The Watcher (Watching Our Mind) and the Body

Initiation as blend of east and west

By Cathy Eck

 

The Watcher

We let go by first accessing our watcher or observer within — the place where our True Self is watching our thoughts.  Our True Self knows true from false because it listens to our emotions for guidance.  It grants us free will to accept false thoughts, and it releases the false thoughts when we decide they aren’t true.

In the east, seekers of enlightenment watch their minds until they can remain above them.  But often they talk harshly about the body because the false thoughts they rise above remain suppressed in their bodies.  The false self lives like a parasite in our body generating unwanted thoughts and conditions.  If we rise above those thoughts, they continue to grow in power; the parasite eventually destroys the host.

In the west, we adore the body to the extreme and ignore our false minds.  Westerners are experts at projecting unwanted thoughts on to others.  Modern technology calms our minds by fixing our bodies and life experiences (effects) until the effects become too great to fix.

Initiation blended these two perspectives together into one perfect whole.  Initiates watched their mind constantly.  Their body was the effect of their thoughts.  They found their false causal thoughts by following their emotions and letting go.  If they achieved freedom, they were said to have transcended death with resurrected bodies — Temples of the Living God.

They now lived largely outside the illusion (outside beliefs) creating whatever they wanted.  They’d dip into the illusion to assist people who wanted out.  They were in the business of saving people, but not in the way that religion saves people.  They saved people from religion.

 

Losing the Watcher

When I was young, I watched my mind full time.   That changed as I started to accept the ideas of authority figures.  I knew they were wrong because I felt it, but I wanted to avoid punishment.  By the time I was twenty, I rarely watched my mind; the skill had no benefit.  I started to believe that I must manage my way within the illusion; escape seemed impossible.

Later on, I discovered meditation.  It was very easy for me, but it wasn’t enough.  I didn’t want bliss twice a day for short periods of time.  I wanted it all the time.  I wanted to be in the world without it affecting me adversely.  I had no desire to live in an ashram, and I looked hideous in orange.  So I went back to what I loved to do as a child.  I watched my mind.  I was rusty and had to work my way back to my earlier level of skill.  I had to remember how to discriminate and let go.

 

Loneliness

Living in Ecuador, for the last two months, took me back to my early twenties when I abandoned the art of watching.  I remember feeling very lonely after I married.  This was strange since I never felt lonely as a child even though I lived in the country with no children around.  The culture and religion in Ecuador matched my husband’s family culture and religion.   Loneliness isn’t about missing others; it’s about missing our True Self.

I watched my mind deliver the same thoughts I heard and believed earlier in life.  My mind said no one cared about me, and I was out of place.  They felt bad then; and they really felt bad now.  But now I understood the role of emotions in discrimination, and I knew how to let go.  The emotions I felt in my body were saying those thoughts were false.  If I had been floating above my body in meditation, I wouldn’t have felt those emotions.  I wouldn’t have been able to discriminate.  Being connected to my body was painful since the emotions were very powerful.  But it allowed me to discriminate and let go.

Once I let go, I could see the cause of the thoughts.  Everyone here shares the same false self; they belong superficially — identical to my husband’s family.  But their True Self feels left out — out-of-place.  They fix their undercurrent of loneliness with festivals, dancing, sex, family, and traditions.  They fix the effect, not the cause.  I faced a trap that I’d fallen into earlier in life as my True Self also had no place in my marriage.  I sacrificed it to fit in to my new family.

Loneliness is like a giant fog here in Ecuador since nearly everyone has abandoned their True Self to fit in.  It wasn’t going to go away.  Eventually, I let go of all the false thoughts as untrue, and loneliness became impossible because my True Self was unveiled; the emotions stopped.

Part of me wanted to fix my friends’ loneliness; I’ve come to care about them very much.  This also matched my mind earlier in life because I wanted to relieve my husband’s loneliness.  That caring made letting go hard; but it wasn’t true caring.  The True Self doesn’t fix other people’s emotions.  The suffering is meant to force us to let go.  Sadly, most people don’t know they can let go.

Throughout history, initiation was an elite privilege.  Lower classes were slaves — too busy wiping the asses of the elite to escape.  Royalty, like most gurus of the east, learned to rise above their unwanted false thoughts by projecting them out on to inferior others.  This became The Big Secret.  But it’s a false-self technique.  Identifying with the spiritual, positive, superior, winning, and good thoughts can trick others into playing the role they don’t want to play for awhile.  But eventually, they won’t be able to hide their negative aspects under a nice-looking mask if we stop believing them and taking on their projection.

