This is my last post for a while. I assure you that everything you need to get mentally and emotionally free is on this site and Gateway to Gold. But you have to work at it. You have to want freedom more than you want air to get it. Reread old posts; what you understand will change as you let go. You’ll often think that I changed the material, but I probably didn’t. You changed. Letting go happens in layers.
Challenge your thoughts/beliefs, even if your mind is telling you with absolute certainty that what you’re experiencing or thinking is true. Let go of positive beliefs, not just negative ones. I talk about this in my article on the Triangle Process. As you let go, you’ll answer life’s biggest question, “Who Am I?” But don’t confuse what I’m saying with the eastern practice of asking that question over and over again. My work has nothing to do with eastern teachings and practices. People often get confused by that. I didn’t understand this eastern confusion for a long time. I had to mentor people who had it. Then I put what I learned from working with them into the Gold Circle material. They had what I call a True Self clone, and this was keeping them from letting go. They learned the truth from some teacher or guru, or even studying someone’s writing intensely; and they put the learned truth into their false mind. That blocked them from connecting with their real True Self. Then they read and learned what I was saying like that would get them free. They weren’t actually letting go. They told themselves that learning was letting go. It isn’t. You can’t learn your way to your True Self.
I didn’t have that issue; I had never been a follower. I didn’t even have much of a persona. I could never lie very well. So I didn’t understand what was going on with these people. But I did want to help them get free; I felt that their desire for freedom was sincere. I had to go into their illusion to understand why they were so stuck. That period of research and mentoring others became the Gold Circle. The clone is the masculine part of our false mind that can pretend to be our True Self. It learns how to sound like a True Self, but it isn’t the True Self. Clones confuse a lot of people these days. Most of those popular spiritual teachers and gurus are very strong clones and that means that they project a lot. Religious leaders are also clones who project sin on their followers. Also progressive politicians are very strong clones that project a whole lot on their followers. Their followers don’t realize what is happening. It’s cruelty masked as caring.
Thus people who follow them come to believe that they don’t know who they are when they actually do completely know who they are. They simply took a projection from a so-called spiritual teacher or charismatic leader. In the Gold Circle, I help people let go of the clone voices that they put in their minds, and they start to realize that they do know who they are. I can’t stop these clones from doing what they do. They have the right to do what they want. But I can tell you how to get free of them; then you return to your True Self. You don’t need their truth; you had it within you all along.
You didn’t arrive on earth wondering who you were. You were curious and alive…a True Self. You saw someone walking, you watched them, you took the risk, and you walked. You heard people talk, and you learned to speak and matched words to objects, people, and experiences. Learning and life were fun. But you were never supposed to learn beliefs or get a belief system of any kind.
Recently, I heard on television that children’s brains are completely fired up until they start answering the question “I am…?” They start creating a false identity, labeling themselves; and their brain appears to shut down. As people get older they identify with their beliefs and their belief systems; they really start to shut down. That is the start of what I refer to as the clone mind. But I don’t talk about it much in the free material because it is very confusing. Explaining the clone, and exposing popular clones, required that I put together a systematic way of approaching the subject. It requires people to really want to do get free and not just be casual about letting go. So the Gold Circle was born.
If you don’t have much of a clone, the free work will probably be all you need. Either way, I require that people do my free work first, so do that and see if you are still stuck when you are done. You need to already be letting go when you enter the Gold Circle. I don’t teach the basics of letting go in that program.
That being said, I want to give you one big caution as you read my free work. You were trained to learn and memorize what you read. Stop IT! Don’t learn what I’m saying. I write to expose what is false. I teach you how to let go by using your emotions and win-win logic. Practice what I’m saying, and do it as you read. Read slowly, and stop when you feel emotions; take the time to let go. The more you practice, the easier it gets. It’s a new way of using your mind and emotions. It goes against what you have been trained to do. Witness the emotions until you are free of that belief. If you don’t know what I mean by witnessing, check out https://gatewaytogold.com/meditation-for-the-western-mind/. Letting go can take minutes or days. It depends on how much you’ve believed your beliefs in the past. It depends how feminine you are to others. It depends on how much you believe the clone voices in your mind.
Letting go is easy; the illusion is very complex. Those who are winning in the illusion don’t want us to escape. This project for me has taken a lot longer than I thought it would. I had no idea that I would run into so many tricks and traps, but I did. So I had to deal with what came up; and that is why Gateway to Gold has developed into my main site with different paid programs. However, don’t disregard what I’ve published here. No Labels No Lies is the meat and potatoes of letting go. Keep working at it until you completely understand what I’m saying.
People taught you to see what they saw. You learned there was danger, suffering, problems, and disease. You came to believe that you could get hurt, or you could hurt someone. You learned to judge and compare. This didn’t make sense, but you figured that those who came before you must know the truth. They didn’t know the truth, they knew their beliefs; and they believed that their beliefs were the truth.
You were given the knowledge of good and evil (the shit that caused us to fall). Good now had an opposite…EVIL. You learned to hate and fear other humans.
We see what we hold in mind…what we believe. How do we get back to who we once were? It seems impossible. Their beliefs appeared to get stuck in our minds. How did that happen? We asked, and they answered. They gave us reasons for why we were stuck; and those reasons were all lies.
“You were born sinful.Your memories of perfection are imaginary…visions of heaven. Go to church to make sure you get to heaven when you die.” What a crock of shit! The east wasn’t any better…they gave you karma and a caste system.
Your character was slowly constructed. You learned to be good and worthy so you could get a good-paying role in society and work hard. “Life isn’t meant to be easy,” they say.
Knowledge consumed your mind. Those who memorized the most knowledge got the best roles. They’re called experts. I call them clones. Clones are great in the illusion; they are worthless once we want freedom. Creative thinkers sound strange in the illusion. Philosophers look lazy. Artists starve. Inventors can’t afford to create their inventions unless the inventions please “The Man.”
Your pure thinking and true goodness was replaced by an illusion built of beliefs in which you were judged on your ability to blindly follow. When you got to the point where you feared judgment enough, you turned away from your True Self.
A True Self is labeledevil by false selves. The false self believes that creativity is for people with nothing else to do. No one can see your thoughts anyway; it’s what you do that counts. You conformed, but then you wondered, “Who Am I?”
Maybe you attended workshops, saw therapists, and did processes and practices; yet you didn’t find the answer. One day, you learned how to let go. You let go of your beliefs regarding social protocol, religion, disease, problems, culture, and sin. You released society’s rules from your mind. You realized that others, even experts, had nothing to offer you anymore. Slowly…you started to remember, “I’m a creator. What I think is what I become.”
Your problems came from accepting beliefs and then fixing the effects of those beliefs. You finally knew which way to go. You just had to keep letting go more and more until your mind was free. But it is hard to trust such an insight. No one is letting go. Nearly everyone is learning…putting more crap in their mind.
TRUE and FALSE
The illusion runs on good/evil, right/wrong, or win/lose. The illusion is false…powerless. It’s believed by nearly everyone…but it isn’t real. It’s projected from our collective beliefs. You arrived with the truth, and you didn’t lose it. You can’t screw up letting go. You can’t let go of truth. So you have nothing to lose by letting go, ever.
Holy Shit! You aren’t a fucking sinner. The more you let go, the more you despise competition, oppression, and domination. You’d never harm another. You won’t even judge another anymore. You realize that a true thought is win-win for everyone. No belief system can be true. Belief systems separate us.
MASCULINE AND FEMININE ROLES
You realize that those who have masculine (authority) roles make the rules. The judging God was actually a human being…a false, power-tripping leader who imposed his illusion, where he wins and we lose, on everyone else in the name of God. You don’t want to even play good roles in the illusion — they always harm someone.
Leaders in false masculine roles often look like True Selves because they project their judgments and the unwanted half of their beliefs on to people in feminine roles. You now see and hear the false masculine’s incongruence. The leaders see enemies, evil, suffering, poverty, and disease because it’s inside of them. It’s not true; it’s their illusion…their reality. Underneath their mask is a powerless human who’s lost. They’re pawns of the illusion fixing their own projections. We should ignore them, not follow them.
PHYSICAL VS. MENTAL PERSPECTIVE
We were programmed to see a physically-focused perspective of reality which blinds and confuses us. We look at the quality of people’s doing and ignore their thinking. Sadly, false thinking looks normal. True good comes from a pure mind. When our mind is impure, we can look good by doing the right things; but we aren’t truly good.
LET IT GO
The illusion told us that it could give us what we already were. The illusion only lies.
When we can no longer stand the illusion, we let it go. As we let go of the judgments, labels, beliefs, and knowledge/expertise, we’re left with the truth. We remember who we are. We’re creators who bring our ideas to life for the benefit of everyone. Keep letting go; don’t stop until you get to freedom. It’s your birthright.
A few months ago, I brought up the Three-Steps for letting go on Facebook, and several people asked if I’d explain the Steps in a free article. The Three Steps are what we do naturally to keep our mind free and clear. But most of us didn’t remain free. What was natural has been lost. We don’t use our minds as they were originally designed. We have to let go to remember our natural abilities. In initiation, we use techniques that are a lot like priming a pump. Once the pump is primed, the water just flows.
While priming this mental pump, we’re looking for the reason that the pump needs priming at all. We want to look for the causal beliefs that stopped us from doing these Steps naturally. Then, we let those beliefs go.
Most everyone gets stuck in Step One. Some people get stuck in Step Two because their mind tends to judge and compare. People pleasers of all varieties tend to get stuck in Step 2.5; they soothe their minds and everyone else’s mind too. The objective is to get to Step Three (unconditional love) on any, and every, topic. That’s our natural state. That’s the place where our True Self leads the way.
Our mind is really quite simple. Our True Self is pure and perfect. We’re all connected at the True Self level. When we lead from our True Self, we think, say, and do things which are win-win for all without having to think about it. We call that first-cause creation.
Our false mind is actually an individual mental container that is meant to serve the True Self. When we fall into second-cause thinking, our false mind holds our beliefs, unnecessary knowledge, and memories. That clogs up our container; it gets in the way of our natural creativity.
Our mental container should not be connected to any other person’s container. We don’t want a false-self connection with any other. Most people have false-self connections with individuals, family, groups, and even the collective mind. That’s why they feel so out-of-control (stuck in Step One). Such people gain false control by deciding that their beliefs are true. That causes them to be stuck in Step Two.
Letting go is meant to be easy; the voices in our mind want to make it hard. That’s because those voices want to remain in power. I call those domineering voices “clones.” Clone voices in our mind pretend to be God or our own True Self. As we let go, we realize that these voices are just recordings.
Physical to Mental
The Three Steps are designed to get you from the physical level of perception, through the false mental level, and all the way to the True Self, or Step Three. Step Three is where letting go becomes easy. Tackle your most difficult memories, and your most rigid clone voices, when you get that sweet, True Self clarity. Dive right into another subject when you get to Step Three. Too often people take a break when they’re in that golden zone.
When you aren’t in that golden zone, letting go seems hard. You’re most likely trying to let go from a clone character in your mind, and that character doesn’t want to let go. It wants to rule over you. Such voices will often go through the motions of letting go. They’ll talk about it; they’ll become experts in it. But they won’t actually let go. Reading about letting go isn’t letting go. It doesn’t even get you a hair closer to freedom.
Here’s a trick that I used when I would get stuck. I’d let go on some topic that didn’t matter much to me. I would turn on the news and find someone in trouble. Or I’d think about a friend that was having a problem, and I’d let go for them. That would get me to Step Three; then I’d go to work on the issue that seemed impossible to let go while I was in that golden zone.
When you get to Step Three, you have the big picture. You can discriminate easily. You see the causal beliefs that are keeping you stuck, and you know they are false.
The Three Steps contain no useless steps, unlike the Twelve Steps. You must at least pass through each step on the way to the next step. In order to help you see this, I’ve created a clone diagram (shown below). This diagram is not our natural state. It’s what the typical mind looks like within the illusion. In the end, the clone’s voice disappears. The True Self takes the lead and becomes the main circle, and the false self works for the True Self in first-cause creation.
You might want to choose an easy topic and work on that topic while you read these Steps. I always recommend that people let go while reading my articles. I expose beliefs and make it easier to let them go. You want let go in your pajamas with a hot chocolate instead of needing to let go on the freeway in rush-hour traffic.
In Step One, you’re completely in the feminine mentally, and you probably have a feminine physical role. You feel a lot of emotion, and you probably feel quite powerless; the cause appears to be coming from someone else…the person who’s playing the physical masculine role in reality.
