The Watcher (Watching Our Mind) and the Body

Initiation as blend of east and west

By Cathy Eck

 

The Watcher

We let go by first accessing our watcher or observer within — the place where our True Self is watching our thoughts.  Our True Self knows true from false because it listens to our emotions for guidance.  It grants us free will to accept false thoughts, and it releases the false thoughts when we decide they aren’t true.

In the east, seekers of enlightenment watch their minds until they can remain above them.  But often they talk harshly about the body because the false thoughts they rise above remain suppressed in their bodies.  The false self lives like a parasite in our body generating unwanted thoughts and conditions.  If we rise above those thoughts, they continue to grow in power; the parasite eventually destroys the host.

In the west, we adore the body to the extreme and ignore our false minds.  Westerners are experts at projecting unwanted thoughts on to others.  Modern technology calms our minds by fixing our bodies and life experiences (effects) until the effects become too great to fix.

Initiation blended these two perspectives together into one perfect whole.  Initiates watched their mind constantly.  Their body was the effect of their thoughts.  They found their false causal thoughts by following their emotions and letting go.  If they achieved freedom, they were said to have transcended death with resurrected bodies — Temples of the Living God.

They now lived largely outside the illusion (outside beliefs) creating whatever they wanted.  They’d dip into the illusion to assist people who wanted out.  They were in the business of saving people, but not in the way that religion saves people.  They saved people from religion.

 

Losing the Watcher

When I was young, I watched my mind full time.   That changed as I started to accept the ideas of authority figures.  I knew they were wrong because I felt it, but I wanted to avoid punishment.  By the time I was twenty, I rarely watched my mind; the skill had no benefit.  I started to believe that I must manage my way within the illusion; escape seemed impossible.

Later on, I discovered meditation.  It was very easy for me, but it wasn’t enough.  I didn’t want bliss twice a day for short periods of time.  I wanted it all the time.  I wanted to be in the world without it affecting me adversely.  I had no desire to live in an ashram, and I looked hideous in orange.  So I went back to what I loved to do as a child.  I watched my mind.  I was rusty and had to work my way back to my earlier level of skill.  I had to remember how to discriminate and let go.

 

Loneliness

Living in Ecuador, for the last two months, took me back to my early twenties when I abandoned the art of watching.  I remember feeling very lonely after I married.  This was strange since I never felt lonely as a child even though I lived in the country with no children around.  The culture and religion in Ecuador matched my husband’s family culture and religion.   Loneliness isn’t about missing others; it’s about missing our True Self.

I watched my mind deliver the same thoughts I heard and believed earlier in life.  My mind said no one cared about me, and I was out of place.  They felt bad then; and they really felt bad now.  But now I understood the role of emotions in discrimination, and I knew how to let go.  The emotions I felt in my body were saying those thoughts were false.  If I had been floating above my body in meditation, I wouldn’t have felt those emotions.  I wouldn’t have been able to discriminate.  Being connected to my body was painful since the emotions were very powerful.  But it allowed me to discriminate and let go.

Once I let go, I could see the cause of the thoughts.  Everyone here shares the same false self; they belong superficially — identical to my husband’s family.  But their True Self feels left out — out-of-place.  They fix their undercurrent of loneliness with festivals, dancing, sex, family, and traditions.  They fix the effect, not the cause.  I faced a trap that I’d fallen into earlier in life as my True Self also had no place in my marriage.  I sacrificed it to fit in to my new family.

Loneliness is like a giant fog here in Ecuador since nearly everyone has abandoned their True Self to fit in.  It wasn’t going to go away.  Eventually, I let go of all the false thoughts as untrue, and loneliness became impossible because my True Self was unveiled; the emotions stopped.

Part of me wanted to fix my friends’ loneliness; I’ve come to care about them very much.  This also matched my mind earlier in life because I wanted to relieve my husband’s loneliness.  That caring made letting go hard; but it wasn’t true caring.  The True Self doesn’t fix other people’s emotions.  The suffering is meant to force us to let go.  Sadly, most people don’t know they can let go.

Throughout history, initiation was an elite privilege.  Lower classes were slaves — too busy wiping the asses of the elite to escape.  Royalty, like most gurus of the east, learned to rise above their unwanted false thoughts by projecting them out on to inferior others.  This became The Big Secret.  But it’s a false-self technique.  Identifying with the spiritual, positive, superior, winning, and good thoughts can trick others into playing the role they don’t want to play for awhile.  But eventually, they won’t be able to hide their negative aspects under a nice-looking mask if we stop believing them and taking on their projection.

In initiation, anyone can watch their mind, anyone can feel emotions and discriminate, and anyone can let go.  Initiation is true divine justice because anyone can gain eternal FREEDOM.  And when we let it all go, we simply are the watcher.

Shortcut to Freedom: Win-Win Taken to the Extreme

Jesus Breaking Cross

By Cathy Eck

 

Shortcut to Freedom

A powerful shortcut to freedom is to take the concept of win-win to the extreme.  This is especially true if we need to see our religious, social, or cultural beliefs because they tend to look acceptable and normal.

We must understand how to use win-win as a tool for letting go of our false masculine mind to bring peace back to earth.  But hardly anyone can or will do it.

 

An Example

Recently, I went to the Prohibido Museo de Arte Extremo in Cuenca, Ecuador, where I’m still living temporarily.  It had an assortment of dragons, gothic art, monsters, and taboo pieces.  It was clearly one man’s life passion; he was very talented.  It was a courageous expression of art since Cuenca is an extremely religious town.

I was surprised when my Christian housemates recommended it to me.  After I visited Arte Extremo, we discussed the sculpture above.  It’s Jesus breaking his cross.

One of the things that started me searching for the initiation teachings was the Christian notion that authorities could kill God.  God represents omnipotence and immortality.  Either Jesus didn’t die; or he wasn’t God.  The notion that Jesus died for our sins as a martyr was an attempt to make sense of the crucifixion, but it fails miserably as a story ending.

I theorized that the correct perspective to Jesus’ story would cause it to read like a novel.  It would contain no contradictions.  The conclusion would be a logical ending to the story.  This project took about eight years of research.  In addition, I had to let go of everything that  I thought I knew about Jesus.  Eventually, I found the perspective I sought; it was called initiation.  My theory, which became my Ph.D. dissertation, proved to be sound.  Jesus’ story did read like an ancient novel from the initiate’s perspective.

Since my project, religious art has taken on new life.  So many great artists, like Michelangelo and da Vinci, had an initiate’s perspective and gave us clues through their art.  Only those who had eyes to see saw the clues.  I had no doubt that this extreme artist was tuned into the initiates’ channel.

Jesus breaking his cross represented freedom in initiation.  The cross was a metaphor for being stuck in the illusion.  A God wouldn’t be stuck in the illusion.  The sculpture from this perspective expressed a win-win point of view.  Jesus would be telling us to break our crosses, not wear them around our neck.  It seems that the artist saw Jesus as a true God, more powerful than any distorted human authority’s perspective.  Isn’t that how a God would be?  Wouldn’t a God save us little mortals from authority?

Who benefits from believing that authority is more powerful than God?  Authority does.  If authority can kill God, what chance in hell do we have?  We’ll blindly obey.

 

Win-Win Perspective

I discussed the sculpture with my housemates after my return from the museum.  One of them said that he wasn’t offended at all.  He views art as expression that often challenges our thinking; this artist did what many artists do.

The other was bothered by the sculpture and saw it as anti-Christian.  She said that it’s wrong to say Jesus didn’t die because he did.  I could see where she was coming from.  Her beliefs connected her to a special group perspective, and it’s all she’d ever known.  She believed that she was saved and Jesus was her savior.

Getting free isn’t about proving who’s right or wrong, it’s about win-win or win-lose.  Her saving has no value unless all people are fallen sinners.  The initiates didn’t believe in sin; they believed in wrong thinking, which could be dropped.  My housemate’s belief that Jesus died for our sins requires Jesus, a God, to have died.  If he broke the cross and stood up to authority, the whole belief system would shatter.  If all people are sinners, and Jesus didn’t save anyone, then she’s hell-bound scum just like the rest of us.  The artist pulled the magic carpet out from beneath the Christian savior illusion with one silent statue.  But look what happens when we join him.  Authority loses its power; we move toward win-win.  Jesus didn’t die; authority did.

If God can’t be harmed by authority, and if we all have a True Self (God) aspect within, then authority has no real power.  We can only be harmed by authority if we obey them, believe them, and accept their perspective as true.  Isn’t that exactly what religion does to people?  The religious perspective kills Jesus everyday so that we don’t have to deal with our own sinning (false thinking).