In initiation, anyone can watch their mind, anyone can feel emotions and discriminate, and anyone can let go.  Initiation is true divine justice because anyone can gain eternal FREEDOM.  And when we let it all go, we simply are the watcher.

Projection and the Shadow

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By Cathy Eck

 

Projection and the Shadow

People have become far too psychologically savvy.  That isn’t good because most people are very outer directed.  Instead of using psychological knowledge to fix themselves, they try to fix others.  Everyone’s giving advice — mostly bad advice that gets us stuck in the illusion.  Initiation was very different from modern psychology.  The high initiates, who had already purified their mind, mentored the lower initiates.

To understand projection, we must understand the idea of the personal shadow.  “Everyone carries a shadow,” Carl Jung wrote, ” and the less it is embodied in the individual’s conscious life, the blacker and denser it is.”  Most people in power identify with good or right and project bad or wrong on to others.  Their blindness to their own faults is often misconstrued as self-confidence.Only an authority or masculine role can project; those in the feminine role receive. Thus children don’t project on parents or teachers.  Citizens don’t project on leaders. Employees don’t project on bosses.

What we call the collective mindset is determined by the elite.  Whatever beliefs they hold as true (and don’t identify with) will be projected out on to the world.  People see this as a conspiracy; but it’s just how projection works.  Most of them think their beliefs are right, good, and true.  They think they’re doing a great service, and the rest of the world is just inferior, stupid, or bad.

Jung also said that some people have a good shadow; they identify with the less desirable half of their personality and project their good qualities.  Often they think they’re being humble.  Some of the people I mentor have done this because they didn’t want to be like the assholes that played a masculine role in their early life.

In the illusion, we train people to be feminine from birth.  Our school and religious systems have one authority with lots of receivers of knowledge.  In most cases, questioning that authority was frowned upon. Our minds and bodies were conditioned to take in information without exercising discrimination if it comes from an expert (one who has knowledge).

When I started to understand discrimination, I struggled with the fact that my mind knew something was false, but my body received the information as if it were true.  I wasn’t my own body’s authority.  I was horrified.  We should all be the only authority of our body; it’s OUR body.  But I had accepted the projections of many seeming body experts.

Projection Defined

Jung defined projection:  “shadow, in being instinctive and irrational, is prone to projection: turning a personal inferiority into a perceived moral deficiency in someone else.”  In others words, what we see in others is actually in our own mind.

Initiation differs from Jung.  Most shadow work talks about embracing the shadow.  The initiates said to get rid of the whole false self — good and bad aspects.  That way, you’re left with just the True Self.  You can’t just let go of what you don’t like; you have to let go of the opposite that you do like to get to freedom.  People don’t like to do that.  For example, you have to let go of your own Tony Robbins style hyper-motivation before you’ll stop seeing lazy people everywhere.  You have to let go of your half-full persona before the half empties stop raining on your parade.

Projection defines the world we see.  The greater our power and the more we judge, the more we project.  If an authority sees their projection in another and convinces them that what they see is true, they can cause that person to be stuck in their illusion.  They’ll have power over that person whenever they push the button they installed.  We’ve all known people who can push our buttons.  They’ve simply installed a powerful psychological reversal button.

We can escape their illusion if we recognize that when the projector says “we’re lazy,” we feel emotion.  The emotion means their statement isn’t true.  Bigots and racists always see their own projection.  If we let their words go because they are untrue, the emotion usually reverts back to the projector.  The projector generated the emotion, in the first place, by thinking something false; so they deserve to have the emotion back.  Lying in their own sewage might force them to let go or to at least question their projection.  But don’t be fooled, they won’t go down easy.  Usually when they feel the emotion return to them, they’ll say you projected on them.  Often they will try to send the emotion back to you another way.  Ultimately we stop taking projections when we let go of beliefs.

Projection and the Masculine Role

The person projecting is always in the masculine role; they hold beliefs or a belief system that they believe to be true, and they usually blame the effect of their belief system on the feminine.  They don’t take responsibility for what they see in the world.  When we’re with such people, they often speak to us as if they’re talking to themselves; they are.

We don’t project from the feminine role; the feminine role has no power in the illusion.  But we become the target for the projection of the same sort of authorities.  They’re like heat-seeking missiles.

We won’t discriminate when projections come our way if we’re filled with beliefs.  We’ll accept their projection and then resent or hate it even if we know it’s wrong or bad.  We’ll waste our time trying to defend it, which only makes it stronger.

Projection only exists in the illusion.  The True Self has no beliefs that give power to experts or authority.  We see them as keepers of knowledge; and we aren’t interested in knowledge when we have our own wisdom.  Thus, as we let go, we move out of the illusion where everyone minds their own business and lives their own life.