Who Am I? I’m A Creator, A Free Thinker…

 Who am I?

By Cathy Eck

 

Who Am I?

This is my last post for a while.  I assure you that everything you need to get mentally and emotionally free is on this site and Gateway to Gold.  But you have to work at it.  You have to want freedom more than you want air to get it.  Reread old posts; what you understand will change as you let go.  You’ll often think that I changed the material, but I probably didn’t.  You changed.  Letting go happens in layers.

Challenge your thoughts/beliefs, even if your mind is telling you with absolute certainty that what you’re experiencing or thinking is true.  Let go of positive beliefs, not just negative ones.  I talk about this in my article on the Triangle Process.  As you let go, you’ll answer life’s biggest question, “Who Am I?”   But don’t confuse what I’m saying with the eastern practice of asking that question over and over again.  My work has nothing to do with eastern teachings and practices.  People often get confused by that.  I didn’t understand this eastern confusion for a long time.  I had to mentor people who had it.  Then I put what I learned from working with them into the Gold Circle material.  They had what I call a True Self clone, and this was keeping them from letting go.  They learned the truth from some teacher or guru, or even studying someone’s writing intensely; and they put the learned truth into their false mind.  That blocked them from connecting with their real True Self.  Then they read and learned what I was saying like that would get them free.  They weren’t actually letting go.  They told themselves that learning was letting go.  It isn’t. You can’t learn your way to your True Self. 

I didn’t have that issue; I had never been a follower.  I didn’t even have much of a persona.  I could never lie very well.  So I didn’t understand what was going on with these people.  But I did want to help them get free; I felt that their desire for freedom was sincere.  I had to go into their illusion to understand why they were so stuck.  That period of research and mentoring others became the Gold Circle.  The clone is the masculine part of our false mind that can pretend to be our True Self.  It learns how to sound like a True Self, but it isn’t the True Self.  Clones confuse a lot of people these days.  Most of those popular spiritual teachers and gurus are very strong clones and that means that they project a lot.  Religious leaders are also clones who project sin on their followers.  Also progressive politicians are very strong clones that project a whole lot on their followers.  Their followers don’t realize what is happening.  It’s cruelty masked as caring.

Thus people who follow them come to believe that they don’t know who they are when they actually do completely know who they are.  They simply took a projection from a so-called spiritual teacher or charismatic leader.  In the Gold Circle, I help people let go of the clone voices that they put in their minds, and they start to realize that they do know who they are.  I can’t stop these clones from doing what they do.  They have the right to do what they want.  But I can tell you how to get free of them; then you return to your True Self.  You don’t need their truth; you had it within you all along.

You didn’t arrive on earth wondering who you were.  You were curious and alive…a True Self.  You saw someone walking, you watched them, you took the risk, and you walked.  You heard people talk, and you learned to speak and matched words to objects, people, and experiences.  Learning and life were fun.  But you were never supposed to learn beliefs or get a belief system of any kind.

Recently, I heard on television that children’s brains are completely fired up until they start answering the question “I am…?”  They start creating a false identity, labeling themselves; and their brain appears to shut down.  As people get older they identify with their beliefs and their belief systems; they really start to shut down.  That is the start of what I refer to as the clone mind.  But I don’t talk about it much in the free material because it is very confusing.  Explaining the clone, and exposing popular clones, required that I put together a systematic way of approaching the subject.  It requires people to really want to do get free and not just be casual about letting go.  So the Gold Circle was born.

If you don’t have much of a clone, the free work will probably be all you need.  Either way, I require that people do my free work first, so do that and see if you are still stuck when you are done.  You need to already be letting go when you enter the Gold Circle.  I don’t teach the basics of letting go in that program.

That being said, I want to give you one big caution as you read my free work.  You were trained to learn and memorize what you read.  Stop IT!  Don’t learn what I’m saying.  I write to expose what is false.  I teach you how to let go by using your emotions and win-win logic.  Practice what I’m saying, and do it as you read.  Read slowly, and stop when you feel emotions; take the time to let go.  The more you practice, the easier it gets.  It’s a new way of using your mind and emotions.  It goes against what you have been trained to do.  Witness the emotions until you are free of that belief.  If you don’t know what I mean by witnessing, check out https://gatewaytogold.com/meditation-for-the-western-mind/.  Letting go can take minutes or days.  It depends on how much you’ve believed your beliefs in the past.  It depends how feminine you are to others.  It depends on how much you believe the clone voices in your mind.

Letting go is easy; the illusion is very complex.  Those who are winning in the illusion don’t want us to escape.  This project for me has taken a lot longer than I thought it would.  I had no idea that I would run into so many tricks and traps, but I did.  So I had to deal with what came up; and that is why Gateway to Gold has developed into my main site with different paid programs.  However, don’t disregard what I’ve published here.  No Labels No Lies is the meat and potatoes of letting go.  Keep working at it until you completely understand what I’m saying.

 

WTF?

People taught you to see what they saw.  You learned there was danger, suffering, problems, and disease.  You came to believe that you could get hurt, or you could hurt someone.  You learned to judge and compare.  This didn’t make sense, but you figured that those who came before you must know the truth.  They didn’t know the truth, they knew their beliefs; and they believed that their beliefs were the truth.

You were given the knowledge of good and evil (the shit that caused us to fall).  Good now had an opposite…EVIL.  You learned to hate and fear other humans.

We see what we hold in mind…what we believe.  How do we get back to who we once were?   It seems impossible.  Their beliefs appeared to get stuck in our minds.  How did that happen?  We asked, and they answered.  They gave us reasons for why we were stuck; and those reasons were all lies.

“You were born sinful.  Your memories of perfection are imaginary…visions of heaven.  Go to church to make sure you get to heaven when you die.”  What a crock of shit!  The east wasn’t any better…they gave you karma and a caste system.

Your character was slowly constructed.  You learned to be good and worthy so you could get a good-paying role in society and work hard.  “Life isn’t meant to be easy,” they say.

Knowledge consumed your mind.  Those who memorized the most knowledge got the best roles.  They’re called experts.  I call them clones.  Clones are great in the illusion; they are worthless once we want freedom.  Creative thinkers sound strange in the illusion.  Philosophers look lazy.  Artists starve.  Inventors can’t afford to create their inventions unless the inventions please “The Man.

Your pure thinking and true goodness was replaced by an illusion built of beliefs in which you were judged on your ability to blindly follow.  When you got to the point where you feared judgment enough, you turned away from your True Self.

A True Self is labeled evil by false selves.  The false self believes that creativity is for people with nothing else to do.  No one can see your thoughts anyway; it’s what you do that counts.  You conformed, but then you wondered, “Who Am I?”

 

Had Enough?

Maybe you attended workshops, saw therapists, and did processes and practices; yet you didn’t find the answer.  One day, you learned how to let go.  You let go of your beliefs regarding social protocol, religion, disease, problems, culture, and sin.  You released society’s rules from your mind.  You realized that others, even experts, had nothing to offer you anymore.  Slowly…you started to remember,  “I’m a creator.  What I think is what I become.”  

Your problems came from accepting beliefs and then fixing the effects of those beliefs.  You finally knew which way to go.  You just had to keep letting go more and more until your mind was free.  But it is hard to trust such an insight.  No one is letting go.  Nearly everyone is learning…putting more crap in their mind.

 

TRUE and FALSE

The illusion runs on good/evil, right/wrong, or win/lose.  The illusion is false…powerless.  It’s believed by nearly everyone…but it isn’t real.  It’s projected from our collective beliefs.  You arrived with the truth, and you didn’t lose it.  You can’t screw up letting go.  You can’t let go of truth.  So you have nothing to lose by letting go, ever.

 

EMOTIONS MEAN FALSE

Any thought/belief that has an emotional component is false, even if the whole world believes it’s true.  Your mind desperately wants you to believe that thoughts that feel bad are true, but you fight that temptation.  You let those thoughts go.

 

WIN-WIN

Holy Shit!  You aren’t a fucking sinner.  The more you let go, the more you despise competition, oppression, and domination.  You’d never harm another.  You won’t even judge another anymore.  You realize that a true thought is win-win for everyone.  No belief system can be true.  Belief systems separate us.

 

MASCULINE AND FEMININE ROLES

You realize that those who have masculine (authority) roles make the rules.  The judging God was actually a human being…a false, power-tripping leader who imposed his illusion, where he wins and we lose, on everyone else in the name of God.  You don’t want to even play good roles in the illusion — they always harm someone.

 

PROJECTION

Leaders in false masculine roles often look like True Selves because they project their judgments and the unwanted half of their beliefs on to people in feminine roles.  You now see and hear the false masculine’s incongruence.  The leaders see enemies, evil, suffering, poverty, and disease because it’s inside of them.  It’s not true; it’s their illusion…their reality.  Underneath their mask is a powerless human who’s lost.  They’re pawns of the illusion fixing their own projections.  We should ignore them, not follow them.

 

PHYSICAL VS. MENTAL PERSPECTIVE

We were programmed to see a physically-focused perspective of reality which blinds and confuses us. We look at the quality of people’s doing and ignore their thinking.  Sadly, false thinking looks normal.  True good comes from a pure mind.  When our mind is impure, we can look good by doing the right things; but we aren’t truly good.

 

LET IT GO

The illusion told us that it could give us what we already were.  The illusion only lies.