When we hold on to win-lose, we lose our own chance at freedom.  We don’t just harm others; we hurt ourselves.  In the eyes of truth, we aren’t truly good until we can live from win-win in the extreme — where our perspective is so expansive that it gives everyone the potential to win (without having to accept our beliefs).

Extreme win-win forces us to purify our masculine false mind.  We become harmless to anyone and everyone.  Expanding our perspective to see if it’s win-win for all turns us into true leaders.  It  forces our false mind to be objective and unconditionally loving.  Once our mind is win-win to the extreme, it’s returned to the way it was initially — the goal of initiation.

The final test of initiation was the crucifixion.  The initiate took one last dip into a powerless, feminine role.  This was my purpose in coming to Ecuador — to allow my own remaining beliefs to come at me — and they did.  This is why Jesus didn’t fight in his story.  Instead of doing harm to others, the initiate allowed whatever was left in their mind to be done to themselves.  The key was to realize that whatever came at them was false.  If they failed the test, they died.  If they passed the test, they lived as resurrected beings, completely free of the illusion.

 

Prohibido Museo Arte De Extremo, Cuenca, Ecuador

A Seductive Trap: The Superior False Self

Getting off the cross

By Cathy Eck

 

Seductive Trap

The false self is the opposite of the True Self.  But the reverse doesn’t apply.  The True Self isn’t the opposite of the false self.  Sounds illogical, I know.  But when you understand this, you’ll no longer fall into a very seductive trap.

Look at the most popular self-help programs today, and you’ll notice that they take something that is unwanted (false belief) and flip to the opposite thinking.  It now sounds like they’re teaching the truth.  But they aren’t.  They’re expressing the opposite of something false.  True words inserted into the false self are still false, not true.

Truth is accessed by the elimination of all that’s false, not the opposition of it.  I’ve often labeled this false superiority clone mind; it’s a huge trap for seekers.

 

Truth Has No Opposite

If we’re caught in this trap, we’ll feel like we’re good or right; and there’s an enemy out there that’s wrong or evil.  We’ll often feel proud of our superior position or expertise.  We might feel angry or fearful when we think of the opposition.  The best technique for getting rid of this mental trap is the triangle process.  When we eliminate both the right and the wrong, the good and the evil, from our OWN mind, we naturally end up resting in the truth, without opposite.  Now the beliefs of others show up as meaningless, false, and powerless.  They aren’t opposing us anymore.

People spend fortunes on programs that prey on our susceptibility to this trap.  If our undesirable state is poverty, they teach us how to get rich.  If we’ve been taught that we’re sinners, they’ll teach us how to be good.  We don’t want to be fat; so they teach us how to be thin.

Initiates called this being stuck on the cross.  It’s a great metaphor.  It means you’re stuck on the horizontal arms of the cross moving between opposites.  You can’t move in the vertical direction toward truth.

 

An Example

One day you’re feeling unloved.  You’re very aware of your beliefs and emotions.  Underneath your emotion is a belief like, “Nobody loves me or I don’t matter.”  If you dive down into your emotions, you’ll discover the exact causal belief.  You’ll realize that your belief isn’t true because it feels horrible, and you’ll let it go.  You’ll never believe that thinking and the corresponding emotional signal again.  If you happen to think it, it will look silly and false.

But let’s say that instead of letting go of the causal belief, a friend or family member comes along and says “I love you.  Don’t feel bad.”  It feels like they fixed your problem.  But they just put sprinkles on your bullshit.  For now, the emotion appears to be gone because your mind temporarily focuses on their nice words.  But that fix will wear off; you’ll need them to tell you those words again and again and again.  If they don’t say the words when you feel unloved, you might manipulate them into telling you they love you.  You might work tirelessly to get approval and love from any outsider, you could take drugs to numb yourself, or you might even pay someone else to give  you love.

People look for gurus and priests to tell them that they’re spiritual and good, teachers to tell them they can become prosperous, and doctors to tell them they’re healthy, etc.  We’ll accept belief after belief to patch our holes.  But the holes don’t stay patched.  The causal belief is still there, and it will reopen the hole in time.  Our holes need constant maintenance.

 

We Can Let Go

Occasionally, someone realizes that the answer isn’t outside.  They’ve looked everywhere, but they still have holes.  They realize that they’ve been trying to fix an imperfection that wasn’t even true.  The imperfection was a false, causal belief.  Now they’re ripe for initiation.  They’ll let go of anything.

Until the false self looks painfully stupid and wrong, most people won’t let it go.  The false self is very resistant to letting go of anything that it believes makes it superior.  People fear that if they let go of their positive bubbly self, they’ll become negative.  They fear that if they let go of their good girl or boy, they’ll become evil.  That isn’t true as long as we let go of both of the opposing sides of duality (triangle process).

If they’re an expert, their false mind will try to hold on to knowledge.  That’s how they make money.  They don’t realize that letting go of knowledge reveals true wisdom.  Wisdom is the only thing that’s true.  It can fulfill our desires much better than knowledge.

If we’re in a religion that says we’ve been chosen and everyone else is going to die in the apocalypse, we’re in a false superior trap.  We don’t want to lose our spot on the train to heaven so we hold on to our beliefs.

This is where the win-win test is invaluable.  We must look at our thoughts to see if they work for everyone in the universe.  If they don’t, they’re false beliefs with an opposite.  We’re in a false superior place.  It’s often hard to see the opposite within without the win-win test.  We’ve all become so good at projecting our unwanted beliefs on to others.  We’re sure the other is evil or wrong.  We don’t believe that our letting go can strip their false power, but it can.  Because they’re simply reflecting the other half of our dual thinking.  They complete us.  Yikes!!!

The goal of initiation was no beliefs — none, nada.  It allowed one to return to a pure, creative and unified state of mind.  After purification, the initiates inserted beliefs in their minds for creative purposes only; they let the beliefs go when their creative usefulness was done.  All creation was beneficial for everyone.  They never saw themselves as special or superior.  They didn’t have enemies.  They only saw themselves as free.

 

Blinded by Our Culture

Cuenca on a dark rainy night

By Cathy Eck

 

Exposing Beliefs

Once we embark on the journey of initiation, our True Self exposes our beliefs.  If we follow our inspiration and commit to let go (not learn or escape), we’ll reach the destination.  Until we let go, however, places and situations can feel like impossible tests.  Ecuador continues to deliver exactly what I need.

I stay in a small B&B.  Since I’ve arrived, the hostess has been pleasant; but she constantly leaves out important details.  For example, a couple of weeks ago, she took me and two other guests to the mall, which is far from our home.  When we arrived, I asked her where and when we should meet her for the drive back.  She said, “Oh I can’t take you home.”  Fortunately, one member of our group knew the bus back to town.

When she picked me up at the airport, she was late.  This was disturbing because I no longer had phone service.  Then we went to get in her car — I thought.  Instead we got in a cab.  We stayed at a hotel, took a few more cabs, had a meal, and then took a transportation service that was right next to the airport.  I felt like my wallet was being raped.  What could have been a fourteen dollar ride to her house cost me about $80 in cabs, food, transport services, and hotel rooms.

Everyone in the house has had the same experience.  It would be easy to believe that we’re all just victims of her chaotic world.  As guests, we’re playing a feminine role in HER home.  This triggers our feelings of powerlessness.  It nearly always feels impossible to let go when we’re in a feminine role, but it isn’t.

 

No Victims

I’m never one to accept victimhood so I first let go of memories of lying by omission.  I’d often felt confused when people didn’t tell me the whole story, and I could only resolve my confusion when they finally told the truth.  That wasn’t good enough anymore.  I wanted letting go to take me to the place where people would always tell me everything I needed to know.

In every case, they didn’t think lying by omission was wrong.  In fact, they often felt they were sparing me pain.  There’s no “Thou shalt not lie or omit details,” in the Ten Commandments.

My mind kept telling me that I was stuck.  Lying or omission is a way to claim the false masculine role; the person lied too can’t get the upper hand because they’re fighting a ghost.

One morning, when my hostess once again forgot to mention a very important detail, I decided to speak with her.  Perhaps I could learn to understand her.  There was so much pain in the conversation that I had tears running down my eyes the whole time.

She was certain that she’d done nothing wrong.  “You chose to live in a typical Ecuadorian household; now you want to change me.”  I assured her that I didn’t.  “I’m a Christian woman; I don’t hurt people.”  I assured her that I understood her religion and realized she had good intentions.  This went on and on….

 

Culture

For some reason, my old business mind kicked in to save me.  “Let’s pull up your ad on the internet.  Let’s rewrite your ad as your guests see it.  This isn’t about your intention, your culture, or you; it’s about truthful marketing,” I said.  I spontaneously rewrote her ad giving her our painfully honest view of reality in her home.  Then, I said to her, “Is that ad really the ad of a Christian, typical Ecuadorian woman?”  I’d removed her mind from her cultural and religious beliefs; now she could see.

