outer rules.

We also have experts giving us rules for how to be healthy, how to be spiritual, how to be social, and how to be successful.  The result is that health, spirituality, social acceptance, and success have gotten harder — not easier.  We live in a bubble of experts determined to keep our natural wisdom and truth under wraps.  And often our truth is screaming in our mind, but we feel paralyzed if we try to speak it.  We’re so well trained to look outside for answers.

 

Fear of Judgment

When I first saw the illusion within myself, I felt like a backed-up sewage system.  I was no longer passing on my beliefs to others because I knew they were false.  But others didn’t stop demanding my obedience to their beliefs and rules.  This created a long and grueling awkward phase.  I couldn’t figure out how to escape this prison.

I could no longer obey their rules because I knew were false and limiting.  But disobedience resulted in judgment.  I hated being judged by those who still thought their rules were valid and good.  My discrimination felt worthless in a world where no one else was discriminating.  In fact, it seemed that my discrimination just got me into trouble with nearly everyone.

As we move toward freedom, we meet the same or similar experiences and feel the same emotions we felt and did not let go earlier in life.  We are slowly releasing beliefs.  The illusion shrinks each time we succeed in letting go until nothing is left.

Our fear of judgment probably came from the ancient act of cursing.  In earlier times, people believed that another person’s words or evil eye could take them down.  We all have a deep fear of other humans within us, especially if they are envious or angry.  The winners of the illusion play on this.  When we’re afraid, we’re easily controlled.

Many people adopt another belief like, “I don’t care what they think of me.”  Some work on their reputation and create a great looking mask.  Signs and symbols came out of the fear of expression, not truth.  We all have fear of beliefs and believers, which ultimately results from the foundation belief that the truth is less powerful than a belief system.  We think our love and truth is not enough in this world to keep us safe.  But if you let go enough, you’ll see that’s not true.

This all got worse with the positive thinking movement.  People said that words had power; and that’s true.  But most people’s words are not empowering; this only resurrected our fear of people, especially believers.

 

Psychological Reversal Again

The issue always comes back to the basic psychological reversal around emotions.  When people are sucked into the illusion, they think that something that feels bad IS true.  In the illusion, war, disease, poverty, and evil are all considered true and unavoidable — yet they all feel horrible.

When a resident of the illusion judges us, and it does feel bad to them, they don’t reject the thought; they act on it.  They want us to change, and often we do.  If we can’t beat them, we’ll join them.

I first came to understand this with my own children.  I’d notice something in them that I didn’t like — it looked very real AND I felt emotion.  If I mentioned it to them, they had no clue what I was talking about.  So I’d take responsibility and just let it go.  After awhile, I realized that I was seeing my own fears projected on them.  I let go from the masculine role until the problem I saw disappeared — it always did.  I did not make them responsible for my emotions.  Then I could see their perfection.

This is the sticking point of the illusion that traps us all.  Others think we’re causing their emotions with our disobedience.  They try to get their emotions to stop by changing their projection.  It doesn’t work EVER!  The projection isn’t the cause.

Now I understand what people were doing to me.  Being our True Self forces other people’s beliefs to surface; when this happens the false self goes into blame mode.  I used the feminine method of letting go in myself until I realized that they’re false thinking has no power to harm me.  If I stay in truth, and don’t judge them back, they back off.  In truth, beliefs only affect believers.  But rebelling against believers gets us stuck in their illusion.

Eventually, the concept of good and evil dies a natural death.  There’s no apocalypse, no buildings collapse — nothing physical needs to change.  The illusion was just a perspective.  Good and evil disappear; only true good remains as it was in the beginning.

 

 

 

Living the Masculine and Feminine Roles in Relationships

Earth as a mirror of our mind

By Cathy Eck

 

Getting Right Inside

I usually discuss the masculine and feminine related to roles; but the masculine and feminine are actually aspects of our own mind.  The correct inner relationship manifests correct outer relationships.  However, most people live as if the outer world and relationships create their thoughts.  They live life backwards.

In order to let go, we must move our attention inside of our mind.  We must take our focus off the belief-generated illusion and other people; we become inner directed.  Don’t confuse this with introversion.  Inner directed means our attention is on our OWN mind, not other people’s minds.  It means constant discrimination.

Whether we’re male or female, we came hard-wired with a masculine and feminine mind aspect — once called God and Goddess within  (True Self).  Living as a True Self is only possible when we let go of everything false from our minds.  We’re left with only true.  We now create in the physical world using only first-cause thinking.

When we’re thinking true thoughts, our inner masculine and inner feminine harmonize as one.  Our mind is unified (top of the triangle).  These are our most creative moments.  Our inner God now loves unconditionally and thinks only the truth or first-cause thoughts; hence our inner Goddess is creative and wise.  Our life works.

 

Inner Relationships Create Outer Relationships

Jesus said (paraphrasing), “Don’t do shit until you find the kingdom of heaven within.”  That was damn good advice.  If our inner masculine mind is a giant mass of beliefs and knowledge, our inner feminine mind will be emotional and non-creative.  What’s inside our mind creates what’s outside of us if we hold a masculine role.  When we don’t hold a masculine role, then we’re lowly cast members in the stories of the people who hold the masculine roles.