When we can no longer stand the illusion, we let it go.  As we let go of the judgments, labels, beliefs, and knowledge/expertise, we’re left with the truth.  We remember who we are.  We’re creators who bring our ideas to life for the benefit of everyone.  Keep letting go; don’t stop until you get to freedom.  It’s your birthright.

Validation That You Are Going Toward Freedom

Going the right way?

 By Cathy Eck

 

New Thought

The New Thought movement made it much more difficult to follow the path of initiation.  It made thinking our way to success, wealth, and a hot, sexy body spiritual.  Jet planes and mansions now proved mastery.  Many teachers made whatever their false self liked a sign of spiritual mastery, and other false selves grabbed on for that ride.  Spirituality is big business.

New Thought teachers/preachers speak truthful ideas and thoughts to false selves who memorize them creating a spiritual-looking false clone of their True Self.  These leaders promote their beliefs as the truth; people throw their True Self under the bus to follow these charismatic leaders.

People have more beliefs than ever.  They view their beliefs as right and true.  They impose them on others without questioning themselves.  People have adopted spiritual practices only to become more judgmental and more inclined to fix the effects of their thinking.  Finding the cause often seems like too damn much work when a little internet research and a swipe of the credit card can appear to solve anything.  We forget that science has limitations.  We will eventually run into a dead-end that we can’t fix.

There are moments in my own inner work that I think, “I could just fix that effect and people would find me much more believable.”  They wouldn’t notice my inauthenticity.

But I’d notice my inauthenticity.  Those who stick with this work often feel their progress doesn’t seem to matter.  People can’t see our True Self if their own illusory veil is too thick.

 

Signs or Validation

Most people look for signs to determine where to go.  As we purify our mind, we stop looking for signs.  Instead we receive validation that we’re going the right way.  It’s often a small insight, but it keeps us going.  If you’re serious about this path, forget about others and what they think of you.  Keep score of the improvement within your own mind.

In time, material things do come to initiates.  This isn’t a path of abstinence or lack.  Our health will improve; diseases will disappear.  We’ll have more energy and even look younger.  We’ll have the abundance we need and want if we just keep our eye on our own mind and let go.  Our desires will be fulfilled naturally when we have no beliefs that block them.

When we put the purity of our mind first, everything works organically.  We become truly good and right, but we don’t use that for power over others.  This was the secret of the true initiates.  But religions and the occult put the physical reward first; they created the entrance to hell by falsely defining good and right and attaching rewards to their false rules.

 

Validation:  You’re Going the Right Way If:

1)  Using your will to fix or get anything seems like too much work.  You only want to use your will to let go of your thoughts and beliefs.

2)  False desires are falling away.

3)  You don’t want to judge people or gossip.  It feels bad to judge anyone.

4)  People who others look up to don’t impress you.  Talent or beauty that’s used by the false self is no longer attractive.

5)  You notice when you’re projecting on others.  You feel when others are projecting on you; you do a better job of rejecting their projection.

6)  You find yourself courageously standing up for your True Self or standing up for the True Selves of others.

7)  You don’t label emotions.  When you hear a thought that generates emotion, you know it’s false.

8)  You don’t look for inspiration or motivation outside of yourself.  You feel more internally creative.

9)  You aren’t looking for approval from others; you want to please your True Self. You’re no longer a fake nice person or a people pleaser.

10)  You can’t lie.  It’s physically painful.

11)  You aren’t paying experts (doctors, lawyers, therapists, psychics, trainers) anymore.  You were only wanting them to tell you what you already knew.

12)  You avoid self-help workshops and no longer read voraciously to find answers.  Validation comes to you naturally now.  Insights come when you let go.

13)  You’re starting to see the illusion as false.  Roles become obvious, authority looks impotent, and the notion of good and evil looks silly.  False just looks false.

14) You no longer feel guilt, grief, or shame.  You don’t take responsibility for other people’s emotions.

15)  You let go of beliefs; you don’t want to impose them on others anymore.

16)  You find yourself calm and happy for no apparent reason.  You don’t hold others responsible for your joy.

17)  Competition isn’t attractive…win-win is.

18) False self connections don’t look like love anymore.

19) You can create things with a single thought or a vision in your mind.  You don’t have to hammer at a thought with affirmations or visualize what you want for years to force your desires to manifest.

20)  You’re more loving, more compassionate, and more genuine.  You realize that anyone trying to be positive, spiritual, healthy, or good has an impure mind that they’re trying to cover up with physical actions.  You have nothing to hide so you hide nothing.

21)  You realize that your purpose was to find your Self not to be somebody in the illusion.

22)  You love your inner world.  You use your imagination to create beauty and joy, not disease and suffering.

When we let go, we gently and organically move into our perfect life; the painful things of the past now seem like an illusion…a dream.  We don’t long for things or people anymore; we know that our True desires will come to us.  We become calm, accepting, and courageous.  Letting go becomes a way of life; and our True Self/God is no longer up in the sky.  It’s within.

We realize that the truth has all the power and the false has none.  If we live and speak the truth, we break up the illusion for ourselves and others.  We eventually see a different, more perfect, world.  We’re going the right way.

 

 

 

 

Dealing with Fragile Egos as Characters

fragile ego

By Cathy Eck

 

Fragile Egos

When someone holds their beliefs as absolutely true, they become a “fragile ego.” Fragile egos exist at all levels of society.  We have to let them break to get free.

Fragile egos send a clear message:  “If you obey me, I’ll reward you.  If you disobey, I’ll punish.”  They’re clones of the Old Testament false God (imaginary leader of the illusion) who believe they’re good people with the right to judge and punish.

Whoever disagrees with them is evil or bad.  Their biggest fear is exposure.  They lie and impose their beliefs on others in order to look powerful while hiding their belief that they’re weak.

The most dangerous fragile egos wear a nice mask causing them to look like a True Self.  They say and do what the illusion considers good; they generally look happy and calm.  They believe that what you do, not how you think, makes you good.  Good, by their definition gets rewarded.  That’s how the illusion works.

But the true world doesn’t work that way.  Rules and projection don’t exist outside the illusion, we manifest what we believe.

Underneath the fragile ego’s mask is an emotional storm; their actions aren’t congruent with their thinking.  They’re filled with rules and beliefs.  When we disobey or say, “No,” to their demands, their emotions roar.  They don’t see their OWN thinking as the cause of their emotions.  They blame the feminine role because their Adam-and-Eve based mythology gave them the right to.

The fragile ego projects their responsibility and emotions outward.  In fact, when we’re conditioned by fragile egos, we often become overly responsible.  We take responsibility for their emotions because they claim we’re the cause.  We aren’t.

 

The Wall

In mentoring, I call the eruption of the fragile ego, “hitting the wall.”  Letting go looks impossible.  Strong religious, scientific, or political views look absolutely true.  Arguing with the fragile ego does no good.  The fragile ego repeats its knowledge, rules, and beliefs like a robot.  It sees evidence that supports its thinking; it’s sure it’s right.

We only see evidence because we believe the cause.  We hold a really strong belief, but it’s still false.  If we let go of the causal belief, we’ll see different evidence.  When we try to challenge fragile ego beliefs in ourselves or others, psychological reversals kick in.  The thoughts clearly generate emotion, they’re not win-win, and they’re taking us away from freedom; but we can’t remember that the emotion means false.  Until we routinely catch this in ourselves, we won’t catch it in others.

 

They’re Characters

Our OWN fragile ego consists of voice recordings acquired from others who forced their beliefs into our mind.  We did feel emotions when we first heard their words; but we were afraid to challenge them.  Their words are NOW constantly squatting in our mind.

After letting go for awhile, we do come to know that the recordings are false.  And yet, people tell me that the fragile ego is still running their life.   They still behave as the fragile ego would want them to behave or say what the fragile ego would consider socially or politically correct.  They still can’t be themselves.

 

An Exercise

Imagine yourself in the center of your mind; see the fragile egos who have limited your life with beliefs, rules, and knowledge in the periphery of a giant circle looking at you.  They’re keeping you from leaving the circle.

Review old memories in your mind. Bring up fragile ego encounters from the past. Let the fragile ego characters slowly replay the scene.  Discriminate and let go as they talk.  Also let go of any judgments or reasoning that arises in your mind about these characters. Judgment on your part keeps you stuck to them.  You might never see them again; but when you clean up their character in your own mind, you won’t meet that same sort of person again.  Of if you do, you’ll stay powerful.

You can take this even further.  We tend to think that we must change the real life fragile ego characters or get them to stop judging us.  But many of them will never change or stop judging.  Are you going to wait until they change to live your life?  I hope not.

Step into their character within your own mind.  Speak their beliefs, and feel their emotions arise when they speak something false or judgmental.  Assume they can discriminate and let go, and do so.  It’s your mind!  These are your characters! You have the power to clean up their words in your mind.  In this way, we change the past.

See if this fragile ego still has power over you.  If so, ask yourself, “Why?”  Let go of the reasons that your mind gives you.  Clean up more memories.

You aren’t affecting the real life person in any way — good or bad.  When your mind is clear, they won’t bother you.  Their beliefs will only affect them.

Our false minds were meant to be creative containers, separate and distinct from others people’s minds, so we could all create independently.  We’ve never had the right to impose our beliefs on others.  We only do it because others did it to us.