We’re all thrown into Step One as children, and we feel helpless to do anything about that. We can’t usually defend ourselves as children. So we just accept what the person in authority says in order to avoid punishment or get rewards. During childhood, we populated our false self with beliefs, rules, and memories. We all got stuck in the muddy waters of Step One. Our parents’ voices became recordings in our mind during childhood. We forget to let those voices go when we become independent adults. So we have big bodies but child-like minds. We don’t mature mentally.
Every second-cause belief that we accepted in Step One has an associated emotion. If a belief comes into our mind and we feel emotion, that belief is false. But in Step One, we feel the strong emotion, but we can’t find the causal belief. It feels like the effect is in our body and mind, and the belief is in the authority’s mind. We don’t believe that we can change the authority’s mind. Therefore, we fix effects, wallow in our emotions, soothe ourselves, or think endlessly about our problem. None of those common activities are letting go. None of them improve the quality of our mental container.
When we’re in Step One, we must let go from the feminine. So we lightly put our attention on pain, emotions, or symptoms in our body. We use OUR body to help us find the beliefs to let go in Step One. Then we listen for beliefs to arise. We let go of every belief that arises.
Our job is to notice that every belief we hear while focusing on the discomfort in our body is false and let it go. Now if you were in Step Three, that would be easy and automatic. But you aren’t in Step Three, so you have to drive your mental vehicle manually. The beliefs look true, but you have to recognize that the discomfort in your body is telling you that the beliefs are false.
You might also be in Step One when talking to another. Suddenly, you feel a lot of emotion when they say something. You’re feminine to them, either because they have authority or because you’re listening (listening is receptive or feminine even for a man). The emotion means that you’re accepting whatever they’re saying as true. Today, this is particularly common because people hold beliefs in telepathy, intuition, empathy, sympathy, etc. Those beliefs (or reasons) are all designed to keep us stuck in the illusion. They’re not win-win, which brings us to Step Two.
In this step, you might have the masculine role in the physical illusion or not. Either way, you’re thinking from the masculine aspect of your mind, where beliefs and knowledge are stored. We might say that you are in your intellect, or some might say ego. I don’t use that term much. You might feel like you’re creating your life, but you’re doing it from the false-mental level, not the True Self. In Step Two, your OWN thoughts are creating your emotions. These thoughts are not original; they’re learned from others who declared them to be true. They’re not win-win for all.
As children, we felt emotion when authority figures dominated us. If the emotion got to be too strong, we psychologically reversed our mind to accept the beliefs of that authority as true. We put that person’s voice in our mind as a clone character. Then we started to honor that clone’s voice as our voice, or our false God.
We’re now stuck in that person’s illusion. We no longer feel emotional when that voice speaks. To escape, we need to eliminate that false authority from our mind by letting go of false beliefs. Since we don’t feel emotions, like we do in Step One, we use the win-win test.
When we are stuck in Step Two, we project the opposite belief on to others. Our thoughts in Step Two might be quite positive or good, but we see an opposite projected on others that’s negative or bad. This destroys our relationships. We’re judging another who we view as somehow inferior to us. We think that they should think or be like us. But they can’t be like us; we’re projecting the opposite on them.
In Step Two, we want others to change. Experts like lawyers, social activists, doctors, healers, teachers, preachers, psychologists, etc., live in Step Two; their careers are about fixing others. If experts used their career to let go of their beliefs from Step Two, they would one day move out of that career into something inspired from their True Self.
In Step Two, we use the win-win test. We can also use the triangle process. Any thought that isn’t win-win is declared false, even if the whole world thinks it’s true. This is hard to do if you have strong false-self connections with others. It’s also hard to do if you think that others are what you project on them. So Step Two can take some practice. It begs us to have some compassion for ourselves and others.
Step Two can feel like a waste of time at first. If you feel that way, then your North Star (where you want to go) isn’t set on freedom. You’re wanting to win and the other lose, wanting to be right, or wanting to dominate or control the other person. People say, “Why should I let go for them? They were mean to me.” We’re letting go of what’s in our mind about them; we’re relieving them of our projection. But we’re also cleaning out our individual mental container.
Jesus said, “Judge not.” People thought that was because he was spiritual. Nope! Jesus was a very practical man; he understood Step Two. If you’re stuck in judgment, even if it was justified, you can’t get to Step Three.
Often we confuse judgment with discrimination. Discrimination is based on true and false. Let’s say that someone says, “Your ugly.” You feel emotion because that’s false. You let their comment go in Step One. Then you let go of any tendency to judge them back in Step Two.
Many people have gotten a whole lot of freedom just by doing Step Two. I did it with win-win. Lester Levinson and Vernon Howard used only Step Two to gain their freedom. Neither of them had any clue how to let go from the feminine. So don’t ignore Step Two. It’s powerful.
Step Two is about sharpening our discrimination. Imposing our beliefs on another is a form of judging. Judging blows our chance at freedom. If we have no clone voices in our mind, we’ll pass through Step Two very quickly. If we have a big-ass clone, or lots of clone voices in our mind, we’ll be in Step Two for awhile. We might even get stuck in Step 2.5.
This step is a very ineffective way of fixing the effects. In Step 2.5, we’re hearing thoughts, which are soothing; or we hear thoughts that are true for the True Self but not for the false self. Examples are “Everything happens for a reason.” “It will all be okay.” “Time heals.” “We are all one.” “Love is all.” “Love is the most powerful force in the universe.” These are basically true statements at the true-mental level. They feel good when you hear them. But in Step 2.5, we’re saying them because we’re trying to avoid or ignore our emotions.
The New Age, self-help, and progressive movements caused me to add this step. It became real popular in those groups. I’d often hear the opposite projected at me when people said something that sounded true or was over-the-top caring. They wanted me to think that they were in their True Self; or they wanted me to think that they had let go, but they hadn’t. Step 2.5 is actually used by con artists. We trust what we hear and ignore what we feel with such people; then we get blindsided by them.
People pleasers in the illusion think that speaking about the truth is inspiration. But the word inspiration starts with “IN.” Real inspiration comes when we expose what’s false in our fellow human beings; exposure pushes the other person inward where they can find their own inspiration. Inspiration is what we find when we get to Step Three.
This Step is a calm, soft feeling. I rarely hear any words at this level. If there are words, it’s more like a thought of how nice it feels. I might get a creative vision or some real inspiration that I want to follow. This is where our problems disappear, and everything seems right again. I might feel the recognition of how much I love another. We feel compassion for others in Step Three, even people who have hurt us.
Unconditional love lives in Step Three. Now we can see that everyone in Step One, Two, and 2.5 have less power than we do. We have the clear view…the big picture. We aren’t thinking or contemplating. We have a knowing on the topic, not a belief. We see that the so-called experts on that topic are coming from beliefs, knowledge, or memories. So we just ignore what others think. We’re living fully from our own individual mental container, and we’re now clear on that topic.
So that’s the Three Steps. Like anything else I offer, it takes practice to get all the way to Step Three. So you do what you can each time you let go. In time, you’ll get there. Like I said above, you want to discover why your mind doesn’t do this naturally. Then let those blocking beliefs go. Such beliefs took you away from your True Self. They pointed you toward the illusion instead of away from it.
Using the Three Steps ultimately eliminates the need for the Three Steps. That’s the nature of any effective technique. It eliminates itself in time. It creates true healing, transformation, and freedom.
The movie “Luce” recently came out in theaters. I saw it months ago at a San Diego film festival event. I wrote this article right after I saw it, but never published it. I do have some spoilers throughout the article. If you want to be surprised, see the movie before you read it. On the other hand, my review will give you a different perspective regarding the characters’ minds; so if you read the article first, you’ll probably see things that you’d have otherwise overlooked.
As I edited this article, I realized that this movie was a great review of the illusion, letting go, clone characters, and initiation…all the things that I write about. The movie is based on the biggest roadblock that we have on the path to freedom. Who is telling the truth, and who is lying? The last line of the trailer sums up the whole movie. “We never really know what’s going on with people.” That’s how it is for most people. But I show you that you can know what’s going on for anyone once you understand the way the human mind was designed and the way it was reprogrammed. Then you’re able to have true compassion for anyone.
“Luce” was a film festival favorite at the Sundance and the Tribeca film festivals. The advertisement for the film festival event that I attended said that the film was about the stories that we tell ourselves and the beliefs that we need to let go. I thought, “Wow, this film has my name on it.”
In addition, the screenwriter, J.C. Lee, was holding a Q&A session after the film. I love getting the perspective of screenwriters. I love hearing about their writing process and learning where they got their ideas. Lee was introduced as the most innovative and up-and-coming screenwriter today. Clearly my expectations for this film event were very high.
Here’s the plot. A black child from Africa named Luce was trained to kill as a child terrorist. Luce was adopted by a wealthy, white American couple (the Edgars) when he was about seven or eight years old. He grew up in a home where he had everything he wanted and needed, and he became a very intelligent and successful teenager. The movie was only about Luce’s senior year in high school.
The film opened with Luce giving a well-crafted speech to his senior class. Luce was decent looking, a great athlete, popular, and an excellent speaker. He was also a star on the debate team, so he clearly knew how to win an argument. Lawyers, i.e., people who debate for a living, make really good liars. They can lie without showing any emotion. Debating is about winning an argument not getting to the win-win point of view or finding the truth. So I’m not fond of debating; it doesn’t take us toward freedom. But debating served Luce’s character in the film.
In his speech, Luce talked of loving the American Dream. He talked of freedom and especially of loving the American holiday, Independence Day. Luce was considered a school hero because of his amazing transformation from terrorist fighter in Africa to successful American teenager.
After the speech, Luce introduced his parents to his history teacher, Harriet Wilson, who was a black woman; her character was played by Octavia Spencer. Luce gushed over how much he loved this particular teacher. His comments were clearly over-the-top. It was all for show.
On the way home from the speech, Luce admitted to his parents that he actually hated Ms. Wilson; he referred to her as a bitch. So we learned that Luce had a nice, middle class public persona covering a private false self that was full of anger and rage. That isn’t uncommon. Most people hide what they’re really thinking in public, or so I’m told. As you can probably tell, I say what I’m thinking in public and in private. Luce was interesting mostly because he was so extreme.
The students in the “bitch” teacher’s class were given an assignment to write about an inspiring leader. Luce wrote about an African philosopher, Frantz Fanon, who believed in the necessity for revolutionary violence. Fanon was an anti-colonialist and a Marxist. Luce was a child soldier who lived by Fanon’s philosophy before he came to live with the Edgars. So he had a very rough start in life.
Luce was a walking contradiction. On the one hand, he loved Independence Day, the day when we celebrate freedom in America. He was clearly benefitting by American capitalism. He had a very nice life. On the other hand, Luce just wrote about a Marxist who would love to destroy American freedom and turn America into a communist country. So for Luce, physical freedom (constitutional republic) and lack of physical freedom (communism) would be a strong triangle bottom. Bear in mind, that Luce’s perspective of freedom is very different from the triangle top that I write about. In initiation, mental freedom is the top of the triangle.
Physical reality is always the effect of our mind. So initiates didn’t fix effects. They fixed their minds by letting go (not positive thinking or affirmations), and the effects changed. When people are wired backwards, and most people are, they think that their thoughts come from whatever happened. So they remain stuck in the illusion. They’ve blocked the exit ramp.
To make matters worse, Luce’s leader violated my precision of language rule. If you want freedom, you can’t relabel ugly things like terrorism with pretty words. You have to let the ugly things go. Fanon used the term revolutionary combined with the word violence. Of course, that sounds a lot better than terrorist. However, it’s deceptive; violence is never revolutionary; it’s always primitive because it’s always win-lose, not win-win.
Luce’s paper was rooted in his African past, so it was very convincing; he knew his subject matter well. It was grounded by his early years of life in a warzone. Ms. Wilson felt that Luce idolized Fanon, and Fanon wasn’t a good role model for him. That was on the surface. However under the surface, Ms. Wilson was picking up the incongruence in Luce.
Incongruence is what we feel around people who are living at the triangle bottom on any subject. They’re always in two minds. It doesn’t mean they’re bad or evil; it just means that they don’t actually believe what they’re saying. They believe something else that would NOT sound good, kind, or socially correct. How can Luce be for freedom and idolize this man at the same time? He has to be in two minds to do that.
We have to step into Ms. Wilson’s shoes to understand her predicament. On the one hand, she’s black. She clearly loves Luce’s rags-to-riches story and wants him to do well. She also doesn’t want to fall prey to any black stereotypes because she’s been down that road herself. On the other hand, she’s holding pretty convincing evidence that Luce could be dangerous to the other students. She has to be responsible as a teacher. It’s odd to be in such a quandary. You wonder if you’re reading too much into the situation; but at the same time, you realize that the old adage, “it’s better to be safe than sorry,” might be the right way to go.