The true masculine leader was modeled after the sun.  The sun gives light and warmth unconditionally.  It doesn’t check to see if we’re worthy of it’s gift or ask for something in return.  Likewise, the masculine sexual organ gives.  Thus the masculine role was considered a giving/assertive role.

The feminine role was modeled after the moon or earth to reflect or absorb.  The sun, moon, and earth were metaphors for the mentally oriented masculine and feminine.  We assume that the sun sends pure light; but humans in the false masculine role send fluorescent (fake) light.

If the masculine mind or leader is like the sun (true) and loves the feminine unconditionally, the feminine reflects that unconditional love back like the full moon, or the feminine earth absorbs the sun’s rays and creates life.  However, if the false masculine mind or leader projects judgment, criticism, or discipline on the feminine, the feminine reacts unnaturally with emotion, rebellion, problems, or disease.

The True Masculine lets go of any thought that causes emotion or limits the feminine (not win-win).  But the false masculine doesn’t let go.  It thinks its beliefs are right and true.  It projects the unwanted part of it’s divided (second-cause) thinking on to its feminine using blame.  It believes that it can think false and get true.  That’s ridiculous, but that’s what it believes; it calls it discipline.

If we all lived as True Selves, creating would be cooperative with two or more whole people creating more than the sum of the equal parts.  A common goal or desire would unite people — not their beliefs.  The leader would hold the vision for the group — not impose beliefs or rules on them.

 

Reality of Relationships

The True masculine role is mentally oriented; its pure mind never gets tired of giving.  What effort does it take to think truth or love unconditionally?

The false masculine, however, is physically oriented; a false masculine mind says to physically give, sacrifice, or serve.  The false masculine leader (or God/Lord) gives discipline, rules, and beliefs.  It gives conditional love (rewards) and punishment.

Thinking false thoughts is exhausting.  But the false masculine is cunning.  It makes the rules and convinces others to do it’s hard work with lies while it receives the benefits, power, and credit.  Rules are false; they shouldn’t be obeyed.  But we’ve been psychologically reversed to obey.

A powerful false masculine leader (like royalty or a billionaire) feels balanced.  But, they’re not.  They’re living the beneficial side of both roles.  They have no compassion for their projection — the people living the shitty side of both roles who have no power and no rewards.  Thus the successful false masculine leader often does a little charity work or service to mask their projection and look generous.

False masculine leaders have no reason to change their mind, so we have to transform ours.  When we let go of their beliefs/rules in our mind even if they’ve created our reality in the past, we move into the True Masculine role naturally.  The true leader is the person with the purist mind in any situation.  They have more power than the balanced false masculine; they can make everything right.

In initiation, we don’t fight for the masculine role or win it by education, expertise, or knowledge.  We simply let go of all of our beliefs.  We let go of allowing others to project or impose their beliefs on us.  We let go of our judgments of others.  Our mind becomes clear and pure.  Then we rise naturally to the true masculine role.  It’s so subtle that we hardly even know we’ve done it.

In initiation, this was called becoming the Christ or the Son of God.  In religion, it’s called impossible.  Religion worships the false masculine; the false masculine always has an enemy or opposite like Satan.  The higher the false masculine rises in the system, the more it’s attacked by Satan.  However, when the True Masculine takes the lead, the false masculine loses its false power; it retreats or submits because it’s finally feeling its own emotions.  It’s pulled inward.  Its lies no longer work.  The war is over.

Have You Transformed or Conformed? That is the question!

It's never too late

By Cathy Eck

 

Transformed

Creating a memorable story requires a transformed protagonist.  What does it mean to be transformed?  According to most people, to be transformed is really to have finally conformed.

Larry is a problem.  He can’t sit still in school.  He doesn’t do his homework.  His grades are appalling.  Larry daydreams all day long.  He plays alone on the playground; he’s been labeled antisocial.  “What are we going to do with Larry?”

At home, Larry’s addicted to his LEGO blocks; he builds things for hours each day.  To everyone around him, Larry looks lazy.  They believe that he will never function in the real world; he hates hard work.  When he’s allowed to watch television, Larry watches sci-fi movies.  No one notices that Larry is building a new kind of spaceship in his mind.  He dreams of going to far off places.  Larry’s constantly trying to understand rockets and what materials will endure the type of voyage he imagines in his mind.  Unbeknownst to anyone else, Larry’s doing equations in his play that make his homework look infantile.  On the internet, Larry’s studying metals. Larry watches science fiction shows to get ideas to enhance his dream.

Larry can’t stand his parents and teachers; they don’t get him.  They see a lazy, unfocused, and socially-deficient failure.  They never invest the time to watch or listen to Larry.

Eventually, they threaten him.  Larry must improve his grades or the LEGO blocks go.  He must study three hours each night under his parents’ supervision.  Larry gave in; he had no choice.  The next reporting period, Larry got straight A’s.  My God, everyone is so happy.  “Larry has transformed,” they say.  Oh no, they’re so wrong.  Larry hasn’t transformed; Larry has conformed.

Now that his mind is filled with facts, Larry becomes social.  Kids like him; he helps them with their homework.  Larry fits in.  Larry is voted class President and most likely to succeed.  He dates the cutest girl in class.  Larry decides that his dream was unrealistic.  Who really needs a rocket scientist anyway?