When you realize that you don’t deserve their judgment, they don’t have power over you anymore.  When you understand that their rules are false, they don’t apply to you.  If they say that you’re hurting them, you don’t take it in.  In fact, I’ll often say to fragile egos, “You’re telling me what I should believe; how can I be hurting you?”

Fragile egos can be difficult.  But we can get through that wall if we take our rock hammer and chip away one belief or memory at a time.  Eventually, we’ll break through their highly tinted glass.  We’ll escape their influence without fighting them.  When we clean our OWN mind, they lose their false power.  They can’t harm us anymore.

 

Letting Go of Dreams, Visions, Nightmares, and Even Memories

Using Dreams to Let Go

By Cathy Eck

 

I’d recommend reading my earlier article on Dreams and Nightmares first.

 

Dreams, Visions, Nightmares, and Memories

In this post, I’ll walk you through a short example of finding the causal beliefs within your dreams, visions, nightmares, and memories.  The example I’m using was a clear vision that I had about twenty years ago during a reflexology session.  During that time, I was lost, depressed, my body ached all the time, and I was always exhausted — common symptoms for being trapped in another person’s illusion.  I feared going to a doctor, so I went to healers.  I needed and wanted someone to tell me how to let go.  But I wasn’t finding anyone.

As the reflexologist pushed on my feet, I suddenly smelled something like sulfur.  It was so strong that my eyes watered.  I mentioned this to the reflexologist, and she said, “It must be a message for you.  I don’t smell anything.”  Then she said, “I’m pushing on your heart area now…might be something about love.”  She told me to relax and see what popped into my mind, which was good advice.

I saw a young girl standing before a Nazi guard.  The girl was wearing a cute, ruffled blue dress and patent leather shoes.  Since my mom dressed me that way, I immediately identified with that character.

She was being led to the gas chamber.  That was the smell.   The little girl looked at the guard.  She smiled at him and said, “I still love you.”  I felt such peace and softness in my body; I felt unconditional love for this guard.  The guard pushed her into the gas chamber, and she died.  I was crying at this point — kind of wallowing in my sadness and victimhood.

She said I was releasing a past life, but I knew that I wasn’t letting go; I could see that my mind had already started to make conclusions about this vision like love isn’t enough.  I could see that we both wanted to turn my vision into a reason why I was powerless to change my life.  I was trying so hard to not allow that to happen.  I kept searching for a way to free myself from the vision.  But I didn’t know how to do that for many years.

 

The Cure

This vision was produced from my mind based on where I was at that time.  I eventually realized that the causal belief was that unconditional love was worthless currency on earth — it was not enough to make things right.  That was truly how I felt about my life.

Looking from the eyes of the guard, I could see another huge causal belief.  We have to obey authority — to do as we’re told.  Then I flipped back to the character of the girl.  I truly believed that authority was much more powerful than love.  Of course, these are common beliefs in the illusion — beliefs we all need to let go to be free.

After I discovered how to let go of beliefs, I could see that the belief, “Love is not enough” isn’t true.  I could see that the belief, authority has more power than love” was also a lie.  I could see that the whole damn vision was the product of my beliefs.  Do you see why it’s not helpful to call it a past life?  We don’t need to make it true.  Our past experiences are just the effect of the beliefs we held in mind at that time; they might be real, but they aren’t true.  When we live from truth, we won’t need to let go of beliefs anymore.

The vision showed me where my mind was at that time.  It showed me the beliefs that kept me trapped in an illusion.  To get free, I didn’t need to analyze the details or interpret symbols; it was all very straight forward.

Was I once this child killed in a Nazi concentration camp?  Who knows?  What’s key in that vision are the beliefs that would have caused me to be in such a situation.  After clearing those beliefs, I allowed the vision to replay from my current mental state.  I saw the girl look at the guard and say her words of love.  I felt the same purity.  He looked at her with a scowl and told her to go to the side of the gas chamber and wait for him.  He was still an obedient authority, but it didn’t matter.  I didn’t need to morph him into a saint.  She had the power because she had the real love.  I’d finally seen this vision from the perspective of the True Self.

Let me emphasize…I didn’t put love or positive thinking on top of my erroneous beliefs.  I simply let the beliefs go… they’re false.  The vision no longer bothered me; it existed like a dream…the illusion that it was.

 

Reasons

The reflexologist helped me focus on my body; she triggered the place where the belief was stored.   But her helpfulness ended when she saw the vision as a reason for the way things were.  People often feel satisfied when they find the reason.  Sadly, most people don’t realize they can let go.  They sing “Let It Go” but don’t know how.  We can’t help another let go of their beliefs until we let go ourselves.

When we take any memory, vision, nightmare, or dream and see the causal beliefs that created it, notice our emotional feedback, and let those beliefs go completely, we experience something amazing — freedom.  The scene changes; we learn that without those beliefs, we could never have had those dreams, nor could we experience such a reality.  I find that amazing.  As we clean up our memories and nightmares in this way, we start to see a different world.  We feel safe without needing everyone else to behave or let go.  We realize that other people’s illusions would only affect their life if we didn’t believe them.

Working with Our Dreams and Nightmares

Dreams tell us where we are going

By Cathy Eck

 

Dreams

Dreams can be a powerful tool; they help us find causal beliefs.  But we must use our dreams in a productive way.  People generally view dreams as symbolic.  They interpret them and look for meaning in the activities, events, or items in the dream.  That can be fun; but it doesn’t help us move toward freedom.

Dreams are an unthreatening bridge that can show us what to let go from our false physically oriented interpretation of reality in order to get to our True mentally oriented perspective.  Dreams are powerful because we know we created them.  Dreams come out of our OWN mind.  We can’t blame anyone else for our dreams.  That’s key.  If we have dreams about killing, we still have an aspect of our false self that wants to kill someone or fears being killed.  If we have a demon in our dream, guess what we hold in our mind?

People make the mistake of only identifying with the main character in their dreams.  We created our dreams; so we’re the writer, the direction, and all the characters.  There’s enormous power in realizing that we invented all those characters whether we like them or not.  It’s hard to get to that level of honesty in the waking state.

If we wrote a screenplay or novel, we’d know what each character was going to say and do.  That’s how we write our dreams without effort.  For a person to write a story about stealing, they have to hold stealing in mind.  They can’t write about a bank robbery while thinking about pansies.  If we let our beliefs around such criminal behavior go after discovering them in our dreams, we don’t have to experience such things in real life.

 

How to Let Go Using Dreams?

Let’s say that you dream that you’re a student in school.  First work on yourself by asking questions.  Why am I in school?  Do I like being a student?  How do I feel about learning?  What am I learning?  Do I like it?  Get honest and speak your mind as that character.  If something you believe as that character feels bad (has emotion as you think it) let it go.  It’s a false belief.  Our false self adds drama, opposition, and bad tasting spices to our dreams and experiences.  It usually turns them from perfect, heavenly experiences into hellish nightmares.

Let’s say that you and another student got in trouble in the dream.  You’re also the other student.  Step into their character and ask yourself questions about you, the teacher, and school.  How do each of you feel about getting caught?  Why did you get caught?  What outcome do you fear as a result?  What were you thinking before and after you got caught?  These are thoughts that should have emotion — beliefs to let go as false.

Caution!  Don’t allow the answers to your questions to become reasons for why your life is the way it is.  We aren’t looking for interpretation; we’re looking for causal beliefs to let go.

You’re also the teacher in the dream.  Are you angry that students weren’t listening to you?  Do you dislike these students, judge them?  Do you like your job, hate your job?  Why?  Use your answers to find beliefs to let go.

Each character plays a role.  The teacher represents the masculine role; the students are in feminine roles.  You’ll see beliefs from both aspects of your mind in these characters.  As you step into each character, behave as if you want to let go and know how to let go.  Clean up the entire scene.

What you should discover is that without the beliefs that you held in mind before the dream, you couldn’t have had that exact dream.  That’s a valuable lesson.  The same is true of life.

Some therapists go batshit crazy and advise people to pretend they’re the desk or chair.  That’s generally not worth our time.  You might have beliefs about furniture, but furniture doesn’t have beliefs about you.

 

What you Learn

Ideally, we want to live our own True story as the writer, director, and main character.  Everyone else in our life plays a supporting character; we’re also supporting characters for them.  We want to have symbiotic, not codependent, competitive, or opposing relationships with others.

If we perceive that a story character is dominating us or has an intention to harm us in our dream, we’ll feel as if they’re writing our dream (or nightmare).  We’ve given them or someone like them the masculine leadership role for our life.  We probably feel we have to please this character so they’ll let us have what we want.  Their rules for life represent the rules we believe we must live by; they’re our false God who rewards and punishes us.

This was the original end goal of selling religious stories as the truth.  They were originally someone’s personal story.  But they wanted their story to be the story.  They wanted to rule the world instead of just being the king of their life.  Even today, you see new religions and new spiritual teachings being born; they always have a story that makes those teachings or that teacher the ONE.  People often claim to be called or special so that they can mute your story and replace it with their story.  If you follow their practices or their protocol, you’ll get to be a minion in their kingdom — a walk on character that fulfills their dreams.  You’ll NEVER get to live your life.

As you let go of beliefs, you do become the main character in your story living the script that you’ve written.  You’re day and night dreams will improve.  If you want to be completely free, your story must be win-win for everyone.  No one would be your minion, prisoner, or slave.  They’ll simply be other creators who stopped by to temporarily co-create with you and play a character in your story because it’s fun.