Her omission was the effect, not the cause.  She was constantly living from beliefs that she considered to be normal, cultural, or religious.  It is the old, “If everyone does it, it must be okay.”  Pride in her culture and religion kept her destructive beliefs in tact and even labeled her good for holding on to them.  Pride is one of the deadliest of tricks to keep us trapped in the illusion.

I reflected back to an earlier time when I confronted another person who lied by omission.  I also asked him why?  He said, “Everyone lies.  If you don’t, you won’t get what you want.”  Lying wasn’t bad to him either; it was necessary.  What he didn’t realize was that he was the only person I’d ever lied to.  I couldn’t help myself around him, but I hated myself for doing it.

My hostess saw herself as handling normal problems and circumstances that were typical for her religion and culture.  She knew nothing else.  For thousands of years, these traditions haven’t worked — they’ve only managed to veil our True Self.  The deeper the religion and culture in a family, organization, or country, the greater the chaos.  There are simply more beliefs to work around — think Middle East.

People will either live in apathy regarding their prison cell or decorate it and call it home.  It’s a rare one that escapes.

 

The Gift

Suddenly, I realized the gift of this experience.  My Spanish is poor.  When I talk to her, I’m thinking and listening very hard.  I’m focused on her words so I’m not feeling.  Being in a country where you can’t understand the language is a lot like being a child.  It takes us back to those moments when we didn’t know what people were saying or the rules of the world; but we did want the approval and love or our parents or other authorities.

So we innocently listened, trusted, and obeyed.  Sadly, some of those we trusted didn’t tell us the whole truth about life.  We fell into their world.  We accepted their beliefs as true, and we felt that we could not change their mind.  We believed that their religion or culture was true because we didn’t realize that they were blinded by it.

 

 

Why Reading About the Truth Doesn’t Get You To Freedom

Finding the truth by reading with discrimination

By Cathy Eck

 

Stuffed Full of Knowledge

From the time we’re born, we’re trained to learn from others — to stuff knowledge and information in to our mind.  So it seems logical that learning or reading about truth or freedom would cause us to find freedom.  But when we stuff more knowledge into our already crowded minds, we get a memorized version of the truth.  Reading about how to get free doesn’t make us free.  Talking about freedom doesn’t get us there.  Taking purposeful actions or rituals that demonstrate our knowledge of freedom doesn’t free us.

That’s why Jesus said to pray in private.  Initiation is a private thing that we all essentially do alone.  If we don’t find freedom through the mind by discriminating and letting go of our false beliefs, we’ll just believe the illusion again and again.

Telling you that reading doesn’t do the job when I’m a writer isn’t good for business.  But it happens to be the truth.  I write to make the journey to freedom faster, easier, and less lonely; I want to prompt you to let go.  Ultimately, I want to lose you as a reader or client because you’ve arrived.

The process of letting go perfects our discrimination so we can’t ever fall again.  The knowing and freedom that come from the process of letting go is pure.  We get our own insights.  We find our own unique perspective of truth.  Once we find freedom in this way, we won’t ever lose it.  Thus, free ones were considered immortal because death to the initiate was believing the illusion.

 

Freedom 

Ideally, we’d hear the truth, wake up to freedom, and live happily after.  However, our false minds have controlled our life and our bodies for a long time.  Our false self is a worthy opponent.  And, let me tell you, false selves love when we layer truth on top of it’s bullshit because it knows we won’t be letting go anytime soon.  Our mask will be shining too brightly.  When we layer truth on top of falsehood, we project the falsehood on to others so that we have a strong air of superiority and confidence.  We’re positive and their negative; we’re good and their bad.  We’re right and their wrong.

One must remember that the term con man came from the notion of the confidence man.  He looks like a True Self, speaks like a True Self, acts like a True Self, but he isn’t a True Self.  All of our problems in the world come from our inability to discriminate between the con man or woman and the True Self; this is especially true when we read.  We’re trained as young children to believe what we read, to hold on to it by memorizing it, and to be able to spit it back on command.  We’re trained to become con artists ourselves as we come to think our knowledge and expertise is who we really are.  Once we recognize this, we start to see through the trap of reading and learning.

Since we’ve been trained to believe we can’t let go, new information we read or learn goes on top of old information.   The old beliefs go into a mental storage vault that psychologists label the unconscious.  If we don’t like the info in our vault, we’ll often see it in others as projection.  We’ll think our job is to fix them.  But our real job is to empty our own vault.

In truth, there’s NO such thing as an unconscious mind.  We see the world that we hold within our mind.  If we’re bothered by something we see, hear, or read, our emotions remind us to let go.  Our emotions let us know that we’re contributing to the problem that we see in another or in the world with our beliefs.  When we let go, we either won’t notice the problem anymore or we’ll comfortably expose it and drain it of its power.  We won’t be inclined to fix it or treat it as real or true.

 

Reading and Learning

For a long time, reading was my escape.  I felt good when I read things that validated how I wanted the world to be.  But at some point, I realized that the reading wasn’t changing me at the core.  It was changing my facade.  It changed my conscious mind but didn’t clear out my unconscious.   I had to find out how to let go of my false mind, my unconscious.  That was the answer for me because I didn’t just want the truth, I wanted to eliminate my inner falsehood.  I wanted freedom.

People often ask me for recommended books to read, and I rarely answer their question.  Reading on the path to freedom isn’t about learning or putting more facts or truth in our mind.  It’s about provoking us to let go.  It’s about exposing beliefs that hold us away from freedom.  I can’t say what book will do that for you; but you’re True Self knows.

Treat reading as anything else.  Trust your inner initiator and read what you’re inspired to read.  But always read with your body, not your intellect.  Feel as you read so that you can notice when memories, beliefs, or emotions arise.  When they do, stop and follow them to the cause.  Let go of whatever arises in your mind.  In this way, reading helps expose our beliefs.  Reading decreases the size of our false mind.  Reading provokes letting go.

If you find yourself feeling validated or inspired by what you’re reading, ask yourself what belief was validated.  If you find yourself sad, angry, or depressed, look for the causal belief.  Once people start reading this way, they all say the same thing.  “All that stuff I used to think was so amazing and inspiring, now looks empty.”  Likewise, they’ll often find insights and truth in strange places.  They’ve stopped hoarding beliefs and knowledge and have begun to find their own true wisdom.

 

 

 

Illusion Confusion: Eliminating Judgment

Judgment and Illusion Confusion

By Cathy Eck

 

Judgment

Last week, I wrote about my sadness that people are often considered to be badly created or badly raised.  As I mentioned, I don’t think it’s that uncommon for people to think of others in that way.  However, in America, we wouldn’t dare say what we’re thinking.  We’d cover it up with a nice mask.  Americans are excellent, silent projectors of judgment.  This is an update on those earlier stories and a testimony to how things can change when you let go.

I’d often felt others judge me as badly created or badly raised only because I was different.  I didn’t share their beliefs or see through the same lens.  So I went back to many of those times, brought up the emotions that I repressed because I didn’t know how to let go at the time, and witnessed the emotions realizing that the person’s judgment (belief) wasn’t the truth.  They weren’t really judging me; they were judging their own projection.  But when I didn’t know that, I stored the painful memory in my body.  I did that process until I couldn’t think of anymore examples.  I just felt peace and love.  Then I completely forgot about it.  Until a few days later…

 

Illusion Confusion

I went to a festival in the center city here in Cuenca (above photo).  Lots of people were dancing in the streets to very good live music.  A man came up to me and held out his hand.  He was an older Ecuadorian man — dirty and very drunk.  At first I thought he wanted money, but his hand was turned with the palm down.  I knew enough Spanish to realize he wasn’t talking about money.  He wanted to dance.  I politely said “No,” but he wouldn’t leave me alone.  I realized that I didn’t say “No” with enough force.  American politeness is often too soft here.  So I said, “No, gracias!” (No, thank you) in a slightly louder voice; but still he tried to convince me to dance with him.

Just then a young man, who was leaning on a nearby fence, walked over and very gently held the man by the elbow and explained to him kindly that I didn’t want to dance.  He walked him away from me and then went back to his place on the fence.  There was no force, no anger — just caring and kindness.  My mind flashed to earlier images in my life of bouncers beating up drunk men or policemen pushing and yelling at people as they demonstrated their authority.

I realized that the young man didn’t see the old drunk man as badly created or badly raised; he saw him as confused.  That was how he spoke to him — like he was teaching him rather than punishing him.  He saw him as not knowing the proper way to relate to someone outside of his own culture.  I walked over to the young man and said, “Muchas gracias,” (Thank you very much) and smiled.  He smiled back and nodded.