 

Larry Grows Up

Larry gets his Ph.D.; he graduates Summa Cum Laude in mathematics.  He’s a great professor.  He marries and has a son.  Larry is happy.  Occasionally he remembers the joy he felt with his LEGO blocks; he wonders if he’ll ever feel that again.  Larry buys his son some LEGO blocks.  As soon as the child can pick up a block, he’s showing him how to build rockets.  Larry reads him space and flying books each night.  He lives vicariously through his son.

But Larry’s son, Harry, loves to draw.  Larry tries to bridge the gap; maybe they can draw rockets.  But Harry wants to draw animals.  Larry’s dream dies another death.

As Larry gets older, he gets cranky.  His nice social facade cracks.  He complains and gets sick all the time.  His wife wonders what’s happened.  He watches the sci-fi channel all day long.  No one understands Larry now because no one ever understood Larry.  Is it too late for Larry to have a Hollywood-quality transformation?

 

Transformed

No, it’s never too late.  Letting go allows us to get back on our own unique and perfect path.  And every inch of that path is perfect. It doesn’t matter where we get back on.  It just matters that we get back on.  We start enjoying life from that moment forward.  To do that, we must let the past go.

Larry is still listening to society; they do think it’s too late for him.  Does it feel good that Larry couldn’t still design a rocket?  Hell no!  Does Larry still have a mind?  If Larry had already designed a rocket, what would be different about his life today, nothing other than he’d have a different memory of the past.  The past is over anyway.

Larry and his wife watch their grandson each day.  The grandson found Larry’s old LEGO blocks.  But Larry can’t stand the sight of them anymore.  They remind him of childhood and the failed attempt to build rockets with Harry.

Larry’s mind is pushing him to the illusion’s exit point, but Larry doesn’t know how to go within.  If Larry would witness his emotions instead of spewing them all over his wife and grandson, he could exit the illusion.  If he witnessed his emotions (not wallowed in them) his old beliefs would rise to the surface, and he could let those old beliefs go.  He’d see that he was right as a child, but he was surrounded by people who hated their own True Selves.  It’s sad, but it’s reality for most people.  How could they support Larry in his dream when they had long ago tossed away their own dreams?

Let’s imagine that Larry does witness and feel his emotions.  He realizes that he conformed; he discriminates and lets go.  Eventually, Larry feels true compassion for himself and the people around him who conformed.  They’re all dead now; in truth, they never lived because they never transformed.

Larry realizes that he’s been angry at Harry because Harry didn’t conform.  He travels the world photographing and painting animals.  Larry witnesses that anger now, and it disappears.  Larry realizes that he gave his son what he wanted most…the opportunity to be himself.  He was a good dad.

Several sci-fi movies have begun and finished as Larry traveled the inner voyage of his life.  Then his grandson taps him on the knee.  “Grandpa, you okay?  Wanna play with me?  I’m trying to build a rocket, but I don’t know how?  Will you help?”

Larry smiles.  “Yep I sure will.  We’ll build the best rocket you could ever imagine!”  Years later, Larry’s grandson graduates with honors in engineering; he and grandpa design a new prototype rocket.  The university where Larry taught funded the project; and today it lifts off as thousands of Larry’s past students cheer on the professor they loved.  Larry’s found his joy again.  He’s transformed.  That’s a wrap.

 

PS:  This is dedicated to my ex-father-in-law who never lived because he never transformed, but he has a grandson named after him who never conformed.  His name is not Larry, and I don’t know if he liked rockets!

 

 

 

The Passive-Aggressive Masculine Role

black and white panda passive-agressive behavior

By Cathy Eck

 

Victims of the Illusion

We’re all victims of the illusion — not victims of each other.  Passive-aggressive behavior isn’t exclusively male; it lives within the collective masculine role.  Men just play the masculine role more often.

Passive-aggressive authority figures look nice, but under the surface they’re aggressive and volatile.  They create havoc all around them while looking like the calm in the eye of the storm.  Americans love to elect passive-aggressive people into office.  That’s why we’re almost always at war.  Passive-aggressive people don’t see their own aggression within because it’s covered with a highly polished mask.  They think they are their mask.

To emotionally-connected people, the passive-aggressive masculine role looks good but feels bad.  It’s confusing.  We expect people to be internally and externally congruent.

To those who can’t feel emotions, the passive-aggressive masculine role looks too good to be true.  They’ll put them on a pedestal to admire and worship — like royalty, stars, or elite.

 

Making the Passive-Agressive Person

If I want to create a passive-aggressive male, I’ll program his mind while he’s young.  First, I’ll create an emotional, angry male — the aggressive part — by consistently imposing my beliefs on him.  I won’t honor his True Self.  I’ll tell him that he’s inherently bad — a sinner.  When he reflects my flaws, I remind him how bad he is.  “Life is suffering and struggle,” I say.  “Hard work is a virtue.”  That will all feel horrible, but I’ll tell him that his emotions mean it’s true — so deal with it.  Don’t cry about it.  It’s the way life is.

If the boy was raised in eastern traditions, I’ll tell him to accept his karma or caste.  I’ll destroy his hopes and dreams, and even deprive him of choices regarding work or love.  When he has a natural emotional reaction to my beliefs, I’ll remind him that his emotions mean I’m speaking the truth.  I’ll teach him to respect others who share my beliefs.