Taking Your Power Back By Playing a Game

Breaking through the wall

By Cathy Eck

 

FYI:  This is an advanced post that might not make sense if you’re new to letting go.

Stuck in Someone’s Beliefs

My blog readers aren’t heads of government, religions, or corporations.  They’re creative people who feel stuck in belief systems that were imposed upon them by others.  They often feel locked in a feminine role.

The majority of leaders and authority figures (even family leaders) see enemies and problems to be fixed in the people who play feminine roles beneath them.  They don’t realize that the problems and enemies they see actually exist ONLY in their own mind.  They speak as if the illusion that their mind created is real and true; it is for them.  We all see what we believe.  The false masculine thinks that its beliefs are God’s laws.  It rewards and punishes accordingly.

Our problems began when we believed our first false masculine leader or parent.  We began to see what they said we should see.  Life on earth has been this way for thousands of years.  It will change when we stop believing what others claim to see or know — when everyone admits that the Emperor is buck naked.

Here’s a game to help you escape the feminine role.  It’s challenging, and it’s designed to show you what to let go, to improve your discrimination, and to flip your mind back into the mental, True Self perspective.  Ultimately, we want letting go to become like driving — it’s mostly automatic.

 

The Game

See yourself in front of an audience consisting of difficult people from your life — people who judge you or want to control or fix you.  They can be people you know, authority figures, or imaginary people.  You can even invite God.  Let them speak one at a time.  Allow them to say what’s wrong with you or what you need to believe or be to please them.

I want you to see that what they say is their projection and their own level confusion.  Often they are looking only at what you are doing and judging their own beliefs about it.  Sometimes they don’t even see you.  Here’s an example:  One audience member looks at you and says, “You’re lazy.  You haven’t done anything lately.”  From the physical perspective, they’re right.  You’ve been doing lots of inner work.  But you aren’t allowed to tell them off, defend yourself, or react in this game.

First, you must recognize that they’re speaking from their physical perspective — the beliefs that form their illusion.   Notice how their comment feels to you.  You probably feel emotion; remember, the emotion means that what they said was FALSE.  If you take that emotion in and defend it, you enter their illusion.  You’re powerless because their illusion is a foreign land for you.  If you simply let go of their comment because it’s FALSE, your mind stays clear and free.

Take it slow.  You might feel lots of emotion regarding their comment.  You want to drain it all by witnessing it and remembering why you felt the emotion.  Don’t label the emotion anger, fear, or rage.  That just makes it real.  The emotion is simply saying that what they said was false.  That’s all!

You’ve been letting go a lot lately; and it’s true that you’re not doing much physical work.  But are you lazy?  Mentally, no.  In fact, mentally speaking, they’re lazy.  They haven’t let go of anything.  This is what frees you.  You see that they’re judging you from their physically oriented illusion.  They’re projecting their unwanted defect of mental laziness on you by confusing levels.  A person living from the mental perspective looks like an enemy to someone in the physically oriented illusion.  In the illusion, it’s all about what they see!

We all start life at the mental perspective; and as we accept physical perspective projections from others, we fall into their illusion.  By recognizing the error of the people who cast their stones upon us, we reverse our OWN fall.  Their fall is their problem.  Once you’re clear, you’ll have the words to explain yourself to them.  Or you’ll feel comfortable not responding at all.

 

Explain Yourself!

When we’re living from the mental point of view, we’re often asked by people in the illusion to explain ourselves.  People in the physical perspective don’t understand the mental perspective.  Often the only answer we have is that we did what felt right.  By untangling these two perspectives in your mind, you move out of right-wrong.  You no longer accept their projected judgment.  Their more limited physical perspective will only affect them if you let their beliefs go from your mind.

The trick to winning this game is to remember that what they say is what’s on their mind.  You must realize that neither their conviction, emotional projection, nor authority make their words true in the mental perspective.

Don’t go into their mind.   Keep watching your mind.  See what arises next.  In some instances, you’ll notice judgments toward them in your mind; and ideally, you’ll let them go even if they deserve the judgment.  If you let your judgments toward them go, you might just get to the True Self perspective and feel unconditional love for them.  You just see life from different perspective than they do.  Understanding cleans up that gap.  You’ll see them as powerless and lost — they’re in the fallen world.  You might want to help them, but you won’t want to fix them.  People fix others because they are afraid of them.  We help others because we care.

Your audience members can leave for two reasons:  1) They admit that they don’t want to let go; that’s fine but they must leave your mind (not necessarily your life).   2) They get it, and they let go.  They no longer belong in your audience of difficult people.  Your job is to clean out the entire audience.  That’s how you win the game.

Intuition or Inspiration: What’s the Difference?

Imagination vs. intuition

By Cathy Eck

 

Inspiration

I tell people to let go and follow their inspiration.  However, there’s often confusion around my words because most people think that inspiration and intuition are the same.

I never heard the word intuition growing up.  I did hear another word a lot — imagination.  “Cathy, get out of your imagination.”  No one understood imagination either.  We all have imaginary capacity.  But most people use it the wrong way.  They use it to fuel their fear by imagining problems, pain, and suffering.

 

We’re Creators

I can’t say enough that we’re born to be creators.  But I’m using the word creator in the truest sense, where we would only create things that were win-win for everyone.  All creating starts in our imagination.  We can use our imagination to create our unique heaven on earth, or we can use it to create hell.

I remember the first time I realized that.  My husband and I were visiting his parents, who took pride in their ability to worry about everything.  Often the very thing they worried about would end up happening to someone.  One day, I couldn’t take it anymore; I told them to stop it.  You see, when I or someone else reflected their worry, they didn’t take responsibility.  They’d say, “Oh, I just knew it.”   They acted like they were prophets; and that wasn’t the case.  Their worry was misused creative power, and they were projecting it out with a very strong force.

My in-law’s worry confused me because it was wrapped in nice intention.  It kind of looked like love or even compassion; my husband was sure it was love.  I could see that they thought my inability to worry was a major character defect.  My telling them to stop was rude.

When lost in the illusion, we forget that we have an imagination that creates our life.  We should all be quick to tell people to let go of their beliefs that cause fear and worry; but often, we feel that we must accept their beliefs.

This problem is caused by level confusion.  At their physical level of reality, my in-laws were caring.  But at the mental level of reality, they were creating shit in other people’s lives.  I was attempting to free their victims although it would be years before I’d understand how to explain letting go.  Letting go of our fearful thoughts is truly compassionate; when we see this, we’re on the fast track to freedom.

 

Intuition Versus Inspiration

So many people think that their fearful thoughts and dreams are premonitions.  They don’t let them go; they spread them like viruses.  All fearful thoughts are false!

But let’s say a thought pops into your mind, and it feels calm and good.  Is it inspiration or intuition?  Inspiration happens when you’re exiting the illusion.  Inspiration moves you toward your spirit or True Self.  To get inspired thoughts, you need to have your navigational destination set on freedom.  You want your mind to be looking for exits.

Most people have set the direction of their mind on getting rich, getting approval, or winning; they want to do well inside the illusion.  They use intuition.  Tuition, you might notice, is a word associated with money and knowledge; in-tuition would be within knowledge or beliefs.

I once took a class on intuition, “Intuition for Business People.”  They told us to ask questions and then take what we got as the answer.

What they didn’t teach was discrimination because they didn’t have any.  They just assumed that if our mind said it, it was right.  Psychics say they do readings this way.  They trust what their mind gives them.  Kanye West said this is why he runs on stage at the Grammies; his mind tells him too.  People do dumb fucking things when they trust their mind blindly.  Many even think that God is guiding them — that’s how religions were invented.

 

Letting Go

I do tell people to do exactly what the psychics and intuitives do.  “Ask a question.  Don’t put answers in your mind, and just see what arises.”  The difference is that I tell them to let go of what arises.  Intuitives believe everything they get.  My “intuitive” friends never give good advice.  Their answers are only useful for those in the illusion.  This confused me.  I often felt bad for constantly rejecting their advice.

Intuition is the ability to maneuver among your beliefs and knowledge.  Intuitives have a good mental database manager that can find the best solution within their limited world view.  They do not get original information; nor do they get information that’s going to free anyone — that’s what inspiration does.

If you want to live from beliefs, follow your mind completely; and life kind of works. You keep putting more knowledge into your mind so you appear to have more options for the intuition to pick from. That’s why people become addicted to learning.

All knowledge was once someone else’s inspiration.  But knowledge is memorized.  When our mind is trained to look to memory for answers, it ignores inspiration completely.  We can’t find our creativity.

If you want to find your True Self, you allow your mind to speak; then you let go of whatever it says as untrue. You reduce the beliefs and knowledge in your mind until you’re completely clear.  Once you let go of all that false data, you discover concepts and ideas that are original, unique, and powerful.  You stop fearing and worrying.

Intuition is like a car with a decent, not great, navigator.  Inspiration, however, is like having the bird’s eye view of the entire world.  You can see everything; so you make choices from the knowing that you’re creating the perfect route and the perfect destination.  It’s only inspiration that will show you the exits to the illusion.  Intuition will just keep circling you round and round the desert in a nice, comfortable car.  And that car will run out of gas one day.

Intention: Win-Win (Compassion) or Win-Lose

Compassion

By Cathy Eck

 

Win-Win

As an entrepreneur, I read lots of business books.  When I finished one, I’d go to Barnes & Noble to get another.  One night, I stopped at B&N to get my latest fix.  I noticed a book on the display that said “Win-Win” on the cover.  I didn’t buy the book or even look inside it.  But I loved the sound of those words — win-win.

