What is My Passion?

Ruins of Ephesus

The ruins of Ephesus

By Cathy Eck

 

What’s My Passion?

Lots of books and workshops promise to help us find our passion.  But ultimately there’s a flaw in the very question, “What’s my passion?”  If we have to ask, we’re in our false self.  If our false self hijacks our passion and clones it, we can get really stuck in the illusion.

Many people who appear to have great passion aren’t really authentic.  They’re actually more enthusiastic or excited than passionate.   Some have bought into the idea of “find your passion and get rich.”  The True Self sees it more like “find your true expression and your perfect abundance will come.”  Fear that we might “sell our soul” causes us to keep our True Self hidden until we let go of enough beliefs to assure that our false self won’t steal our dream and ride it for riches or rewards.

 

The Word Passion

We can see the problem by looking at the definition of the word passion.  The first definition is “strong and barely controllable emotion.”  Strong, barely controllable emotion signals a big, fat belief.  The True Self state is calm and peaceful.  It’s the false self that generates strong, uncontrollable emotions.

Passion is often linked with enthusiasm, which traces back to “Greek enthousiasmos, from enthous ‘possessed by a god, inspired.'”  But we have to ask ourselves which God are we possessed by?  The word God has two meanings.  One relates to ancestors or those who came before us.  Ancestors had beliefs and human baggage.  The other definition relates to the all-loving creator God — perfect and void of beliefs.

Pure enthusiasm is calm and inspired; it harms no one.  What most call enthusiasm is actually excitement — hyped up emotion.  When we’re excited, we’re thinking the positive side of a dual thought.  We’re ignoring the opposing twin shadow thought that’s generating the strong, uncontrollable emotional to warn us to stop and let go.  We mistakenly believe the emotion is telling us to charge forward.  Following excitement gets us in big trouble.

The last meaning of passion is connected with the passion of the Christ.  This sort of passion means suffering and death.  If you hold a strong religious perspective, there’s no way in hell that you’re going to allow yourself to find your passion.  Your false self thinks you’ll die.  Good trick huh!

 

Passion as the True Self

If we take the true meaning of Christ, annointed one or initiated one, and add that to the creative, all-loving principal of God, we get a perfect definition of the True Self.  When we live from our True Self, we think pure thoughts and find that whatever we do has a joyful quality to it.  If we have a particular focus that we enjoy, we’ll do it more easily and skillfully because our True Self is leading.  We can even do something that isn’t our thing from our True Self and bring ourself so fully into that activity that we enjoy it.  Now we’re living and breathing pure creative expression every minute of our life.

Oddly, when I’m in that state, I feel that passion is the right word.  It seems that passion fell along with religion.  At one time, people knew that passion wasn’t something you conjured by getting excited about a goal, money, winning, or power.  Passion wasn’t related to suffering or death.  Passion was bringing an idea out of the oneness into the creative palette of the material world — True Self expression.

The initiates understood that hanging on the cross was code for the final initiation test where one became completely feminine to the world so they could see what was left of their masculine false self.  It was an extraordinary feat that required letting go of anything and everything that came their way.  When the false self was gone, they were resurrected — their True Self — living completely in a state of passion.

 

My Own Experience with Passion

When I was about four, I picked up my mother’s Bible and said, “This book is confusing and no one understands it.  I’m going to fix it when I’m big.”  I couldn’t even read the damn thing, but some part of me had the big picture of my life.  I also spent all my time drawing and making things; and I said that I never wanted to do anything else.  I wanted to create stuff.

Then I went off and got lost in the false world.  I didn’t draw or create anymore.  I was as confused by the Bible as everyone else.  But slowly, I remembered how to let go; and the desires and wisdom of my True Self returned.  I’m now doing exactly what I said I would do at four.

I couldn’t have found my True Self with exercises or well-crafted questionnaires.  I needed to let go of the beliefs that veiled my eyes (the false voices in my mind) so I could think clearly and see my path.

Jesus said, “Find ye first the kingdom of heaven, and all else will be added unto you.”  He also said, “Be like little children.”  He was telling us to be our True Self — like we were as children, before falling into the illusion.

The painting above is my latest creative project.  It’s part of the remaining facade  of the library of Ephesus.  Revelations says that the church of Ephesus was a strong church that had patiently borne adversity and couldn’t stand evil.  Their calling (or passion) was to remember their first love.

When we can no longer tolerate the illusion, we choose initiation.  We feel called to be courageous in letting go so that we can find our passion, our first love, our True Self.  If we stay strong and continue on the path of initiation, we eventually realize that we were never lost.  It was all a facade.  The wisdom wasn’t in the library; it was within us.