 

No Judgment, No Force

I still can’t think about that interaction without getting tears in my eyes.  I realized that the reason we use authority and force to handle things is because of judgment.  Authorities see themselves as right and superior; the offender is obviously wrong and inferior.  When judgment isn’t present, no force is needed.  It’s all so simple.

Judgment will always be present, even if unstated, if we believe that other humans can be badly raised or badly created.  Thus, if we believe in the notion of original sin or believe that humans fell from grace, then we can’t help but have judgment for others.

I realized how lucky I was not to have those beliefs installed in my mind as a child.  Before I married, I didn’t know what judgment was.  It was a word that I couldn’t comprehend.   Occasionally, I attended Catholic church with my husband and his family.  I realized that my mind started to judge others at that time.  I didn’t like it, and I wondered where the thoughts were coming from.  I felt it was from the church because I noticed that people seemed very judgmental after they attended mass.  But I kept dismissing my observation because it seemed ridiculous that our mind would become more confused, negative, and hateful after attending what was supposed to be something good and spiritual.

Religions all evolved from the idea that humans are flawed and need spiritual training.  The notion of initiation, on the other hand, is based on the idea that we are good and spiritual by nature.  That goodness can’t be destroyed; it can only be covered with beliefs, creating confusion.  Even the worst human isn’t evil in the initiate’s eyes; they just have a thicker layer of illusion covering their True Self.

This isn’t only a lesson in how to treat others.  It’s a lesson in how to treat ourselves.  If we view ourselves as flawed and needing fixing, we’ll hold on to beliefs in problems, suffering, and punishment.  We’ll try to use our will to jump over limiting beliefs.  On the other hand, if we see ourselves as good and deserving of love, we’ll use our will to eliminate our beliefs.

 

Letting Go

I often have days where I want to give up trying to resurrect the old initiation teachings.  I’ll think that I can’t take one more person telling me that viewing humans as innately good and loving is ridiculous.  I can’t hear one more person describe humans as physical meat suits that are evolving nicely.

But then I witness the natural power of the initiate’s point of view in action, just as I did with that young man.  I see my own worldview change as I let go, and I know I can’t go back to looking at others as badly created or badly raised.  I can’t go back to thinking that people need fixing.  It’s just so much easier to let go and love.

 

The Path of Initiation: Thinking or Doing?

nitiation is a path of least action

By Cathy Eck

 

Initiation is a Mental Path

Initiation is a thinking (mental) path, not a doing path.  This can be confusing at first.

Now don’t get me wrong.  I don’t mean that you won’t ever do anything again once you choose to move in the direction of initiation.  Initiation isn’t a path of contemplation or avoidance of activity.  The initiate simply gets his or her thinking correct before taking action.  If it appears that a decision needs to be made, they know they aren’t ready to take action.  The perfect path is always clear and obvious.

On the other hand, the illusion emphasizes doing.  We’re good if we work hard.  We’re good if we do nice things.  Religious people copy what Jesus did, without regard for how he thought.  They don’t notice that Jesus never took action without getting his thinking straight because he followed the path of initiate.

 

Doing

Let’s assume that we’re having a problem with another person.  The doing path will cause us to think that we need to say something to them.  We might think that we need to change our behavior or ask them to change theirs in order to fix the problem.  Worst case, we might manipulate or trick them into being or acting different.  We might use reverse psychology or behavior modification on them.  Any of these options amount to nothing more than fixing the effect.

Our society confuses doing with love.  People often write to me and say that their spouse doesn’t give them attention or their boss doesn’t appreciate them.  What we do is always an extension of what we’re thinking or what we believe.  If another person’s doing is an issue for us, then we must get to the cause of our discomfort (which is always in our minds).  We have to eliminate the thinking that’s causing the need or want that we believe the other should fill for us.  We want or need people to behave in a certain way when we have an emotional or spiritual void (always caused by beliefs).  We can let go of the causal belief and eliminate the void.

In masculine roles, we get angry when people reflect our unwanted or negative beliefs; we expect the people in our life to behave better than our own beliefs about them.  In initiation, we don’t break our mirrors.

 

Thinking

In initiation, we put right and truthful thinking first.  First of all, we need to know what we’re thinking about any situation.  Any thoughts that produce emotion are false even if they match our current reality.  Regardless of whether the thought that feels bad is about us, the other, or the relationship, we let it go.  The goal is to get our mind back to the truth.  This is much easier to say than to do.  Our minds are highly stuck on observing reality; we’re sure that whatever we observed or experienced was true.

For most of us, reality is simply an illusion produced by our beliefs.  We can only get to the truth, which is always positive, win-win, and good, by letting go of the unreal.  Eventually, our mind becomes peaceful and clear.  If at that point, we’re inspired to take action, it will be the right action for everyone concerned because it will come from a truthful and free mind.

Too often, we jump into action because we want things to be complete or resolved.  We just make matters worse.

 

Getting What You Need

Let’s look at another example.  We need to make some quick money.  We’re frantic that we’ll run out before money comes in.  Our knee-jerk reaction is to get a job, any job.  We take action after action only to get more and more confused and desperate.

Granted it isn’t easy to let go when we’re filled with fear, but it’s the most important time to do so.  In a situation like this, I give myself an entire day, and allow my thoughts to arise.  With each thought, I decide if that thought feels good or doesn’t feel good.  If it doesn’t feel good (has an emotional component), then I let it go.  Then I let the next thought arise.

If we can’t feel any emotions, we can create a quick mental image of a perfect work situation.  Then witness our thoughts.  If a thought arises that moves toward that vision, we keep it.  If a thought comes up that moves away from that vision, we let it go.  Remember, letting go just requires recognition that the thought is false.  Usually false thoughts feel bad unless we’ve trained ourselves to suppress our emotions.

If we do this process for an entire day, something will change.  we’ll have a much freer mind, more options, and our actions will pay greater dividends.  But it’s a rare person who can do this for more than a few minutes.  Most people will be surfing the internet or whining to their friends before long.  Others will wallow in their emotions and feel sorry for themselves.  These so-called normal activities all strengthen our problems.

 

Initiation and Payoffs

For initiation to work, we must eliminate all payoffs.  If we’re out of work, perhaps we don’t really want a job.  If we’re sick, we might be getting attention for it.  If we’re having relationship problems, we might feel superior to others when we play the martyr role.  Hidden payoffs can really get in the way of change.  We often won’t see what we need to let go until we release all the hidden payoffs.

Finally, we must be honest and ruthless with ourselves.  Avoid guilt, shame, or blame.  We don’t have to share what we let go, don’t have to make amends, and don’t even have to explain ourselves.  When we let go, the world changes.  Things take care of themselves because we’re no longer feeding the illusion.  Eventually, by letting go, all things can be made right again without anyone else doing a thing.

 

 

Eliminating the Masculine and Feminine Roles

masculine and feminine roles

By Cathy Eck

 

Roles Aren’t True

In the last few posts, I’ve explained the masculine and feminine roles within the illusion.  Remember, roles hold the illusion together.  There’s no such thing as roles to the True Self.  Roles are real; they do exist in the illusory world.  However, they aren’t true.  This is good news; it means that we can let roles go.

The false self depends on roles; it has endless tricks to get people into roles where it can win, dominate, and be good or right.  If we aren’t aware of the purpose of roles, we fall prey to them.  We end up losing without even knowing we were competing; we submit to others who aren’t true leaders, or we look bad or wrong.

Our goal in initiation is to get back to the time before we got stuck in roles.  Of course, we received our first role the moment we were born — daughter or son.  Many people never escape that role.  They’re still submissive to their parents on the day they die.  Thus, they never live their own life.

 

Breaking Free of Roles

Recognition:  The first step is recognizing that we’re stuck in a role.

Masculine or feminine:  It’s important to determine whether we’re playing a masculine or feminine part.  Sometimes, it’s obvious.  Other times, we aren’t sure and must look for subtle clues.  Our body gives us clues through pain, disease, or symptoms.  Actions also speak louder than words.

Ghosts:  In feminine roles, we often feel oppressed.  But the oppressor or controller isn’t always who we think.  False minds don’t want us to find the real cause.  

My ex-husband believed I was controlling him, but I wasn’t.  I wasn’t willing to accept his beliefs as true, and to some false selves that can seem controlling.  But I wasn’t demanding or needy.  In fact, as I let go, he came to have so much freedom it was like he wasn’t married; but still he insisted that I was controlling him.  Eventually, I could see that it was his mother’s voice that was dominating him, not mine.  He just couldn’t see through his own veil of beliefs.