Ms. Wilson felt that Luce could be a potential school bomber. So she searched his locker and found some illegal fireworks. For her, that sealed the deal. She met with Luce’s mother, who took the fireworks home and hid them. She didn’t deal with Luce. She was in a quandary too; without letting go, we tend to end up in these rock-and-a-hard-place predicaments.
Now we have another triangle bottom. Luce’s teacher, Ms. Wilson, was on the suspicious, responsible, overly-cautious side. Luce’s mother was making excuses for Luce, and she was in denial. As you know, the two sides of any triangle bottom will play tug of war; and this was clearly demonstrated in the film. We also have a fake top of the triangle with Luce; he was by no means a True Self. But when he turned on the charm, he was definitely pretending to be a True Self. People were easily conned by his act. People are a lot like diamonds. It’s very hard to tell the difference between a real one and a fake one.
Many people today have very well-developed personas like Luce. In fact, their personas are so well-crafted that people do think they’re coming from their True Self. I call such people clone characters. They like to steal the top of the triangle from the True Self. I joke that they like to sit on their clone throne. A persona can never be a True Self; it will always be fake. The True Self comes from deep within a person’s mind. A persona/clone rests on the surface of a person’s mind. Such people won’t ever let us into their world because they have a lot to hide.
We all have such clone characters in our mind, in our life, or both. These characters want us to think that their mind is unified and true, and they want to be seen as good, loving, and kind. But under that perfect persona, they’re no such thing; clones always have long shadows that are very well hidden.
Clones work harder than a True Self to look polished. The persona becomes automatic; and that’s why people think it’s natural. A True Self is not polished; in fact, the True Self often looks more like a rough-cut diamond simply because we compare such a person to the well-polished clone. It’s easy to be confused. We are like moths to the flame…we go for the bright light even if it burns us. So we vote for clones, we go to work for clones, we study with clones, and we even love and marry clones. Then we wonder why our life isn’t making sense anymore, and we can’t seem to remember who we are.
In the Gold Circle, we work on the topic of clones a whole lot. I can only give you a taste here. People in the program are shocked by the clones that they believed in the past; they were sure that they were True Selves. So they put their beliefs into their mind. I show them the cracks. Once you know how the mind works, clones are easier to detect. They often sound good or even true, but they have divided minds. They speak a nice sounding overt message along with a harmful or unwanted covert message. They appear to shine so brightly ONLY because we’re trained to never see their darkness. Sadly, if you believe that a clone character is a True Self, you’ll see any True Self as fake or imaginary (including your own True Self).
For Luce, Frantz Fanon was still stuck in his mind. Luce idolized this man as a child, and that’s largely why he held on to the voice. If people in the film had known how to let go, they would have viewed Luce’s homework paper as a cry for help. But without letting go, it became the awakening of the beast below the beauty.
Near the end of the trailer, Luce said that people either see him as a monster or a saint. He needs to let go of both of those labels; but if he’s like most people, he’s trying to hold on to saint.
We won’t let go of a clone’s beliefs if we think that they’re telling the truth. For example, Christians have a moral clone; and they think that their moral beliefs are the truth. But those morals are just beliefs. Progressives have a politically-correct clone, and they think that saying the politically correct (PC) thing is good and right. Right and wrong, or good and evil, keep us stuck in the illusion. We escape by using true and false.
Luce was a little boy when he was in Africa. Of course, he thought that his leaders were telling him the truth. We all fall into that trap as young children.
Clones hide their shadow because they don’t like it, and they don’t realize that they can let it go. No one tells us that letting go is possible in the illusion. In this way, we’re all victims of the illusion. You can see the confusion and suffering in this film. It’s actually not that uncommon of a situation.
When people, like Ms. Wilson, expose a clone’s beliefs as false, the clone typically becomes very defensive; they hurl insults or labels at the exposer, and they tell bigger and bigger lies to cover their previous lies. They work very hard to get everyone to believe them and to think that the truth teller is lying.
They think that they can keep their shadow under wraps by fueling their custom-made persona. So they become even more shiny. I call this, putting ice cream on manure. When the ice cream melts, the clone needs to cover the manure with more ice cream. It’s a full-time job that never ends. That’s my definition of hard work.
In psychological terms, experts would label Luce a sociopath; but that ties Luce down. It’s very hard to get free of such a label. That’s why I describe the shadow as the false self. That strips the person of a bad/evil label that could define them for life. Stripping off that label opens the possibility for Luce to exit the illusion. However, for Luce to get free, he would have to let go of his good labels and beliefs. He’d have to lose that shine, and that’s what keeps most people from letting go. The idea of losing their shine terrifies them. They fear judgment, humiliation, banishment, and loneliness. The clone’s goodness (saint) and the false self’s badness (monster) form an innertriangle bottom. We must take out both sides to get free and move to the top of the triangle.
Let’s face it, we all want Luce to become the great guy that he wants to be. But it isn’t win-win for all if he’s incongruent, manipulative, and lies to get what he wants. We all need to mentally earn what we get physically. The one constant law of the initiates was mental cause creates physical effect. That’s congruence, and it’s very rare these days.
After Ms. Wilson saw Luce’s shadow, the dynamic between her and Luce became weird. It makes sense. It’s like she saw him mentally naked. She can’t unsee what she has seen. Luce felt exposed, and clones hate exposure. They see exposure like a vampire views light.
So Luce turned up the volume on his saintly persona; now he looked uber good. He was helping others, buying flowers for Ms. Wilson, and apologizing for anything he’d ever done wrong without actually admitting that he did anything wrong. He was trying to demonstrate that Ms. Wilson was lying. But she was not lying. She was basing everything she said on FACTS.
I’m not going to go through the whole story, but Luce told lie after lie; and like most clones, he was a convincing liar. The filmmaker did a great job of allowing us to see what was going on in each character’s mind, while simultaneously hiding the obvious from the characters themselves so that they look surprised and bewildered.
Along the way, Luce raped a girl, he blew up Ms. Wilson’s desk with fireworks, and he painted hateful words on Ms. Wilson’s house. Of course, others got blamed for what he did.
On the surface, it looked like he was reflecting Ms. Wilson; after all he was her student in a physical feminine role. She was a teacher, which is a physical masculine role. But this is why clones are so tricky. Mentally, the roles are the opposite of the physical when strong clone characters are involved in any relationship. This throws us for a loop. Luce had the mental masculine role even though physically he was in a feminine role.
Later on, we will see that Ms. Wilson was actually feeling the projection of Luce’s shadow. That’s why she knew him so well. I understand Ms. Wilson. It’s how I expose clones. Clones always project long shadows. A True Self, or even someone with false beliefs but no fake persona/clone, doesn’t project. Like real life, most of the people in this story didn’t notice the projections because Luce had such a charming personality.
Luce’s parents kept avoiding the problem. They discussed Luce as they drank several bottles of wine each night. Eventually, the mother was faced with a difficult choice. She must admit that her child was lying, or she must start lying herself to protect him. She chose to lie to protect him. Of course she did that; the movie still had a long way to go. If she told the truth, the story would be over. That’s a good life lesson. When you want to end drama, tell the truth…the whole truth.
Now let’s dive into the psychology of Luce. The screenwriter was basing Luce’s character on a very popular, but false, Jesuit belief that we’re all mentally imprinted from birth to about age seven. The reason they choose the age of seven was partly practical. Most of us are in school by age seven; so we start to use our mind to learn at that age. We start to develop an intellect. That means that we can actually think for ourselves, but we don’t because we’re placed in schools were we learn what others want us to learn.
The other reason for the age of seven is based on occult teachings. The occultists believe that our life is lived in seven-year cycles. Occultists tend to be lunar focused and matriarchal minded; so a seven-day cycle fits almost perfectly into a lunar month. Thus age seven is the end of our first seven-year cycle in the occult way of thinking. It’s all bullshit. Don’t believe it.
What they call the seven-year imprint would be part of our false self in my terminology. The Jesuits believe that you can tone down that seven-year imprint with calming things like meditation, medication, or practices like martial arts or Tai Chi; or you can cover that false self with a nice persona/clone. The Jesuits also believe that this early programming will never go away. In other words, they want us to BELIEVE that we can’t let the imprinting go. This is the reason why religion is introduced at a young age. They want us to hold on to religion for life so that we’ll remain stuck in their illusion. The Jesuits believed that if they can get into our mind before age seven, then they will have us for life.
Of course, I prove them wrong every day. Speaking of clones, Jesuit Pope Francis, i.e., Pope Frankenstein, is the perfect example of a clone with a long shadow. He’s been completely exposed in recent times; and probably won’t be Poping for much longer. But when he first took his clone throne, people adored him. He was so charming, just like Luce. He said and did all the right things. That’s always the signature of a clone. I took a lot of heat for saying that Pope Frank was an actor and wasn’t a good man; I’ve since been redeemed.
Readers of my blogs/programs know that any supposed imprinting is just a bunch of false beliefs that we learned to hold in our minds. We can let go of beliefs by seeing them as false from any age or time period. We can even let go of ancestral beliefs. Early beliefs tend to be harder to let go because we’ve often manifested evidence of those beliefs. Early beliefs are often steeped with psychological reversal. We’ve made the beliefs real, so they look true; but that just proves that we’re good at manifesting shit we don’t actually want. If you let such beliefs go, then you stop creating that unwanted reality.
In my experience, there are no beliefs that we can’t let go. But some beliefs require more persistence and determination to let go especially if those beliefs are collectively accepted as true. Labeling a belief, “the truth,” keeps us from being able to let it go. So the Jesuits are wrong. Their belief serves them and their desire to control our minds and lives. Nevertheless, this movie presumes that this Jesuit belief is true.
The event advertisement for the movie said that the film was about letting go. But that was a statement made with level confusion. I’ve learned that most people think of letting go as physical, not mental. Initiation is, and was, only about mental letting go. The physical becomes the effect of our mind as we let go. Most people think of letting go as divorcing your spouse, running away from home, or quitting your job. Or they think that letting go is picking a nice thought over a crappy one or avoiding a touchy subject all together. None of those things are real letting go. I didn’t see any letting go in this movie. The lack of letting go is what turned the story into a heavy drama or a psychological thriller.
Luce was killing people with African terrorists from his toddler years to age seven. It was presumed that this propensity to kill was still there, and he could not let it go. Psychologists would say that this killer tendency was stuck in Luce’s subconscious. Religious people might say that it was part of his soul. Eastern-minded people would say it was part of his karma. Everybody has a reason for why Luce can’t let go. Their reasons are all false beliefs. They make my job tedious.
Luce could have let go of his killer thinking; it was simply a bunch of beliefs that were not true. He would have had to let go of everything that he learned from Fanon. Luce’s mind would have psychologically reversed to hold on to Fanon’s beliefs and to make them true for him. So he’d have to realize that Fanon’s belief came with emotion, and that emotion meant the beliefs were false. Once he could see his error, then he could slowly take back control of his mental container. Everyone can get free, but they have to want it more than air. They have to be willing to let go of everything that is false, even if they think that it has served them.
The film portrayed this terrorist aspect of Luce’s mind as who Luce really was; that’s why Ms. Wilson and others believed that he was inherently dangerous. That’s reality in the illusion. In initiation, we’re pushed to ask a bigger question. Is that true for Luce? Of course not. We have to be very careful when people say that some personality trait, or mental thought pattern (like transgenderism), is who a person really is. We’re not our beliefs or our thoughts. If such people let go of everything in their mind, they would see that they’re not those qualities; they were holding on to a persistent false belief.
Because of this belief, Luce looked progressively more dangerous as the movie rolled on. This is how people mentally devolve over time. Their friends and family don’t help them escape this fake, mentally-created illusion because they start to expect the worst from the person.
Letting go reverses this even when we have no support from others. I’ve done it. But it requires letting go from the feminine. We have to trust our emotions to get free of such a predicament. However, most people hate their emotions; they want to get rid of them. So they stay stuck.
Ms. Wilson was telling the truth. But people thought that Ms. Wilson was lying because Luce looked so damn good. Ms. Wilson cared for a sister who was insane, and she contributed to making Ms. Wilson look bad. Ms. Wilson also displayed appropriate emotions. By that, I mean that when she was lied to, she let the person know that they were lying; and she was noticeably uncomfortable doing that. Exposing lies isn’t in our nature; it’s hard to do it in a calm matter. In such situations, we often trust the liar because they’re the calm one. But they are calm because they think their lies are the truth…not because they’re not lying.