Armageddon or Freedom? You Get to Choose

Ephesus in Turkey

I took this picture at Ephesus on a beautiful day in November, 2011. Ephesus was the 1st church in the Book of Revelation. The test was the ability to discriminate between false prophets and the golden truth.

By Cathy Eck

 

Edgar Cayce and The Book of Revelation

It was Edgar Cayce’s readings on the Book of Revelation that first gave me the idea that Armageddon was the end of the illusion and not the end of the world.  He equated the seven churches to the seven major chakras in the body, and the lessons of the churches were the lessons that we had to learn to open our chakras and awaken.  That all made sense, but I tend to be more of a big picture person than a detail person.  I feel that if we get the big picture right, the details will fall nicely into place.

The big picture of the Bible is basically that Genesis, Chapter 1, is a metaphor for perfect creation as done by the True Self or True God.  The rest of the Old Testament was basically about the false self, the false gods, and their illusions.  Jesus’ story was an initiation story that demonstrated the way out of the illusion.  But the New Testament struggles to free us because the Old Testament holds on for dear life.  Eventually, the revelation (or awakening) occurs, and the illusion ends.

Fundamentalists see the Book of Revelation as the end of the world because they identify with the physical body and physical world.  They see the Bible as a guide for good behavior.  To the initiate, the Bible was a guide to the human mind.  It was a guide to proper thinking, not proper doing.

The art of story writing is a mental creation process no different than God creating the universe.  While the normal person turns experiences into stories to bore their friends and family, the writer invents stories in their mind and then pours them in to the world.  A good story is congruent and true; but it is not real.  It influences people’s lives who incorporate the story into their own reality.  But no one ever lives the story to the letter because they have their own mind, their own power of influence.  So good stories are true, but not real.  They affect the physical, rather than record it.  History (his story) is the art of story in reverse.

 

The Mayans Offer Clarity

The word maya means illusion.  The entire Mayan calendar spans 16.4 billion years and was divided into nine time periods.  Each period was twenty times shorter than the previous one, and they all end on the same day of December 21, 2012 (others say October 28, 2011), the end of the illusion.

During the third period, the idea of the family was born.  Humans no longer thought only about themselves.  Ideally, they would have made win-win choices that worked for themselves and their family.  But instead, people created family pride based on family values (think Hatfield and McCoys). They sacrificed for their family and defended their family to the death.

The next period was about the tribe.  The same logic applies.  The tribe was just a bigger group than the family.

In the cultural period, which began 102,000 years ago, people invented reasons for events.  The Gods did it, Eve did it, or you sinned.  Religion was born.  These reasons were all false because they were based on effects, not the mental cause, creating confusion and division.

The national period followed, then the planetary, and the galactic.  The goal was the universal state of being, where everything in the universe would become one again.  The mind was to become a pure reflection of spirit.  But people got stuck in the lower levels because pride divides.

 

Sacrifice 101

If you make the Mayan calendar or the Bible about the physical, then sacrifice means giving up your physical body for the continuation of what you hold dear.  But since the calendar was about mental evolution, one would sacrifice tribal beliefs for more expansive cultural beliefs, they would sacrifice religious and cultural beliefs for the benefit of the nation, and they would  sacrifice nationalism for the benefit of the planet.  Eventually, all limiting beliefs would be sacrificed, and we become one with the universe.  Biblical sacrifice is the same since the Bible is also mentally focused.

When people identify with their body, sacrifice is viewed as purely physical.  They hold on to their beliefs and secretly hope someone else will sacrifice their body for them.  When we identify with our mind, and correctly sacrifice our beliefs, the perfect physical result follows.  No humans are harmed in the experiment.

 

Death of the Illusion

From the mental level, Armageddon is not about the end of life on planet earth.  It is about the illusion dying and peace on earth returning. The Book of Revelation says that Satan (false self) will lose, and peace on earth will reign for a 1000 years.  The number one is symbolic of God and zeroes relate to eternity in a three-dimensional world.  This victory is not about ascending somewhere (religion always sends us the wrong way).  It is about the body becoming a perfect temple so spirit and mind can jointly descend into it.

Jesus was right when he said, “The meek shall inherit the earth.”  War only exists in the illusion.  As we let go, we lose our desire to compete or fight.

The goal of initiation was coded in the Bible and the Mayan Calendar.  Together they make sense and prove that a new beginning awaits us.  They both provided a universal context for conscious evolution ending in Armageddon (end of the illusion of good and evil).  Satan (the false self’s beliefs) is released and everyone wins back their freedom.  The spirit (True Self) is united with the body, and heaven returns to earth.

 

The Mayan calendar is an amazing blueprint for time and conscious expansion.  For more, click here.