When I’ve broken him, psychologically reversed him to ignore or hate emotions, made him blindly obedient to my beliefs, and am sure he’s repulsed by the truth, I’ll put a nice wrapper on his aggressive masculine.  I’ll teach him morals, rules, and manners — to look nice and kind.  I’ll teach him to never look inward.  His outer-directed focus will project his suppressed aggressive side out.  He’ll spend his life trying to fix, kill, or control his own projection.  He’ll do to others what was done to him and think he’s good.

He’ll use his emotions to protect his beliefs or to look charismatic.  He’ll go to war and kill the enemy for his beliefs.  He’ll rigidly defend his religion and culture.  He’ll be proud when he converts people to his belief system.  He’ll unconsciously seek aggression and competition like a heat-seeking missile.  When things go wrong, he’ll view himself as a victim of his own feminine projection.  When things go right, he’ll declare his beliefs right and true again.

 

Black Sheep

The people who play the reflective, feminine role for the passive-aggressive masculine role are the black sheep.  The feminine role is the aggressive projection of the passive-looking masculine.  If we got out of childhood without passive-aggressive programming, we get tricked into relationships with people who look nice and hide aggression because we don’t understand our emotions.  Our emotions signal when we’re entering into a false-self relationship, but we think it’s a great opportunity, chemistry, romantic love, sexual attraction, or excitement.  The illusion has endless tricks to capture us.

As long as we don’t challenge the passive-aggressive masculine role’s beliefs, their aggression gets projected elsewhere.  They adore us because we’re on their side.  But if we expose the aggression, say no to them, or disagree, we become the enemy.  The passive-agressive masculine isn’t looking for friendship, love, or partnership.  They’re looking for agreement that they’re right and good.  Their only desire is to keep up their nice, kind, spiritual, or good persona.  Exposure is their biggest fear.

We label those who play OSCAR-worthy reflective feminine roles mentally ill or hysterical.  They explode when the situation doesn’t seem to merit the reaction because they feel the underlying aggression coming from the masculine.  They commit crimes, and can’t explain why.  If we don’t have a strong mask ourselves (children, introverted women, creative people, sensitive men, etc.), we’ll flow swiftly down their passive-aggressive stream; and we don’t make sense even to ourselves.

The passive-aggressive masculine is an old pattern.  It’s been used by political and spiritual leaders for thousands of years to create blindly obedient slaves.  It’s the false God, which is nothing more than a composite of our early authority figures.

When passive-aggressive behavior infects a relationship, it’s difficult to cure.  Both people think the other is the cause.  The passive-aggressive masculine role actually holds the cause, the feminine role acts out the effect.  To stop the destruction, both people must pay attention to THEIR own minds.  They must stop the compulsion to fix the other.

The masculine role must let judgmental thoughts about others go because they are their projection.  Passive-agressive minds hold on to thoughts about others that feel bad.  They get their worth from mentally comparing themselves to others who they see as bad or wrong.  

The feminine role must follow their emotions to the causal thoughts.  They’ll end up in what feels like the passive-aggressive person’s mind.  They don’t need to change their mind, they just need to let the belief go by recognizing it’s false.  

The aggression wasn’t anyone’s fault; we all got it as innocent children.  But it’s absolutely our responsibility to correct it.  When we let our aggressive side go, we no longer need the passive mask.  We become our True Selves.  This changes our relationships, ourselves, and the world.  We no longer look too good to be true; we’re just plain good.  And the black sheep in our life suddenly become lily white.  They no longer have to reflect what we can’t see.  They too can be themselves.  

Illusion Confusion: Eliminating Judgment

Judgment and Illusion Confusion

By Cathy Eck

 

Judgment

Last week, I wrote about my sadness that people are often considered to be badly created or badly raised.  As I mentioned, I don’t think it’s that uncommon for people to think of others in that way.  However, in America, we wouldn’t dare say what we’re thinking.  We’d cover it up with a nice mask.  Americans are excellent, silent projectors of judgment.  This is an update on those earlier stories and a testimony to how things can change when you let go.

I’d often felt others judge me as badly created or badly raised only because I was different.  I didn’t share their beliefs or see through the same lens.  So I went back to many of those times, brought up the emotions that I repressed because I didn’t know how to let go at the time, and witnessed the emotions realizing that the person’s judgment (belief) wasn’t the truth.  They weren’t really judging me; they were judging their own projection.  But when I didn’t know that, I stored the painful memory in my body.  I did that process until I couldn’t think of anymore examples.  I just felt peace and love.  Then I completely forgot about it.  Until a few days later…

 

Illusion Confusion

I went to a festival in the center city here in Cuenca (above photo).  Lots of people were dancing in the streets to very good live music.  A man came up to me and held out his hand.  He was an older Ecuadorian man — dirty and very drunk.  At first I thought he wanted money, but his hand was turned with the palm down.  I knew enough Spanish to realize he wasn’t talking about money.  He wanted to dance.  I politely said “No,” but he wouldn’t leave me alone.  I realized that I didn’t say “No” with enough force.  American politeness is often too soft here.  So I said, “No, gracias!” (No, thank you) in a slightly louder voice; but still he tried to convince me to dance with him.