Roles are Mental:  The roles we see in the world are the effect of the roles we hold in OUR OWN mind.  If we feel controlled by someone, that’s because we still hold controlling authorities from our past in mind.  My ex-husband felt controlled by his own inner feminine (formed by his mother).  Whatever I said or did passed through that filter and tainted his hearing and vision.  He never heard me; he heard his mother’s voice replaying old tapes.

Make roles about roles, not about people who play them:  When we cast someone in a role, we’re holding them hostage.  My experience as a character in my ex-husband’s illusion created the desire to help others who feel stuck in someone else’s illusion to escape.  I never wanted another to go through that pain and confusion.

Step Back:  People playing the masculine role seldom have an incentive to let the role go.  They’re usually winning, looking good, and getting to be right.  Of course, their victories are illusory; but the world believes them.  They get approval, attention, and rewards from their roles and labels.  We can escape their illusion once we understand how to let go of beliefs.

We must realize that the roles that others play in our life exist as potentials in our mental drama.  We appear to be victims in the illusion; but we aren’t.  We’ve simply accepted beliefs that allow the roles to perpetuate.  Most of those beliefs come from religion, cultural traditions, or social conventions.  They’re beliefs that most don’t even question.

For example:  “I should listen to others.  Emotions are bad.  I should be nice to my authorities.  I can’t tell another that their belief is false.  If it happened to them, it could happen to me.  I can’t correct authority.”  In my case, the main belief that kept me stuck was a feminine role — a false perception of wife.  With each belief I let go, the false authorities in my mind lost more power until I could no longer play the false wife role.

Do the Process:  Once we find the belief, we’re only half way there.  Often people stop when they find the belief because of another belief that says, “Now that I found the cause, I’m free of the belief.”  This is common in the new age and creates projection, not release.  Denying a belief, excluding ourself, or choosing a new belief is NOT letting go.

To drop the belief, we must recognize the pain it has caused.  We must witness and release the emotion the belief generated, and we must realize the emotion is saying the belief isn’t true.  It may have been real in our past; but it wasn’t true.  The belief isn’t just false for us.  It’s false for everyone.  This is often hard to do.  If we’ve been pressed underneath an authority’s illusion for decades, we don’t feel like letting them off the hook.  But it’s worth it.

When we’ve completely eliminated a belief from our mind, we don’t experience it in the world anymore.  Now we can help others let go because we can discriminate again.

We must let go of any beliefs that say we need to believe others, especially authority.  False selves will do their very best to convince us that their beliefs are true.  The false self fears death.  Exposure is its kryptonite.  It tries hard to stay hidden beneath an acceptable mask.

Wash, Rinse, and Repeat:  If the stain doesn’t come all the way out,  keep letting go until it’s gone.  In this work, a belief is gone when you no longer see evidence of it.  It’s gone when you don’t fear it.  It’s gone when you know it’s false.  Persistence, honesty, and courage are the qualities that will take you all the way.

Using Our Animals to Let Go of Beliefs

Best horse trainer ever

By Cathy Eck

Animals and Initiation

My daughter got her first horse when she was ten.  While she was riding, I’d sit in the barn and observe the interaction between the horses and their owners.  In short order, I came to adore the horses and hate the owners.

I started to understand pets from the eyes of the animal.  When they rebelled, I could see why.  Their obedience was only submission — fear of punishment.  I’d try to explain what I saw to the owners, and they wouldn’t listen.  So I tucked the information away in a book that I wrote about a very special horse.  I never published the book.  I only showed it to a few close friends.  I accepted the belief that I couldn’t make a difference.

 

It’s Back

Those memories came pouring back into my mind recently as several of the people I mentor acquired new animals.  I needed to let go of my belief that I couldn’t make a difference.

When I sat in the barn, I could see that the horses understood everything their owners said and thought.  EVERYTHING!  Most of the time, the owner was thinking about what was wrong with the horse (also true for parents and children).  They were thinking about how to train the horse to fix the defects that they saw and believed to be real.

What they didn’t realize was the horse had none of those defects.  I could see that so clearly.  The defects were imposed on the horse by their owner or another human from their past.  The horse was simply reflecting those beliefs.  The cause was in the owner’s mind — not the horse’s.

Once a human labeled the horse, the horse would consistently produce the defect — it was real, but not true.  Then the owner would train the horse, which was actually the application of more beliefs, to remedy what they projected on the horse.  Many of the beliefs were collective — shared by most horse owners.  But they were all beliefs — false.

I saw intense confusion and sadness in the horses.  Why did their owners see flaws that weren’t there?  Why did they focus on the flaws and not see their True Self?  When I’d try to speak up for the horses, no one listened to me.  In their view, I didn’t know anything about horses.  I’m quite sure that’s why I saw it so clearly — I hadn’t bitten the apple from the tree of knowledge of good and evil around the subject of animals.

Animals are pure True Selves until we impose beliefs on them.  Then we treat the false animals that we’ve created as real and broken.  Most people break their animal’s spirits in the same way their own spirits were broken.

 

The Vision

The owner plays the masculine role; the animal plays the feminine role.  When we acquire an animal; we have a vision for it.  It’s important to examine our vision and see if it’s truly win-win.  In earlier times, training was clearly about submission.  Some modern trainers have moved toward cooperation, but most aren’t completely there.

The win-win vision becomes our north star for the relationship.  We don’t have to will it into fruition.  We just use it to see what to let go.

 

Letting go

After the vision is set, we must become a true leader.  We must let go of anything we believe about the animal that’s not aligned with our vision even if it looks real.  We must let go of our training and health beliefs.  Inspiration will get us where we need to go.  Inspiration will bring in the right people to help us.  Any training will be playful and necessary so it will happen quickly.  Horses, like children, don’t respond to education that isn’t aligned with a win-win vision.  They can’t unless they’re broken.

Any thought or action that isn’t aligned with the mutual vision will have an emotional component.  That emotional component tells us that we’re thinking something false about the animal or about our relationship to the animal.

When I stepped into the shoes of the horses, I saw the essence of what it means to be feminine in our world.  I was horrified by how poorly we all play the masculine role.  We try to control others; we want them to submit to us as if we’re their God.

 

Animals in our Lives

Some people jump to the other extreme and try to set the animals completely free; they also miss the point.  The animals do want to be in our lives, but they don’t want to be broken.  They’ll submit willingly to a True Self, but not to a false one.  In that regard, they aren’t different than humans.

My friend, Patty, had the most amazing horse.  Patton was trained in the sense that they had a communication scheme.  Patty trusted Patton completely.  Often she’d go riding on him late at night in the woods alone.  She trusted Patton to keep her safe, and he always did.  He wasn’t her pet; Patton was Patty’s equal partner.

Patty would tell me about her night-time rides, and I just knew I’d heard something right and true.  They transcended the normal masculine-feminine roles; they each led when they were the right one to lead.  It was perfect co-creation at its best.

In the ancient schools of initiation, it was said that they had lions for pets.  The lions kept the uninitiated away and were beloved pets for the initiated.  But there was no training.  In short, the lions demonstrated the pure feminine reflective role.  The feminine simply exposes whatever the masculine tries to hide.  Initiates had nothing to hide.

The love and truth of the initiated caused the lion to reflect only pure love — creating a perfect partner.  The beliefs and hatred in the minds of the uninitiated caused the lions to attack them.  They just reflected what came into their presence.  This is what the ancient ones called divine justice.  It’s perfect.

 

Initiation: You Can’t Worship Two Masters

Find the kingdom of heaven

By Cathy Eck

 

Initiation was All About the Mind

People are surprised to learn that one of the best patterns of initiation is the story of Jesus.  No one knows for sure if Jesus was real or if he was simply the initiation poster child.  He’s not a big character in history books of his time.  No one has found his body and DNA tested it.  It’s highly possible that his story was just a model for those who wanted to find their way back to perfection.  It’s the perfect story for that purpose if you can see Jesus as an initiate — a man who is letting go of the illusions that he sees within the world.  This enables him to become a Son of God.

Real or not, Jesus said a lot of cool things because his words were truthful.  As an initiate, he understood the difference between true and false.  He didn’t waste words because he knew that words had creative power.

Sadly, Christianity has really distorted his message.  Christians are extremely disrespectful of his teachings.  They did to Jesus what has been done to everything else that fell out of Eden on this planet.  They made his life about physical events and what to do to be labeled good; they took his words out of context to prove themselves right.

Jesus never asked people to become clones of him or to worship him; he asked them to follow him on the path to truth.  When he said, “Follow me,” an initiate would know that he meant to follow his True Self.  He wouldn’t be so stupid as to ask you to follow his false self or play Simon Says.  He hated the religions of his time because they were about beliefs.  He simply wanted people to be their unconditionally loving and powerful True Selves.