I bought another book and left the store.  But I couldn’t get win-win out of my mind.  I thought, “I’m going to start living my life that way.  If something isn’t win-win, I won’t do it.”  I didn’t realize that I’d just opened a gateway to compassion…one of the most important keys to initiation.

The next day, during a restroom break at work, I was washing my hands; and I dripped soap on the sink counter.  Those soap droplets caught my attention.  I wondered if just leaving them on the sink was win-win.  After all, we had a maid.  But then the soap would stay there looking messy until the maid came.  I also sensed an attitude of superiority in me as if I was too important to clean.  That didn’t feel win-win.  How could I possibly be more important than the woman who cleaned this restroom?  It really wasn’t win-win to pass the responsibility for my mess on to the maid even if it was technically her job.

Eventually, I pulled down some paper towel and cleaned up my mess.  But I hadn’t just cleaned the counter.  I’d also cleaned something in my mind.  I realized that when I reached that win-win place of thinking over this stupid little thing, I felt a deep calmness that I’d not felt since childhood.  It was way beyond anything I’d felt with meditation.  Meditating quieted my mind; but I was letting go of my shallow false masculine perspective, which freed my mind.

Back at my desk, I picked up a sales contract.  Suddenly it didn’t look win-win.  I called the potential customer and offered to make changes in his favor.  I wasn’t playing games anymore; I treated him the way I would want to be treated.  Again, I felt that peace.

This experiment started with a physical focus — doing that which was win-win.  But it shifted into something much bigger — letting go of any thought that wasn’t win-win.  That, I’d learn, is the meaning of compassion.  Compassion is what tames the false masculine.

 

Intention

About ten years later, people started to write books on the power of intention.  But there was no compassion in their intention setting.  They were thinking an intention before they did something like “Send me that which is for the highest good.”  It sounded nice, but they were washing their hands of responsibility — letting the universe decide what’s good for them.  Unfortunately, the universe doesn’t act as our fair and just concierge; we get what we believe.  This allowed the person to look compassionate without being compassionate.  Compassion doesn’t happen until we let go of beliefs.  It purifies our mind when we let go of the false masculine’s judgmental win-lose, good-evil, or right-wrong thoughts.

Others set intentions like, “I intend to win this race,”  or “I intend to lose twenty pounds this month.”  They were willing the future into submission for their benefit — another talent of the false masculine.

My intention to live from win-win caused me to go deep into my mind and to question my own thinking.  I was letting go before I even understood letting go.  To really get to win-win on any subject, I had to consider everyone that might be affected by the situation — the true application of the Golden Rule.  Letting go of the false masculine beliefs and judgments transformed my false physically-oriented perspective into the true, pure mental perspective of life.  Of course, when my mind was right, top of the triangle with no opposite thoughts, my behavior followed.  I couldn’t imagine harming another.

 

Compassion

Later, I decided to do my Ph.D. Dissertation on the initiation story of Jesus, and I used this same technique.  Unlike Christians, I didn’t want to copy Jesus’ actions; I wanted to understand, and find in myself, the mind of Jesus.  I’d take a Bible quote that didn’t make sense such as, “The meek shall inherit the earth.”  I started with the win-lose interpretations that I’d been taught:  “You have to be submissive to get to heaven.  You get rewarded for giving others what they want.”  None of the thoughts that popped into my mind felt win-win.  They didn’t produce that calmness or compassion.  So I kept dropping every belief that arose and kept digging for the truth.  You see, the truth wasn’t in some guru or in the ethers for channels to pick up; it was in my mind resting quietly below all of my false knowledge.

After letting go of many thoughts about this quote, I dropped into that now familiar place of win-win.  Jesus was talking about the mental, not the physical.  He was already in that compassionate place when he spoke.  When we let go of our beliefs and knowledge, our mind becomes meek, quiet, and pure.  We can’t imagine fighting or willing in order to get what we want.  And yet, our meek mind is extraordinarily powerful because our mind is so clear and creative.  We easily get whatever we focus our mind on — we inherit the earth.

I repeated this process for thousands of hours until I decoded the path of initiation from the story of Jesus.  He was a compassionate dude; and it wasn’t because of what he did but because of how he thought.  Then I saw it everywhere — initiation was embedded in many ancient myths and legends.  You can’t see it until you get the right perspective.  Real freedom, real peace, and real power are revealed when we exercise compassion and let go until our thinking becomes completely win-win for everyone.  That’s how we bring heaven back to earth.

God’s Slave and Religious Extremism Exposed

God's Slave

By Cathy Eck

 

God’s Slave

I recently saw a phenomenal movie at the San Diego Jewish Film Festival called “God’s Slave.”  I doubt that it will ever get wide distribution so my commentary is going to include a spoiler alert.  It wouldn’t have ruined it for me to know the entire true story.

It seemed like a crazy coincidence to see this movie just after my father sent me some Republican propaganda, which of course explained how Muslims deserve to be hated and feared.  The writer was clearly caught in his extreme fear of terrorism.  I told my dad that I neither hated nor feared Muslims.  The discussion ended at that point.

 

Hate and Fear

Hating and fearing others actually perpetuates the illusion.  This is why Jesus said not to judge others and to love your enemy.  It’s not spiritual advice.  It’s practical.

Our false mind tells us that hating, judging, fighting, or criticizing our enemy will somehow make things right.  But that doesn’t work and never has.  When we hate or judge someone, we’re in our false masculine mind focusing on our own projection.  When we love our enemy or let go of our beliefs about our projection, it disappears.  Love and truth are the most perfect healing forces, they dissolve what’s false and leave what’s true.  You can never go wrong with unconditional love.

Fear of the false God made him into the illusion’s superstar.  Fear generates emotion; the illusion feeds off of emotion.  When people stop fearing God or fighting over who’s God is the real God, the whole thought form will dissolve.

My dad’s ridiculous email started off with a very strange line.  It said, “Muslims believe Allah, a moon God.”  Now I don’t know if Allah was originally a moon god or not, and it’s not important.  The person writing the email was Christian; Christians have a fake God too, but they think their God is true.  Jesus was considered a Sun God.  Yahweh was most likely a sky/storm God.  But calling Allah a “moon” God got me thinking.  The Muslim religion is a religion of submission — that’s a feminine quality, like the moon.  If we hate and fear anything in the feminine role, we get fear and hate back.  The feminine is reflective, like a mirror.  So how can you blame the feminine?   You can’t.  What this Christian email writer was saying, without realizing it, was that Christians have created a mean ass projection, a big enemy; and they won’t let go.  They’d rather fear, die, and fight their own reflection.  How stupid is that?  It’s real stupid, but the Christian church has been doing that for ages.

The correction to this problem is so easy.  However, this is the problem with the false masculine role.  It sees it’s reflection in the feminine role; and then blames the feminine.  It breaks the mirror when all it has to do is let go.

 

Religious Extremism

In “God’s Slave,” the main character’s parents were murdered as a young child.  He becomes a slave of the system, and they groom him to become a suicide bomber.  He’s told that the best life comes after suffering, which is not any different than the Christian notion of heaven after suffering on earth.  He’s told to go live a normal life until he’s called.  This is also no different than Christians waiting for the call.  And he’s told that being a martyr is the ultimate.  Of course, Jesus was a martyr.  So it quickly becomes apparent that Christians and Muslims share the same ridiculous beliefs.  Let go of these core beliefs, and the battle ends.  You won’t fight when you don’t believe in suffering, when you know who you are, and when you realize Jesus was an initiate, not a martyr.

Eventually, the protagonist gets the call.  By this time, he’s married and has a child who he loves very much.  He’s got a sweet, compassionate side to him.  But he’s a slave to his handler, his authority, who is a slave to the false God.

He leaves his wife and child and reports for duty.  They have no idea that he’s about to become a martyr.  He’s strapped with explosives and gets in a car filled with explosives.  He is to drive to a synagogue.  But when he reaches the synagogue, which is filled with people, he’s stopped by a young child who is standing in front of his car and won’t move.  He gets out of the car, picks up the child, and hands him to his father.  And in that compassionate, caring act, his brainwashing cracks; he remembers his own child, who is about the same age.  He remembers love; and he aborts the mission.

His handlers are going to kill him as punishment.  They say he has disappointed Allah.  He calmly replies, “No Allah didn’t ask me to kill, you did.”   That’s the realization of someone who has seen the illusion for what it is.  They realize that they’re being controlled by humans, not God.  It’s the key to freedom and the gateway to heaven on earth.

 

Life as a Movie

Each of our lives is like that movie, and we have been brainwashed by our handers to believe the movie we live in is true when it’s really just an illusion.  We’re all slaves to other humans who call us into roles.  But love and compassion cracks our programming.

Like the suicide bomber, our mind was programmed to think we’re being punished or rewarded by God.  We break free when we realize that humans are controlling us, punishing or rewarding us — not God.  We aren’t free until we say “No” to our handlers and take back our free will.  Then we can use the power of truth and unconditional love to dissolve the illusion that has imprisoned us.  We can start allowing our own True Self to write the script for our life.  The protagonist of “God’s Slave” was not killed; he was free.