Ms. Wilson was reading Luce’s shadow. She was spot on. If others could do what Ms. Wilson was doing, they would have all supported her. She was the hero of this story, not Luce and certainly not Luce’s parents.
The story seemed to be loosely based on Barack Obama’s persona. At one point, Luce likened himself to Barack Obama; he took the words right out of my mind. Like Obama, Luce was a good looking, popular, lawyer-like athlete who came from a rough start. Both were anti-colonialists and Marxists at the core. Obama had a mentor as a young child, Frank Marshall Davis, who was similar to Fanon in some ways.
Obama had a great clone, and he was very convincing. He still acts like he never had any scandals in his White House. That just isn’t true. But his scandals were hidden by the fake news media. Clones help other clones; and you end up with webs of clones in governments and other large organizations. Such lies don’t stay hidden forever. What’s hidden will become known because more and more people are whistleblowing and exposing just like Ms. Wilson. In Obama’s story, Ms. Wilson was played by Loretta Fuddy, who knew the truth about Obama’s fake birth certificate. She died in a strange plane accident. At times, I did fear that Ms. Wilson would not make it out of this movie alive. But she did.
In the Q&A, I realized that the screenwriter, J.C. Lee, didn’t see, or he didn’t admit, that the movie was a little too familiar. I wondered if he was like Ms. Wilson, and he had picked up Obama’s shadow without realizing it. It’s easy to do. I used to do that all the time before I came to understand clones and projection. I’d hear the projected covert part of the clone’s message in my mind. I’d think that their thoughts were my thoughts. After I learned to discriminate, I realized that the beliefs/thoughts that I was hearing weren’t true. I was hearing the opposite of what the person said; so it was their shadow. It wasn’t my thought so it was easy to let go as false. I experienced this every time President Obama spoke. He always had an overt and a covert message.
I suspect that’s what the screenwriter experienced. But he thought the projected thinking was his own thinking; he was not alone. Most people don’t watch their mind all the time like I do. So J.C. thought he had a great movie idea. He said that he invented the character of Luce about five years ago…uh that was when Barack Obama was president. Coincidence? It’s just another interesting aspect to this film. It makes it even more fascinating to me.
The screenwriter said that he believed that someone telling the truth would be a heroic act, but no one does that. That was probably why there wasn’t much truth telling in this movie. Wow! That’s quite an admission.
The truth is what sets us free in initiation. The clone-free person is relieved to know the truth. Fear of clones is why people accept things like political correctness or social justice warriorism. Fear of clones is why people try to fit in and refuse to think independently. It’s why they ignore their emotions around others. They’re afraid of rocking the boat. In earlier times, if you exposed the clones in power, you were burned at the stake, tortured, banished from society, or beheaded. Today, we just get our accounts removed on social media.
J.C. said that humans are liars at the core. So Luce was normal in his mindset. That’s just NOT true. It’s not normal to lie; it’s learned behavior. No one is a liar at the core. The further we get from our True Self, however, the more we lie.
J.C. said that he personally faces the type of choices that Luce, Ms. Wilson, and Luce’s parents were making all the time. J.C. was speaking truthfully about the illusion, but that would be false for someone who can let go.
J.C. said that he’s often in a situation where he either has to tell the truth and have a hard conversation, or he must lie and have a smooth conversation. He did admit that this was a short-sighted point of view. I’d agree with him on that. It’s also a false point of view. He said that he picks the smooth conversation 99% of the time. So he has a strong fear of clones…most people do.
Many would call such a lie a white lie. I despise that term. If you want freedom, you must stop lying…ditch all that political and social correctness too. It’s never win-win…never. When you hide what you think from others, you start hiding it from yourself too. Then you just make a mess of your mind. If you let go of your judgments and beliefs, you eventually get to the place where what you think is not offensive or judgmental. It’s helpful and constructive. It’s win-win. At that point, you always say what you think.
J.C. did admit that this personal issue destroyed his relationships. Well dah! But he said that he could not change. That’s sad, but I understand why he felt that way. His teenage years were during the Obama era. He thought Obama was telling the truth, so he became like him. J.C. is Luce in many ways. He admitted that. It’s a common pattern. Someone has a trusted teacher, philosopher, leader, idol, or guru; and they don’t realize that the person they idolized was giving them more beliefs. Then they get really stuck in that person’s shadow; and they can’t see any exit from their illusion. J.C. is not alone; but he’s living in an illusory bubble. That bubble will pop one day; and he’ll have one hell of a wake-up call. It happens to everyone; and it’s a hard moment, but it is the day that the potential for freedom returns.
Telling the truth, going for win-win, even when it’s hard is what sets us free. No one in this film got free. There was no full-circle ending. That’s how you know the movie was based on beliefs. We can’t get to a happily-ever-after ending with beliefs and lies. That’s impossible.
This film was nothing like it was presented to be, at least from my point of view. They said that the film was about the stories that we tell about ourselves. It was actually about the stories, secrets, and lies we make up to cover our asses or to get attention or sympathy.
Then they said the film was about beliefs we need to let go. But no one let go of any beliefs in the film. They just lied to cover up the effects of their beliefs. Or they ignored their beliefs. Saying we need to let a belief go isn’t letting go. Luce’s world was exhausting. He had to manage appearances all the time.
Here’s the weird thing about this film. I really liked it. Everyone did. It was a good film. I was letting go a lot, so I left without any baggage. It looked like cool fiction to me. But others were noticeably triggered. I never saw so many people get up and walk around during a movie. They were flooded with emotions, so they were walking them off. Clearly they had believed clones like Luce; and that was what they were feeling. So I like that J.C. was a bit of an exposer without even knowing it.
Here’s the potential for the happy, full-circle ending. It’s in Luce’s true desire, which we hear in his speech at the beginning of the movie. Luce said that he loved Independence Day. He said the freedom of America meant everything to him. There was his pull to initiation. I call that our North Star. It’s what takes us outside of the illusion.
Luce wanted freedom, but he had this horrible false self. That’s very normal. That’s where we all are when we begin initiation. None of that was Luce’s fault; but it was his responsibility. Luce could heal his mind. I know that. J.C. could too. Barack Obama could too. We all start out wanting freedom but not having it. At some point, if we don’t turn toward freedom, we develop apathy; then we just exist until we die.
Luce thought he could get freedom by creating a pleasing clone. That’s pretty normal too. Luce certainly wasn’t the first to think that. Sadly, most experts believe that lie. Too often people think that they can’t be themselves. They believe that they can’t have their true desires. They can, but they have to let go to get them.
As initiation takes us closer and closer to the core of our mind, we actually stop creating false desires (good and bad ones); it’s then that we start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. We start remembering who we are and what we’ve always wanted from life; our life starts to make sense again. The world around us also starts to make sense. Clones look like clones, and the illusion looks like an illusion. Beliefs sound like beliefs. That’s mental freedom.
I spent this weekend at the Santa Barbara Film Festival. I saw films I liked, one or two that were lousy, but one film was incredible. It was called “Working Man.” We’ll be looking at this film in detail in the Gold Circle program. It just kept giving and giving. But I wanted to say something about it that applies to anyone who is reading my blogs and learning how to let go.
Our lives are like stories. The goal of initiation since inception was to bring our story full circle…no incompletions. When we learn to do that, everything in our life eventually makes sense. Sadly, most people compare their life to a Hollywood production. Hollywood, like most things today, is ruled by people with clone minds. I invented the term clone mind to describe the condition whereby the false self tries to look like the True Self. The Hollywood star is always acting. But they do it so well that we don’t know it’s an act. There was actually a film about this at the festival. It portrayed the difficulty of relating to someone who isn’t being themselves. You don’t know when you are talking to a character versus the real person. Sadly, this problem isn’t just confined to professional actors. Lots of people are acting in our world today. They might get what they want from others, but they won’t get free. Now don’t get me wrong. I love actors and Hollywood. A free person can act as a profession, but they won’t forget that they’re acting. They won’t use acting to manipulate others.
In fact, being a clone is the furthest you can be from your True Self. We’re taught to idolize clones, then we view our life as unimportant and certainly not a good story. I constantly prove that wrong. The examples that I use from my own life are simple events that happen to everyone…nothing spectacular. What turns these mundane experiences into perfect initiation stories is letting go. Letting go moves us out of the physical perspective (which includes clone attributes like positive thinking or managing our thoughts and most knowledge/expertise) into the True mental perspective. We go from the false self to the True Self. That’s the journey that we all intended to take in life according to initiation teachings.
We all start out our life, as well as every chapter of our story, with an event, which in story writing is called an inciting incident. We associate beliefs with that memory…beliefs that caused the event and conclusions we drew from the event. We generally hold those beliefs as true simply because we attach them to our past, real-life experience. We keep illusions alive when we relabel beliefs as true. Those beliefs keep creating our experience all through life unless we let them go. The longer we are alive, the more such events we accumulate. In the illusion, we equate real with true. That keeps us stuck.
Initiation, i.e., letting go, brings such memories full circle as we let go of the causal beliefs, as well as the false conclusions surrounding the memory. The past memory loses its emotional charge and our future life changes. We’re released from the trappings of the past so that we can create freely. We’re no longer stuck on repeat. So in the end, we see how the inciting incident happened, what it cost us by holding on to the associated false beliefs, and how we got back to where we started as we let go. No therapeutic techniques can provide this kind of insight into our mind and our life. Nothing is more satisfying than letting go and seeing memories come full circle.
Letting go is what creates an amazing story because it ties up every lose end. But the art of letting go was lost. No one does it anymore. Stories don’t have real endings anymore. So people die without feeling complete. They often feel major regret at the end of their life. That isn’t natural. Everything in the initiate’s life eventually makes sense. And, most important, it doesn’t take an incredible plot to gain a standing ovation from the audience.
The original idea of story was that we are born free, unconditionally loving, and true; we fall into the illusion where we are lost and confused, and we escape and get back to freedom, unconditional love, and the truth with initiation. Initiation was NOT a special club. It was our birthright. We returned to what we were initially. It was an individual game. People could help you, like I do, but they couldn’t do it for you. The notion of initiation was basically destroyed by religion and the fall story. That created a collective permanent fall…a curse. We must let that curse go to get free. (We discuss this in depth in the Gold Circle. It’s beyond the scope of this particular article.) In initiation, we must let go of personal and collective beliefs.
The occultists (which includes all religion, New Age, psychology and self-help, progressive politics, and pseudo science) kept initiation away from us normal folks by creating special clubs and elite groups. At first, they did know the truth, that the fall story was a myth that was about gaining power over others. But over time, they got lost in the illusion too. If you lie to others, you eventually believe your own lies. The occult leaders divided us into classes and castes. They also made knowledge greater than our natural wisdom. This wasn’t natural; and so we became emotional. We got sick and hurt ourselves in accidents; we suffered. Our True Selves are all connected; and we don’t need to learn the truth (we are born knowing it). But in the illusion, our truth is rarely valued. People learned how to fix the effects of this fall problem. But they never removed the cause. So we could never get back to what we were INITIALLY.
We all got lost in the collective illusion; and we’re driven at the core to find our way back to that perfect mental state without leaving our bodies. We all want Heaven on Earth, but we don’t know how to get it. But notice, I didn’t say that we’re drawn to a heavenly afterlife or a better life next time. I didn’t say that we’re drawn to greatness, heroism, or the expression of a particular talent. I didn’t say that we are drawn to God or nirvana. We aren’t even drawn to world peace. We want the feeling you get when you unconditionally love others. We want that with everyone. And in initiation, you don’t get to change the other people’s minds in order to achieve that end goal. You only get to change your own mind. It sounds impossible…I realize that. What I’m suggesting is so far outside normal thinking, even New Age concepts, that people think I must be insane. I assure you that I’m not. Letting go is powerful…more powerful than you could ever know. It’s hard to understand that until you do it for awhile. And you do have to do it for quite awhile to get free. When you start letting go, you realize just how many beliefs you held in mind. You realize how programmed you really were.
Initiation, and the full-circle story, wasn’t designed to be a quick fix or a weekend workshop. It was designed to be the story of your life. If you get done early, then you can just enjoy being a creator.
The film, “Working Man” was about Allery, a small-town guy who worked in the same factory all of his working life. The details in the film were phenomenal if you’ve ever known any real-live factory guys. Growing up in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, I knew a lot of them. The factory gave meaning to their life. It provided for their family, which they saw as their role in the family. Allery had a daily routine. He carried the stereotypical silver metal lunch pail with a bologna and cheese with mayo sandwich on Wonder Bread. For dessert, he had one of those powdered-sugar Hostess donuts. He also had the metal thermos filled with hot coffee. He walked the same way to work in his freshly pressed uniform. When he got home, the wife had dinner on the table…usually meat, potatoes, and a canned vegetable. He went for the same walk every night. It seems like a boring, meaningless life until you bring it full circle.