Just then a young man, who was leaning on a nearby fence, walked over and very gently held the man by the elbow and explained to him kindly that I didn’t want to dance.  He walked him away from me and then went back to his place on the fence.  There was no force, no anger — just caring and kindness.  My mind flashed to earlier images in my life of bouncers beating up drunk men or policemen pushing and yelling at people as they demonstrated their authority.

I realized that the young man didn’t see the old drunk man as badly created or badly raised; he saw him as confused.  That was how he spoke to him — like he was teaching him rather than punishing him.  He saw him as not knowing the proper way to relate to someone outside of his own culture.  I walked over to the young man and said, “Muchas gracias,” (Thank you very much) and smiled.  He smiled back and nodded.

 

No Judgment, No Force

I still can’t think about that interaction without getting tears in my eyes.  I realized that the reason we use authority and force to handle things is because of judgment.  Authorities see themselves as right and superior; the offender is obviously wrong and inferior.  When judgment isn’t present, no force is needed.  It’s all so simple.

Judgment will always be present, even if unstated, if we believe that other humans can be badly raised or badly created.  Thus, if we believe in the notion of original sin or believe that humans fell from grace, then we can’t help but have judgment for others.

I realized how lucky I was not to have those beliefs installed in my mind as a child.  Before I married, I didn’t know what judgment was.  It was a word that I couldn’t comprehend.   Occasionally, I attended Catholic church with my husband and his family.  I realized that my mind started to judge others at that time.  I didn’t like it, and I wondered where the thoughts were coming from.  I felt it was from the church because I noticed that people seemed very judgmental after they attended mass.  But I kept dismissing my observation because it seemed ridiculous that our mind would become more confused, negative, and hateful after attending what was supposed to be something good and spiritual.

Religions all evolved from the idea that humans are flawed and need spiritual training.  The notion of initiation, on the other hand, is based on the idea that we are good and spiritual by nature.  That goodness can’t be destroyed; it can only be covered with beliefs, creating confusion.  Even the worst human isn’t evil in the initiate’s eyes; they just have a thicker layer of illusion covering their True Self.

This isn’t only a lesson in how to treat others.  It’s a lesson in how to treat ourselves.  If we view ourselves as flawed and needing fixing, we’ll hold on to beliefs in problems, suffering, and punishment.  We’ll try to use our will to jump over limiting beliefs.  On the other hand, if we see ourselves as good and deserving of love, we’ll use our will to eliminate our beliefs.

 

Letting Go

I often have days where I want to give up trying to resurrect the old initiation teachings.  I’ll think that I can’t take one more person telling me that viewing humans as innately good and loving is ridiculous.  I can’t hear one more person describe humans as physical meat suits that are evolving nicely.

But then I witness the natural power of the initiate’s point of view in action, just as I did with that young man.  I see my own worldview change as I let go, and I know I can’t go back to looking at others as badly created or badly raised.  I can’t go back to thinking that people need fixing.  It’s just so much easier to let go and love.

 

Judgment and The Life Review

Judgment and understanding

By Cathy Eck

 

Judgment Day

Years ago, I was giving a “No Labels, No Lies” presentation.  A Fundamentalist Christian woman stood up and said, “It sounds like you’re doing the Christian Judgment Day and the Life Review while alive.”  I hadn’t thought of it that way.  But she was right.  Initiation takes the lies (the false self) out of religion; it purifies it.

When people have near death experiences, they often say that they’re shown what it’s like to walk in the shoes of their enemy.  They see and feel the hurt that they projected on others.  They also describe a tremendous beauty and joy, which I suspect is the reward of their True Self’s unconditional love finally being returned to them by those that couldn’t or wouldn’t love them in their physical body.

Religion basically postpones what ancient people called initiation until you die.  Initiation was all about being saved or reborn but not because of a ceremony.

No ceremony makes people compassionate or unconditionally loving, but initiation did.  Of course, if everyone could heal their life, love their neighbor, and be free, they wouldn’t need religion, they wouldn’t need government, and they wouldn’t buy most of those stupid products that businesses sell.

In a Babylonian creation myth, there’s a line that says the Gods decided to invent humans so someone could worship them.  Another lines says that they needed servants because they wanted constant leisure.  The huge gap between the haves and the have nots would disappear very quickly if people did the Judgment Day Life Review while alive.  False superiority would end.

We were trapped in the illusion by others, but we hold ourselves hostage.  We can’t blame those who taught us to postpone freedom, gratification, and unconditional love if we can let their false teachings go.  We postpone our return to Heaven on earth because don’t want to see and feel what we’ve done to others when we imposed our beliefs on them.  Needing to be right about our beliefs keeps us in prison.  Letting go sets us free.

 

No Judgment; No Blame

I’ve been going through this life review while alive process for years.  While judgment and blame seem neverending in physical form, they vanish when you let your beliefs go.  Anything you did wrong in the illusion was from a belief.  Once you let the causal belief go, you realize it never really happened.  Your mind returns to the Garden of Eden.  You remember who you truly are — your True Self.  You’re only letting go of the false self, and you don’t miss it at all.  Why would you ever miss blame, guilt, shame, or judgment?

In truth, there’s no evil or wrong; what appeared to be evil or wrong was simply false.  And, false has no power unless we give our power to false by labeling it true.  You don’t miss your false relationships, false authority, stupid jobs, unpaid bills, diseases (even the ones you got payoffs for), or even the false Gods.