Roles: When the Feminine Pretends to be Masculine

Masculine or Feminine

By Cathy Eck

 

Confusion of Roles

Roles become very confusing when they’re not played as designed.  I’ve written about the masculine who pretends to be feminine — an authority figure who projects out an enemy, like Bush/Obama projecting Osama Bin Laden and Muslim extremism.  The leader pretends to be a victim of their own evil projection.  They want support/service/sacrifice from followers in order to slay the evil dragon.  If the followers succeed, the leader becomes a hero.  It’s a very old archetype.

This leader needs blindly obedient followers to slay his dragon.  We see such a person in the movie, “American Sniper,”  the true story of Chris Kyle, known as “The Legend” for his large number of kills.  Controversy has erupted over whether Chris Kyle was a hero or a predator.   Both labels are right in the illusion; both put Kyle at the bottom of the triangle.  If there’s a real enemy, then he’s a hero.  If there’s no enemy, then he’s a predator in the illusion.

Soldier is a strange role.  We believe a soldier is highly masculine.  Just try not to think of masculinity while watching Bradley Cooper play Chris Kyle.  It’s difficult!  However, soldier is actually a feminine role; soldiers salute, take orders, and blindly obey authority.  They’re feminine to the higher rank (who are feminine to their superior).  Soldiers only become masculine when they kill.  As observers, we get tricked by this role shift because we’re trained to look with physically-oriented eyes.

 

Roles Clarified

The original definition of roles made sense.  The masculine role followed the ideal of the sun and unconditionally gave.  The feminine role unconditionally received (like the moon or earth).  A person in a true masculine role would only think or speak the truth.  Their feminine side would be calm and receive original, creative ideas.

But a false masculine projects an illusion based on beliefs, which creates a fantasy, horror, or drama.  Those who are feminine followers to the false masculine leader, and honor their belief system, are no longer creating their OWN life.  Consequently, they’re either highly emotional or highly suppressed.  Only the person at the top of the pyramid — the supreme handler — has the script.  For most people, that supreme leader/handler is the false God — the imaginary leader of the illusion.  His constitution is the Old Testament.

 

Feminine Pretends to be Masculine

Remember, the false leader is an authority holding a masculine role but pretending to be feminine, a victim of someone or something outer.  This false leader pretends to be innocent; but that’s because we’re trained to ignore the fact that they projected their OWN enemy.

Any follower of a false masculine is playing a feminine role.  Look closely at Chris Kyle.  If you take out his back story, he appears to be a macho man — an expert marksman —  a killer of evil extraordinaire  — a hero.  But the movie, “American Sniper,” doesn’t ignore the back story.  He’s not masculine at all.  He’s feminine pretending to be masculine.  

Kyle’s story starts at birth, not at enlistment.  His dad rewarded him for his shooting skills as a young child.  He wanted dad’s approval and ignored his strong emotional signal screaming that killing wasn’t right.   He lived in Texas and attended a Fundamentalist church.  He quickly became feminine to his dad and religious authorities.  His dad tells him that he’s a protector, like a sheep dog; he buys the label because it sounds good.  By the time 9/11 occurred, he was one angry dude with a feminine, obedient mind.  From the physical perspective, he was masculine.  But from the mental perspective, he was completely feminine.

We fall into this quicksand because we confuse the physical and mental perspectives.  The True Self lives in the mental realm; the false self is physically focused.  From the mental, True Self perspective, we are NEVER an authority over another.  We can lead others for a common purpose, but we can’t be their ultimate authority.

Anyone who believes in the false God, is an expert of knowledge, or teaches information that has been pre-chewed by those in the illusion has a feminine mind.  Their position of authority doesn’t change their mindset.  They aren’t harmful unless we make them our authority.  I might take a class in Photoshop from a Photoshop expert to become a better user.  I’m glad s/he exists because the knowledge is useful; but I don’t let him/her tell me what to do with Photoshop.

Many people notice that the highest leaders appear to be feminine to some hidden hand, which is called God by some and the illuminati or big business by others.  If we could dissect the authority’s mind, however, I think we’d find that they’re actually following mom and dad’s illusion most of the time.

 

Level Confusion in Roles

When we follow any other human, we enter their fallen perspective because only our false self is outer directed.  A true leader will always point us back inside.  They won’t take our power even if we insist on giving it to them.

The calm demeanor of false leaders is often mistaken for the calmness of the True Self.  But false calmness is actually the result of the leader’s ability to project emotions on to followers.  We see the leader’s true colors when we refuse to serve their cause or fight their enemy.  The false masculine leader blames, guilts, and shames until we accept their beliefs and do their dirty work.  The say they’ll lead us to the promised land, but they actually spin us around in the desert forever.

To unravel this mess, we must clean up our own mind.  We have both of these false masculine characters within our false mind resting at the bottom of the triangle; often they’ve brought us rewards.  Sometimes, we fear the responsibility of leading our OWN life.  We fear making mistakes or not having answers.  But the only authority that is fair, harmless, and doesn’t err is our own True Self.  No one else can offer us better advice.

 

 

 

Motivation…Creation…It’s Not All About Doing

Nuts turn into giant oak trees.

By Cathy Eck

 

What’s Motivation?

I hear it every day from someone. I have no desires..no motivation…I’m lazy…bored with life. I don’t know what to do.

The curse of the illusion is hard work.  Some do hard physical work.  Others do hard mental work in order to figure out how to avoid doing hard physical work.  People who seek freedom are sick of hard work.  We discover letting go; then we turn it into hard work.

The freedom we desire is freedom from the physically oriented, fallen perspective.  When we fell into the illusion, we accepted lots of beliefs that made creating very hard and slow.  We became feminine to a false God (a slave driver).  We became slaves of his system.  Doing became boring, routine, and uncreative.

The popularity of motivational speakers, prosperity preachers, and life coaches is proof that people aren’t in touch with their natural inner motivation.  They pump people up and generate lots of emotion by telling them what they want to hear.

However, what we want to hear is usually the opposite of what we believe.  So their motivation wears off quickly; our established beliefs usually win in the end.

 

Reward and Punishment

As we let go, we’re all a lot like my oldest child, who was imprisoned in the educational system for six years before I set him free with unschooling.  He’d already become institutionalized.  He was accustomed to outer direction and rewards.  I asked him to look inside for his true desires. He had no fucking clue how to do that.  He begged me to tell him what to do, but I didn’t.  Eventually, his desires for outer motivation, direction, reward, and punishment died since he stopped feeding them.  He was left with inner motivation after about two years of tears.

Inner motivation is different from outer motivation.  The True Self knows the future, without going to psychics.  It’s not going to learn cursive writing unless it plans to be a calligrapher or old fashioned letter writer, but it will learn texting or typing.

The True Self hates spoon-feeding and memorization.  It wants to understand and experience everything.  But most schools ruin that innate desire.  Children learn to walk with very little assistance. They absorb the understanding from someone who already knows how to walk; then they figure it out.  They don’t read “Walking for Dummies.”

When my children wanted to learn something new, I’d point them toward the inventors and innovators in their field of interest — people who found their own wisdom.  I wanted them to trust their own ideas and to see that true desires always seem crazy to others because they’re not their desires.

Most people memorize and copy what others have discovered.  There’s no life force in that.  Beliefs, traditions, stories, knowledge, and rituals get passed down from generation to generation.  It’s old and dull.  In the beginning, such information was minimal and useful — like how to make fire.  Now we pass down useless knowledge, political persuasions, and antiquated religious ideas.

It’s habitual.  In ancient times, dead ancestors were labeled Gods.  Few people in the past have questioned their ancestral teachings.  People got used to being told things that felt bad or sounded illogical.   Sacrificing our desires for the sake of keeping the family and collective illusions alive became normal.  We stopped discriminating when we heard something from an elder, teacher, or expert.  After awhile, we’d believe anything.

 

Creation

To understand true motivation, we must understand the creation process. Creation starts in our mind as an original idea.  We think about the idea, and it grows.  Eventually, we desire to share our idea because sharing gives it life.  Then we’re inspired to action. The whole process is organic and enjoyable if no beliefs get in the way.  But invariably beliefs do get in the way, and we lose our motivation unless we let those beliefs go.

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If our desire is true, we’ll be inspired toward the next step and the next step; but we might not know the final destination.  We might not have support from our mother or friends, but we’ll find support in the form of validation, clarity, or insight.

Roles disappear.  No one can impose their beliefs on us if we know the difference between the truth and a belief.  The world is a mess because people think their beliefs are true.  Then they spew their beliefs on others because they think everyone needs their truth.  We already share the truth; we’re born with it.  Beliefs must remain temporary and personal.  They support, rather than dominate, creativity.

 

Action

The false self is action driven toward rigidly-defined goals. It seeks rewards and avoids punishment.  It avoids the creative process because it’s focused on end results and approval. The True Self’s ideas often look risky to the false self.  Beliefs about insecurity arise along with a lot of emotion.  If we don’t let those beliefs go, we’ll find our inspiration too difficult to follow.

The key to living from our True Self is to focus on our own mind.  The false mind is always  in other people’s business.  It believes that it gains status by mentally or physically pushing others down below it with it’s knowledge and conviction.  It fears others stealing it’s ideas; it’s competitive.  The false self judges, debates, and takes sides.  I know these things look normal; but normal people are deep in the illusion.

We must get to the place where we’re always watching our mind, discriminating, and letting go.  Eventually, it becomes automatic.  Our false self is blindly obedient.  It will be obedient to others unless we retrain it to be obedient to our True Self.