Where Allery was in life is completely irrelevant for initiation. That’s true for all of us. It’s what he does with his mind within that life that counts. Does he let go at all? In addition, he can let go whenever he wants to let go. You don’t have a time limit on initiation; you just have to be alive and breathing.
Allery, however, is hard wired to hold on to his beliefs like most people are. His routine and his beliefs are all he knows, and everyone around him shares the same beliefs. His beliefs are never challenged by other people. But life challenges Allery’s beliefs; it always does. Initiation is a drive within us. We will push ourselves to let go. Sadly, we often misinterpret difficult experiences as punishment, random events, or bad breaks. But they’re actually a push from our True Self to let go; and if we know how to let go, and we’re willing to let go, we step on the path of initiation for awhile. Allery, and most other people are programmed for learning, not unlearning. Most believe that the only way to change our mind is education. But that’s not true. That’s the beauty of initiation; it’s truly equal for all. In fact, the less educated have a bit of an advantage.
The writer, director, and actors of this film did their craft perfectly. They let the film show us the daily life of Allery, but without too many words; more important, they let us into Allery’s mindset. Then they created events which pushed Allery to see that his beliefs were false. He didn’t want to let go…not at all. He fought hard to keep things the same. These events looked horrible to Allery, like punishment; but they caused him to face his biggest inciting incident, and to step out of his normal routine. Allery had to stand up for himself and others. He had to expose lies. Suddenly, Allery started to feel like a man. That’s exactly what happens when we let go. The writer got it right.
It wasn’t actually the factory job that made Allery a man. That belief was false. It was standing up for the truth, and exposing lies, that made Allery a man. It wasn’t holding on that fulfilled him, it was letting go. Allery became a happy man after shedding those false beliefs…not perfect, not walking on water yet, but happier and more content. He was alive again. He had the energy to play the earth game for awhile longer. A part of his life came full circle; and it was so endearing to watch. The final scene was him dancing with his wife like they did when they were young.
The movie had minimal drama, no sex, no violence, no superpowers, and no therapists. There was one ineffective visit from a pastor. Allery was as common as dirt. But you loved him, and you wanted him to get free of his past. The film had real normal thoughts, no political correctness or superficial conversations. If was all about the fact that our jobs tend to define us. But we need to let that go to get free.
For these men, losing their job meant losing their manhood. But that was their belief, and their belief was false. It truly was one of the most true-to-life movies I’ve ever seen. I’ve posted the trailer below. At this point, it’s just in film festivals. But I hope it gets distribution. Many of my friends growing up had Allery for dads, he was also my father-in-law who I liked very much; and I think this movie would be very special for those people.
I have to admit that I was concerned that this film would take some heat in the very liberal-minded group of highly-educated people who attend film festivals. They tend to judge people like Allery as worthless. They don’t understand the working man. But the film seemed to open their hearts. They gave the director and the lead actor a standing ovation. It proves another point that’s key to initiation. We stop judging people when we take the opportunity to understand them. Film can help us do that. Film can get people to let go.
Technology and too many awards, glamour, and politics have ruined Hollywood. But hopefully, people will speak up and support films like “Working Man.” Then Hollywood will come back around full circle too; one day, they will again be about great stories well told…maybe even an initiation story.
The New Thought movement made it much more difficult to follow the path of initiation. It made thinking our way to success, wealth, and a hot, sexy body spiritual. Jet planes and mansions now proved mastery. Many teachers made whatever their false self liked a sign of spiritual mastery, and other false selves grabbed on for that ride. Spirituality is big business.
New Thought teachers/preachers speak truthful ideas and thoughts to false selves who memorize them creating a spiritual-looking false clone of their True Self. These leaders promote their beliefs as the truth; people throw their True Self under the bus to follow these charismatic leaders.
People have more beliefs than ever. They view their beliefs as right and true. They impose them on others without questioning themselves. People have adopted spiritual practices only to become more judgmental and more inclined to fix the effects of their thinking. Finding the cause often seems like too damn much work when a little internet research and a swipe of the credit card can appear to solve anything. We forget that science has limitations. We will eventually run into a dead-end that we can’t fix.
There are moments in my own inner work that I think, “I could just fix that effect and people would find me much more believable.” They wouldn’t notice my inauthenticity.
But I’d notice my inauthenticity. Those who stick with this work often feel their progress doesn’t seem to matter. People can’t see our True Self if their own illusory veil is too thick.
Signs or Validation
Most people look for signs to determine where to go. As we purify our mind, we stop looking for signs. Instead we receive validation that we’re going the right way. It’s often a small insight, but it keeps us going. If you’re serious about this path, forget about others and what they think of you. Keep score of the improvement within your own mind.
In time, material things do come to initiates. This isn’t a path of abstinence or lack. Our health will improve; diseases will disappear. We’ll have more energy and even look younger. We’ll have the abundance we need and want if we just keep our eye on our own mind and let go. Our desires will be fulfilled naturally when we have no beliefs that block them.
When we put the purity of our mind first, everything works organically. We become truly good and right, but we don’t use that for power over others. This was the secret of the true initiates. But religions and the occult put the physical reward first; they created the entrance to hell by falsely defining good and right and attaching rewards to their false rules.
Validation: You’re Going the Right Way If:
1) Using your will to fix or get anything seems like too much work. You only want to use your will to let go of your thoughts and beliefs.
11) You aren’t paying experts (doctors, lawyers, therapists, psychics, trainers) anymore. You were only wanting them to tell you what you already knew.
12) You avoid self-help workshops and no longer read voraciously to find answers. Validation comes to you naturally now. Insights come when you let go.
13) You’re starting to see the illusion as false. Roles become obvious, authority looks impotent, and the notion of good and evil looks silly. False just looks false.
14) You no longer feel guilt, grief, or shame. You don’t take responsibility for other people’s emotions.
15) You let go of beliefs; you don’t want to impose them on others anymore.
16) You find yourself calm and happy for no apparent reason. You don’t hold others responsible for your joy.
17) Competition isn’t attractive…win-win is.
18) False self connections don’t look like love anymore.
19) You can create things with a single thought or a vision in your mind. You don’t have to hammer at a thought with affirmations or visualize what you want for years to force your desires to manifest.
20) You’re more loving, more compassionate, and more genuine. You realize that anyone trying to be positive, spiritual, healthy, or good has an impure mind that they’re trying to cover up with physical actions. You have nothing to hide so you hide nothing.
21) You realize that your purpose was to find your Self not to be somebody in the illusion.
22) You love your inner world. You use your imagination to create beauty and joy, not disease and suffering.
When we let go, we gently and organically move into our perfect life; the painful things of the past now seem like an illusion…a dream. We don’t long for things or people anymore; we know that our True desires will come to us. We become calm, accepting, and courageous. Letting go becomes a way of life; and our True Self/God is no longer up in the sky. It’s within.
We realize that the truth has all the power and the false has none. If we live and speak the truth, we break up the illusion for ourselves and others. We eventually see a different, more perfect, world. We’re going the right way.
People often say to me, “I don’t know what I believe.” They also say, “I don’t have any beliefs.” These two comments are the main reason the illusion thrives.
The fact that our thoughts and beliefs create our reality was hidden for a very long time. During that time, people accepted all kinds of beliefs as explanations for how life worked. In more recent times, it became known that our thoughts do create our reality; but we simply put that truth on top of our already accepted beliefs. People try to consciously control their mind to get what they want. Sometimes they think one thing and say another; that causes projection, which causes relationship hell. Or they say something they don’t like, and then say, “I don’t believe that,” or “Cancel.”
If we really don’t believe something, we won’t think it or say it. We don’t have to cancel our words. In fact, as we move toward freedom, we find it impossible to be incongruent. Our thoughts, words, and actions will all line up. Then we often realize that we still have beliefs that people don’t like when we speak truthfully. We have to let those beliefs go too.
Who’s Creating Our Life?
People of all religions say, “When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade,” Even atheists say it. But no one asks a very important question, “Who in the hell is life?” “Who gave us those fucking lemons?” A religious person might say, “God tempted us;” a New Ager might say, “The universe taught us a lesson.” But the comment implies that we didn’t create our life. We aren’t free if we don’t create our life. We’re Life’s slaves.
If we’ve accepted complete responsibility for our lemons, we’d say, “I gave myself lemons, so I made lemonade.” But no one says that. One of the best ways to find beliefs about anything is to find out why we say what we say.
When someone dies, we say: “Now they’re in a better place.” Really! We don’t know that. What we know is that their body is in the ground or an urn. We don’t have a clue where their mind/spirit went. If we think/speak that belief, we believe something like earth ain’t so great. We can’t get beyond suffering unless we die.
Now people will say to me, “I don’t really believe that shit. I just said that because I wanted them to feel better.” You’re trapped. First of all, you’re taking responsibility for their emotions; their emotions are caused by their thinking. If you say what another wants to hear, you’re putting them in the masculine role. You’re giving them power to create in your life because what they want to hear is more important than what you want to say.
Our social protocol is carefully designed to make sure that we have no power over Life. Listen to what you say, and you’ll uncover hidden beliefs. Listen to what others say, and you’ll discover what they believe. The mystery drains from Life real quick.
Why Did I Say That?
If we’ve had religious or self-help training, we often train our mind to be quiet or to say the right things. But trained quiet isn’t real quiet. Being trained to say the right things might be automatic, but it’s not authentic. It’s the effect of being highly socialized. The highly socialized no longer speak what they believe or think; they speak what they believe others want to hear. Some people have told me that they actually put their attention so completely in other people’s minds that they know what that person wants to hear. They’re proud of this when they should feel horrible. I suspect that it’s what most psychics do, but they don’t realize they’re doing it. Quite honestly, we don’t have any business in another person’s mind.
Letting go of our fake social beliefs is very important. We’re then admitting that our True Self is what belongs in society. What doesn’t belong are social customs designed to make everyone alike and predictable.
The highly socialized do what is politically correct even if they resent it. Their Universe or God or Life isn’t some supernatural being although they’ll say they’re trying to please God. Their false God is actually everyone they’re trying to please — a whole shitload of human beings. They live life as if everyone is God and they’re no one…a slave trying to please humanity.
Waking up requires us to realize that what humans want from us is not what God wants from us. We don’t know what God wants from us unless we’re living from our True Self; we only know what others have said God wants from us. They say that God rewards and punishes…nope, people do that. They say God judges; no, people do. The biggest trap is created by people who tell us that God wants what actually fulfills their needs and desires while simultaneously keeping us small and submissive. This doesn’t just happen in big business, big religions, or government, it happens in families.
When I was an entrepreneur, I felt thankful for the business that came my way. I told my clients, not God, what they meant to me. My words came from within; they were authentic. Today, I bank at Wells Fargo; they train their employees to pretend gratitude. It never feels good. My son and I will do anything to avoid having to talk to a teller. But most people don’t feel so they think the person means what they say. Robots applaud other robots.
The reason that our false self says or does anything is because it was taught to do it. It’s a robot. When we take the memory out of a robot, we get nothing. When we take the robotic memory out of a person, we get the truth…an authentic human being.
When someone holds their beliefs as absolutely true, they become a “fragile ego.” Fragile egos exist at all levels of society. We have to let them break to get free.
Fragile egos send a clear message: “If you obey me, I’ll reward you. If you disobey, I’ll punish.” They’re clones of the Old Testament false God (imaginary leader of the illusion) who believe they’re good people with the right to judge and punish.
Whoever disagrees with them is evil or bad. Their biggest fear is exposure. They lie and impose their beliefs on others in order to look powerful while hiding their belief that they’re weak.
The most dangerous fragile egos wear a nice mask causing them to look like a True Self. They say and do what the illusion considers good; they generally look happy and calm. They believe that what you do, not how you think, makes you good. Good, by their definition gets rewarded. That’s how the illusion works.
But the true world doesn’t work that way. Rules and projection don’t exist outside the illusion, we manifest what we believe.
Underneath the fragile ego’s mask is an emotional storm; their actions aren’t congruent with their thinking. They’re filled with rules and beliefs. When we disobey or say, “No,” to their demands, their emotions roar. They don’t see their OWN thinking as the cause of their emotions. They blame the feminine role because their Adam-and-Eve based mythology gave them the right to.