He spoke as the True Self so that people would get comfortable listening to the truth.  Hopefully they’d recognize the same voice in themselves and others.  But people took his way of speaking to mean that he was the one and only Son of God.  He clearly told people that God was inside of them, and they could do what he could do.

 

You Can’t Worship Two Masters

When he said, “You can’t worship two masters,” he meant that you can’t be in two minds at the same time.  He could see that part of their mind knew the truth.  While another very strong part was fearfully (and blindly) obedient to the illusion.  They were mixing the two voices (or minds) together instead of seeing them as two different paths with two completely different destinations.  You’ll recognize this as level confusion.

Level confusion is our Achilles’ Heal on the initiate’s path.  The familiar false voices can be very loud.  The collective mind looks powerful.   The illusion survives by mixing true words with false beliefs creating massive inner and outer confusion.

To get out of the false illusion, we have to discriminate and drop our own false beliefs so that we’re left with the pure truth.  Since, you can’t accidentally let go of the truth, you can’t screw up by letting go.  But the false mind won’t tell you that.  It causes people to be afraid of letting beliefs go as if they might accidentally drop a kidney or an ear.

 

Letting the Old Master Go

People start reading my blog or come to me for support because they see the cracks in the illusion.  But they don’t know what to do about what they see.  If they share their observations, they appear to be crazy or anti-social.  The new master (their True Self) is calling them; but the old master is still screaming orders.  Jesus had this issue when he couldn’t do miracles in his hometown.  He had to let go of his own beliefs that his family could hold him back.  He had to move forward toward the truth and ignore the voices in his head from the past.

As we move forward in initiation, our old voices of fear interrogate us.  If I don’t honor the beliefs of my friends, they won’t like me.  If I don’t honor my family’s beliefs, they’ll banish me.  If I don’t honor the beliefs of the political system, I’ll look like a traitor.  If I really behave from my True Self, I won’t look humble.  If I don’t pretend that we have enemies and support the troops, I’ll look like I don’t care about my country.  If I don’t look sorry for those who have created a mess of their life, I’ll look rude or uncaring.  Most of what comes up is some form of, “I’ll look bad.”  The fear of looking bad can be very powerful.  We must remember that the True Self is good (with no opposite).

Jesus looked bad to those vested in the false self of his day; he didn’t fit in.  He sounded strange to the religious and political people.  He found it more comfortable to be with children than adults.  He was angry at the system, the status quo.  Nothing has changed.  If he appeared today, the very religion that was modeled after him would treat him like crap, if they even recognized him.

Often when we see the truth, we get scared and go right back to fitting in.  It’s too much to handle; it’s too scary to be different in this crazy world.  Welcome to the world of initiation.  It looks terrifying.

The false self (which includes religion) tells us that is it protecting us, when it’s really causing all of our problems and destroying our life.  The truth is that every time I’ve let go, I’ve found less fear and less risk in my life.  The false self becomes less powerful as you keep letting go.  Eventually, we crucify the whole thing.  Then we are truly reborn.

 

The deeper meaning of the Golden Rule is found in The Huna Golden Rule.

What is Initiation?

initiation

By Cathy Eck

 

Initiation Defined

I received a great question from a woman in my mentoring program.  She said there was an article in her local paper about a child being killed by initiation.  Since I use that word all the time, she wondered what they were talking about.

It’s for that very reason that I hesitated to use the word initiation for a long time in my writing.  Just like God, religion, and Humpty Dumpty all took a fall, so did initiation.  They all fell in basically the same way.  Our human perspective changed from spiritually oriented to physically oriented.  But I went back to using the word because initiation is a great word.  It simply means to go back to the beginning prior to man’s fall into the illusory perspective of good and evil.

 

Physical Perspective

The fallen perspective was born out of the imaginations of storytellers and astrologers who viewed the night sky as a theater.  Their night-time characters became templates or archetypes for our human minds.  Drama was interesting and entertaining; just as it is today.  The Hermetic theory said, “As above, so below.”  What was born out of the stars would eventually come to fill the minds of man.  Thus, we eventually had the same drama on earth as they imagined in the stars.  A little drama makes life interesting; too much makes it hell.

Eventually, the people who wanted all the power said, “I’m creating the play.  I’m the lead, and you guys are all walk-on slaves who worship and serve me.”  In order to obey someone outside of us, we had to shift our perspective.  We could no longer focus on our own mind and our own emotional guidance, we became focused on pleasing others and fulfilling their desires.  If we didn’t, we didn’t live long.

As the human drama became more top-heavy, and suffering and death became more common, some people said, “We’ve had enough.  We want to figure out how to get out of this man-made illusion.”  They discovered initiation — the way out.  They learned how to discriminate and how to return to a virgin mind.  And while it probably wasn’t their goal, they did become powerful.

The men who took the path of initiation became Jesus-like.  They were kind, compassionate, great healers and teachers, and miracle workers.  They no longer wore the blinders of the illusion.  They had potential beyond ordinary humans.  Thus, it was said that mortal men entered the chambers of initiation, and Gods exited.  Therefore, these men were called Sons of God.

 

Everyone Deserves This

The teachings of these true initiates were shared through story because they felt that everyone deserved to have the way out.  They decided that if one had the eyes and ears to see and hear (or the pure desire to be initiated), the stories would trigger them to come and ask for initiation.  Those who were not of pure mind wouldn’t understand what in the hell they were talking about.  Thus the teachings could stay pure.

The power-hungry leaders were obviously jealous of the raw power of the initiated ones.  They wanted the same power; and they presumed it was done through physical training (they couldn’t see beyond their physical perspective).  Thus, it seems that they invented their own schools of initiation.  They trained men to be brave and face their physical demons — like military training.  They also hijacked the true initiation stories and put their own physical, literal spin on them.

The false initiates created terrifying tests of power to prove their worth.  They killed off their emotions, and they studied magic and illusion so they could look God-like to the masses.

These false initiates were wolves in sheep’s clothing, but no one could tell.  The masses followed the wolves blindly to their own demise.  Not much has changed, really.

From the outside both sets of initiates looked unemotional and magical but their foundation was very different.  Jesus was referred to as a lamb, i.e., not a wolf, as a sign that he was from the group of true initiates.  But religion even messed with Jesus by focusing on his crucifixion and teaching people to do like Jesus rather than think like him.

There was a huge difference between the two groups.  The fake initiates talked about good and evil as if it were real; they had rules to make you good.  God was in the sky in heaven and hell was below.  These men saw themselves as good, right, and superior.  Sadly, they gave birth to modern religion.  So they still have power today over the masses.

The True initiates didn’t speak of heaven and hell or good and evil.  They spoke of God within.  They saw everyone as equal and divine.  What they could do, so could we once we knew how.

 

Remnants of Initiation

Today we still have remnants of these two different forms of initiation.  There are those who understand this is all an inner journey and a process of releasing what is false from their minds.  This sort of initiation can only help others; it never hurts them.

Then we have people who are still hungry for power.  They develop strong wills by training their mind instead of freeing their mind.  They do this to win over others, fulfill false desires, or to be seen as spiritual when they really aren’t.  In fact, these people tend to oppress their followers as they project their own belief in evil or wrongness on to them.

The strange notion of hazing, often found in fraternities or gangs, came from these false initiates.  It was all about proving you were worthy to be a member.  We should just ignore these groups.  They have no power unless we give them our power by fearing or obeying them.  If we stop teaching our children to be blindly obedient, they won’t want anything to do with those organizations.  And the organizations will die a nice quiet death.  True initiation will remain.

 

 

Judgment and The Life Review

Judgment and understanding

By Cathy Eck

 

Judgment Day

Years ago, I was giving a “No Labels, No Lies” presentation.  A Fundamentalist Christian woman stood up and said, “It sounds like you’re doing the Christian Judgment Day and the Life Review while alive.”  I hadn’t thought of it that way.  But she was right.  Initiation takes the lies (the false self) out of religion; it purifies it.

When people have near death experiences, they often say that they’re shown what it’s like to walk in the shoes of their enemy.  They see and feel the hurt that they projected on others.  They also describe a tremendous beauty and joy, which I suspect is the reward of their True Self’s unconditional love finally being returned to them by those that couldn’t or wouldn’t love them in their physical body.

Religion basically postpones what ancient people called initiation until you die.  Initiation was all about being saved or reborn but not because of a ceremony.

No ceremony makes people compassionate or unconditionally loving, but initiation did.  Of course, if everyone could heal their life, love their neighbor, and be free, they wouldn’t need religion, they wouldn’t need government, and they wouldn’t buy most of those stupid products that businesses sell.