Initiation is different than the Judgment Day we’ve been sold by religion.  Removing judgment is really about understanding.  I once had someone in my life that sent hate my way for decades.  I wasn’t mean back to them.  So, I actually thought that I was complete with them.  But I wasn’t.  In initiation, I had to see what it was like to walk in their shoes and how and why they viewed me as they did.  To understand someone means to stand under them.  If we feel stuck under someone’s thumb, we probably haven’t tried to understand them.   We’ve used our energy to rebel against them, get even with them, or get them to change.  Not understanding others is a form of judgment.  Understanding allows us to discriminate and unconditionally love at the same time.

Initiation and the Judgment Day aren’t about fixing right and wrong and good and evil; they’re about seeing through the illusion to true and false.  Regardless of which side of the bottom of the triangle, we’re on, we’ve got clean up work to do.

I had to really understand how this person’s beliefs gave them their point of view.  I had to gain true love and honest compassion for them.  I had to bring my memories of them to true completion.  I had to remember them before they gave hatred to me — true forgiving.  Until then, I blocked my own freedom.

It feels weird to do this because it’s never discussed.  True forgiving involves forgetting.  We think this cleansing will occur at death; so we don’t attempt to do it in life.  Consequently, we continue to need death, and we never really live.  Ancient masters taught that death is an addiction because we don’t want to love our enemies unconditionally.  We’d rather die.

 

The Reward

Edgar Cayce, the sleeping prophet, said that when we become our True Self (he used the word life), we don’t need death.  Here is one of his many quotes on rejuvenation.

He hath shown the way; not by some mysterious fluid, not by some unusual vibration, but by the simple method of living that which is life itself.  Think no evil; speak no evil; hear no evil.  And as the truth flows as a stream of life through the mind in all its phases or aspects, and purifies same, so will it purify, revivify and rejuvenate the body (294-183).

When we let go of evil (beliefs), we start to live.  Live is evil spelled backwards — a clue.  This doesn’t mean to deny or suppress evil or thoughts of judgment.  It means to let them ALL go.  No one can possibly get free using that which is taught in religion because they hold the notion of evil as real while trying to rise above it.  Initiation was about letting go of the entire notion of evil, because it’s false.  When you do, what remains is the truth.  Then you are free.

 

 

 

Keeping Score the Right Way

Be Yourself

By Cathy Eck

 

Keeping Score

Recently, a man called me because he saw my business card on a health food store bulletin board.  He shared with me that he was bisexual and dressed in women’s clothing.  He felt the discomfort of other people’s judgment when he dared to do what felt joyful to him.  We talked for a few minutes; and it was clear to me that this wasn’t a judgmental person.  In fact, I could tell that he worked hard not to judge others because he’d experienced the sting of being judged so often himself.  I found him very likable right away.

It was completely apparent that this man was a really good person inside — something that’s common among my readers.  But he was keeping score based on what others thought of him, and he wasn’t “normal.”  He was different.  So his scorekeepers gave him a consistently low score.

As long as he continued to value the score that others gave him, he was going to come out short.  He’d feel out of control, an outcast, and a loser at life because he was honoring a false score sheet.

But if he kept score based on his own thoughts about others, he’d find that he was a damn good player of the life game.  He’d have incentive to become even less judgmental and more loving regardless of how others treated him.  And if he learned to let go of his belief that others could judge him or that he was bad or wrong, he’d find that he had the potential to be a true winner at the life game.

 

Everybody Wins

Most people are keeping score based on fame, power, money, or material possessions.  People who live outside the status quo don’t fair well in that game.  That game can only have a few winners.

On the other hand, everyone can win when they keep score of the purity of their own mind once they learn how to let go.   Each day, their mind gets a little freer, they judge others less, and they love more.  As they do this, they become authentic; the authentic person has no competition.  They always win.

When we see authentic improvement in ourselves, we realize that we’re truly good people; we do have incredible value.  When we stop caring what others think of us, our natural joy flows unobstructed from the inside.

I struggled with this problem for such a long time.  Once I discovered letting go, I spent time each day letting go of my judgments and beliefs about myself and others.  I became more unconditionally loving inside.  But people couldn’t see that my mind was becoming freer or more loving.  They still judged my looks or the fact that I didn’t do what they wanted me to do.  They still saw me as different or unusual.  Their memories of the old me screamed so loudly that they couldn’t see past them.  I believed that my freedom required them to let go of their beliefs about me.  But I was wrong.

My naturally good self wasn’t good in their illusory perspective where good is defined based on rules and social protocol.  How I felt during that time was directly related to my poor scorekeeping.  Allowing other people’s score of me to dominate my mind caused me so much pain and agony.  I felt that I didn’t want to live on the planet.

Then I changed my way of keeping score.  I focused on my own mind and let go of thought after thought to see if I could unconditionally love those that didn’t love me.  They were not willing to let me off the hook, but I was willing to let them off the hook.  I felt better and freer and my inner score continued to improve.  Soon most of the people who judged me disappeared from my life; and quite frankly, I didn’t miss any of them.  But I did feel complete with them because I saw their True Self in my own mind even if they weren’t willing to be that yet.

I decided that my purpose in life would be to make my mind a pure space where people could join me in being themselves.  I would create a safe place where people wouldn’t be judged for being their True Selves, where letting go and freedom would be supported and honored.