The fragile ego projects their responsibility and emotions outward. In fact, when we’re conditioned by fragile egos, we often become overly responsible. We take responsibility for their emotions because they claim we’re the cause. We aren’t.
In mentoring, I call the eruption of the fragile ego, “hitting the wall.” Letting go looks impossible. Strong religious, scientific, or political views look absolutely true. Arguing with the fragile ego does no good. The fragile ego repeats its knowledge, rules, and beliefs like a robot. It sees evidence that supports its thinking; it’s sure it’s right.
We only see evidence because we believe the cause. We hold a really strong belief, but it’s still false. If we let go of the causal belief, we’ll see different evidence. When we try to challenge fragile ego beliefs in ourselves or others, psychological reversals kick in. The thoughts clearly generate emotion, they’re not win-win, and they’re taking us away from freedom; but we can’t remember that the emotion means false. Until we routinely catch this in ourselves, we won’t catch it in others.
Our OWN fragile ego consists of voice recordings acquired from others who forced their beliefs into our mind. We did feel emotions when we first heard their words; but we were afraid to challenge them. Their words are NOW constantly squatting in our mind.
After letting go for awhile, we do come to know that the recordings are false. And yet, people tell me that the fragile ego is still running their life. They still behave as the fragile ego would want them to behave or say what the fragile ego would consider socially or politically correct. They still can’t be themselves.
Imagine yourself in the center of your mind; see the fragile egos who have limited your life with beliefs, rules, and knowledge in the periphery of a giant circle looking at you. They’re keeping you from leaving the circle.
Review old memories in your mind. Bring up fragile ego encounters from the past. Let the fragile ego characters slowly replay the scene. Discriminate and let go as they talk. Also let go of any judgments or reasoning that arises in your mind about these characters. Judgment on your part keeps you stuck to them. You might never see them again; but when you clean up their character in your own mind, you won’t meet that same sort of person again. Of if you do, you’ll stay powerful.
You can take this even further. We tend to think that we must change the real life fragile ego characters or get them to stop judging us. But many of them will never change or stop judging. Are you going to wait until they change to live your life? I hope not.
Step into their character within your own mind. Speak their beliefs, and feel their emotions arise when they speak something false or judgmental. Assume they can discriminate and let go, and do so. It’s your mind! These are your characters! You have the power to clean up their words in your mind. In this way, we change the past.
See if this fragile ego still has power over you. If so, ask yourself, “Why?” Let go of the reasons that your mind gives you. Clean up more memories.
You aren’t affecting the real life person in any way — good or bad. When your mind is clear, they won’t bother you. Their beliefs will only affect them.
Our false minds were meant to be creative containers, separate and distinct from others people’s minds, so we could all create independently. We’ve never had the right to impose our beliefs on others. We only do it because others did it to us.
When you realize that you don’t deserve their judgment, they don’t have power over you anymore. When you understand that their rules are false, they don’t apply to you. If they say that you’re hurting them, you don’t take it in. In fact, I’ll often say to fragile egos, “You’re telling me what I should believe; how can I be hurting you?”
Fragile egos can be difficult. But we can get through that wall if we take our rock hammer and chip away one belief or memory at a time. Eventually, we’ll break through their highly tinted glass. We’ll escape their influence without fighting them. When we clean our OWN mind, they lose their false power. They can’t harm us anymore.
In this post, I’ll walk you through a short example of finding the causal beliefs within your dreams, visions, nightmares, and memories. The example I’m using was a clear vision that I had about twenty years ago during a reflexology session. During that time, I was lost, depressed, my body ached all the time, and I was always exhausted — common symptoms for being trapped in another person’s illusion. I feared going to a doctor, so I went to healers. I needed and wanted someone to tell me how to let go. But I wasn’t finding anyone.
As the reflexologist pushed on my feet, I suddenly smelled something like sulfur. It was so strong that my eyes watered. I mentioned this to the reflexologist, and she said, “It must be a message for you. I don’t smell anything.” Then she said, “I’m pushing on your heart area now…might be something about love.” She told me to relax and see what popped into my mind, which was good advice.
I saw a young girl standing before a Nazi guard. The girl was wearing a cute, ruffled blue dress and patent leather shoes. Since my mom dressed me that way, I immediately identified with that character.
She was being led to the gas chamber. That was the smell. The little girl looked at the guard. She smiled at him and said, “I still love you.” I felt such peace and softness in my body; I felt unconditional love for this guard. The guard pushed her into the gas chamber, and she died. I was crying at this point — kind of wallowing in my sadness and victimhood.
She said I was releasing a past life, but I knew that I wasn’t letting go; I could see that my mind had already started to make conclusions about this vision like love isn’t enough. I could see that we both wanted to turn my vision into a reason why I was powerless to change my life. I was trying so hard to not allow that to happen. I kept searching for a way to free myself from the vision. But I didn’t know how to do that for many years.
This vision was produced from my mind based on where I was at that time. I eventually realized that the causal belief was that unconditional love was worthless currency on earth — it was not enough to make things right. That was truly how I felt about my life.
Looking from the eyes of the guard, I could see another huge causal belief. We have to obey authority — to do as we’re told. Then I flipped back to the character of the girl. I truly believed that authority was much more powerful than love. Of course, these are common beliefs in the illusion — beliefs we all need to let go to be free.
After I discovered how to let go of beliefs, I could see that the belief, “Love is not enough” isn’t true. I could see that the belief, “authority has more power than love” was also a lie. I could see that the whole damn vision was the product of my beliefs. Do you see why it’s not helpful to call it a past life? We don’t need to make it true. Our past experiences are just the effect of the beliefs we held in mind at that time; they might be real, but they aren’t true. When we live from truth, we won’t need to let go of beliefs anymore.
The vision showed me where my mind was at that time. It showed me the beliefs that kept me trapped in an illusion. To get free, I didn’t need to analyze the details or interpret symbols; it was all very straight forward.
Was I once this child killed in a Nazi concentration camp? Who knows? What’s key in that vision are the beliefs that would have caused me to be in such a situation. After clearing those beliefs, I allowed the vision to replay from my current mental state. I saw the girl look at the guard and say her words of love. I felt the same purity. He looked at her with a scowl and told her to go to the side of the gas chamber and wait for him. He was still an obedient authority, but it didn’t matter. I didn’t need to morph him into a saint. She had the power because she had the real love. I’d finally seen this vision from the perspective of the True Self.
Let me emphasize…I didn’t put love or positive thinking on top of my erroneous beliefs. I simply let the beliefs go… they’re false. The vision no longer bothered me; it existed like a dream…the illusion that it was.
The reflexologist helped me focus on my body; she triggered the place where the belief was stored. But her helpfulness ended when she saw the vision as a reason for the way things were. People often feel satisfied when they find the reason. Sadly, most people don’t realize they can let go. They sing “Let It Go” but don’t know how. We can’t help another let go of their beliefs until we let go ourselves.
When we take any memory, vision, nightmare, or dream and see the causal beliefs that created it, notice our emotional feedback, and let those beliefs go completely, we experience something amazing — freedom. The scene changes; we learn that without those beliefs, we could never have had those dreams, nor could we experience such a reality. I find that amazing. As we clean up our memories and nightmares in this way, we start to see a different world. We feel safe without needing everyone else to behave or let go. We realize that other people’s illusions would only affect their life if we didn’t believe them.
Dreams can be a powerful tool; they help us find causal beliefs. But we must use our dreams in a productive way. People generally view dreams as symbolic. They interpret them and look for meaning in the activities, events, or items in the dream. That can be fun; but it doesn’t help us move toward freedom.
Dreams are an unthreatening bridge that can show us what to let go from our false physically oriented interpretation of reality in order to get to our True mentally oriented perspective. Dreams are powerful because we know we created them. Dreams come out of our OWN mind. We can’t blame anyone else for our dreams. That’s key. If we have dreams about killing, we still have an aspect of our false self that wants to kill someone or fears being killed. If we have a demon in our dream, guess what we hold in our mind?
People make the mistake of only identifying with the main character in their dreams. We created our dreams; so we’re the writer, the direction, and all the characters. There’s enormous power in realizing that we invented all those characters whether we like them or not. It’s hard to get to that level of honesty in the waking state.
If we wrote a screenplay or novel, we’d know what each character was going to say and do. That’s how we write our dreams without effort. For a person to write a story about stealing, they have to hold stealing in mind. They can’t write about a bank robbery while thinking about pansies. If we let our beliefs around such criminal behavior go after discovering them in our dreams, we don’t have to experience such things in real life.
How to Let Go Using Dreams?
Let’s say that you dream that you’re a student in school. First work on yourself by asking questions. Why am I in school? Do I like being a student? How do I feel about learning? What am I learning? Do I like it? Get honest and speak your mind as that character. If something you believe as that character feels bad (has emotion as you think it) let it go. It’s a false belief. Our false self adds drama, opposition, and bad tasting spices to our dreams and experiences. It usually turns them from perfect, heavenly experiences into hellish nightmares.
Let’s say that you and another student got in trouble in the dream. You’re also the other student. Step into their character and ask yourself questions about you, the teacher, and school. How do each of you feel about getting caught? Why did you get caught? What outcome do you fear as a result? What were you thinking before and after you got caught? These are thoughts that should have emotion — beliefs to let go as false.
Caution! Don’t allow the answers to your questions to become reasons for why your life is the way it is. We aren’t looking for interpretation; we’re looking for causal beliefs to let go.
You’re also the teacher in the dream. Are you angry that students weren’t listening to you? Do you dislike these students, judge them? Do you like your job, hate your job? Why? Use your answers to find beliefs to let go.
Each character plays a role. The teacher represents the masculine role; the students are in feminine roles. You’ll see beliefs from both aspects of your mind in these characters. As you step into each character, behave as if you want to let go and know how to let go. Clean up the entire scene.
What you should discover is that without the beliefs that you held in mind before the dream, you couldn’t have had that exact dream. That’s a valuable lesson. The same is true of life.
Some therapists go batshit crazy and advise people to pretend they’re the desk or chair. That’s generally not worth our time. You might have beliefs about furniture, but furniture doesn’t have beliefs about you.
What you Learn
Ideally, we want to live our own True story as the writer, director, and main character. Everyone else in our life plays a supporting character; we’re also supporting characters for them. We want to have symbiotic, not codependent, competitive, or opposing relationships with others.
If we perceive that a story character is dominating us or has an intention to harm us in our dream, we’ll feel as if they’re writing our dream (or nightmare). We’ve given them or someone like them the masculine leadership role for our life. We probably feel we have to please this character so they’ll let us have what we want. Their rules for life represent the rules we believe we must live by; they’re our false God who rewards and punishes us.
This was the original end goal of selling religious stories as the truth. They were originally someone’s personal story. But they wanted their story to be the story. They wanted to rule the world instead of just being the king of their life. Even today, you see new religions and new spiritual teachings being born; they always have a story that makes those teachings or that teacher the ONE. People often claim to be called or special so that they can mute your story and replace it with their story. If you follow their practices or their protocol, you’ll get to be a minion in their kingdom — a walk on character that fulfills their dreams. You’ll NEVER get to live your life.
As you let go of beliefs, you do become the main character in your story living the script that you’ve written. You’re day and night dreams will improve. If you want to be completely free, your story must be win-win for everyone. No one would be your minion, prisoner, or slave. They’ll simply be other creators who stopped by to temporarily co-create with you and play a character in your story because it’s fun.
FYI: This is an advanced post that might not make sense if you’re new to letting go.
Stuck in Someone’s Beliefs
My blog readers aren’t heads of government, religions, or corporations. They’re creative people who feel stuck in belief systems that were imposed upon them by others. They often feel locked in a feminine role.
The majority of leaders and authority figures (even family leaders) see enemies and problems to be fixed in the people who play feminine roles beneath them. They don’t realize that the problems and enemies they see actually exist ONLY in their own mind. They speak as if the illusion that their mind created is real and true; it is for them. We all see what we believe. The false masculine thinks that its beliefs are God’s laws. It rewards and punishes accordingly.
Our problems began when we believed our first false masculine leader or parent. We began to see what they said we should see. Life on earth has been this way for thousands of years. It will change when we stop believing what others claim to see or know — when everyone admits that the Emperor is buck naked.
Here’s a game to help you escape the feminine role. It’s challenging, and it’s designed to show you what to let go, to improve your discrimination, and to flip your mind back into the mental, True Self perspective. Ultimately, we want letting go to become like driving — it’s mostly automatic.
See yourself in front of an audience consisting of difficult people from your life — people who judge you or want to control or fix you. They can be people you know, authority figures, or imaginary people. You can even invite God. Let them speak one at a time. Allow them to say what’s wrong with you or what you need to believe or be to please them.