In a Babylonian creation myth, there’s a line that says the Gods decided to invent humans so someone could worship them.  Another lines says that they needed servants because they wanted constant leisure.  The huge gap between the haves and the have nots would disappear very quickly if people did the Judgment Day Life Review while alive.  False superiority would end.

We were trapped in the illusion by others, but we hold ourselves hostage.  We can’t blame those who taught us to postpone freedom, gratification, and unconditional love if we can let their false teachings go.  We postpone our return to Heaven on earth because don’t want to see and feel what we’ve done to others when we imposed our beliefs on them.  Needing to be right about our beliefs keeps us in prison.  Letting go sets us free.

 

No Judgment; No Blame

I’ve been going through this life review while alive process for years.  While judgment and blame seem neverending in physical form, they vanish when you let your beliefs go.  Anything you did wrong in the illusion was from a belief.  Once you let the causal belief go, you realize it never really happened.  Your mind returns to the Garden of Eden.  You remember who you truly are — your True Self.  You’re only letting go of the false self, and you don’t miss it at all.  Why would you ever miss blame, guilt, shame, or judgment?

In truth, there’s no evil or wrong; what appeared to be evil or wrong was simply false.  And, false has no power unless we give our power to false by labeling it true.  You don’t miss your false relationships, false authority, stupid jobs, unpaid bills, diseases (even the ones you got payoffs for), or even the false Gods.

Initiation is different than the Judgment Day we’ve been sold by religion.  Removing judgment is really about understanding.  I once had someone in my life that sent hate my way for decades.  I wasn’t mean back to them.  So, I actually thought that I was complete with them.  But I wasn’t.  In initiation, I had to see what it was like to walk in their shoes and how and why they viewed me as they did.  To understand someone means to stand under them.  If we feel stuck under someone’s thumb, we probably haven’t tried to understand them.   We’ve used our energy to rebel against them, get even with them, or get them to change.  Not understanding others is a form of judgment.  Understanding allows us to discriminate and unconditionally love at the same time.

Initiation and the Judgment Day aren’t about fixing right and wrong and good and evil; they’re about seeing through the illusion to true and false.  Regardless of which side of the bottom of the triangle, we’re on, we’ve got clean up work to do.

I had to really understand how this person’s beliefs gave them their point of view.  I had to gain true love and honest compassion for them.  I had to bring my memories of them to true completion.  I had to remember them before they gave hatred to me — true forgiving.  Until then, I blocked my own freedom.

It feels weird to do this because it’s never discussed.  True forgiving involves forgetting.  We think this cleansing will occur at death; so we don’t attempt to do it in life.  Consequently, we continue to need death, and we never really live.  Ancient masters taught that death is an addiction because we don’t want to love our enemies unconditionally.  We’d rather die.

 

The Reward

Edgar Cayce, the sleeping prophet, said that when we become our True Self (he used the word life), we don’t need death.  Here is one of his many quotes on rejuvenation.

He hath shown the way; not by some mysterious fluid, not by some unusual vibration, but by the simple method of living that which is life itself.  Think no evil; speak no evil; hear no evil.  And as the truth flows as a stream of life through the mind in all its phases or aspects, and purifies same, so will it purify, revivify and rejuvenate the body (294-183).

When we let go of evil (beliefs), we start to live.  Live is evil spelled backwards — a clue.  This doesn’t mean to deny or suppress evil or thoughts of judgment.  It means to let them ALL go.  No one can possibly get free using that which is taught in religion because they hold the notion of evil as real while trying to rise above it.  Initiation was about letting go of the entire notion of evil, because it’s false.  When you do, what remains is the truth.  Then you are free.

 

 

 

Going All the Way: When Our Gifts Hold Us Back

Light at the end of the tunnel, gifts

By Cathy Eck

Gifts, From  A Different Vantage Point

Often, what causes people to exit the path to freedom before they reach the end is a gift.  If their gift brings them money or fame, it’s hard to give up.  They don’t want to give up something in the bag for something that might not pay off.

I used to feel sad that I didn’t have any amazing gifts.  I was good at whatever I did, but not passionate.  In hindsight, that was a blessing.  If I had been truly amazing at something, I might have believed that was my final destination.  I might have had a hard time giving up the illusory benefits.  Often people don’t realize that their gift isn’t the end point of their life until a tragedy happens, and they can’t do it anymore.

Now, however, I have a different vantage point on gifts.  If you know how to use a gift, you can milk it for all it’s worth and stay on the path to freedom.  The key is in how you perceive others.  This is the true reason for service.  It isn’t to be good or kind (that’s a side benefit); it’s to get free.

The key is to treat everyone as your reflection.  In that way, you leave everyone you touch a little freer; you find things to let go that you didn’t know you had inside.  It takes a little practice, but it’s worth it.

 

Intuition or Psychic Abilities

Intuition is the ability to find our way through mazes of beliefs.  It’s very useful in the illusion where beliefs rule.  But inspiration is better.  Inspiration is when we find ourselves doing something wonderful without even thinking about it — people call it the flow.  Inspiration is perfection — the highest state of being.

If you have the gift of intuition, don’t discard it.  Use it to find what you or your clients need to let go.  I had to do this with Freedom Astrology.  I had to change it to an exit, rather than an illusion-navigation tool.

 

Healing

Healing ability is amazing.  More amazing is living in a world where disease doesn’t exist.  That’s the true job of a healer.  The True Self doesn’t know disease.  So use your patients as your mirror.  If they believe they have a disease, recognize that they’re showing you that you still believe in that disease (or label) unconsciously.  Let it go in yourself, and their healing will be more complete as well.

 

Channeling

I don’t channel (people ask me that a lot because channels often write similar information).  When you let go of the beliefs that block your wisdom, you recognize that you (not Bobo from the 18th century) have all the answers, you don’t need to go anywhere to get the truth.  The free life is a practical life — we’re all spiritual beings in bodies.  We all know the truth.  Often channels have a fear of expressing the truth as themselves; it was pretty risky until recent times.

 

Acting, Music, Art, Writing

These are what I call True professions because they’re creative.  Letting go takes them to a higher level.  The point of these activities is to let go of whatever is in the way of expressing yourself completely and fearlessly.  That’s why I write this blog and paint.  I want to see where my false self holds me back.  I want my fears and false limitations to arise.  That way I can let them go.

 

Teaching, Coaching, Mentoring

Most teachers and coaches put themselves in the masculine role and give lessons or techniques.  They bore the hell out of their students or they hype them up with excitement.  Real teaching is about being a true leader.  It’s about letting go of whatever limitations you see in your students (your private mirrors) so that they can flower in your presence.

 

You’re Putting me Out of Business

When I make these suggestion to people, I feel their fear arise.  How will I make money if my students flower?  They won’t need me.  How will I make money as a healer if I no longer believe in disease?  If I do the art I want to do, I’ll be judged.  I had all of those fears too — they were unfounded.

I’ve been writing, teaching, healing and intuiting toward freedom for several years, and I still see beliefs to let go.  Freedom isn’t an overnight job or a weekend workshop.  In the ancient schools of initiation, it was believed to take an average of about seven years.

As you let go of beliefs, more and different doors open.  You thought you could only make money as a teacher or psychic, but you find you’re actually a damn good artist or actor.  You find a passion arise as an herbalist and people love your herbs.  You remember that as a child you wanted to teach in foreign countries.  You’ve been putting travel on hold; now you’re inspired to go to new places.  You might discover that you have a gift of mentoring others toward freedom.  There’s a lot of room in this profession.  Have you noticed how many people are stuck in their false minds?  I can use some help.

In initiation, the high initiates taught the lower initiates.  Jesus was the perfect example of how to serve and move toward freedom at the same time.  He healed by correcting his own mind.  He didn’t channel, he knew.  He taught what he knew to others.  He wasn’t intuitive; he was inspired.  And he never went without.  He never complained that something was missing from his life.  His desires and his gifts aligned perfectly so that he could be himself.

Fine tuning your gifts speeds up the train to freedom.  You’ll start to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  As you free yourself, using your natural gifts, you’ll not only free yourself, but you’ll also contribute to a free world.

What is My Passion?

Ruins of Ephesus

The ruins of Ephesus

By Cathy Eck

 

What’s My Passion?

Lots of books and workshops promise to help us find our passion.  But ultimately there’s a flaw in the very question, “What’s my passion?”  If we have to ask, we’re in our false self.  If our false self hijacks our passion and clones it, we can get really stuck in the illusion.