Yea, when we live this way, we’ll look lazy, unmotivated, or too happy.  Others will think we’re playing too much.  That’s their problem.  Finding our True Self and expressing it is what we all really want.  It’s finding the kingdom of heaven and eating from the Tree of Life again.

Being Truly Good by Eliminating Good and Evil

Good vs. Good and Evil

By Cathy Eck

 

Illusion Confusion

Good and evil rests at the core of the illusion.  Often it takes on a different form, like positive and negative; but ultimately, judging another as negative means that we’re seeing negativity as evil.  Good and evil was the way humans gave God an opponent to battle.  God originally represented our perfect True Self; therefore, the opponent of God is our OWN false self projected out into the world.  The final battle isn’t in the outer world.  It’s in our mind.  It’s initiation.

The confusion around good and evil causes so many problems.  People genuinely want to be good.  They really do.  There’s a reason for that; they were born good, and some part of their mind remembers their True Self.  We arrive with no opponent.  Good’s opposite arises when we accept another person’s notion of good — their rules or morals.  Rules tell us how to be good according to an outer system.  Rules deny the innate goodness of people.  That’s why most of my readers hate them.  Once we accept that being good is following outer rules even if they sound like the truth, we also now hold within the possibility of evil or badness if we disobey those outer rules.

We also have experts giving us rules for how to be healthy, how to be spiritual, how to be social, and how to be successful.  The result is that health, spirituality, social acceptance, and success have gotten harder — not easier.  We live in a bubble of experts determined to keep our natural wisdom and truth under wraps.  And often our truth is screaming in our mind, but we feel paralyzed if we try to speak it.  We’re so well trained to look outside for answers.

 

Fear of Judgment

When I first saw the illusion within myself, I felt like a backed-up sewage system.  I was no longer passing on my beliefs to others because I knew they were false.  But others didn’t stop demanding my obedience to their beliefs and rules.  This created a long and grueling awkward phase.  I couldn’t figure out how to escape this prison.

I could no longer obey their rules because I knew were false and limiting.  But disobedience resulted in judgment.  I hated being judged by those who still thought their rules were valid and good.  My discrimination felt worthless in a world where no one else was discriminating.  In fact, it seemed that my discrimination just got me into trouble with nearly everyone.

As we move toward freedom, we meet the same or similar experiences and feel the same emotions we felt and did not let go earlier in life.  We are slowly releasing beliefs.  The illusion shrinks each time we succeed in letting go until nothing is left.

Our fear of judgment probably came from the ancient act of cursing.  In earlier times, people believed that another person’s words or evil eye could take them down.  We all have a deep fear of other humans within us, especially if they are envious or angry.  The winners of the illusion play on this.  When we’re afraid, we’re easily controlled.

Many people adopt another belief like, “I don’t care what they think of me.”  Some work on their reputation and create a great looking mask.  Signs and symbols came out of the fear of expression, not truth.  We all have fear of beliefs and believers, which ultimately results from the foundation belief that the truth is less powerful than a belief system.  We think our love and truth is not enough in this world to keep us safe.  But if you let go enough, you’ll see that’s not true.

This all got worse with the positive thinking movement.  People said that words had power; and that’s true.  But most people’s words are not empowering; this only resurrected our fear of people, especially believers.

 

Psychological Reversal Again

The issue always comes back to the basic psychological reversal around emotions.  When people are sucked into the illusion, they think that something that feels bad IS true.  In the illusion, war, disease, poverty, and evil are all considered true and unavoidable — yet they all feel horrible.

When a resident of the illusion judges us, and it does feel bad to them, they don’t reject the thought; they act on it.  They want us to change, and often we do.  If we can’t beat them, we’ll join them.

I first came to understand this with my own children.  I’d notice something in them that I didn’t like — it looked very real AND I felt emotion.  If I mentioned it to them, they had no clue what I was talking about.  So I’d take responsibility and just let it go.  After awhile, I realized that I was seeing my own fears projected on them.  I let go from the masculine role until the problem I saw disappeared — it always did.  I did not make them responsible for my emotions.  Then I could see their perfection.

This is the sticking point of the illusion that traps us all.  Others think we’re causing their emotions with our disobedience.  They try to get their emotions to stop by changing their projection.  It doesn’t work EVER!  The projection isn’t the cause.

Now I understand what people were doing to me.  Being our True Self forces other people’s beliefs to surface; when this happens the false self goes into blame mode.  I used the feminine method of letting go in myself until I realized that they’re false thinking has no power to harm me.  If I stay in truth, and don’t judge them back, they back off.  In truth, beliefs only affect believers.  But rebelling against believers gets us stuck in their illusion.

Eventually, the concept of good and evil dies a natural death.  There’s no apocalypse, no buildings collapse — nothing physical needs to change.  The illusion was just a perspective.  Good and evil disappear; only true good remains as it was in the beginning.

 

 

 

The Host Parasite Relationship

Host Parasite relationship

By Cathy Eck

 

The Host

I never thought much about the notion of hosting until visiting Ecuador for a few months. I considered the woman who owned the home I stayed in to be my host.  Ironically, I started having problems with my internet provider during that time; of course, they were my “hosting” company.  The odd thing was that my hosting company was perfect until I went to Ecuador.  Clearly an old belief was coming up for releasing.

I decided to review my memories around hosting in general.  Many memories surfaced, and all were the same situation with different people.   I’d meet someone in my home or a neutral place, and we’d get along great.  Then they’d invite me to their home where they were the host.  Now I couldn’t stand them.  I felt as if they gave me food and wine in exchange for the whining that I would endure until I could politely escape their house of horrors.  One of these people even said to me, “Now you’re on my turf.”

The host role is a masculine role.  The true masculine host gives unconditionally.  The false masculine host looks like it gives when it actually takes like a parasite; it gives conditionally.

 

Host and Parasite

The word host has an opposite or a complement, depending on how you look at it — parasite.  Wikipedia says, “The host and parasite exert reciprocal selective pressures on each other, which may lead to rapid reciprocal adaptation.”

Humans shouldn’t be adapting to each other’s false selves.  Sadly, most relationships have a fragile quality to them.  Everyone behaves like tightrope walkers focused on holding the delicate balance.  People adapt to the most fragile ones; and everyone is secretly miserable.

A whining host behaves like a parasite, sucking the life out of its guests.  As a false masculine, they establishes the tone of the experience for everyone.  The false masculine commands the power and control of the masculine role while also receiving the benefits that belong to the feminine role.  Consequently, people seek the spotlight in the home or the stage.  They get the power, and they get the attention and/or money too.  They often label that win-win.  Those of us in the feminine role label it lose-lose.  We have no power; and we receive things we don’t want.

My internet hosting company pretended to serve me.  But they sent me crap that shut down my computer and websites.  I felt that I had to protect myself from my own host.  Ah, I was now seeing the pattern.  I felt the same way when visiting these hosts — like I needed to protect myself.  Since I’m not a fan of wrapping myself in white light, I wanted to find out how I ended up in this situation over and over.

Power in the illusion requires getting others to submit to or follow the leader’s beliefs so they can get what they want.  If you look at royalty, they give nothing; they have all the power, and boy do they receive.

Both of my hosts wanted me to listen to their self-inflicted problems and feel sorry for them.  I was supposed to marinate in their crap and not hold them responsible.  I had to pretend the cause of their problem was a mystery.  I had to pretend that they were a victim.  As a good guest, I was supposed to follow this social norm.  It was time to let that go.  I’d had enough.

 

The Escape

We generally feel powerless in the feminine role.  We’ve been trained that we can’t or shouldn’t get the masculine host to change.  But I’ve discovered that when I completely let go of my feminine role in any drama (including my emotions), the scene does change.  When I let go of my feminine role in my relationship with the host, I moved beyond roles (or into a True Masculine place from their point of view).  Now I only had to make sure that I didn’t judge or label them.  I had to make sure that I was speaking truthfully, not grabbing the stage.  Frequently, the host would relax; and our conversation became light, creative, and fun.  They became a proper host.

If they just wanted power and control over me (or still thought they did), they’d try to see me as the problem — a parasite.  They wanted their beliefs or drama validated.  They were now feeling the emotions that they were previously projecting out by whining.  The angst was where it belonged, with the whiner (parasite pretending to be a gracious host).

I’d often get trapped at this point because they thought that I was causing their emotions.  If I didn’t say anything, they’d often say, “Are you doing something to me?”  Often I’d doubt myself.  Was I the cause?  We live in a strange world where we believe we can say horrible things without paying a price.  And when held accountable, people blame the listener or questioner for the emotion they feel.

When I encounter new belief patterns, I go back into my memory and replay old situations with my new understanding.  I see the memory as it was; but this time, I also let go.  I don’t take in what the other people said; I see their beliefs as just beliefs — powerless, untrue, and certainly not who they are.  I watch as the situation changes in my mind.  It has to.  Of  course, it’s perfect in my mental workshop; but my repaired memories become my new history.  This sets the tone for my future real life exchanges.  Yes, we can change the past.

Eventually, in my mental workshop, I saw that the human opposite of host wasn’t parasite; it was guest.  The host now unconditionally gave; and I, the guest, joyously received.  Ironically, once I did this inner work, my Ecuadorian host fixed up my room.  She started to give to me in many ways.  And my internet hosting company took responsibility and fixed their problem.