I want you to see that what they say is their projection and their own level confusion. Often they are looking only at what you are doing and judging their own beliefs about it. Sometimes they don’t even see you. Here’s an example: One audience member looks at you and says, “You’re lazy.You haven’t done anything lately.” From the physical perspective, they’re right. You’ve been doing lots of inner work. But you aren’t allowed to tell them off, defend yourself, or react in this game.
First, you must recognize that they’re speaking from their physical perspective — the beliefs that form their illusion. Notice how their comment feels to you. You probably feel emotion; remember, the emotion means that what they said was FALSE. If you take that emotion in and defend it, you enter their illusion. You’re powerless because their illusion is a foreign land for you. If you simply let go of their comment because it’s FALSE, your mind stays clear and free.
Take it slow. You might feel lots of emotion regarding their comment. You want to drain it all by witnessing it and remembering why you felt the emotion. Don’t label the emotion anger, fear, or rage. That just makes it real. The emotion is simply saying that what they said was false. That’s all!
You’ve been letting go a lot lately; and it’s true that you’re not doing much physical work. But are you lazy? Mentally, no. In fact, mentally speaking, they’re lazy. They haven’t let go of anything. This is what frees you. You see that they’re judging you from their physically oriented illusion. They’re projecting their unwanted defect of mental laziness on you by confusing levels. A person living from the mental perspective looks like an enemy to someone in the physically oriented illusion. In the illusion, it’s all about what they see!
We all start life at the mental perspective; and as we accept physical perspective projections from others, we fall into their illusion. By recognizing the error of the people who cast their stones upon us, we reverse our OWN fall. Their fall is their problem. Once you’re clear, you’ll have the words to explain yourself to them. Or you’ll feel comfortable not responding at all.
When we’re living from the mental point of view, we’re often asked by people in the illusion to explain ourselves. People in the physical perspective don’t understand the mental perspective. Often the only answer we have is that we did what felt right. By untangling these two perspectives in your mind, you move out of right-wrong. You no longer accept their projected judgment. Their more limited physical perspective will only affect them if you let their beliefs go from your mind.
The trick to winning this game is to remember that what they say is what’s on their mind. You must realize that neither their conviction, emotional projection, nor authority make their words true in the mental perspective.
Don’t go into their mind. Keep watching your mind. See what arises next. In some instances, you’ll notice judgments toward them in your mind; and ideally, you’ll let them go even if they deserve the judgment. If you let your judgments toward them go, you might just get to the True Self perspective and feel unconditional love for them. You just see life from different perspective than they do. Understanding cleans up that gap. You’ll see them as powerless and lost — they’re in the fallen world. You might want to help them, but you won’t want to fix them. People fix others because they are afraid of them. We help others because we care.
Your audience members can leave for two reasons: 1) They admit that they don’t want to let go; that’s fine but they must leave your mind (not necessarily your life). 2) They get it, and they let go. They no longer belong in your audience of difficult people. Your job is to clean out the entire audience. That’s how you win the game.
I tell people to let go and follow their inspiration. However, there’s often confusion around my words because most people think that inspiration and intuition are the same.
I never heard the word intuition growing up. I did hear another word a lot — imagination. “Cathy, get out of your imagination.” No one understood imagination either. We all have imaginary capacity. But most people use it the wrong way. They use it to fuel their fear by imagining problems, pain, and suffering.
I can’t say enough that we’re born to be creators. But I’m using the word creator in the truest sense, where we would only create things that were win-win for everyone. All creating starts in our imagination. We can use our imagination to create our unique heaven on earth, or we can use it to create hell.
I remember the first time I realized that. My husband and I were visiting his parents, who took pride in their ability to worry about everything. Often the very thing they worried about would end up happening to someone. One day, I couldn’t take it anymore; I told them to stop it. You see, when I or someone else reflected their worry, they didn’t take responsibility. They’d say, “Oh, I just knew it.” They acted like they were prophets; and that wasn’t the case. Their worry was misused creative power, and they were projecting it out with a very strong force.
My in-law’s worry confused me because it was wrapped in nice intention. It kind of looked like love or even compassion; my husband was sure it was love. I could see that they thought my inability to worry was a major character defect. My telling them to stop was rude.
When lost in the illusion, we forget that we have an imagination that creates our life. We should all be quick to tell people to let go of their beliefs that cause fear and worry; but often, we feel that we must accept their beliefs.
This problem is caused by level confusion. At their physical level of reality, my in-laws were caring. But at the mental level of reality, they were creating shit in other people’s lives. I was attempting to free their victims although it would be years before I’d understand how to explain letting go. Letting go of our fearful thoughts is truly compassionate; when we see this, we’re on the fast track to freedom.
Intuition Versus Inspiration
So many people think that their fearful thoughts and dreams are premonitions. They don’t let them go; they spread them like viruses. All fearful thoughts are false!
But let’s say a thought pops into your mind, and it feels calm and good. Is it inspiration or intuition? Inspiration happens when you’re exiting the illusion. Inspiration moves you toward your spirit or True Self. To get inspired thoughts, you need to have your navigational destination set on freedom. You want your mind to be looking for exits.
Most people have set the direction of their mind on getting rich, getting approval, or winning; they want to do well inside the illusion. They use intuition. Tuition, you might notice, is a word associated with money and knowledge; in-tuition would be within knowledge or beliefs.
I once took a class on intuition, “Intuition for Business People.” They told us to ask questions and then take what we got as the answer.
What they didn’t teach was discrimination because they didn’t have any. They just assumed that if our mind said it, it was right. Psychics say they do readings this way. They trust what their mind gives them. Kanye West said this is why he runs on stage at the Grammies; his mind tells him too. People do dumb fucking things when they trust their mind blindly. Many even think that God is guiding them — that’s how religions were invented.
I do tell people to do exactly what the psychics and intuitives do. “Ask a question. Don’t put answers in your mind, and just see what arises.” The difference is that I tell them to let go of what arises. Intuitives believe everything they get. My “intuitive” friends never give good advice. Their answers are only useful for those in the illusion. This confused me. I often felt bad for constantly rejecting their advice.
Intuition is the ability to maneuver among your beliefs and knowledge. Intuitives have a good mental database manager that can find the best solution within their limited world view. They do not get original information; nor do they get information that’s going to free anyone — that’s what inspiration does.
If you want to live from beliefs, follow your mind completely; and life kind of works. You keep putting more knowledge into your mind so you appear to have more options for the intuition to pick from. That’s why people become addicted to learning.
All knowledge was once someone else’s inspiration. But knowledge is memorized. When our mind is trained to look to memory for answers, it ignores inspiration completely. We can’t find our creativity.
If you want to find your True Self, you allow your mind to speak; then you let go of whatever it says as untrue. You reduce the beliefs and knowledge in your mind until you’re completely clear. Once you let go of all that false data, you discover concepts and ideas that are original, unique, and powerful. You stop fearing and worrying.
Intuition is like a car with a decent, not great, navigator. Inspiration, however, is like having the bird’s eye view of the entire world. You can see everything; so you make choices from the knowing that you’re creating the perfect route and the perfect destination. It’s only inspiration that will show you the exits to the illusion. Intuition will just keep circling you round and round the desert in a nice, comfortable car. And that car will run out of gas one day.
As an entrepreneur, I read lots of business books. When I finished one, I’d go to Barnes & Noble to get another. One night, I stopped at B&N to get my latest fix. I noticed a book on the display that said “Win-Win” on the cover. I didn’t buy the book or even look inside it. But I loved the sound of those words — win-win.
I bought another book and left the store. But I couldn’t get win-win out of my mind. I thought, “I’m going tostart living my life that way. If something isn’t win-win, I won’t do it.” I didn’t realize that I’d just opened a gateway to compassion…one of the most important keys to initiation.
The next day, during a restroom break at work, I was washing my hands; and I dripped soap on the sink counter. Those soap droplets caught my attention. I wondered if just leaving them on the sink was win-win. After all, we had a maid. But then the soap would stay there looking messy until the maid came. I also sensed an attitude of superiority in me as if I was too important to clean. That didn’t feel win-win. How could I possibly be more important than the woman who cleaned this restroom? It really wasn’t win-win to pass the responsibility for my mess on to the maid even if it was technically her job.
Eventually, I pulled down some paper towel and cleaned up my mess. But I hadn’t just cleaned the counter. I’d also cleaned something in my mind. I realized that when I reached that win-win place of thinking over this stupid little thing, I felt a deep calmness that I’d not felt since childhood. It was way beyond anything I’d felt with meditation. Meditating quieted my mind; but I was letting go of my shallow false masculine perspective, which freed my mind.
Back at my desk, I picked up a sales contract. Suddenly it didn’t look win-win. I called the potential customer and offered to make changes in his favor. I wasn’t playing games anymore; I treated him the way I would want to be treated. Again, I felt that peace.
This experiment started with a physical focus — doing that which was win-win. But it shifted into something much bigger — letting go of any thought that wasn’t win-win. That, I’d learn, is the meaning of compassion. Compassion is what tames the false masculine.
About ten years later, people started to write books on the power of intention. But there was no compassion in their intention setting. They were thinking an intention before they did something like “Send me that which is for the highest good.” It sounded nice, but they were washing their hands of responsibility — letting the universe decide what’s good for them. Unfortunately, the universe doesn’t act as our fair and just concierge; we get what we believe. This allowed the person to look compassionate without being compassionate. Compassion doesn’t happen until we let go of beliefs. It purifies our mind when we let go of the false masculine’s judgmental win-lose, good-evil, or right-wrong thoughts.
Others set intentions like, “I intend to win this race,” or “I intend to lose twenty pounds this month.” They were willing the future into submission for their benefit — another talent of the false masculine.
My intention to live from win-win caused me to go deep into my mind and to question my own thinking. I was letting go before I even understood letting go. To really get to win-win on any subject, I had to consider everyone that might be affected by the situation — the true application of the Golden Rule. Letting go of the false masculine beliefs and judgments transformed my false physically-oriented perspective into the true, pure mental perspective of life. Of course, when my mind was right, top of the triangle with no opposite thoughts, my behavior followed. I couldn’t imagine harming another.
Later, I decided to do my Ph.D. Dissertation on the initiation story of Jesus, and I used this same technique. Unlike Christians, I didn’t want to copy Jesus’ actions; I wanted to understand, and find in myself, the mind of Jesus. I’d take a Bible quote that didn’t make sense such as, “The meek shall inherit the earth.” I started with the win-lose interpretations that I’d been taught: “You have to be submissive to get to heaven. You get rewarded for giving others what they want.” None of the thoughts that popped into my mind felt win-win. They didn’t produce that calmness or compassion. So I kept dropping every belief that arose and kept digging for the truth. You see, the truth wasn’t in some guru or in the ethers for channels to pick up; it was in my mind resting quietly below all of my false knowledge.
After letting go of many thoughts about this quote, I dropped into that now familiar place of win-win. Jesus was talking about the mental, not the physical. He was already in that compassionate place when he spoke. When we let go of our beliefs and knowledge, our mind becomes meek, quiet, and pure. We can’t imagine fighting or willing in order to get what we want. And yet, our meek mind is extraordinarily powerful because our mind is so clear and creative. We easily get whatever we focus our mind on — we inherit the earth.
I repeated this process for thousands of hours until I decoded the path of initiation from the story of Jesus. He was a compassionate dude; and it wasn’t because of what he did but because of how he thought. Then I saw it everywhere — initiation was embedded in many ancient myths and legends. You can’t see it until you get the right perspective. Real freedom, real peace, and real power are revealed when we exercise compassion and let go until our thinking becomes completely win-win for everyone. That’s how we bring heaven back to earth.
I recently saw a phenomenal movie at the San Diego Jewish Film Festival called “God’s Slave.” I doubt that it will ever get wide distribution so my commentary is going to include a spoiler alert. It wouldn’t have ruined it for me to know the entire true story.
It seemed like a crazy coincidence to see this movie just after my father sent me some Republican propaganda, which of course explained how Muslims deserve to be hated and feared. The writer was clearly caught in his extreme fear of terrorism. I told my dad that I neither hated nor feared Muslims. The discussion ended at that point.
Hate and Fear
Hating and fearing others actually perpetuates the illusion. This is why Jesus said not to judge others and to love your enemy. It’s not spiritual advice. It’s practical.
Our false mind tells us that hating, judging, fighting, or criticizing our enemy will somehow make things right. But that doesn’t work and never has. When we hate or judge someone, we’re in our false masculine mind focusing on our own projection. When we love our enemy or let go of our beliefs about our projection, it disappears. Love and truth are the most perfect healing forces, they dissolve what’s false and leave what’s true. You can never go wrong with unconditional love.