Many people who appear to have great passion aren’t really authentic.  They’re actually more enthusiastic or excited than passionate.   Some have bought into the idea of “find your passion and get rich.”  The True Self sees it more like “find your true expression and your perfect abundance will come.”  Fear that we might “sell our soul” causes us to keep our True Self hidden until we let go of enough beliefs to assure that our false self won’t steal our dream and ride it for riches or rewards.

 

The Word Passion

We can see the problem by looking at the definition of the word passion.  The first definition is “strong and barely controllable emotion.”  Strong, barely controllable emotion signals a big, fat belief.  The True Self state is calm and peaceful.  It’s the false self that generates strong, uncontrollable emotions.

Passion is often linked with enthusiasm, which traces back to “Greek enthousiasmos, from enthous ‘possessed by a god, inspired.'”  But we have to ask ourselves which God are we possessed by?  The word God has two meanings.  One relates to ancestors or those who came before us.  Ancestors had beliefs and human baggage.  The other definition relates to the all-loving creator God — perfect and void of beliefs.

Pure enthusiasm is calm and inspired; it harms no one.  What most call enthusiasm is actually excitement — hyped up emotion.  When we’re excited, we’re thinking the positive side of a dual thought.  We’re ignoring the opposing twin shadow thought that’s generating the strong, uncontrollable emotional to warn us to stop and let go.  We mistakenly believe the emotion is telling us to charge forward.  Following excitement gets us in big trouble.

The last meaning of passion is connected with the passion of the Christ.  This sort of passion means suffering and death.  If you hold a strong religious perspective, there’s no way in hell that you’re going to allow yourself to find your passion.  Your false self thinks you’ll die.  Good trick huh!

 

Passion as the True Self

If we take the true meaning of Christ, annointed one or initiated one, and add that to the creative, all-loving principal of God, we get a perfect definition of the True Self.  When we live from our True Self, we think pure thoughts and find that whatever we do has a joyful quality to it.  If we have a particular focus that we enjoy, we’ll do it more easily and skillfully because our True Self is leading.  We can even do something that isn’t our thing from our True Self and bring ourself so fully into that activity that we enjoy it.  Now we’re living and breathing pure creative expression every minute of our life.

Oddly, when I’m in that state, I feel that passion is the right word.  It seems that passion fell along with religion.  At one time, people knew that passion wasn’t something you conjured by getting excited about a goal, money, winning, or power.  Passion wasn’t related to suffering or death.  Passion was bringing an idea out of the oneness into the creative palette of the material world — True Self expression.

The initiates understood that hanging on the cross was code for the final initiation test where one became completely feminine to the world so they could see what was left of their masculine false self.  It was an extraordinary feat that required letting go of anything and everything that came their way.  When the false self was gone, they were resurrected — their True Self — living completely in a state of passion.

 

My Own Experience with Passion

When I was about four, I picked up my mother’s Bible and said, “This book is confusing and no one understands it.  I’m going to fix it when I’m big.”  I couldn’t even read the damn thing, but some part of me had the big picture of my life.  I also spent all my time drawing and making things; and I said that I never wanted to do anything else.  I wanted to create stuff.

Then I went off and got lost in the false world.  I didn’t draw or create anymore.  I was as confused by the Bible as everyone else.  But slowly, I remembered how to let go; and the desires and wisdom of my True Self returned.  I’m now doing exactly what I said I would do at four.

I couldn’t have found my True Self with exercises or well-crafted questionnaires.  I needed to let go of the beliefs that veiled my eyes (the false voices in my mind) so I could think clearly and see my path.

Jesus said, “Find ye first the kingdom of heaven, and all else will be added unto you.”  He also said, “Be like little children.”  He was telling us to be our True Self — like we were as children, before falling into the illusion.

The painting above is my latest creative project.  It’s part of the remaining facade  of the library of Ephesus.  Revelations says that the church of Ephesus was a strong church that had patiently borne adversity and couldn’t stand evil.  Their calling (or passion) was to remember their first love.

When we can no longer tolerate the illusion, we choose initiation.  We feel called to be courageous in letting go so that we can find our passion, our first love, our True Self.  If we stay strong and continue on the path of initiation, we eventually realize that we were never lost.  It was all a facade.  The wisdom wasn’t in the library; it was within us.

Practical Alchemy

gold coins

By Cathy Eck

 

The Fall of Alchemy

Years ago, I became very fascinated with alchemy — the notion that something with low value could be transmuted into something with great value.  I loved the stories about turning water into wine or lead into gold, and I studied them intently tearing apart every number and ingredient for symbolic value.  I felt in my heart that it could be done, but how?  Were the stories literal or metaphorical?

I wasn’t interested in getting rich.  I hoped that alchemy was about finding our own human value in the world.  I wondered if there was a practical side to alchemy, something that we could all use to improve our lives.  I’d come to realize that the truth about anything has practical value and works for everyone.

 

Missing Ingredient

It was said that alchemists were generous with their instructions.  Some published literal recipes and others embedded alchemical secrets in stories.  But it was widely agreed that alchemists left out one ingredient from every recipe or story — keeping the secret from the average Joe.

I spent months in libraries looking for the missing ingredient.  At first, I thought that perhaps different alchemists left out different ingredients, and I could piece together different stories and recipes like a puzzle.  But that didn’t work.

Eventually, I realized that the missing ingredient wasn’t physical.  Like an optical illusion, the True Self perspective was the missing ingredient.  Nothing was missing if I read the story through true eyes.  But if I read it literally through false eyes, it appeared to be incomplete.  Damn, that was cool!

Just like mythology and religious stories, alchemical stories took the same Humpty-Dumpty fall.  People lost their True Self perspective (eyes to see and ears to hear), and you can’t understand ancient stories unless you read them from your True Self.  From the false self perspective, they appear incongruent and disjointed.  They seem to be missing something or to be badly translated.

 

Gold to God

If you look at the word Gold, it’s God with an L.  The L in Hebrew (Lamed) was the central letter of the alphabet and the tallest letter.  The tallest could be conceived as the most powerful, the king, who in the ancient world was the center and often treated like a God.  Gold relates to a physical God.

In Greek the true King was the Christós or Christ (annointed or initiated one).  But the True King wasn’t just one person or King.  He was the high initiate, the True Self in all of us, an inner King.  When this part of us Leads (is the center), then we live and behave from a completely different perspective than when our false self leads.

 

Practical Alchemy

In the ancient mystery schools, alchemy was about the transformation of the false self to the True Self.  The final transformation was turning the body from the mortal form into the Temple of Solomon.  (Sol – Om – On were three words for the sun — the triune nature of God).  The initiate’s body was to become a temple for the sun, the True inner King.  But remember, this wasn’t a stupid pagan belief.  The sun was the metaphor for the perfect masculine (yang) energy because it gave light and warmth unconditionally without asking anything in return.  The True King took all of his joy from giving and loving (not taking and spending).  The sun, of course, is golden in color so ancient kings surrounded themselves with gold.

We are all leaders or suns in some way.  If we are leaders of a family, company, or classroom, we can practice being more like the sun.  We can practice unconditional loving and giving.  That’s practical alchemy.

 

An Alchemical Project

But I love to use practical alchemy to grow while creating material things.  To do this, choose a project, preferably one that involves an idea, as well as a hands-on component  — something you really want to do and don’t yet think you can.  Painting a picture, making a perfect pie, growing a garden, building something, creating a business, or training a pet can all be alchemical projects.

What you must recognize is that you do know or have access to everything necessary to take this project to perfection.  Only beliefs stand in the way of your success.

First get a clear vision of the result you desire.  Follow any inspired actions throughout the process — remember inspired actions have no emotional component.  You aren’t willing the project into submission.  If you are inspired to take a class or read a book that’s fine, but don’t give your power to the teacher or author.  Just get the information that you need to move forward.  You’re putting the pieces of a puzzle together, not submitting to another’s way of thinking.  Notice any fear or self-doubt that arises, and let that go as you move along.  Continue to take any action you feel certain of.  If you keep letting go, the inspiration for the next step will keep you moving forward.  If your results aren’t perfect, you look for what beliefs you have that produced the less-than-perfect result.  Continue following inspiration and letting go.  Then take action again.  Keep repeating this until you get to the perfection you envisioned.

We all do projects all the time; we just don’t do them from the alchemist’s mindset.  The alchemist was comfortable with not knowing everything; he didn’t need a step-by-step recipe or outline.  As you let go of your beliefs and follow inspiration, you find that you know more than you thought.  You grow in True confidence.

 

The Wisdom of Alchemy

When the ancient alchemist used the process of creating and the results of his efforts as feedback, he purified his own mind — his mind of lead turned into a mind of gold, his True Self.  He became the center, the True King of his world.  He became One that would Lead with unconditional love and the pure spirit of giving.  He became a master of life.