 

Be Yourself

No Matter how ornate your mask, your True Self is much more beautiful.

 

It was out of that realization that the business card at the top of this post was born several years ago.  I chose the green mask because it was so beautiful.  Recently, I decided to paint  the mask.  I wanted to get to know this woman who had adorned the front of my card for several years.  As I worked on every little detail in her face, I began to see the beauty under the mask; she became real and authentic.

I realized that we can’t see in others beyond the level of our own authenticity.  If we’re wearing a mask, we don’t see with pure eyes.  If we aren’t wearing a mask, even a mask has truth and beingness.  Likewise, when others are wearing a mask, they can’t see us.

So keeping score of our own mind is truly the only method of scorekeeping that makes sense.  We wouldn’t rate our physical sight based on a blind friend reading an eye chart for us, but that is exactly what we’re doing when we allow someone else to judge us or tell us whether we are good or worthy.  Their criteria for goodness simply doesn’t apply to us.

When we strive to be more ourselves each day and use the right method of keeping score, life starts to make sense.  We find even the most ornate mask easy to drop.  Our unique True Self is clearly much more beautiful.  As our score improves, the judgment of others disappears.  We can’t imagine being anyone other than our Self.

Judgment: The Guru, The Fighter, and the Crazy Woman

Mike Tyson:  Undisputed Truth

Mike Tyson: Undisputed Truth

 By Cathy Eck

 

A few months ago, I felt inspired to buy a ticket to Mike Tyson:  Undisputed Truth.  While it seemed like a strange thing for me to do, I knew it was going to be a good experience.  More on that in a moment…

 

The Guru

Last week, I watched a television interview with a popular American guru; I noticed that I felt strong emotion brewing within me as he spoke. What the guru said was very positive and loving.  His message was basically that God loves everyone unconditionally and everything is perfect.  Certainly, nothing he said was untrue at the Heaven on Earth level; however, he clearly was ignoring reality.  The interviewer even pointed that out; his level confusion was obvious to everyone but his followers.

I closed my eyes and focused my attention on my emotions while listening for the beliefs he silently projected on to his audience.  Nothing that entered my mind was true.  In fact, I was now utterly bored with him.  He said the same thing over and over; he was trying to convince himself that the world was perfect.  His words didn’t match his beliefs — in fact, they were exactly the opposite.

The positive thinking movement created the ice-cream-on-manure guru syndrome.  People learned to sound like their True Self by using repetitious patterns of positive thought and switching their thinking 180 degrees from reality.  They trained their minds to suppress negative thoughts.  It was a new twist on the good religious person suppressing thoughts of evil.  But anything suppressed (which means we believe it but don’t personally identify with it) gets projected out on to the world.  Most people don’t feel emotion related to their projections because they view themselves as separate from others.

 

The Fighter

It was one week later that I went to hear Mike Tyson.  He told his story with a photo presentation in full Mike Tyson color and graphic language.  He talked the way one talks on the streets and in the ring.  He shared how he felt when a neighborhood kid killed his beloved pet pigeon.  He shared his feelings about prison and the law; solitary confinement was often the place where he connected with his Self.  He told how sad he was that he had to bury his mother in a cardboard box; and how he later exhumed her body and placed her in the best casket with the biggest monument.  He told about his messy relationships with women and how Don King was his worst relationship nightmare of all.  He told it all; it was an insane life created by beliefs.  But he told it from the place of feeling and emotion; he let us into his inner world.  He never sounded like a victim; in fact, he accepted responsibility for it all.

He didn’t ask for our acceptance, forgiveness, or agreement; he didn’t tell us what to believe.  He simply told us what was true for him and how he felt about his life; he thanked us for listening.

I felt moved to shut my eyes and feel what was beneath Mike Tyson’s words; I felt nothing but quiet.  I simply heard his words.  Mike Tyson was speaking a congruent and whole message (no projection); he shared it from the place of raw feeling, not intellect.  It was his undisputed truth.  Even though it was a messy illusion filled with beliefs, he owned it fully as his illusion, his mistakes, and his own self-imposed suffering.

 

The Crazy Woman

Then Tyson spoke of his infamous biting of Evander Holyfield’s ear.  He said, “I don’t know why I did that. It seemed like a good idea at the time.”  The ear incident landed him in a psychiatric hospital.  He said there were people juggling boogers and pulling out their hair.  There was a woman with bowl-cut hair, big bifocals, and a cowl-neck sweater even though it was summer.  She twisted her head and looked at him in an odd way and asked him how he got there.  He explained what he had done.

Then he said something profound.  The woman looked at him without any judgment and said without emotion, “I see; you were in a fight.”  I don’t remember his words after that because the clarity that I felt in my body was so pure.  This woman completely understood him.  She saw him as a person who was in a fight without judging the act of fighting.  She simply heard him and connected with him as a fellow human being.  She wasn’t concerned about what he did in the past; she was concerned about how he felt now.

The purity he conveyed as he told that story was so far beyond the feeling I had listening to the guru.  Mike Tyson didn’t speak holy words, but he also didn’t project anything on his audience.  He fully owned his crazy mind and life.  He understood the perfection of the crazy woman in the cowl-neck sweater who didn’t judge him.