Fear of the false God made him into the illusion’s superstar. Fear generates emotion; the illusion feeds off of emotion. When people stop fearing God or fighting over who’s God is the real God, the whole thought form will dissolve.
My dad’s ridiculous email started off with a very strange line. It said, “Muslims believe Allah, a moon God.” Now I don’t know if Allah was originally a moon god or not, and it’s not important. The person writing the email was Christian; Christians have a fake God too, but they think their God is true. Jesus was considered a Sun God. Yahweh was most likely a sky/storm God. But calling Allah a “moon” God got me thinking. The Muslim religion is a religion of submission — that’s a feminine quality, like the moon. If we hate and fear anything in the feminine role, we get fear and hate back. The feminine is reflective, like a mirror. So how can you blame the feminine? You can’t. What this Christian email writer was saying, without realizing it, was that Christians have created a mean ass projection, a big enemy; and they won’t let go. They’d rather fear, die, and fight their own reflection. How stupid is that? It’s real stupid, but the Christian church has been doing that for ages.
The correction to this problem is so easy. However, this is the problem with the false masculine role. It sees it’s reflection in the feminine role; and then blames the feminine. It breaks the mirror when all it has to do is let go.
In “God’s Slave,” the main character’s parents were murdered as a young child. He becomes a slave of the system, and they groom him to become a suicide bomber. He’s told that the best life comes after suffering, which is not any different than the Christian notion of heaven after suffering on earth. He’s told to go live a normal life until he’s called. This is also no different than Christians waiting for the call. And he’s told that being a martyr is the ultimate. Of course, Jesus was a martyr. So it quickly becomes apparent that Christians and Muslims share the same ridiculous beliefs. Let go of these core beliefs, and the battle ends. You won’t fight when you don’t believe in suffering, when you know who you are, and when you realize Jesus was an initiate, not a martyr.
Eventually, the protagonist gets the call. By this time, he’s married and has a child who he loves very much. He’s got a sweet, compassionate side to him. But he’s a slave to his handler, his authority, who is a slave to the false God.
He leaves his wife and child and reports for duty. They have no idea that he’s about to become a martyr. He’s strapped with explosives and gets in a car filled with explosives. He is to drive to a synagogue. But when he reaches the synagogue, which is filled with people, he’s stopped by a young child who is standing in front of his car and won’t move. He gets out of the car, picks up the child, and hands him to his father. And in that compassionate, caring act, his brainwashing cracks; he remembers his own child, who is about the same age. He remembers love; and he aborts the mission.
His handlers are going to kill him as punishment. They say he has disappointed Allah. He calmly replies, “No Allah didn’t ask me to kill, you did.” That’s the realization of someone who has seen the illusion for what it is. They realize that they’re being controlled by humans, not God. It’s the key to freedom and the gateway to heaven on earth.
Life as a Movie
Each of our lives is like that movie, and we have been brainwashed by our handers to believe the movie we live in is true when it’s really just an illusion. We’re all slaves to other humans who call us into roles. But love and compassion cracks our programming.
Like the suicide bomber, our mind was programmed to think we’re being punished or rewarded by God. We break free when we realize that humans are controlling us, punishing or rewarding us — not God. We aren’t free until we say “No” to our handlers and take back our free will. Then we can use the power of truth and unconditional love to dissolve the illusion that has imprisoned us. We can start allowing our own True Self to write the script for our life. The protagonist of “God’s Slave” was not killed; he was free.
Roles become very confusing when they’re not played as designed. I’ve written about the masculine who pretends to be feminine — an authority figure who projects out an enemy, like Bush/Obama projecting Osama Bin Laden and Muslim extremism. The leader pretends to be a victim of their own evil projection. They want support/service/sacrifice from followers in order to slay the evil dragon. If the followers succeed, the leader becomes a hero. It’s a very old archetype.
This leader needs blindly obedient followers to slay his dragon. We see such a person in the movie, “American Sniper,” the true story of Chris Kyle, known as “The Legend” for his large number of kills. Controversy has erupted over whether Chris Kyle was a hero or a predator. Both labels are right in the illusion; both put Kyle at the bottom of the triangle. If there’s a real enemy, then he’s a hero. If there’s no enemy, then he’s a predator in the illusion.
Soldier is a strange role. We believe a soldier is highly masculine. Just try not to think of masculinity while watching Bradley Cooper play Chris Kyle. It’s difficult! However, soldier is actually a feminine role; soldiers salute, take orders, and blindly obey authority. They’re feminine to the higher rank (who are feminine to their superior). Soldiers only become masculine when they kill. As observers, we get tricked by this role shift because we’re trained to look with physically-oriented eyes.
The original definition of roles made sense. The masculine role followed the ideal of the sun and unconditionally gave. The feminine role unconditionally received (like the moon or earth). A person in a true masculine role would only think or speak the truth. Their feminine side would be calm and receive original, creative ideas.
But a false masculine projects an illusion based on beliefs, which creates a fantasy, horror, or drama. Those who are feminine followers to the false masculine leader, and honor their belief system, are no longer creating their OWN life. Consequently, they’re either highly emotional or highly suppressed. Only the person at the top of the pyramid — the supreme handler — has the script. For most people, that supreme leader/handler is the false God — the imaginary leader of the illusion. His constitution is the Old Testament.
Feminine Pretends to be Masculine
Remember, the false leader is an authority holding a masculine role but pretending to be feminine, a victim of someone or something outer. This false leader pretends to be innocent; but that’s because we’re trained to ignore the fact that they projected their OWN enemy.
Any follower of a false masculine is playing a feminine role. Look closely at Chris Kyle. If you take out his back story, he appears to be a macho man — an expert marksman — a killer of evil extraordinaire — a hero. But the movie, “American Sniper,” doesn’t ignore the back story. He’s not masculine at all. He’s feminine pretending to be masculine.
Kyle’s story starts at birth, not at enlistment. His dad rewarded him for his shooting skills as a young child. He wanted dad’s approval and ignored his strong emotional signal screaming that killing wasn’t right. He lived in Texas and attended a Fundamentalist church. He quickly became feminine to his dad and religious authorities. His dad tells him that he’s a protector, like a sheep dog; he buys the label because it sounds good. By the time 9/11 occurred, he was one angry dude with a feminine, obedient mind. From the physical perspective, he was masculine. But from the mental perspective, he was completely feminine.
We fall into this quicksand because we confuse the physical and mental perspectives. The True Self lives in the mental realm; the false self is physically focused. From the mental, True Self perspective, we are NEVER an authority over another. We can lead others for a common purpose, but we can’t be their ultimate authority.
Anyone who believes in the false God, is an expert of knowledge, or teaches information that has been pre-chewed by those in the illusion has a feminine mind. Their position of authority doesn’t change their mindset. They aren’t harmful unless we make them our authority. I might take a class in Photoshop from a Photoshop expert to become a better user. I’m glad s/he exists because the knowledge is useful; but I don’t let him/her tell me what to do with Photoshop.
Many people notice that the highest leaders appear to be feminine to some hidden hand, which is called God by some and the illuminati or big business by others. If we could dissect the authority’s mind, however, I think we’d find that they’re actually following mom and dad’s illusion most of the time.
Level Confusion in Roles
When we follow any other human, we enter their fallen perspective because only our false self is outer directed. A true leader will always point us back inside. They won’t take our power even if we insist on giving it to them.
The calm demeanor of false leaders is often mistaken for the calmness of the True Self. But false calmness is actually the result of the leader’s ability to project emotions on to followers. We see the leader’s true colors when we refuse to serve their cause or fight their enemy. The false masculine leader blames, guilts, and shames until we accept their beliefs and do their dirty work. The say they’ll lead us to the promised land, but they actually spin us around in the desert forever.
To unravel this mess, we must clean up our own mind. We have both of these false masculine characters within our false mind resting at the bottom of the triangle; often they’ve brought us rewards. Sometimes, we fear the responsibility of leading our OWN life. We fear making mistakes or not having answers. But the only authority that is fair, harmless, and doesn’t err is our own True Self. No one else can offer us better advice.
I hear it every day from someone. I have no desires..no motivation…I’m lazy…bored with life. I don’t know what to do.
The curse of the illusion is hard work. Some do hard physical work. Others do hard mental work in order to figure out how to avoid doing hard physical work. People who seek freedom are sick of hard work. We discover letting go; then we turn it into hard work.
The freedom we desire is freedom from the physically oriented, fallen perspective. When we fell into the illusion, we accepted lots of beliefs that made creating very hard and slow. We became feminine to a false God (a slave driver). We became slaves of his system. Doing became boring, routine, and uncreative.
The popularity of motivational speakers, prosperity preachers, and life coaches is proof that people aren’t in touch with their natural inner motivation. They pump people up and generate lots of emotion by telling them what they want to hear.
However, what we want to hear is usually the opposite of what we believe. So their motivation wears off quickly; our established beliefs usually win in the end.
Reward and Punishment
As we let go, we’re all a lot like my oldest child, who was imprisoned in the educational system for six years before I set him free with unschooling. He’d already become institutionalized. He was accustomed to outer direction and rewards. I asked him to look inside for his true desires. He had no fucking clue how to do that. He begged me to tell him what to do, but I didn’t. Eventually, his desires for outer motivation, direction, reward, and punishment died since he stopped feeding them. He was left with inner motivation after about two years of tears.
Inner motivation is different from outer motivation. The True Self knows the future, without going to psychics. It’s not going to learn cursive writing unless it plans to be a calligrapher or old fashioned letter writer, but it will learn texting or typing.
The True Self hates spoon-feeding and memorization. It wants to understand and experience everything. But most schools ruin that innate desire. Children learn to walk with very little assistance. They absorb the understanding from someone who already knows how to walk; then they figure it out. They don’t read “Walking for Dummies.”
When my children wanted to learn something new, I’d point them toward the inventors and innovators in their field of interest — people who found their own wisdom. I wanted them to trust their own ideas and to see that true desires always seem crazy to others because they’re not their desires.
Most people memorize and copy what others have discovered. There’s no life force in that. Beliefs, traditions, stories, knowledge, and rituals get passed down from generation to generation. It’s old and dull. In the beginning, such information was minimal and useful — like how to make fire. Now we pass down useless knowledge, political persuasions, and antiquated religious ideas.
It’s habitual. In ancient times, dead ancestors were labeled Gods. Few people in the past have questioned their ancestral teachings. People got used to being told things that felt bad or sounded illogical. Sacrificing our desires for the sake of keeping the family and collective illusions alive became normal. We stopped discriminating when we heard something from an elder, teacher, or expert. After awhile, we’d believe anything.
To understand true motivation, we must understand the creation process. Creation starts in our mind as an original idea. We think about the idea, and it grows. Eventually, we desire to share our idea because sharing gives it life. Then we’re inspired to action. The whole process is organic and enjoyable if no beliefs get in the way. But invariably beliefs do get in the way, and we lose our motivation unless we let those beliefs go.
If our desire is true, we’ll be inspired toward the next step and the next step; but we might not know the final destination. We might not have support from our mother or friends, but we’ll find support in the form of validation, clarity, or insight.
Roles disappear. No one can impose their beliefs on us if we know the difference between the truth and a belief. The world is a mess because people think their beliefs are true. Then they spew their beliefs on others because they think everyone needs their truth. We already share the truth; we’re born with it. Beliefs must remain temporary and personal. They support, rather than dominate, creativity.
The false self is action driven toward rigidly-defined goals. It seeks rewards and avoids punishment. It avoids the creative process because it’s focused on end results and approval. The True Self’s ideas often look risky to the false self. Beliefs about insecurity arise along with a lot of emotion. If we don’t let those beliefs go, we’ll find our inspiration too difficult to follow.
The key to living from our True Self is to focus on our own mind. The false mind is always in other people’s business. It believes that it gains status by mentally or physically pushing others down below it with it’s knowledge and conviction. It fears others stealing it’s ideas; it’s competitive. The false self judges, debates, and takes sides. I know these things look normal; but normal people are deep in the illusion.
We must get to the place where we’re always watching our mind, discriminating, and letting go. Eventually, it becomes automatic. Our false self is blindly obedient. It will be obedient to others unless we retrain it to be obedient to our True Self.
Yea, when we live this way, we’ll look lazy, unmotivated, or too happy. Others will think we’re playing too much. That’s their problem. Finding our True Self and expressing it is what we all really want. It’s finding the kingdom of heaven and eating from the Tree of Life again.