Living the Masculine and Feminine Roles in Relationships

Earth as a mirror of our mind

By Cathy Eck

 

Getting Right Inside

I usually discuss the masculine and feminine related to roles; but the masculine and feminine are actually aspects of our own mind.  The correct inner relationship manifests correct outer relationships.  However, most people live as if the outer world and relationships create their thoughts.  They live life backwards.

In order to let go, we must move our attention inside of our mind.  We must take our focus off the belief-generated illusion and other people; we become inner directed.  Don’t confuse this with introversion.  Inner directed means our attention is on our OWN mind, not other people’s minds.  It means constant discrimination.

Whether we’re male or female, we came hard-wired with a masculine and feminine mind aspect — once called God and Goddess within  (True Self).  Living as a True Self is only possible when we let go of everything false from our minds.  We’re left with only true.  We now create in the physical world using only first-cause thinking.

When we’re thinking true thoughts, our inner masculine and inner feminine harmonize as one.  Our mind is unified (top of the triangle).  These are our most creative moments.  Our inner God now loves unconditionally and thinks only the truth or first-cause thoughts; hence our inner Goddess is creative and wise.  Our life works.

 

Inner Relationships Create Outer Relationships

Jesus said (paraphrasing), “Don’t do shit until you find the kingdom of heaven within.”  That was damn good advice.  If our inner masculine mind is a giant mass of beliefs and knowledge, our inner feminine mind will be emotional and non-creative.  What’s inside our mind creates what’s outside of us if we hold a masculine role.  When we don’t hold a masculine role, then we’re lowly cast members in the stories of the people who hold the masculine roles.

The true masculine leader was modeled after the sun.  The sun gives light and warmth unconditionally.  It doesn’t check to see if we’re worthy of it’s gift or ask for something in return.  Likewise, the masculine sexual organ gives.  Thus the masculine role was considered a giving/assertive role.

The feminine role was modeled after the moon or earth to reflect or absorb.  The sun, moon, and earth were metaphors for the mentally oriented masculine and feminine.  We assume that the sun sends pure light; but humans in the false masculine role send fluorescent (fake) light.

If the masculine mind or leader is like the sun (true) and loves the feminine unconditionally, the feminine reflects that unconditional love back like the full moon, or the feminine earth absorbs the sun’s rays and creates life.  However, if the false masculine mind or leader projects judgment, criticism, or discipline on the feminine, the feminine reacts unnaturally with emotion, rebellion, problems, or disease.

The True Masculine lets go of any thought that causes emotion or limits the feminine (not win-win).  But the false masculine doesn’t let go.  It thinks its beliefs are right and true.  It projects the unwanted part of it’s divided (second-cause) thinking on to its feminine using blame.  It believes that it can think false and get true.  That’s ridiculous, but that’s what it believes; it calls it discipline.

If we all lived as True Selves, creating would be cooperative with two or more whole people creating more than the sum of the equal parts.  A common goal or desire would unite people — not their beliefs.  The leader would hold the vision for the group — not impose beliefs or rules on them.

 

Reality of Relationships

The True masculine role is mentally oriented; its pure mind never gets tired of giving.  What effort does it take to think truth or love unconditionally?

The false masculine, however, is physically oriented; a false masculine mind says to physically give, sacrifice, or serve.  The false masculine leader (or God/Lord) gives discipline, rules, and beliefs.  It gives conditional love (rewards) and punishment.

Thinking false thoughts is exhausting.  But the false masculine is cunning.  It makes the rules and convinces others to do it’s hard work with lies while it receives the benefits, power, and credit.  Rules are false; they shouldn’t be obeyed.  But we’ve been psychologically reversed to obey.

A powerful false masculine leader (like royalty or a billionaire) feels balanced.  But, they’re not.  They’re living the beneficial side of both roles.  They have no compassion for their projection — the people living the shitty side of both roles who have no power and no rewards.  Thus the successful false masculine leader often does a little charity work or service to mask their projection and look generous.

False masculine leaders have no reason to change their mind, so we have to transform ours.  When we let go of their beliefs/rules in our mind even if they’ve created our reality in the past, we move into the True Masculine role naturally.  The true leader is the person with the purist mind in any situation.  They have more power than the balanced false masculine; they can make everything right.

In initiation, we don’t fight for the masculine role or win it by education, expertise, or knowledge.  We simply let go of all of our beliefs.  We let go of allowing others to project or impose their beliefs on us.  We let go of our judgments of others.  Our mind becomes clear and pure.  Then we rise naturally to the true masculine role.  It’s so subtle that we hardly even know we’ve done it.

In initiation, this was called becoming the Christ or the Son of God.  In religion, it’s called impossible.  Religion worships the false masculine; the false masculine always has an enemy or opposite like Satan.  The higher the false masculine rises in the system, the more it’s attacked by Satan.  However, when the True Masculine takes the lead, the false masculine loses its false power; it retreats or submits because it’s finally feeling its own emotions.  It’s pulled inward.  Its lies no longer work.  The war is over.

Time: Good or Evil

Right place and right time

By Cathy Eck

 

Time — Hijacked by the Illusion

I’ve known people who stopped wearing watches because they hated time but then drove everyone crazy by constantly asking for the time.  Their behavior created the appearance of freedom; but it’s actually harder to ask someone for the time than to just look at our watch.  Some rebel against time by showing up when they want.  Those of us who aren’t rebelling against the clock, waste our time waiting for them.  People like to make time the bad guy when it’s really our beliefs about time that are the problem.

Many teachers talk about transcending time.  They’re usually the same ones that like to float above their reality.  I once got an email from someone wanting to know if I could help him time travel so he could be with his lost lover again.  People try to outsmart or manipulate time because they view it as a prison.  Time is a constraint; but it doesn’t have to limit our freedom if we keep it in the realm of first-cause creation.

Nature shows us first-cause time.  Day and night and the seasons are natural, but equal, constraints.  If we’re in tune with the earth, we’ll know when to plant or harvest.  We’ll find our rhythm in the earth’s cycle. If we synchronize with Mother Earth’s clock, we won’t be near the ocean when the tsunami arrives.  You see this with animals.  No one needs to give a beluga whale, a grey squirrel, or a red robin a calendar or a warning signal.  But humans have something that animals don’t…false minds.  Our false minds destroy our natural connection to the planet.  In fact, our false mind tells us that it will keep us safe when it actually put us in danger.

A long time ago, we fell; and our prize was a brand spanking new false self/mind.  Our seeming fall could have been a graceful trip down the river to a more creative material world.  We simply gained a cool conscious outer perspective.  We could now divide our thoughts into opposites, musical notes, and colors.  We could hold memories and ideas in mind and manifest them in the material world.  This was the coolest thing ever invented.  We each had a mind of our own.  We were all capable of first-cause creation — created mentally in the image and likeness of the Creator.  Time and space were just part of our tool box.  They made life interesting.

Time and space created different points of view depending on our location.  Stories were extracted out of the night sky; and different people saw different animals, superheroes, Gods, and Goddesses.  This became astrology, which is a function of the location and time that we’re born.

 

Second-Cause Creation

Second-cause creation made story more interesting with drama and judgment.  Some personality qualities were good and some were bad.  Some actions were good and some bad.  Some people had good astrological charts and some had charts that sucked.  We also added the elements of authority, roles, and evil.  Controlling space and time was now used to gain power over others.

Second-cause creation utilized history (his story) where time and events became very specific and intricately linked.  We were told to memorialize dates from the past.  We couldn’t just naturally let go of the past anymore.  We were told when to work and when to play.  And since we held on to the past, the past kept repeating.  Our future was now driven by what we held in mind — our memories and rigid beliefs.

We were seduced into giving up our independent notion of time because we were given planned gatherings, festivals, holy days, and holidays.  Those were our rewards.  Such fun times were used for the same purpose that a rapist grooms his future victim.  The victim loves the candy and attention, but doesn’t realize that the excitement they feel means that something bad is coming.  The non-holidays came to feel like punishment because that’s when we had to do the hard work.

Ancient astrologers/astronomers were called Wise Men.  They worked for the royals; they could read the stars.  They decided who would rise to power and who would be a slave.  They wrote the stories of the illusion.  They said that the stars determined our fate, not our thoughts.  We were no longer the creator of our life.  We now had a role in a grand story that we were told God wrote, when it was really written by the Wise Men.

Religions created calendars to synchronize people.  Controlling time helped to control people.

 

Returning to First Cause

Rebelling and throwing out calendars and clocks isn’t the answer.  We simply have to get back to first-cause thinking about the calendar — use it for convenience and coordination.  It’s a tool, not a God to worship.  We have to recognize that our mind creates our life, not our star signs or “the man.”  A calendar can give us a useful construct, but the date on the calendar should not tell us what to do, what to say, or how to be.  We are free when we do what we’re inspired to do everyday.

Breaking free of the traditions, rituals, and organized events of the illusion can be quite a challenge.  We can look like a real party pooper if we don’t do the inner work first.  In my experience, as my mind returned to first-cause regarding the calendar, people just worked in harmony with me.  I didn’t have to make a grand statement that time was evil.  Coordinating became pretty natural.  I didn’t have to fight the calendar to the death.  I just started living as if every day was a holiday.

We only need to remove our beliefs about time from our mind.  Then time serves us instead of us serving time.  Prisoners are said to serve time; and when we live in the illusion, that’s exactly what we’re doing.