 

The Lesson

Based on what I knew of the guru and Tyson before they spoke, it’s natural that I would have trusted the guru and ignored my emotions while listening to him.  If I hadn’t gone inside and discriminated, I would have spent the rest of my day wondering why I felt unworthy and unloved.  I would have found myself judging others and wondering why.  I would have accepted the guru’s nonverbal beliefs without discrimination because of his authority.  This is what keeps us all stuck.  We listen to people’s words without engaging our emotions.

With Mike Tyson, I might have judged his past and missed the clarity and congruence of his message.  With the crazy woman with the cowl-neck sweater, I, like those who put her in the psychiatric hospital, might have judged her strange appearance and mannerisms and missed her authenticity and lack of judgment.  Without my emotions guiding me, I would have missed the undisputed truth.

 

Judgment Versus Discrimination

Judgment vs. discrimination

Judgment keeps us stuck within the illusion;        discrimination frees us.

 

By Cathy Eck

What is Judgment?

There are certain parts of the illusion that are particularly sticky, and this is one of them.  I got stuck in this so many times, I looked like the tar baby.  Judgment is what pulls us in to the illusion and keeps us stuck.  Discrimination is what sets us free.  But they often look the same.  I would think I was judging when I was discriminating and vice versa.  It is a distinction ripe for level confusion.

I first became interested in judgment when I started going to church with my fiancé and his family.  One day, the priest gave a sermon on judgment.  When we left the church, everyone was judging everyone else.  “What in the hell happened in that church?” I wondered.

It was many years before I understood.  The priest saw his own judgment in the congregation (often called projection).  His position of authority allowed him to appear to tower above judgment.  The congregation accepted his projection as true.  Then they proved him right.  This is how we get beliefs from authorities.

This all started long ago when kings saw themselves above their minions, rendering them elite.  I once met an ex-priest who explained this seeming elevation.  He said that when he put on his white robe, he could feel his superior ego building.  He would stand different, talk different, and even think different while the robe covered his body.  This was what motivated him to leave the church; he didn’t like himself anymore.  He wasn’t comfortable being superior, and he could see that he was projecting his shadow on his congregation.  He had simply outgrown the illusion.

The ex-priest’s experience isn’t much different from Clark Kent putting on his superman suit and flying above the helpless townspeople.  The most honest of the bunch is the judge putting on his or her black robe — now they have the right to judge without having to judge the fact that they are judging.

Judgment stems from the notion of good and evil, right and wrong.  When we judge something, we believe one side of duality is right or good; the other side is bad or wrong.  Judgments fall at the bottom of the triangle.

In judgment, we hold both sides of any split within our mind.  We identify with one half; the other half we project on to someone who fits the bill.  Projection isn’t necessarily bad — it is a matter of degree.  You might not want to be a drag queen, but Ru Paul will gladly take what you don’t want and become more famous.  Projection isn’t much of a problem when it happens in that way because both people enjoy their role.  You could say that it is a fair trade.  But if you project that Ru Paul is evil because he is gay, he won’t appreciate your projection.  The difference is that drag queen was projected out of preference; evil was projected as a judgment.

 

Blind to Projection

People have become experts at covering up their judgmental projections with sweet masks.  Thus, the person receiving the projection often feels blindsided.  Fundamentalist preachers are famous for saying, “I like gays fine; it’s God that doesn’t like them.”  They project their judgment on God so they can look holy while casting judgment on another.  I suspect this is exactly how God fell from unconditionally loving to punishing and mean.  (Sorry gay friends, I just use this example because it’s the hot target now.)

If you’ve ever hung out with a teenage boy who farts and then pretends you did it, you get what I mean.  In my experience, the sweeter and gooder (can’t think of another word) the personality, the more likely they’re the one farting.

 

Judgment Hides Inside

Judgment is a split between two polar opposites spiced with good and evil, right and wrong.  Projection of judgment feels freeing because it appears that the part of duality that we don’t want is gone.  But both halves of the split are still within our body-mind.  If the other doesn’t want to play their projected role anymore, our projection will fly right back to us.  Consequently, guilt and shame were invented as  powerful tools to keep said projection on the projectee.

A young child agrees to be the black sheep of the family.  They do the bad things and take the punishments.  Then they go off and find out they aren’t bad anymore.  In fact, they’re really good and kind.  When they return home, they no longer accept the projection, and all hell breaks loose.  The projections are like boomerangs smacking all the family members silly.  If the grown-up child is now clear and sees that they were just acting out the projections of their family members, they won’t take on that role again.

 

Discrimination

Discrimination is the opposite of judgment.  Where judgment focuses on right and wrong, good and bad, discrimination chooses between true and false.  Good and bad have equal power.  True has all power; false has none.  When we discriminate, we recognize that we didn’t fart.  We defuse the situation entirely within our own mind.  Fighting can’t happen when people discriminate.

We know we don’t judge when we sit in the priest’s congregation, so we don’t take on his projection.  We stay true to our Self.  We ignore his sermon or maybe realize that we can’t learn from someone who projects on us.  Our life shifts and moves when we discriminate until we end up exactly where we are meant to be.

Discrimination is about recognizing when something is true so you can enjoy it; it is about letting go of what is false so you never have to deal with it again.  Each time we discriminate, we take a step back toward our True Self; until eventually, we are free.

 

Meditation for the western mind explains a great exercise that I use for discrimination.